Kickthestickz- Love Letter
I know this is old fashioned and you always complain that you can't read my writing but no other way seemed right. I can't tell you this face to face for fear of your reaction and this way, you can choose just to ignore me and get on with your life.
I don't know how I am finding it so hard to write this. You'd think after hours and months of going over and over the ways I could say it, it would be easy.
Do you remember that time when all of our friends were going to some party they'd been going on about for so long but I was too ill to go? Even though you had been looking forward to it for ages, you stayed behind with me and we snuggled up on the sofa and watched films all evening. It's one of my favourite memories and every time I think of it I can't help but fall even deeper.
What I'm trying to say, really, is that I'm falling in love with you. It was a slow descent at first and then I started tumbling head over heels.
I could try and blame it on you. You
Kickthestickz - Dreams~They started out innocent enough~Kickthestickz - Dreams3 years ago in Romance More Like This
I was in the shower in our apartment (we had become flatmates only recently when Chris had moved here and invited me to live with him) and everything was as normal. Then Chris came bursting in, causing me to hurriedly grab a towel and wrap it round me
"What the hell are you doing?!" I shouted at him. Chris gave me a look and said
"Alright, keep your hair on! I'm just brushing my teeth" I couldn't believe it
"Can't you wait until I'm finished?" I asked in annoyance.
"Why should I?" he replied innocently
"Because I thought the one place I could get some privacy in this place would be here! But nooo" I said exasperatedly.
"You never told me you wanted privacy"
"Like hell I didn't!" I protested.
"Okay, okay. I'll leave" he said backing up. Just before he left he looked me up and down
"Not like there's anything worth seeing anyway" my mouth fell open and he grinned and slipped out the door. I sighed and stepped out the shower, there was no way I c
Kickthestickz: Sleep Well?I can feel his lips against mine forcefully, his body is strong and pressed up against mine but I can't see who it is. My eyes are locked shut and I can't seem to open them, as much as I try I can't. I feel his hands gripping my waist, holding me carefully against the wall. His tongue explores my mouth and I don't attempt to fight back, I simply let him carry on with what he wants to do. Surprisingly, I find myself enjoying this though I need to know who he is. The mystery man I'm kissing. I need to know who you are. As if my wish has been granted, he pulls away slowly, moving his hands up slightly and snaking them around to connect his hands behind my back. My eyes open slowly to be met by a familiar figure. He smiles at me lovingly, but I just stare into his eyes. A mixture of green and brown that I'd only seen in one person before. Just above those beautiful orbs is a brown fringe that falls so perfectly, a unique hairstyle that's so natural. I know who he is, but I don't pull awKickthestickz: Sleep Well?3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Kickthestickz - Distraction"PJ pass me my drink" Chris ordered casually. PJ smirkedKickthestickz - Distraction3 years ago in Romance More Like This
"What's the magic word?" he asked patronisingly. Chris glared
"I'm not a kid anymore" he said, his childish tone doing nothing to verify his claim. PJ laughed disbelievingly
"Really? You could have fooled me" he joked. Chris pouted and reached for the drink himself, leaning over PJ. PJ pushed him back
"Chris didn't anyone teach you manners? You mustn't lean over its rude, you must ask me politely to pass it to you" he said in a posh voice grinning widely. Chris looked beaten for a second then he smiled sneakily. He leant forward and kissed PJ distracting him while he reached for his drink with his free hand. When leant back his drink was in his hand and he wore a smug smile on his face. He sipped the beverage nonchalantly ignoring the look of utter shock on PJ's face. There was silence except for the sounds of the film -long ago forgotten- on the TV screen. Chris looked at it and tutted, he nudged PJ
"Your gunna have to rewind it
Could It Be Worse - Kickthestickz"You know what? Fine! I'll go! AND MAYBE THIS TIME I WON'T COME BACK!" I roared, slamming the door shut. Fucking family. We'd had yet another argument that had resulted in them kicking me out. Fan-fucking-tastic. I shivered against the near arctic winds of the North and instantly regretted not getting a coat or jacket before I left. It's not like I can go back now, though. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and quickly texted Dan:Could It Be Worse - Kickthestickz3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
'Hey, can I stay round yours for a while?'
