Tell me AgainWhen all hope is gone,
Look into the mirror,
I dare you to lecture me again,
About the daily horror,
When you're broken,
Crawl back to me,
And complain about life,
You forbid me to do,
That isn't really you,
Change and tell me,
I didn't do the right thing,
When I went far away,
And lived my life,
See life through my eyes,
Tell me you don't see lies,
Listen to my story,
Take my right to be distressed,
Your life's been just as bad as mine,
Doesn't mean you're the only one,
Or that your view's the only right,
I just see contradictions everywhere,
And their trace leads back to you,
Hypocrite, I guess I'd call you,
If I wouldn't be as nice,
But don't mistake it as shyness,
I'm just careful because I know,
You can't take very much,
Behind your label of strength,
Hides a tired, broken soul.
Dear Stranger - One -How does it come, dearest stranger,Dear Stranger - One -3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That you make me hate you so much?
How does it come, that someone I do not know,
Can make me feel so lost and insecure?
Just tell me to leave you alone,
And I'll leave, to never bother you again,
But on days like this, oh I could swear,
That you're begging me to hate you!
You hide behind an anonymous name,
Behind a fake face, a mask that covers you,
You evolve and improve your tactics,
Your attacks now very from stupid to smart.
And I must admit, I am impressed,
At how well you manipulate us,
All I have to protect myself,
Is knowing how it felt to be the same.
I was once convinced that the method of,
Fighting fire with fire is best,
Though simply it only leaves the greatest damage,
This war cannot be won, only hell awaits us.
I now learned to control my anger,
So it isn't as wild and ruthless anymore,
I converted it, into the most seething energy,
Now burning steadily inside my veins.
Passive now, I wait patiently,
So only you will break,
And I will
Don't You Give UpFrom time to time you sit in the dark,Don't You Give Up3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Life has lost it's meaning-
Pain sears through every bone,
and your heart feels like stone,
Life is heavy, a game you'll lose,
Avoiding failure, but you can't choose,
Everyone seems to wait for you to die,
There is no friendship, love is a lie,
But you've never given up hope,
I can see you still try to cope,
You're not dead, you're full of life,
It's waiting for you to begin to strive,
Unconsciously you chose happiness,
And you'll achieve it, though life is a mess,
I can tell that you'll keep going,
And I will stop the pain from showing,
Time will pass and things will look up,
Through death and despair, lots of bad luck,
You'll make it dear one, I always believed in you,
It's a sad thing to know this news is new,
I'll support you where I can, and you know this well,
Ask me nicely and I'll join you in hell,
I won't just let you die alone, you deserve better,
And what they scream, it just doesn't matter,
Here I hold out my aching hand,
Trust me when
Come With Me!I know the streets are as frozen as your tearsCome With Me!3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Even though they still sting your cheeks
Darling, they dried. Enemies died
And hatred soaked these lost places
And maybe the smell lingers in the air...
But please see the miracle you're in right now
You're alive and there's so much to come
You've got to stay awake to see!
So sleep no more and join in with me!
DriftingI need it, just please, help me out, Sir?Drifting3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My substance, I'm keen to abuse,
A legal drug, I tell ya, cheap, but oh dear!
So insecure and dangerous...should I?
It'd be my secret, as unique as it is,
Damn it, I'll do it, so excuse me, Sir,
Pass me money, I'm really in need!
I get what I want, this way,
Just be who I'm not,
And everything works out
Relieved I feel free, inside I'm going nuts,
But my face doesn't show it,
No one checks for my eyes,
So I stay fine, better hide,
I can't speak, but whatever,
Just take a seat, and rest,
But didn't that girl just look suspiciously?
Was that just real or imagined?
Okay, maybe I underestimated this...
Minutes scratch by,
Every hour feels like a week,
So soft, and comfy,
And standing in a light glow~
Then drift off, into...
Dear Diary, All About Her....Dear diary,Dear Diary, All About Her....3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
She showed me her arm today
Broken down, without a word to say
She lay in my arms and cried
And told me she can't decide
Between death and being alive
I saw all her bloody, raw skin
Rocking back and forth
Her knees pulled to her chin
A wrecked little doll
All dirty and used
Tired of being nothing at all
Enjoy the persisting abuse
I told her it hurts me to see
How she crumbles eventually
How I die right before her eyes
When she slips from my sight
But she just smiled and said
She can't help it
I know she doesn't try to be bad
But she's killing me
Slaughtering me beyond recognition
Like she's completing my failed mission
Of destruction, pain and despair
I know she doesn't...she just can't care
But she holds, she grabbed my heart
She holds it and tears it apart
She cuts my skin and uses my blood
To paint a picture of murderous art
Most naive love I feel for this girl
She humbles me, my thoughts whirl
Confuses me into oblivion
Should I let go? Abandon her?
