Nowhere To Go But Forward : To Live"Doesn't seem like much of a vacation spot now, does it Commander?"
Shepard cast a glare over her shoulder towards the cockpit from where she stood, Virmire's sun glaring off of the sheen of the ship's hull, cold water lapping at her boots.
"Hey, no need to go giving me that look." Joker said from the safety of his seat, leaning back. He shuttered. Damn it if she wasn't scary when cast up on the big screen. "Seriously though, stop it. I'm going to turn to stone if you keep looking at me like that then no one is getting off planet."
Shepard flipped him her middle finger before moving away, eyes falling to the horizon, hands resting on her hips. Virmire was a beautiful planet. The vegetation and the cool air, the crisp smell of the ocean; it almost reminded her of the coast back on Earth. Minus the AA guns. And the teaming hordes of geth. Thunder rumbled ominously above her.
"Please tell me there's more to you than this."
She turned towards the voice, lips pressed into a
Nowhere to Go But Forward - Nothing But Red TapeHe had been close, so damn close. He had leads that were almost to fruition, information that would have lead him to something other than classified documents and dead ends. And then the Council caught up with him. Brought his investigation into Saren to a screeching halt, rushing to cover up what little he had found and bury it under as much bureaucratic red tape that they could possibly manage to throw at him. And that human's testimony, the one from the Alliancewhat was her name again? Sheldon? Shelly? Anyway, her account against the Spectre was given absolutely no credence within the courts of the Council. Eye-witnesses were deemed unfit or unworthy. Past relations between the human Captain and Saren made their argument seem little more than a revenge tactic from a bitter, life-long feud. They dismissed her claims with little thought.Nowhere to Go But Forward - Nothing But Red Tape4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Executor Pallin, convince the Council that I just need a bit more time. If they can grant me that, I have a few leads that will"
Nowhere to Go But Forward - AftermathKaidan felt every minute of combat latch onto the deepest parts of his limbs as he trudged back to the Normandy, the exhaustion pulling on him, beckoning him into a desperately needed reprieve. He felt every ounce of dirt and grime clinging to his skin, wisps of hair stuck to his forehead with sweat. Bruises were just starting to poke at him where a creeper had caught him just right, or where Shepard's driving had gotten the best of his balance; he knew he would find a particularly nasty one right below his ribs, already able to imagine the deep mixture of purple and blue that Van Gogh would be jealous of. He felt his frayed nerves firing off, sparks of invisible dark energy fizzling around him. He felt the ghost pains of a migraine that he knew would materialize within hours.Nowhere to Go But Forward - Aftermath3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
What he felt was a typical wear-and-tear kind of day of an Alliance soldier.
But Feros had been spared. From the geth. From the Thorian. And from ExoGeni. They were given a chance to rebuild, to form something
Nowhere To Go But Forward - ComplicationsBlood.Nowhere To Go But Forward - Complications3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
There was so much blood.
"Mom, be happy you don't have to deal with the Council on a regular basis, or even at all. It's like pulling teeth." Shepard pushed her food around with a distracted fork. She wasn't overly hungry. "You would think that they would be a bit more forthcoming with something."
"Just don't be like your father."
She laughed, stopping her rearrangement of the gelatinous blob that covered her trayeggs, she thoughtthough they were a poor knock off; all of the nutritional value without the attempt to make it look edible. "Dad would just cut the channel at the first hint of bullshit. Be damned proud to do it every time, too."
Hannah echoed her laugh. "Yes he would. Speaking of your dad, have you talked with him lately?"
"No. He's been just as busy as the rest of us. You know how hard it is trying to get three different schedules on three different Alliance vessels to line up?" She took a bite of the egg. At least they didn't taste as bad as th
My SinI loved you.My Sin4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
That is what he had said. Three simple words, so small but carrying the weight of all of the accumulated hope she had on their shoulders. They brought her happiness while striking a painful blow; a double-edged sword. Those words had been past-tense. He had moved onto bigger and better things while she was left fumbling in the dark, desperately trying to pick up the pieces of her shattered life while maintaining the façade that her crew needed to see; their strong, immovable Commander.