He must've had his phone on him or something because before I could return my phone to my pocket, he'd replied saying:
'Sure, family problems again?'
'You know it.' I typed, physically rolling my eyes. I slid my phone into my pocket and was about to start walking when I had one of those feelings where you think you're being watched. I scanned the area and my line of vision rested on a human shaped pile of clothing, with a pair of stunning, pale green eyes poking out under a mess of muddy b
KicktheStickz, Phan and TwisterChris had the idea of playing Twister. Nobody considered why, it was just Chris being Chris, They never thought that maybe he wanted them to be a tangle of hot throbbing bodies on the floor for a reason...KicktheStickz, Phan and Twister2 years ago in Humor More Like This
In all honesty, Chris just wanted it to be him and PJ, but he wasn't going to say no to the Foursome being together again.
"Since we're together," PJ had said, "We should make a video."
"What should we do?" Phil asked.
"Twister!" Chris exclaimed cheerfully.
The others considered. "That's not a bad idea," Dan said slowly.
So, out came the dusty Twister mat and onto the floor.
"This is exciting, isn't it?" Chris asked, an odd glint in his eyes. "The four of us." Pause. "Together." Another pause. His voice lowers. "Sexually."
PJ laughed, getting the reference. Chris grinned at him.
They began playing, feeling slightly awkward at times but having fun nonetheless, the camera recording everything.
They played for hours. PJ, who had just fallen over, sighed as he realised all the editing he
Kickthestickz-seduction(?)oneshotKickthestickz-seduction(?)oneshot3 years ago in Humor More Like This
Looking up, Pj threw his head back with an loud sigh, rolling his eyes in a milled exasperation.
"Chris, where are your trousers?"
Chris looked down quickly, then shot a hand to cover his mouth with an obviously fake look of surprise on his devilish face.
"Oh my! I didn't even notice"
"That you weren't wearing trousers?"
Pj lifted a brow, skeptically, but returned to his same annoyed expression as before when Chris's face fell into a devious grin, his own brows raised high above the hazel eyes beneath them.
"Well, can you blame me? I'm getting so used to having them off since I've been here, ya know, with you For the past three days and nights--"
"Okay, yeah, but only because every time I turn around you have them off! I'm getting a little sick of seeing you in your pants every morning, and night, for the last three days"
"just a little?"
Chris turned around when Pj sent him an annoyed glare, throwing his hands up in an equally fake submission and heading back to the
Kickthestickz/Phan - Drawings Part 3 - Ending"We need to get those two together" Dan said watching Chris who had been joined by PJ. The curly haired boy had come out of the spare room given Dan and Phil a bright smile and walked over to Chris (who was making tea) and stood as close to him as humanely possible. He then got a cup for himself, reaching in front of Chris (who blushed) in the process. Phil regarded them thoughtfullyKickthestickz/Phan - Drawings Part 3 - Ending3 years ago in Romance More Like This
"How do you know they both like each other?" he asked. Dan scoffed but when Phil gave him a serious look he sighed
"Well I have a way of finding out, even though I really don't think it's needed - " Phil glared at him
"Okay, okay. I'll do it!" he consented. Phil smiled and pecked him on the lips
"Thank you" he whispered. Dan grinned and stood up creeping past the kitchen doorway and into the spare room. He returned shortly and showed Phil what was in his hand pleased with himself.
