I Need You.What if I need you to stop me?I Need You.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What if I need you to stop me making myself sick for the fifth time today?
What if I need you to stop me running that razor across my wrist tonight?
But I've got to not need you anymore...
Where are you?
Where are you when I swallow all those pills?
Where are you when I run out of a classroom bursting into tears?
But you're not here for me anymore...
Who can I talk to?
Who can I talk to when I don't want to eat for four days?
Who can I talk to when I can't take things anymore?
But you don't really care anymore....
Who can give me that support?
Who's going to tell me it's okay to be scared?
Who's going to give me that hug when I'm shaking?
But not you, because my problems aren't your responsibility anymore...
But now I am alone.
And I can't feel this way.... Not anymore.
Love StinksWhen you are feeling sadLove Stinks2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
what's the sense in romantic songs?
Love is good, they say...
Did I learn it all wrong?
Heart is an attention whore,
love is a vanity game,
romantic stories are just lies -
Now cover your face, and hide the shame.
Forget the trifles and common sense,
remember this one thing:
No one cares about your feelings,
love is rotten and it stinks.
LifetimesA shadow of a memory,Lifetimes2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A long-forgotten life,
Two lovers without symmetry,
A time of joy and strife.
Painful moments lost with time,
A shadowed shell of hurt,
A lullaby, a nursery rhyme,
A love that's lifetimes' worth.
A love forever kept so pure
That onlookers had wept,
A love that you could not endure,
A promise never kept.
Stenciled Smiles on Paper HeartsI don't like to feel this wayStenciled Smiles on Paper Hearts2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
There must be something I can say
Cause I hate just watching you
When I know the pain you're going through
You're not alone; I've been where you are
Contemplating where I'll place my next scar
Hiding razor kisses underneath long sleeves
It doesn't make it better; nothing is achieved
All you'll earn are the scars you've got and
The lesson learned is the lesson forgotten
You feel like no one's there, no one cares what you do
Let me put it to you straight: That is never true
I was shunned, pushed away many times before
Then I realized it was I who had closed the door
I took a chance and opened up to the people around me
Told them of my secrets, now their love surrounds me
You're not alone; I've been where you are
And I know that life sometimes seems so hard…
But believe me, from one person to another
To make a book better, you never destroy the cover…
You are worth it...
WantsI want to be the dark abyssWants2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Absorbing your chest cavity,
I want to be the one you miss
That holds you under gravity,
I want to be the deadly kiss
That settles your fatality
I want to be the broken veil
To sabotage the last good thing,
I want to be the things you fail
That finalize your will for trying
I want to be the hidden trail
That leads you to find everything
I want to be the last regret
That haunts you throughout every ring,
I want to be the dreary set
That gloomy sullenness would bring,
I want to be the thought of death
That savors all your suffering
I want to be the lies you tell
That lead you through your false deception,
I want to be the hopeless hell
That burns and distorts your perception,
I want to be the love you felt...
But that I am the one exception.
DifferentI am differentDifferent2 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
No different than the one
Who claims to be some
S h a t t e r e d.What is she supposed to doS h a t t e r e d.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
when the whole world is against her?
Everything she touches shatters
into a million tiny shards,
until it resembles the pathetic pieces of her broken heart
and withers away to nothing.
She'll watch the dust float away on the merciful wind,
until it is just an image
forever etched into her mind.
She'll be satisfied in knowing that it, at least,
will finally be safe from this hell on Earth.
love_5Lately, I've had some trouble with my own sexuality. Where I'm supposed to fit in.love_52 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I've loved guys and girls before. There are people that I love very much. Does this make me gay or straight?
Would that really matter in the grand scheme of things? I think that love is beautiful. In all it's forms.
And I really do believe in love, and happiness. I don't like seeing people cry, or being hurt.
Should I be ashamed, or scared, or afraid to love someone? I don't think so.
Maybe there is no where for me to fit in. But that's still okay. Isn't it?
I don't judge other people. Because I don't want to be judged myself.
Love is something that should be embraced. Not frowned upon to looked down upon.
And I hope that one day, we can all accept people for who they are. And love them for who they are.
Love AgainSome would tell me I love her too much:Love Again2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I need to feel special,
Wanted and desired.
As if I were your sun,
Because I'm your only one.
I spent a year giving my all,
In love with you I continued to fall!
Falling, not knowing I was actually crashing.
I survived; This time at least,
But my heart suffers for it.
It is fragile and petrified,
All night I had cried.
There is no he in lesbian,
So stick to me if you can.
But babes not only that,
"If you can," will not be good enough!
*Leave "he" far behind!!!*
Because to be with me it is a must,
Otherwise where's the trust?
