Last HopeWhy am I doing this again?
I always do.
Why do I try anymore?
It'll happen again.
What am I doing?
Everything's a mess!
Is it selfish for me to wish the world would end?
I'm going to fail.
It's inevitable now.
Why do I keep trying?
How do I keep going?
I wish someone would save me.
That's not how the world works though.
Will light ever shine in my world?
I don't think it can.
I won't let it.
I bring it upon myself.
Why do I keep this up?
What is the point of me existing?
I'm always the third wheel anyway.
Who'd even miss me that much.
I'm not trying to get attention.
I'm not trying to make excuses.
I'm not trying to take it to far.
But it happens anyway.
There's no escape.
I dug my grave.
With my bare hands, I have been digging for years.
I don't want pity.
I want people to hear me.
I want others to have hope and feel good.
I want something selfish as well.
I want someone to be there with me.
I want someone to automatically be with me like all my friends have.
Someone who wil
Gender asideI want to find the girl that will be by my side through it all.Gender aside2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I want a boy who will stick it out with me in the hardest times.
I want a girl who will hold me close.
I want a boy who will hug me tightly.
I want a girl that I can call "beautiful" because to me she's just that.
I want a boy that I can call "handsome" because he is to me.
I want a girl who is unique and sticks by me.
I want a boy who's different and dedicated.
But all I really want is someone to love me.
PurposeWhen the day holds no meaning, and life has no purpose.Purpose2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When the waves are to high and you can't seem to surface.
When you're lonely and empty inside.
When you feel that you should hide.
Push a little harder and walk another step.
You have purpose, you just haven't noticed yet.
Dirty little secrets Pt.4 Cody's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.44 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Oh my gosh...His parents want to meet me??I was speechless.I had apparently gotten lost in thought because Noah then said "Babe you still there??"."Ya sorry just kind of taking it all in"I said."So dinner??"he asked again.I thought for another moment and then answered with a simple"sure...".He then said "Great!!Well I gotta go tell my parents that it's set up and then they want me to go to bed".
"Awww"I said with sadness in my voice.He then said"aww don't be sad....I'll see you in a little bit anyway"."Your parents are actually letting you come over here...At like 11pm??"I said."I never said they were letting me come"he replied.I blushed at that and giggled slightly."ok bye gorgeous I love you"he said."bye
Dirty little secrets Pt.7 Noah's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.74 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
My dad had asked me"Why the heck is that boy dressed like a girl?"I had a good answer for that question.I told him"I don't know,but he does look hot."My dad just looked at me weird and turned away.A smirk formed on my face.Cody and my mom came back into the room about a minute later.They were in a conversation by the looks of it.My mom started laughing.This is going well so far.
(A little bit later)
Laughter was all through the dining room.I was relaxed now.Everything was going great and it was pretty fun.My parents really seemed to like him.I was starting to think about what I would tell my siblings when time came to tell them.Then there was the sound of the door opening.Everything got quiet."Mom!Dad! I couldn't
Begining of Secrets My eyes slowly fluttered open and I saw bright white light. My head hurt like hell. I put a hand on my aching head and groaned lightly. I felt a bandage wrapped around my forehead that went all around the top of my head. I also soon realized I couldn't move my other arm. I sat up abruptly which made me woozy and I fell back over. Where am I? I look around and realize I'm in the hospital. Before I can freak out I hear an unexpected voice. "Hey you're up. How you feeling?" came the voice from the doorway.Begining of Secrets2 years ago in Profiles More Like This
I look over only to see Blake standing there holding a coffee. He stands there casually despite the fact there's blood on his jeans and T-shirt. I then remember what happened...
"Hey faggot!" I heard from the familiar voice of one of the popular jocks, Danntec. I wanted to tell him to leave me alone or scream for help, but having the foot pushing down on my back made it hard to breathe let
Dirty little secrets Pt.1third person's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.14 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
"Hey babe."said the tan skinned cynical teen. "Hey."said his pale skinny little boyfriend in a quite sad tone. "What's wrong?" asked the tanned teen,referred to as Noah.The young pale boy named Cody simply said "nothings wrong." Noah could tell that he wasn't telling the truth. Noah wrapped his hands around Cody's thin waist and pulled him in close. Noah whispered in Cody's ear in a soft and concerned tone "please tell me baby." Cody couldn't hold it anymore.He began crying.Noah turned him around and held him closer.Cody clutched to Noah's sweater vest.Now Noah has decided to find out what's wrong no matter what.
Cody soon started to calm down a bit.Noah asked him one more time "please tell me."Cody said "ok...i-i'm just so tired of always having to sneek around and act
Dirty little secrets Pt.13 Noah's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.134 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Oh no that stupid betch did NOT just say HER Cody!!She's dead!!!
