Waiting For YouI waited so long for you
And I will continue to wait
But there is only so long I can wait so patiently
You were always like that weren't you?
Always so quiet, you could be right behind me and I wouldn't even know
I spin around, half expecting to find your long blue scarf
And met only empty air
I bow down my head and choke down a sob
I know you wouldn't want to see me cry
I'll stay strong for you
And wait for the day where you will return to me
Return to my side, where you belong
InspirationJust look around you,Inspiration2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With eyes untouched with bias.
I don’t want your rose tinted glasses,
Or your depression tinted ones.
Just your eyes - the ones you were born with.
Without the memories,
Or the expectations.
Look at this world, at the colours and the sounds.
Look at that girl, who is she behind the mask?
Look at the bird, where does it rest its head?
Who are you? Behind all the things you tell yourself?
We all have a voice.
We all have a story.
My inspiration comes in discovering myself and others.
And how we all fit into the world.
Broken piecesI was born broken.Broken pieces2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Two weeks premature and no larger than your hand.
I had barely learnt my mother’s heartbeat
Before I was thrown into a world of lights and machines and medicine.
My family’s presence was too far away to register.
I felt very alone.
I wore my past on my skin.
They said that scars were for fighters,
But that wasn’t true.
I was just a survivor,
Who never asked to be saved.
I am what my past has made me,
But I am also a person of my own.
I was born with pieces missing or broken,
But though the strength and kindness of others…
I think those pieces can be repaired.
And maybe, just maybe…
I can be whole.
Losing YouIt was a few years agoLosing You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I still remember you so well
Despite all this time in which I haven’t seen you
Your influence hasn’t changed a bit
You were the only one. The kindest, sweetest soul I ever had the honour of knowing
And yet I always felt I wasn’t worthy of your attention – your precious time, your precious words
Your gentle kindness
I wanted to spare you the mistake of knowing someone like me
A being so unworthy of your grace
So much so that I not only pushed you away
But I lost myself trying to lose you
You consumed all of my thoughts until none of my own remained
You only ever meant well, I understand that now
But your familiar figure had become intimidating
I was frightened, sure that I could never deserve one as wonderful as you
And I didn’t know what to do - I was so fragile at the time
So afraid to love, to trust, that all I did was hurt everything I touched
Myself and any who dared to care for me
Now I understand, so many years later, the r
The Best Of YouWho are you, when beyond my sight?The Best Of You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am no child, I understand the masks of society.
I know that people pretend to be those they are not.
I wear a mask myself occasionally,
When the situation requires it so.
Who are you, when you are with others?
When the lies are ripped away,
And secrets are lain bare for all to see,
Who will you be revealed to be?
As humans, we are not perfect.
We have been taught to hide our faults.
However, I do not wish to believe
I see nothing other than the best of you.
StarsI reached for the stars,Stars2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Longing for the strength and brilliance they held.
But my hand came back with shards of glass, streaked with blood.
Jagged pieces dug into my palm, broken fragments of a dream.
For stars are not meant to claimed or owned,
But acknowledged and gazed at from a distance.
Their world is not the same as yours,
And they do not wish to be confined and limited,
By your personal desires.
GoneSo bright and full of energyGone2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The girl was going to go far
Everyone had such high hopes for her
But not nearly as high as the girl herself desired
She was well aware of her talent
Of her potential, of her future
The cherished future she was denied
Snatched from her in an instant
Nothing left of who she used to be
Nothing left at all but broken pieces and memories
That will never be enough
HelplessHated when speaking…Helpless1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hated when silent…
What must we do, to be accepted?
What have I done wrong?What have I done wrong?What have I done wrong?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I’m only human
I’m not immune to emotion
Or the events going on around me
I will feel what I feel
Regardless of whether it is acceptable
Or the “appropriate” way for me to behave
I’m sorry that I can’t control my feelings
With the push of a button
I don’t choose what I feel
But I have never retaliated. I have never spoken out of anger
I have never got into a fight or an argument
But do you notice? Of course not
Because you’re in a bad mood
And need someone to blame
Night-timeAs I look up at the stars in the vast distant skyNight-time2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wonder what the dark night truly hides
Vampires and werewolves?
Hunters and murderers?
The stars are so bright, yet small and fragile when compared to the bright moon
And the beautiful moon itself, lost and forgotten in the strong sunlight
What are any of us within this world?
Am I simply forgotten when no longer in sight?
Like the delicate shards of light in the sky?
Lost until the darkness brings forth the strength in its light
I'll always protect youMy belovedI'll always protect you2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
There is something I need to tell you
For I am no longer confident you are aware
And I need you to understand
Understand and accept my feelings for you
For I will always be here and I will always protect you
However there is only so long I can stay by your side
And I fear that my presence may be suffocating to you
Like a block of wood upon a fragile flame
My presence too strong, too dominating
To be comforting
To be helpful
But without the proper nourishment how can such a fragile flame survive?