But right now? She felt nothing like that woman. She felt broken and hopelessly lost. Kaidan was her last chance to regain a small part of herself that Cerberus had failed to bring back from cold grip of death and with his rejection, she feared that that part would forever remain buried.
When they had spoken on Horizon, his voice no longer held the warmth it used to. Those chocolate brown eyes that made her go weak at the knees now reflected two years of hurt and betrayal. His wo
Nowhere to Go But Forward - One Step Back"Shepard, what the hell happened down there?"Nowhere to Go But Forward - One Step Back3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
She was ignoring him, pulling at her armor, not even acknowledging his hand on her shoulder. He let it fall to his side, watching her as she scrutinized the blood that covered her gloved hands before tossing them into her locker.
He had seen her kill people before. It was a part of the job, and at the end of the day, she did her job well. She protected the innocent and made the galaxy safer one shot at a time. But what happened down on Agebinium wasn't her just killing a man; she was settling a score.
"Shepard, you murdered him."
He saw the slight twitch in her shoulders and she looked over one at him, controlled anger flashing in her blue eyes. "I wasn't about to ask him out for drinks, that's for damn sure."
At least she was paying attention to him. It was better than the heavy silence that refused to dissipate during the ride back. "But that doesn't explain why you killed him like that. There was no need"
"Look, if you're ex
Nowhere to Go But Forward - HintsKaidan straighten himself and hesitantly paced up to one of the larger trees on the Presidium, craning his head in an odd fashion. Yes, those were most definitely feet, Alliance-issued boots with a reinforced toe, if he wasn't mistaken.Nowhere to Go But Forward - Hints4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
From his angle and the lack of light, he couldn't make out the face, but he could have recognized that voice anywhere.
Shepard dropped out of the tree with as much elegance as a three-legged cat. She tripped over her boots and stumbled forward with a small grunt, Kaidan moving to catch her by the shoulders, raising a perplexed eyebrow at her.
"Might want to be a bit more careful next time, ma'am," he said, "Or you could end up in the lake."
Kaidan watched as she straightened herself out, tugging her shirt back into place that had been wrenched in an awkward twist around her torso. He hadn't noticed how slim her waist was until now. From what Alliance fatigues revealed, she had the well-toned body of any soldier. She cleared her throat. Kai
Nowhere to Go But Forward - When it Rains"If anything can go wrong, it will, at the most inopportune time."Nowhere to Go But Forward - When it Rains4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
- Murphy's Law
"Drop site is secure, Commander."
It was nice to be back home, though Jenkins wished it had been on better terms. The sudden distress call set his nerves on end. They weren't anywhere near his family settlement, but the idea that his home planet was under attack left a heavy lump of anxiety deep in his gut. Why would anyone attack Eden Prime? They were just a small community of farmers and engineers. They didn't have any kind of export that would be worth launching a full scale attack.
Jenkins fell in step behind his two superior officers, with Shepard at point. He had served with Lieutenant Alenko for some time, and they had developed a sort of friendship, but this was his first mission with the Commander. The Commander Shepard! He felt like an idiot for gushing when she had approached him earlier on the Normandy, even more so when she had to admonish him for being too excite
Nowhere to Go But Forward - Standing on the EdgeThe door closed behind her without as much as an accusing glare. She took comfort in the silent presence of that simple door. It didn't judge. It didn't question. It didn't ask why. It just stood there acting as a soundless barrier, protecting her thoughts and hiding her imperfections from those that comprised her small world on the Normandy. Because that was what she felt like: one, giant motley mix of imperfections.Nowhere to Go But Forward - Standing on the Edge3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
She slumped against the wall and allowed herself to slide to the floor. If she was finding solace in a door, then she really had lost it.
But despite the whirlwind and nostalgia and the slight touch of insanity keeping a tight guard around her mind; making Haliat's death feel surreal, almost intangibleshe knew she did it. She had consciously signed his death warrant, made the bastard choke on carbon dioxide and krypton. And the galaxy was a better place because it. She had avenged all of those who were lost on Elysium. She had made up for her failures.
