Clockwork HeartI wasn't born with a heavy heartClockwork Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It used to feel as light as air
Until one day, it was shoved too much
And began to tear.
It ripped and tore
Spilling sadness and fear
And that was when
I repaired it with the first gear
Now, after many quick fixes
I've learned to beware
To keep no one close
Because they aren't always there
The gears have rusted
Poisoning my mind
I have pushed people away
And they've returned in kind
Now my heart is more cold metal
Than the flesh it was before
But I'm beginning to think
I don't want flesh anymore
I am gears and scar tissue
Nothing natural left to beat
In reaction to kindness and affection
Just some motions on repeat
No more does my heart go Thump-thump
Thump to pretty words and faces
It rattles along, clank-clank-grind
Only artificial sparks filling spaces
My heart was beautiful once
Now it is an ugly, monstrous thing to behold
My heart was warm and unsteady
Now it is logical and cold
How many men a
NeverNever a momentNever2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Never a word
Never let slip
Never be heard
Never step forward
Never be bright
Never stand up
Never give fight
Never be clever
Never stand out
Never reach high
Just give up
Just give in
Full of regret
Losing UsI have always wondered what impulses and thoughts guided Your beautiful mind.Losing Us2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Was it mere revenge, or You really never saw the big picture?
Sometimes I had the feeling it was nothing more than pure delight;
Delight of pushing me off a cliff and watching me dissolve into the ground again and again,
With a sad smile, wiping a lonely tear off Your eye.
Now Losing You has always been the thing I was the best at.
And after every loss, I seemed to get better and better at losing You more perfectly and more painfully.
And after finding each other again and again, every single time we found different persons in familiar bodies.
And after every reunion, we managed to find new and yet even more perfect ways for those persons to lose each other again.
And after every loss, I crumbled. Then rebuilt myself anew, every time - a little better.
And after every rebirth, I would look for You yet again, for I knew that You were, too, looking for me.
And after every search, we would find each othe