No trust means no respect or true love,
Dash me to the rocks: be done.
If you cannot resist,
If temptation is stronger than love?
Don't make me suffer like you hate me,
Instead, let me go like you love me...
I Am NormalMy breakfast was leftover pizza and coffee.I Am Normal2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I ride horses.
I like to write.
I like to draw too.
I am afraid of spiders,
I like Doctor Who and Hell's Kitchen.
I listen to all types of music.
I worry about how my hair,
Or my face,
Or my clothes look sometimes.
I have a secret dream to travel the world.
I want to be a veterinarian too.
I do not think I am that special.
I am normal.
I am bisexual.
ConfusionI slowly open my eyesConfusion2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Unaware of last nights low
Then it hits me
Like a thousand knives
I lie in bed and begin to remember everything
Or was it a dream?
I check messages i sent last night
Nope,its the real deal
I get like this when someone i like
Knows i like them
Its an uncontrollable feeling
A defence mechanism
To stop me feeling pain from the rejection
Despite all the rejection I've experienced
I lie in bed and stare at the white ceiling
With music in my ears
My cheeks flush
I'm so ashamed
Do i apologise to him
Do i leave it?
I don't want him to think I'm weird
Or anything negative
I've heard too much negativity
Over the past 10 years
Why cant things be positive for once?
Unaware of things
He probably doesn't care
But stupid old me
Has to make things awkward
Ill risk what's left and tell him I'm sorry one last time..
Is It Wrong?Is it wrong I want hold you?Is It Wrong?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tell you you're wrong?
Cuddle you tightly in my arms?
Is it wrong I want to kiss you?
Tell you you're perfect?
Let you know what you mean to me?
Is it wrong that I want to see you?
Tell you how much I care for you?
Hold your hands in mine though they're shaking?
Is it wrong that I'm falling in love with you?
Tell you that to your face?
Kiss you and never let you go?
Is it wrong?
Becoming UnjudgedBecoming Unjudged2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And engulfed society
It's hard to believe-
That some of us still have our humanity
And there are those who still cannot see
The damaged moralities-
That were bestowed from a corrupted creed
You don't know the heavy burden that each of us carries
As gray as gray can be
Told that the way I am is wrong
I was taught to fear the real me!
Learning to hate differentiality
Hearing whispers all around
I despised my own identity
Things need to change now!
Some of us don't even make it that far / It's not what you do- but who you are
None of us should ever live in the dark / There will always be a spark in our hearts
Heads held high
Let the true colors show
Revealed in the light
There's no reason to hide anymore!
Take control of life
Get rid of past remorse
Leave it all behind
Happiness is worth fighting for!
Conceals a lesson
One that's worth the cost
Each of us deserves a clear conscience-
The hope that we carr
I no longer rule the worldSeems I no longer rule the world,I no longer rule the world2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
grains of life slipping through
the end of the time approaching
power, unable to suppress it.
When the world needed a ruler
they turned to me and shouted 'him!'
but there was no surcease of wars
and the famine stayed in place.
And during disease and death
the people turned and said
'he was meant to cure us!'
though king I never was true.
They strung me up
and gathered the tolls
dragged me through the nation
with screams of blood on their lips.
Though I begged
my crimes bared too much sin
for when it came to society
I didn't save the world.
The floor caved in,
the rope grew taught,
my struggles heard around
till the silence reigned down.
But then the pointed
and screamed 'he will lead'
at the man who took my life
and I was left on the gallows alone.
For I no longer rule the world
and the dirt eats up my soul
the grains of time and age
make for one grievous grave.
Three Years AgoThree years ago,Three Years Ago2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A lie changed my life,
It cut me in half,
Just like a knife.
Three years ago,
My family almost fell,
And it changed me,
Sending me to hell.
Three years ago,
I picked up the blade,
For the very first time,
Making the old me fade.
Three years ago,
I risked everything,
All caused by a lie,
I decided to fling.
That all happened three years ago,
When I made a mistake,
And grabbed that blade,
Using it for all the peace I could take.
It Is (Depression)It is a shroud of black velvet.It Is (Depression)2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It is the violent ocean in the dead of night.
It is the monster in the shadows; the Vashta Nerada.
It is the final crash of symbols in Carmina Burana.
It is impossible to lift.
it is impossible to breathe.
It is impossible to see.
It is the only thing that can be heard.
It is why the stars disappear at night.
It is why every light drifts by without stopping.
It is why the gnawing starts and never ceases.
It is why nothing else matters in the end.
It is my disease.
It is my disability.
It is my misfortune.
It is my death sentence.