So if she kne
Christmas Effect: Sweaters - Lit TradeHe didn't understand. It had to be a human thing. All of the singing? Decorating with strings of sparkly material? The requisitions officer had called it garland, but Garrus didn't understand the purpose of it. What did it symbolize? Everything in turian culture had some sort of ceremonial purpose, but all this seemed to do was get in the way.Christmas Effect: Sweaters - Lit Trade3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
When he returned from the mess hall he had found the MAKO covered in the stuff and it shed its shiny stands everywhere. Spirits, it was on damn near everything. Some of the material stuck to his hands and face, and no amount of shaking would detach it from his plates; and if he tried to brush it off, it just stuck to his other hand. If he hadn't seen some of the other human soldiers have the same problem, he would have sworn the stuff was a mental torture device.
It did seem to have a positive effect on the crew because all of the humans seemed happier than usual. Even Ashley was chipper, humming a cheery tune of sorts as she cleaned white conduc
Nowhere to Go But Forward - AdmirationLiara sat in the comm room unable to keep her curious eyes from wandering, taking in the unfamiliar surroundings all the while fidgeting in her seat. She was far more used to being enclosed by thousand year old structures, and to suddenly find herself thrust into a world that now had her flanked by both a krogan and a turian, with a quarian not too far off? Well, it was not where she would have expected to find herself when she left for Therum. Of course, being trapped in a Prothean defense mechanism wasn't on that list either.Nowhere to Go But Forward - Admiration3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
The Normandy was a fascinating vessel. The fact that such a varying crew of species could co-exist without incident seemed a miraculous feat, perhaps paled by the notion that they actually worked well with one another. It was truly captivating, considering the different backgrounds and prejudices that could be complied within such a crew. She regarded Wrex and Garrus who were engaged in casual banter. Krogans and turians typically didn't see eye to eye in most s
AftermathHis saddening goodbye was the last memory she could recall as the flames of the explosion threw her from her feet, throwing her violently across the platform. Her eyes closed wearily remembering his face, and how much she had lost in order to save the universe and everyone she cared about. His words spiralling in her mind as the darkness engulfed her, feeling piece and calm; a slight smile crossed her features then nothing.Aftermath3 years ago in Settings More Like This
The light shone through the shutters of the hospital bay, printing their image on the far side of the wall. Deeper shadows began to over cast, as vehicles pass by in unison. There was a slight tap on the door before it slowly and carefully opened. Major Alenko entered the room, unsure what to find, as was his worry each morning on his arrival. He sat down beside the motionless individual, within the bed.
The scars had healed nicely although her eyes were still covered to protect them from the sensitivity of prolonged exposure to light. He scoffed at the idea; she ha
The Last GoodbyeIt had been almost a full week now. Seven days, one-hundred and sixty-eight hours, ten thousand and eighty minutes. Time was moving on, flowing around the ugly, lumpy stone that only partially blocked the riverbed. The rest of the galaxy was moving on and finally beginning to recover. Only one man, one group of friends, one ship ached and found moving forward almost impossible. Their rock, their leader and foundation, his love...was gone.The Last Goodbye3 years ago in Romance More Like This
It had been joyous, seeing the Reapers finally fall, their empty shells falling forgotten to the earth as the glorious cheers of the Alliance marines around Kaidan resounded to the skies. He only had one thought running through his mind as he threw his assault rifle to the ground where it lay amongst the ashes. He took off without a second glance for the other marines as he sprinted off towards the glowing beacon in the distance.
The pawing fingers of the marines held him back as he screamed out her name, trying to fight to her, the battle over. One o
Nowhere to Go But Forward - For The Greater Good"Give the Commander my congratulations," said the raspy voice from Anderson's console, "And Anderson I'm sorry that I couldn't get them to let you keep your posting on the Normandy. The other admirals refused to entertain the idea."Nowhere to Go But Forward - For The Greater Good3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"I understand. Shepard's a Spectre now, and needs a good ship and crew to bring Saren down. The Normandy is what she needs." What Anderson said was true. Now that the Commander was a Spectre, she was under Council jurisdiction; no longer under Alliance control and no longer taking orders from the human leaders and far from human concerns. But if that was how the Council expected it to play out, they were sorely mistaken. Shepard wouldn't even entertain such an idea should it be posed to her. And with that Anderson felt a small surge of pride and respect for the young officer. Shepard wasin heart and mind, in blood and sweat, in every curse and adrenaline-fueled outburst on the battlefieldan Alliance soldier.