"Screws? Dan what?" Phil asked confused, Dan put finger to his lips and glanced towards the kitchen but C
Sleepless - kickthestickzIt's dark and quiet. The only sounds are the rustling of the leaves outside my window and the weak, steady breathing of the man lying beside me. My friend is already fast asleep after a day of shenanigans and video games, but I can't sleep even if I tried. That said, I'm not really trying. I enjoy lying beside him under the warm duvet, feeling the heat from his body and watching him sleep soundly. He looks so peaceful and content with his eyelids shut and his dark lashes resting on his cheeks. My dear PJ. Well, technically, he isn't mine. I find myself wishing he was though, but I doubt it could ever work out. He is straight as could be, and if he wasn't, he would never fall in love with me of all people. I am just his goofy and perverted friend, Chris. A good friend to have but not anyone he would ever consider lover material with so many other people to choose from. I bitterly tell myself this whenever PJ crosses my mind, which is a lot. I can't really help it, though. I cannot reminSleepless - kickthestickz3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Kickthestickz- Love, lost and found (Part 1)KickthestickzKickthestickz- Love, lost and found (Part 1)3 years ago in Romance More Like This
I lay in my bed staring at the ceiling. Who knew one person could change and consume my life as PJ had. Every little thing he did just made me love him more, every smile, every glance made my heart ache. The worst thing is he has no idea, he doesn't know how every time we almost kiss I have to stop myself from leaning in just that little bit further and every time he insists he's not gay and how he'd never go out with me is like a knife plunging into my heart. Every day I am reminded that I'm hopelessly in love with a man I can never be with and it hurts. It hurts so much, as I feel my heart breaking and I know there is nothing I can do. I was jolted from my thoughts by my phone going off. I reach for it and smile when I see the caller ID
"PJ..." I whisper aloud before accepting the call. He sounds excited as he greets me
"Hey Chris! I was wondering ... are you free tomorrow?" I reply without hesitation after all when I am I not free? &
Kickthestickz - SurprisePJ's POVKickthestickz - Surprise3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Chris was always saying that he 'Didn't see the point of romance, It's cheesy and unnecessary" but I could see right through him. He liked to pretend he was above all that and didn't need it to feel loved but I could tell that he was the kind of person who needed to be shown, clearly, that he was loved in order to feel he was. Perhaps it was his way of seeing how well I knew him or maybe he was scared that if he admitted that he did like romance that I would make fun of him. So I decided that I was going to give him romance whether he liked it or not!
When PJ told me that I couldn't make any plans tomorrow evening I knew he was up to something. I mean, if it was just a date then he would have told me but when I asked him why he just said 'Wait and see'. I like surprises but I am also very impatient, so I found that when I got into bed in the evening sleep evaded me. PJ on the other hand fell asleep as soon as his head hit the pillow, he looked so peaceful and a sma
KickTheStickz - Dance With MeAuthor; BreffskiKickTheStickz - Dance With Me3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Warning; Nothing c:
Author's note; This is a reaaaally long one shot ^__^ Just to apologise for not uploading in a while!
PJ stared aimlessly at his computer screen; he'd just finished editing his newest video for his subscribers. He rubbed a hand across his eyes and yawned, checking the time in the corner of his laptop screen. 2:30AM.
Checking that Chris was still awake since he was sleeping over, he creeped over to his room and peeked around the door. "Chris?" He whispered, attempting to keep his voice quiet enough not to wake him if he was asleep, yet loud enough to hear if he was awake.
"Oh, Hi PJ." Chris replied, smiling and turning around in his chair to look at PJ. "You alright?" He asked, closing down the tabs on his computer to make sure nothing embarassing would be discovered.
"Yeah, I was just going to ask if you wanted a cup of tea before bed?" PJ queried, opening the door fully to take a step inside
KickTheStickz - Four AMKickTheStickz - Four AM3 years ago in Romance More Like This
I'm not sure what I'm doing here. I don't even know what posessed me to drag myself out of bed and drive here. Why am I standing outside my best friend's door at four AM? Maybe I should just go home... It can probably wait until tomorrow, and I'll just annoy him if I wake him up now...
PJ started to turn away from the familiar door that stood before him, attempting to push away the image of his best friend, and long-term-crush, from his mind. He knew that Chris wouldn't appreciate him appearing on his doorstep so early in the morning, but he had absolutely no idea why he chose this time in the first place... It just felt like the right time. Either way he decided he could wait until tomorrow to hold the conversation that he'd been playing out in his mind for the past few days.