I love...but the burd
Set Me FreeThere is this pressure,Set Me Free3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Clenching my chest,
So I cannot sit still,
Pained by unrest,
I twiddle my thumbs,
Not waiting but watching,
My mind feels numb,
And my eyes cannot see,
The world seems to blur,
As this monster breaks free,
With hungry eyes,
It shadows my mood,
No time for whys,
It's crippling and crude,
It's a forsaken part of me,
That I'd rather hide,
But I accepted the plea,
And I will abide,
We'll see where this broken road leads,
My soul is a devastating battlefield,
Growing the more my spirit bleeds,
Hope to decrease it, once I am healed,
The line in between, is so thin,
Crawling over my skin,
My life is fully in my control,
I struggle to find a way out of,
This deep and miserable hole,
I'm not ashamed to admit,
I dug it all up with my own, bare hands,
'Till I found a depth that might fit,
The pain of this stranger, in a very strange land,
Me, the unknown, unnamed child,
Can't understand why this made me smile,
But as strange as I am,
I am still me,
Self Deception"Would you destroy something perfect, in order to make it beautiful?" - Gerard WaySelf Deception3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I would, I did,
I once was perfect but now am detroyed!
I realize I was used and abused,
And treated as toy!
I feel worthless now...
Because I can't figure out life!
So I consider stabbing myself,
With the silent blade of a raging knife!
If Tears Left ScarsIf tears left scars,If Tears Left Scars3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'd be ugly.
If tears left scars,
I'd never want the attention I'd be given.
If tears left scars,
I'd be a monster.
If tears left scars,
You wouldn't come near me.
If tears left scars,
I'd hear the whispers of people when I'm around.
If you saw me,
with scars from the tears I cry,
What would you do?
Would you make those sad, burning tears
into warm tears of laughter and joy and
make those scars disapper?
My smileMy smile was once so easy,My smile3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
a thing of joy and pride,
but over these years of darkness,
the ease has slowly died.
I find it's no longer truth,
but simply a lying mask.
It hides away the misery,
the hauntings of my past.
I refuse to look at pictures.
I see what others ignore.
The uneasiness of my smile.
How it has turned into a chore.
Will I ever truly smile,
with joy, pride, and truth,
or will I never know a smile?
Will it die with the rest of my youth?
Please, i wish to laugh,
to smile without a care,
but I'm not good enough for this,
and I guess that is fair.
It's not talked about much.It's not talked about much.It's not talked about much.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Or if it is, it's a joke or something.
It's seen and misconcepted.
But more people than you think do it.
I found out two people who I knew did it.
Also having done it myself.
Even the reasons people do it aren't always correct.
Sometimes the reason gets lost with the person themselves as they get tangled up.
It's something I've always supported.
Somethimg I'm awefully hypocritical about...
FairytaleOh if it would be trueFairytale3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Would I say I love you?
If I could let go...
Would the scars still show?
When the letters would make sense,
And built into solid words,
Would I then take my chance,
And fly in the mass of birds?
Could I keep the colours from bleeding in,
When I wipe the blood from my chin?
The lifeless body would lay still,
Counting the days to the next kill.
Would the bombs lie to rest?
The weight be lightened on my chest?
When I close my eyes in silence,
Asking for God to stop the violence...
Then we might embrace the sun,
Our feet aching form the run,
And melt in each others arms,
Blending out a thousand alarms...
Could we be then be safe in heaven,
In fairy tales we'd count till seven,
Smoke and fire mixing with steam,
The pain banished by joyful gleam...