"He is not YOUR Cody he's MY Cody you stupid little betch!!!"Noah said.I was taken back by his expression mixed with the tone and words he used."Oh no you don't you freaking faggot man stealer!!"I retorted.I saw the anger in his eyes grow.Cody then looked at me and said"WHAT DID YOU JUST CALL HIM!!"
"Cody!!your not like this weirdo!!"I yelled.Cody was standing beside Noah now instead of holding on to him.They both looked incredibly mad.I ran to Cody and tried to hug him.All of a sudden some one yelled be
A New Friend Did he just...blush? No no, it's gotta be in my mind. He's just another Mr. Popular trying to mess with me because I'm queer in both the real and "new" definition of the word. "Here, let me help you." he said as he reached out a hand to help me up. I grabbed his incredibly smooth yet slightly firm hand. He easily helped me to my feet. "Uh, t-thanks." was all I could manage to say. "Hey, you seem pretty cool and I uh...wanted to know if you like...wanted to hang out sometime or something...I think it would be awesome if we could be like friends." he said half rushed.A New Friend3 years ago in Settings More Like This
"Uh, s-sure." I said happily shocked. Wow, this is the nicest I've ever been treated at school. He smiled at me sweetly. I smiled back while looking at the ground. He was about to say something when a bell rang signaling the end of lunch. Oh damn, I forgot I was at school. Dang I also missed my whole lunch. Oh well, It was well worth i
Dirty little secrets Pt.3 Cody's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.34 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
I wondered how Noah's confession was going.My parents weren't home so I have 3 weeks to prepare,but Noah was doing it tonight.I was so worried about what was going on.I swear it felt like I was the one doing it.I wish he would call me and tell me what was going on...
I felt my heart racing.Everything went quiet and still,like time was frozen.I held my breath.I could feel them starring at me.I looked up at them after about a minute.They both just sat there.Shocked expressions were plastered over there faces.
My mom was the first to speak.She looked me in the eyes cleared her throat and began with a shocke
FlashBlake I looked down at the bitterly sweet looking boy cowering in the corner. His fear of those fat headed idiots bluntly obvious. I asked him if he was alright, but he just stared at me like I was speaking a foreign language. I would imagine he'd be shaken up after that. I ask him yet again if he's alright, and I finally get a response.FlashBlake3 years ago in Settings More Like This
"Y-Yeah, I-I'm fine." he says shakily mixed with something I can't quite read. I smile slightly glad that I was able to protect him. He looks so...delicate and...fragile. He's an almost completely pure white color. There's a dark ring of eyeliner under his eyes that's a perfect contrast to his porcelain looking skin. His eyes gleam a demon shade of red, but have no evil in them whatsoever.
It's more like secretive and innocent yet strong even though he's still shaking. His dark black hair, in the li
How do you love someone?How do you love someone?2 years ago in Profiles More Like This
"Rarian?"he said approaching me. "She's no one." I said kind of meanly. He moved my hair curtain out of my face. "You don't have to tell me" he said with that smile that never fails to make me blush. "I'll tell you." I said with a sigh. He smiled a little more and waited for me to continue.
"Well she was my friend when I was little. We were super close and she was super nice to me. My parents always had it set in there minds that I was going to get with her." I said a little nervously,"But as I got older I realized I was...gay. My parents refused to except it and forced me to hang out with her all the time as if it would change me. She got...obsessive." I stopped there hoping he would just take that instead of making me complete the story. He wasn't talking for a while and I was worried that he hated me or something.
Worry RING!Worry2 years ago in Settings More Like This
Finally came the bell signaling the end of class. My hands were cramped from writing two sets of notes. One for me and one for Rarian. 'He pulled a pretty bold move back there messing with Mr. Rioter like that.' I thought as I gathered my stuff and left the classroom. As I was walking down the hallway towards my next class, I saw people starting to gather into a little cluster outside the boy's bathroom door. Something in me said to just keep walking but my curiosity got the better of me and I found myself approaching the group.
I tapped the shoulder of a girl with dark purple hair and pale porcelain colored skin. She turned abruptly with a rather rude "What do you want?" her lip ring flipping slightly as she spoke. I couldn't help but notice she had dark ringed eyes like Rarian exc
Dirty little secrets Pt.16 2-2 Noah's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.16 2-24 years ago in Romance More Like This
I heard someone yell. Oh god I'm caught! It kinda sounded like my mom...*gulp*. I turned slowly to face the person who had caught me. "MYA! What the heck!! You had me so scared!!" I yelled. Yeah it was just my sister and she was laughing at me! "The look on your face was so hilarious!" she said in between laughs. "Shut It MYA!" I said getting angry. "SHUSH! or mom and dad will hear us!" she whispered. "Wait Mya why are you up and dressed anyway?" I whispered. "Ugh...Bye!" she whispered and tried to make a break for the stairs ,but i grabbed her arm. As i grabbed her arm i noticed it..."Oh my god Mya!!" I whisper-yelled. TO BE CONTINUED
Moonlight, A short NoCo storyA short story by: NoCoXDMoonlight, A short NoCo story4 years ago in Profiles More Like This
Noah ran, he ran thru the forest. This dream was beginning to be on Noah's daily basis. But this time something were different. This time, he ran after someone, someone familiar.