It seems that no matter what I do
I can do nothing but hurt you
My love, hurting you is the last thing I wish to do
I don’t understand what I should do
I would die for you, if it would just make you happy
MadnessRed and black spots cloud my vision, their cause - as always - is unknown. Teenage faces stained with red spots turn the scene into something more of a freeze-frame from a horror movie. Angry boys with a blood stained face and a sharp bark.Madness2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Closing my eyes and focusing my energy on interpreting the angry barks into something more comprehendible, the back of my eyelids are stained in crimson as opposed to the familiar black, which only worsened the feeling of horror in the back of my mind.
"Dude, what is with that psycho?!" a voice
"Who knows? No one gets her, eh? I heard she bashed some guy's head in just because he bumped into her. There's probably a reason but it's really not worth the effort, just stay away from her." a reply.
Psycho… Just stay away from her…
With my eyes squeezed shut I tried to slow my breathing and counted to twenty just like my councillor taught me. Focusing on nothing but my slow steady breaths, viewing nothing but the back of my eyelids the world slowly came b
MusicMy voice carried far and wideMusic3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With the house to myself, I couldn't care less
There was no one here to judge
As I sang the lines from my favorite songs
Louder than I ever before dared
The same songs over and over until I became giddy
Both from happiness and embarrassment
They never changed – the lyrics were forever the same
The one thing that never altered
The one thing that was always there
No matter the day, no matter the hour, no matter the reason
The only loyal companion I've ever known
And for this one moment, I wouldn't have it any other way
Eternal LoveI never thought this day would come so soon.Eternal Love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And yet I always knew it was to come.
For we are nothing but another side of each other.
For all those years we were two sides of a single coin,
Spinning round and round but never facing one another, never meeting.
But those days have passed. We have joined in more ways than one.
And now we complete each other, black and white, white and black…
Different but the same. We will always continue to fly under the same sky.
Together. Nothing else matters but the connection we share.
This connection which binds us, it runs through our veins, through our blood, long before we ever met.
Eternal. Like the symbols that matched our colours and understood our souls.
Helpless HeartI wish I had the courageHelpless Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To tell you how I really feel
Instead of admiring you from a distance
Trying to hide what's real
I've loved you since I first saw you
And it grows each time we speak
Although I'm sure you have no idea
Seeing you makes my knees go weak
It's hard to think when I'm around you
Because all I can do is stare
At your figure as you go through the motions
Totally oblivious to the fact that I'm there
I enjoy your conversation
And your laugh is music to my ears
I love to see you smile
Your beauty brings me to tears
When you touch me the feeling lingers
For hours after the fact
I find myself staring at my fingers
Trying to keep my mind in tact
I swear one day I'll be brave
And tell you how I feel
But as for now I'll yearn from a distance
Trying to hide what I know is real
togetherI'm not allowed to see him anymoretogether3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The doctors said he was hurting me
the police said he was a criminal
the public said he was mental
so why do i miss him so?
The last time i saw him
he was on the other end of a loaded gun
pointing the barrel at me, yelling and threatening me
i miss that
he used to come over to my house
late at night
drunk and angry about something or someone
he would always take that anger out on me
and i would let him. because i liked it when he hit me
at least this way, i had his attention
many years ago, long before i met him
i went to a field full of flowers
the colours were so bright and the butterflies were so beautiful
my mother had told me that butterflies were a symbol of change
of something beautiful to come
a few months ago he had told me that butterflies were also a symbol of death
of innocence that cannot last
an endless spiral of death and destruction
an eternity that was doomed to end
i believed him
He was as dangerous as the butterflies flutter, which
A Lover's LongingI don't think I'll find peaceA Lover's Longing3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Until you're here with me
When my body can physically feel
What the Universe has made to be
Every time I hear your voice
I get a shiver up my spine
I giggle like a schoolgirl
Living out adolescence in its prime
I don't think I'll love another
Quite as much as I love you
Sheerly because we're best friends
And are alike in so much that we do
I hug my pillow at night
Wishing it were you instead
Crying the driest tears
That leave no stains upon my bed
I wish I were with you every day
That I may express my love for you
In a slightly differing sense
Than that which you are used to
HatredI hate how you can smile still,Hatred8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
When I've forgotten how.
I hate how you can't see me fall,
When I am going down.
I hate how you can live,
While I'm stuck in the past.
I hate how you keep charging down,
The road you're on so fast.
I hate how you don't notice,
When I tell a lie.
I hate how you pretend,
You don't know when I cry.
I hate when I am hopeless,
When I have given up the fight.
I hate every time I see you,
When I'm beyond your sight.
I hate how you can move on;
I hate how you can choose.
But most of all I hate,
That I can't make myself hate you.