We'd be free to smile for real,
To savor every moment we feel,
I'd wish to spend these moments with you,
The only person who won't have a clue
How much I need you by my side,
I can't resist the urge to hide,
But honey, I thi
suicideShe's trying to breathsuicide2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
gasping for air
A blood hand print stains the walls
To tall for people to climb
She hid from everyone
She smiled on
It all became to much for her
The end is near
She's gasping for air
She's not yelling for help
Her arms are cut and torn
No one noticed
She's dead behind her walls
and no one knows
It's to late to care now
So dry your tears
Went AwayLet it sleep, let it restWent Away3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Leave it alone
Just for a while
It won't smile
So don't waste your time
Go ahead, live your life
And cover your scars
Never forgive and forget
You swore “Never regret”
Too late, it's now
All time has passed
As you went and lived
A life was taken
And it didn't survive
You missed a great big mess
Close your eyes
And protect your ears
So nothing ever reaches you
Now for a while
You can't smile
Since it has left your life
A Poem About The Night - For dragongirl0000The truly deep core of nightA Poem About The Night - For dragongirl00003 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Free of lies, light and fright
Shadows cast by trees and
We stare at dark blue skies
Fragile minds, snuggled away
Safely in deceiving beds
Hiding from nightmares
That come by day into their heads
They can't deny
They live a lie
By connecting all evil
With this beauty of nightmares
Our refuge, our paradise
Where our dreams come alive
Their eyes shut, ours wide open
We watch the dust dance
Over silent streets
All panic and hysteria
That the dreadful day may cause
A fire of deep and burning passion
Always extinguished by sunlight
Spiteful words they carve in stone
To raise their children in fear
Never shall they become a part
And never shall they have a heart
That beats and survives
Surrounded by dark blue skies
Mistaken as black, as a lack of light
Never shall they see the truth
All We Need Is HopeSo I wake up, to a new dayAll We Need Is Hope3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I should appreciate
But I don't
The air, so fresh and cold
Seems to poison me
With each breath I draw in
I seem to swallow bitter pills
And I choke on all my pride
I should slow down and listen
Just listen to that little voice
That actually matters
Always pay attention to
To all those little miracles
That change your life forever
Just every day you manage to survive
Be happy that you're alive!
You and I
We should slow down
And spend a happy time
Just let this life shine bright!
It doesn't matter, I know it too well
But still we're bothered, still we care
We spit out hate
To the ones who scare us
To those who see behind
Nowhere to hide
And it's better, you realise
We're better off if we're uncovered
Possibly just need to be fixed
So if we break now
And let ourselves shatter
Someone special might fit them together
It'll hurt and take time
So much time
To heal the wounds
That burn inside
To abandon the sickness
Out or our thoughts
But we'll get there someday
What Have I BecomeThey say just to let the emotions flow,What Have I Become3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is the secret of poetry,
The art within the writing of words,
Of placing the letters, carefully,
Not to be shy of filling the blanks,
Just defining what you know,
To use your feelings,
And to decorate the sheets,
But how can I write,
When all I feel,
Was ripped away,
By a force that I cannot describe?
When my core is a void,
And I cannot avoid,
Feeling nothing at all...
How am I supposed to choose,
The words that used to come,
By night, my quiet saviours,
Now lost within my soul,
Roaming the sky,
For this feeling of inspiration,
That I once cursed,
But was blessed with,
Now that it's gone,
I disappear into myself,
No way to get rid of,
All this poison,
That was crammed down my throat,
And without my words,
I'm nothing, just nothing at all,
I am no writer, no poet,
No artist anymore,
I might be able to place the letters,
In the right order,
It might look pretty,
But it lacks the emotion,
PurgatoryPain searing through my bodyPurgatory3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Broken I wriggle on the ground
I cry for help, helping you
Pleasing your need to be God
I bleed and bleed from seamless cuts
I scream creaking insults at you
I hurt and die and feel nothing at all
All at once, shards of shattered glass
I hope my agony satisfies you at last
I pray that this will end some day
Scraping together all of my past
Just to throw all memory away
Growing upI'm not quite sure if I'm actually confusedGrowing up3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Or if I'm just being misunderstood and abused
But I know that, definitely
Out there are a few million fellows feeling just like me
'Cause I know I'm just trying to figure out who I'm supposed to be
And honestly, I don't care how long it'll take
I'm worried enough, and for goodness sake
I know that you actually don't care about me, but just about the selfish you
You avoid me like I'm a mistake, and having the flu
On the other side, you see me as another depressed teen
And I'll surly regain sanity when I turn nineteen
Just a fourteen year old kid, having problems fitting in
The troublesome me will vanish together with my troublesome skin
Just like my taste for ripped up jeans
And that awful music- remember, I'm in my teens
Oh come on, I see you are trying to confuse me!
Brainwash-parenting, I have no other choice, I have to break free
And yeah, I'm sure there's nothing wrong with my brain
Oh, okay, I see you zoned out
But, I mean, you asked me
Be Alivefeel the sun burning your skinBe Alive3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wild and free, breathing out, breathing in
Dancing in the storm
Crying with the howling wind
Laughing along wiht the cackle of thunder
Running and getting arms skinned
Bleeding in a rhythem of youth....