This was why none of them had t
ExpectationsHe had expected her to hate him.Expectations3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
'I mean,' he thought absentmindedly as he idly stirred his coffee. 'Isn't it normal for her to hate me?' Though all things considered, there wasn't a thing about their situation that was normal; a Reaper invasion putting your relationship- or what was left of it- on hold wasn't normal. Serving on the same ship during said Reaper invasion while putting your relationship or what was left of it- on hold was even less so. He took a sip of the bitter liquid, its warmth seeping into his chilled bones. It was incredibly late- the last of the crew, save for him, had finally tucked into their bunks for the night, the day's events heavy on their hearts as they attempted to exude a modicum of normalcy, tried to cope by means of routine.
Still, he had expected her to hate him.
How could she not? She had found him as soon as she could, sought for his comfort, his pr
Surprise Communication: Joker and KaidanSurprise Communication: Joker and Kaidan3 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
Game: Mass Effect 2
Characters: Kaidan Alenko, Joker, Female Shepard, Captain Anderson
Disclaimer: All characters are the property of Bioware.
"Get those reports to the council by tomorrow. It could make or break your case, depending on what you find."
"I know, and you'll get them. There's a lot of data to comb through."
"That's why I pulled a few strings to get EDI routed to your data pad. Use it to speed up the process. Cerberus programmed it to save every mission and transmission that the Normandy was a part of."
"Thank you, Councilor Anderson. This is a huge help. I'll get to work."
"I'm behind you, Shepard. The reason I'm helping you is because I believe you did the right thing." He sighed, the weight of my situation hanging on him like lead. "I'm going to find more testimonies for your defense.
Old Wounds - 1Old Wounds - 13 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
features - Kaidan Alenko, EDI
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Kaidan Alenko stood at the outside of the airlock of the Normandy SR-2, which had recently docked on Earth and had been claimed by the Alliance. The ship was sleek, with the silhouette of the original, though Kaidan couldn't associate a Cerberus vessel with the original Normandy without a pang of guilt. He wasn't sure why he had wanted to see the ship, though Councilor Anderson had encouraged him and assured clearance, though being a Spectre already granted such perks.
Kaidan turned to see a young Alliance engineer, bright eyed and bushy tailed, open the airlock door and usher the Spectre inside. Hesitantly at first, he stepped inside, the door sealing silently behind him.
"Cerberus can certainly make a good copy, huh? I mean, it isn't the original Normandy, but it is an excellent copy."
The engineer chattered
Nowhere to Go But Forward - Questions"To fire, set the firing solution to the coordinates of your desired target, keeping in mind of the trajectory of the ammunition and the average velocity of the wind, calculated with the planet's gravitational and centrifugal force aw hell, this makes no sense." Shepard furiously ruffled her hair, puffing the messed up strands out of her face with an exasperated breath, "Why can't it just say 'Aim and hit the pretty red button'?" She tossed the firing manual aside.Nowhere to Go But Forward - Questions3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
She wasn't a technician, never claimed to be one. Firing solutions and coordinates were not her forte. She just shot things. Sure, she had to have some sort of grasp on physics to be able to shoot well. Without a slight understanding, she'd have difficulty hitting the broadside of a building when there was a slight wind, let alone a puny target fifty meters away from her. But concerning the MAKO, its shells had a blast radius large enough that, even if she shot it in the general vicinity of her target, it would
The One Truth - Date NightTitle: The One Truth Date NightThe One Truth - Date Night4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Game: Mass Effect
Characters: Axiom Shepard, Kaidan Alenko
Disclaimer: Mass Effect and all characters from it are owned by Bioware.
Content Warning: Fluff
Alone 8. Accidental RendezvousAlone 8. Accidental Rendezvous4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Title: Alone, 8. Accidental Rendezvous
Game: Mass Effect
Characters: Axiom Shepard, Kaidan Alenko, Joker
Disclaimer: Mass Effect and all characters from it belong to Bioware.