The moment his attention was on the floor infront of him, his bod
Kickthestickz - Hate commentsChris's POVKickthestickz - Hate comments3 years ago in Romance More Like This
I sighed sadly as I scrolled down the comments on my new video. So they had found out about me and PJ huh. There were nice words and congratulations plus a fair few with people writing things like 'I knew it!!' and 'My fan girl heart just exploded!' which made me chuckle. But lurking among them were comments that broke my heart 'you're going out?! Unsubscribed!' 'Faggot' and more sinister ones 'You don't deserve your subscribers, go kill yourself.' They are stupid and immature and I know I should just ignore them but they are hurtful. They make me worry about PJ, what if he was getting the same thing? He found it harder to mask his feelings than me and I can imagine the comments hurting him more. My hand hovered over my phone, should I call him? Or will he just think I am overreacting? Despite my worries I couldn't deny I needed him, so I press the call button and chewed nervously on my bottom lip as it rings.
"Hello? ... Chris?"
I was momentarily stunned by how much I had
Kickthestickz: MessagesThe flat feels lonely today. It has felt lonely for a while, but something about today is worse. Slumping on to the bed, I grab for my phone. 9:01. I suppose I could go and see Chris, I haven't seen him in three days. I'll bring him something this time, a present. I allow myself time to get ready, deciding that I will try to get there for 10:00. My legs drag themselves to the bathroom, and I turn on the shower. The flat is cold and so is the water. Running my hand underneath the liquid, I flinch. It's too cold, I won't take a shower. Chris won't mind. He told me he doesn't care what I look like, that's how I know. I've worn the same clothes for three days, I don't bother much about changing after I visit Chris. Nobody else comes to see me. I don't see much of my old housemates anymore and Dan and Phil live so far away. Sometimes they'll pop down to check up on me, to catch up. Then we'll go and see Chris together. I love those days a lot, but not as much as when I visit him by mKickthestickz: Messages3 years ago in Romance More Like This
StunnedChris walked from his room to the kitchen, his socked feet barely making a sound as they thumped against the stairs. PJ was staying over for a few days, but he figured the other was asleep by now, seeing as it was nearly 3 in the morning.Stunned3 years ago in Humor More Like This
To his surprise, the Italian was very much awake in the living room, staring intently at his laptop, looking zoned out.
PJ physically jumped at Chris's gentle voice, gripping the sides of his laptop tightly, "Don't do that! For God's sake, you almost gave a twenty-one year old a heart attack!"
Giggling quietly, Chris sat down beside the other, peeking at his friend's laptop secretly before gasping. "Are you reading a kickthestickz?!"
The younger youtuber's face immediately turned a painfully bright red as he snapped the computer shut, hissing, "Shut up! No one ships it harder than you, so just SHUT UP."
Stunned to silence, Chris simply sat on the couch and stared at the Italian, desperate to meet those pale green eyes. Sure, he s
Kickthestickz/Phan - DrawingsThe fantastic foursome had been lounging around Dan and Phil's apartment at a loss for things to do. They had already played hours of video games and they didn't feel like going out. Usually one of the four of them thought of things to do but everyone had come up blank this time. It was Phil who finally had an ideaKickthestickz/Phan - Drawings3 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Let's ask my followers, they always think of good stuff. We should ask them what they think we should do". Chris snorted
"Gangbang probably" he said. PJ sighed
"No Chris, that's just what YOUR followers would say". Chris laughed
"True.Ssometimes I think they are worse than me". Dan smirked
"Doubt it" he said sceptically and Chris threw a pillow at him.
Phil shook his head smiling at his friends antics. He grabbed his camera from where it was sitting on the table and filmed a quick video asking for suggestions of things they should do saying he would film the results. After 10 minutes he scrolled through the first few comments. For some unknown reason one stood out to him.