BreakableBe a little more careful with meBreakable3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I told you how frail I am
I bruise easily, I crumble so fast
I am still so breakable
I wish you'd understand
That I am just awaking
Starting new, all naked and hurt
With no secrets
With no regrets
But you never want to accept
That I am not who I used to be
You just never forget
That I try to let go this grudge
By facing my fears
My greatest fear is you
I can't stay out of your life
Unless you let me go
I can't stop seeing you as enemy
Unless you talk this out with me
I am so tired of playing the game
But I never manage to write my own rules
I just stay in a corner of my deranged mind
And enjoy the abuse of being a tool
Life is so heavy lately
Why do you threaten to make it worse?
Why don't you accept that you are wrong too?
And that you deserve the pain you get
It has to have a reason
And honey, you are the reason yourself
Maybe if you'd agree with the truth
You'd be free and stop hurting those
Those few unrealistic friends
This hate and anger
I know it
Rising hateOh the hateRising hate3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Oh the rage
Can you keep the wanting caged?
The thoughts knocking against your skull
Imagine it, wouldn't it be wonderful?
Become the monster, let it be
Oh they will, they will have to see
Those annoying children, pathetic things
Don't deny how bitterly it stings
Haunt them down
Make them drown
In their own denial
Doesn't their behavior make you smile?
Like sheep, so dependent on each other
And you? You don't even have to bother
You can survive on your own
The vengeful beast inside has grown
LET IT OUT
LET IT OUT
Disconnected, inside out
Swallowed by the blistering heat
Losing your mind
Seeing right behind
The scenes of this awkward film called life
The Reasons I CryThere are many reasons I cryThe Reasons I Cry3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And I will take my time to explain
Because you asked me why
I don't cry because I hope for someone to save me
I cry when I hear a true and tragic story
I cry when I hear a songs meaning right through
And no, I don't consider myself a wimp
I'd rather consider you
Laughing because you gave up all hope
Laughing is your way to cope
With the trauma your childhood caused
I know I snap easily and it's a huge flaw
Many people dislike me for it
And being abandoned feels raw
Besides my best poetry was written with tears in burning eyes
I even cry when I'm in rage and furious sometimes
I cry at an impossible problem, just to let go of it
And I must sound incredibly sissy, I admit...
But as a matter of fact, I never cry when I bleed
I don't cry when I don't get the love I need
I shed tears to understand the sorrow of dear friends
My tears cleanse my soul and let my misery end
And most often I cry by the sight of something beautiful
Without my tears, the snot and my pai
UnwantedI feel dirty, and worthlessUnwanted3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Though I know it's not my fault
I didn't choose my heritage
Nor my parents relationship
I am not a bastard on purpose
But I feel...I feel ashamed
For I know I am Gods unwanted child
And my birth was a sin
My sheer existence provokes hate
And force tears in my eyes
The children in school say I am weird
And their parents call my Mummy a slut
When I fight with my Mother
Accidentally it escapes her mouth
That she should've gotten rid of me
Back then when she had the chance
I remember the little girl
Curling up inside her head
Crying over hours
Not able to understand the pain
Knowing you aren't wanted
Is the worst thing to know
To say someone isn't wanted
And doesn't deserve to live
Is the deadliest thing you could say
I learned over the years
To accept myself
But still I lack confidence
When I share a room with you
My troubles are rooted deep
Somewhere inside my head
There isn't one thing I could put my finger on
But I think I understand
The only way to set myse
I BelieveA thousand times I walked along this lineI Believe3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dreaming of the other side
So far away, yet next to me
A strange new land
Full of possibility
A million times I wondered why
I had now wings to spread and fly
Until I found them inside my mind
Finding freedom hiding in my soul
Accepting the necessity of lost control
I wonder now, could it change
If I changed in time?
If I gave up fear and just crossed the line
To explore the unknown land
Instead of wondering what might be...
Do you think I'd open up and see?
I'm tired of hiding my curiosity
It feels wrong to deny this side of me
I want to know who I might be
If I open my eyes to see
I believe, oh I believe
That time will change us all
I believe we will have to fall
We'll have to die
To be alive
And all the little pieces
All the shatters of my past
Will fall into place
Like tears from my face
Into a brand new life
A life I will proudly lead