Content Warning: Angst, Sexual Implications, Mild Spoilers
Midnight ComfortIt was late when Shepard left the med bay, which was probably a good thing. Dr Chakwas had left many hours before, not wanting to relive the painful hangover she had had last time they were drinking together. So she left Shepard and the bottle, excusing herself and telling the commander to have at it. So she had. She could barely stand by herself and the last thing she wanted was any of her crew to see her like that. She made it all the way to the elevator in the dark, smiling to herself as she pressed, or more accurately fell onto the call button. She was a ninja, no one could catch her.Midnight Comfort3 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Shepard?" The elevator doors opened just as Kaidan leaned out of his room, clearly curious at who or what would be skulking around the ship at this time of night. He was a soldier, and he had had more than his fair share of ambushes. His war honed senses wouldn't allow him to be caught unawares again. Upon seeing his CO though, he relaxed, smiling a genuine smile that made Shepard's buzzy brain screa
At Last, a Reply... Kaidan found himself thankful that it was dark by the time he had reached his apartment. Granted, it was only midday, but the atmosphere had clouded over in anticipation for a storm, leaving little light that managed to break through the clouds. The lighting seemed appropriate, given his melancholy mood, he thought to himself as he made his way through his apartment. He hadn't bothered clicking on any of the lights when he came home- the natural light coming from the window didn't quite fill the apartment, but it was enough to see where he was going. His weary eyes scanned the space, lingering on his black couch for a moment, trying not to think of when Olivea had cuddled against him there, shortly after the Battle of the Citadel, before his gaze came to rest on his work desk, a soft sigh finally breaking past his lips.At Last, a Reply...4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
The memories there were even more haunting.
Taking my Time A few days later, she found him at Apollo's Café, sitting at a table and looking as though he was trying desperately to keep his mind off their impending date he had asked her on. 'Probably fears the worst. All things considered, can't say I blame him ' she thought to herself, idly smoothing the black leather of her dress. She was grateful that Dr. Chakwas had held onto her old dress from when she aided Kasumi in recovering Keiji's graybox. 'That PVC dress in my closet that Traynor found ' she suppressed a shudder at how downright unflattering that dress looked. Traynor had good intentions in adding that to Samus' wardrobe, but this one was more stunning, to say the very least. She sauntered over to the empty spot at the table he was sitting at, her black lace pumps clicking with each step. She stopped just before the chair he was occupying.Taking my Time3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Kaidan ?" she asked
After Effect Garrus sat high on a ledge watching the bustling commotion far below him, his sniper rifle cradled casually in his arm. Officially, he was supposed to be keeping an eye out for trouble, or at least that is what he had told Alenko before climbing up here, but the truth was that Garrus just needed to get away from everyone for a little while, some time to be alone with his thoughts. He had reluctantly allowed Tali'Zorah to drag him back to London and he did have to admit that, for a time at least, it had been good to be surrounded by friends and comrades, people genuinely happy to see him and speak to him. Eventually, however, he could no longer avoid thinking about her, so he had used the events today as an excuse to get some time away.After Effect3 years ago in Sci-Fi More Like This
A large group of humans was leaving today to go return to their homes here on Earth and see their families, so there was a big production in seeing them off. While no one could begrudge them wanting to retu
Nowhere To Go But Forward - That FeelingSteam clouded the mirror before her, the small bathroom feeling more like a sauna than she knew it should. Shepard wasn't sure if it was because she had been running the hot water for who-knew-how long, or if it was simply because her body refused to cool down. Perhaps it was a combination of both. Truth be told she had forgotten why she walked into the bathroom in the first place.Nowhere To Go But Forward - That Feeling3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
She reached forward to turn the water off when her hand caught her attention, still stained from the previous hours.
"That's right." She said to the empty room. "The geth."
She made a fist, gently digging her fingernails into her palm before opening it again, staring at the splotches of red. She placed it under the scorching water; dark red swirled with clear, scarlet blossoming in the sink, flooding until there was nothing left. But red gave way to pink and eventually faded back to the water's original color, washing away the evidence that was on her hand. She repeated the process with her