Beautiful Green Eyes - Kickthestickz"Peej, seriously, what's wrong? This isn't funny any more." Chris trailed PJ around the flat, a worried look in his face.Beautiful Green Eyes - Kickthestickz3 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Nothing, I'm fine." PJ snapped.
"Come on, we both know that isn't true." Chris replied, sighing.
"Please, I'm okay, seriously." PJ span around to face Chris.
"You're not and I know you're not." Chris folded his arms across his chest.
"How?" PJ stared at him like he was stupid.
"It's easy to tell. Your voice changes, it goes all monotone, and your eyes aren't sparkling." Chris stated, matter-of-factly.
"You... You think my eyes... Sparkle? PJ looked at Chris biting his lip and trying to stop the smile that was itching to crawl across his face.
"I-- Uh, well... I- .. Umm.." Chris stuttered, turning bright red. He didn't even realize it had come out like that. "Well... Yeah." He admitted quietly.
"You think me eyes sparkle." PJ grinned. Chris sighed.
"Yes. I think your beautiful green eyes sparkle like diamonds or the sea in the evening sunlight. I think your hair is
I'll Still Be Here - Phan and KickTheStickzTitle: I'll Still Be HereI'll Still Be Here - Phan and KickTheStickz3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Rating: PG-13 for some of Dan and PJ's language x)
Pairing(s): KickTheFire (or whatever Dan and PJ's ship name is) (friendship), Phan (AmazingPhil and Danisnotonfire), and KickTheStickz (KickThePj and Crabstickz)
Disclaimer: This is rubbish, seeing as I obviously don't own Dan, PJ, Phil or Chris. But yeah, nothing of this ever happened and stuffs x)
Dan walked through the streets of London to get to the Starbucks to meet PJ. PJ and Dan had been going out for these kind of things for the past few weeks, since Dan and Phil had moved to London. Whenever Dan needed to talk to someone about something, he talked to Peej. Since Dan and PJ were living near each other, they saw each other a lot more, which was great. PJ was easy to talk to, like a brother.
Dan wasn't sure how this unusual friendship between himself and Peej had started, but he knew that it was really nice to have a friend who he could pretty much talk about anything to. Ot
Kickthestickz - Bright Night - Part 1PJ'S POVKickthestickz - Bright Night - Part 13 years ago in Romance More Like This
I walked down the dark street illuminated by glowing yellow street lights, on my way to Chris's new apartment. It was situated about half way up a large complex and every time I went I was thankful for the lifts. Chris and I had tried to race each other up the stairs once and it hadn't ended well.
If I remember correctly Chris gave up after one flight of stairs and I managed three before having to lean against the wall to catch my breath. Then, of course I had to walk down and rescue Chris who was lying sprawled on the steps.
"You have to complete the mission" he panted
"Go on without me I'm not worth it!". I played along with him
"No Chris! We are going to complete this mission together like we promised when we signed up!" I said and pulled him from the ground. He leaned against me laughing and we stood there together for a while waiting for the lift to come down from above.
I smiled fondly at the memory and carried on with my journey. I wasn't alone as there were always peop
Kickthestickz - Bright Night - Part 8Chris's POVKickthestickz - Bright Night - Part 83 years ago in Romance More Like This
That was close, I nearly blew it there. Had I seriously been about to kiss my best friend? Well it was his fault for being so damn gorgeous! With that bed hair and eyes that draw you in ... I knew staying so close to PJ was going to be hard but I didn't expect it to be this hard! If it hadn't been for that nurse I wouldn't have been able to stop myself, but she wasn't always going to be there to save my arse. I had to gain some more self control and quickly!
He did lean in though... That's a point, why did he lean in? I was close enough to him as it was, was he experiencing the same cravings as me? I don't want to get my hopes up and see them crushed again; it's something that seems to happen a lot to me. Maybe I could test the waters, joke about it a bit and see if I get a response. 'Chris you have been doing that for over two years now!' piped up the voice of negativity that always lurked in the back of my mind. I'll step it up a notch then, and if I get a bad
Kiss Me My Love - Phan+kickthestickzKiss Me My Love - Phan+kickthestickz3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Italy, what a perfect spot for a vacation with your best friends or your lover of only a few weeks. Dan, Phil, PJ and Chris were on a flight on their way to Italy. Chris had won it online and decided to take them all there, he thought it would be a nice treat for his boyfriend; PJ, since he is Italian.
Phil leaned forward "smile," he told them as he snapped a photo for twitter. Phil was sitting next to his boyfriend Dan, they had only been dating a week and a half but they've liked each other since practically the day they met. Dan was flipping though a magazine as the plane took off. He took Phil's hand and smiled at him,
"This will be fun, a whole week with my Philion" Dan said grinning, Dan has always wanted to share a kiss with Phil but he was nervous and he wanted it to be special and not just some kiss.
It was a new hours into the flight and everyone had settled down, Dan dozed off in a little nap, Phil was looking out the window and PJ and Chris were cuddling. Phil looked over
Kickthestickz - HolidayPJ burst out laughing when he saw Chris. The boy was bright red from head to toe; every exposed area had got its fair share of sun.Kickthestickz - Holiday3 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Why didn't you wear sun cream you idiot?" PJ chocked out in between laughs, Chris looked at the ground
"Forgot" he mumbled.
"Does it hurt?" PJ asked innocently
"Of course it bloody hurts!" Chris exclaimed indignantly "Or is getting burnt a party in your world?" he asked sarcastically.
"So would it hurt if I did this?" PJ pulled Chris into a bear hug.Chris squirmed in his arms, wincing in pain until he finally managed to extract himself from the cage of PJ's arms.
"I hate you sometimes PJ" he pouted. PJ smiled sympathetically
"Lets go out for a drink tonight and I'll pay. Will you forgive me then?" Chris frowned
"Go out? When I look like this?!" PJ thought about this "Okay, tomorrow, then you should be less red" It was a stupid thing to say really, they both knew Chris was going to look like a lobster for the rest of the holiday. Chris considered, then nod
Detention - KickTheStickzI rub my eyes with rough, tired hands as I sit on the cold, shiny floor outside the classroom, waiting for Mr Rogers to call me. After school detentions suck. Break time ones I can cope with. It's not like I favour traipsing through the hallways, pretending like I'm about to go and meet some non-existent friends. But when teachers decide to take my lack of homework-doing or clowning around a little too seriously and fill my spare time, which potentially could be spent sleeping or going on the internet, with pointless tasks; it aggravates me. School time is for school. Spare time is not.Detention - KickTheStickz2 years ago in Romance More Like This
"You can come in now, Mr Liguori." Mr Rogers' gruff yet pretentious voice calls through the cheaply-made door. I internally question why he can't just use my first name. Pretty sure I'm the only PJ in the school.
He stares me down with snakey eyes before he motions, with an undeniably, almost deliberately false smile, for me to sit down in the tiny classroom chair before his desk.
"So" He pauses to wipe
KickTheStickz: Chris Tastes PJ's MeatKickTheStickz: Chris Tastes PJ's Meat3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Another vlog, this one having another dirty title, Chris deciding to call it Chris Tastes PJ's Meat as he had made them both bacon sandwich's along with pouring themselves Cherry Coca Cola.
They sat at the table and as the video neared its end, Chris leaned forward ever so slightly, his lips pursing for a moment as PJ caught the actions from the side of his vision, realizing what Chris was telling him to do as he turned to face him fully, leaning forward hesitantly.
PJ always felt slightly nervous when he and Chris pretended to kiss for the camera, his stomach fluttering lightly as his heart rate speed up, thumping hard against his ribcage.
He wondered what would happen if their lips actually touched as they drew hesitantly closer to the other, seemingly stopping for a moment before PJ felt Chris' lips touch his lightly. He raised his eyebrows in surprise as the other's lips did not move away from his but rested against his, hovering, waiting.
Inhaling shakily, he pressed his li