Noah waked up whit a gasp. He felt someone, or something in the dark. There were someone there.
A black shadow rushed towards the door, it was the person he chased in the dream. He hurried out of the bed, only wearing a pair of night-pants he walked out in the dark. The silent wind caressed his bare torso while Noah followed the shadow thru the forest.
After a while he came to a lake, and the shadow stoped.
Just then the full moon and the moonlight appeared making the lake bath in mystic, silver light. Noah looked up at the person, who were now light up, it was Cody! Cody had the back turned towards Noah, enjoying the beauty.
Noah walked toward the other teen. ,,It's beautiful.'' Cody said startling Noah. ,,yes, indeed.'' Noah answered. ,,but I don't want to look a
Dirty little secrets Pt.5 Noah's Dad's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.54 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Oh my lord that boy looks like a girl...
Noah's Mom's P.O.V:
He's so...so...ADORABLE!!He is kinda girlish but it's so cute!!
I just stood and smiled.I didn't know what else to do.No one was saying anything.His mom just looked at me smiling.His dad just looked at me with one eyebrow raised.Noah finally spoke.He said "Hey Cody,Come in."I walked inside and Noah shut the door behind me.His parents turned and started walking.Noah grabbed my hand and walked me to the living room.
Dirty little secrets Pt.6 Cody's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.64 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Noah looked so stressed.I squeezed Noah's hand and gave him a warm relaxed smile.He smiled back and i could see a loving glittering in his eyes that made my blush darken.My smile grew a little revealing my gap.We were sending a message through a simple look.He put a hand around my cheek and kissed me on my lips lightly.We pulled away when we heard his parents call"TIME FOR DINNER!!!"My cheeks were still bright red and I saw a hint of blush on Noah.I giggled slightly as Noah lead me to the dining hand in hand.
I just couldn't resist kissing him when his adorable little gap came out.I am SO glad my parents didn't see.As we walked
Dirty little secrets Pt.15 Noah's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.154 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
"WHAT?!?"I yelled."No Cody for 3 days!!This is insanity!!"My sister just stood there with her mouth gaping."Mom!!"she said hoping mom would help us.Mom just said"I'm sorry but this is your punishment."My mouth was wide open but no words would come out.
I finally found the words.I said"I don't care about a F***ing punishment this is f***ing messed up!!"My mom said"NOAH!!You don't need to use such foul language!!"My dad's face showed how mad he was.He then said"lets make it 2 WEEKS!!To bed NOW!!"2 WEEKS!!What!!!I stomped up the stairs.
When I stepped into my room I slammed the door behind me and locked it.I sat on my bed and took in all that had been said.
First kiss "I can't stay..." he said in such a cold tone. "Why not?" I asked. He shook his head and remained silent. He was looking down at the ground with his hair curtaining his face. "Rarian?" I said as I put a hand on his shoulder. He looked up through his hair just slightly. I saw tears trying to edge there way down his face but he was holding them back. Some manage to escape and run down his face lightly. I don't know what's wrong, but this isn't the time to ask about it. Instead, I hug him close but carefully.First kiss2 years ago in Profiles More Like This
I look down to see his face. His eyes are wide and he's blushing lightly. We stare at each other for a moment and I unconsciously inched my face down towards him. *ding* Came the sound of the elevator reaching this floor. He moved out my hold and walked into the elevator with his hair curtaining his face yet again. I
Let Me Show You I kissed him... I kissed him and it was brilliant. It felt so right, but something I did was wrong. I probably stepped out of line with that kiss, but I couldn't resist. Something in me kept telling me to. Kept making him seem so... irresistible. Especially when he would smile. I got so lost in thinking about his smile that I ran into a post. "Ow.God dim it!" I said instead of cussing because that odd kid was still sitting there with his toy car. Tomorrow I'll come back and talk to him.Let Me Show You2 years ago in Profiles More Like This
(The Next Day)
"Down this road here." I said to my dad who had offered to give me a ride. I knew we were headed in the right direction when I saw the little boy with the toy car. "These houses are so old and small." my father remarked sounding disguste
Noco: Late nights pt 1Noah's POVNoco: Late nights pt 14 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I put down my book for a moment, to glare over at the monologue clock on the wall. "1:42 am. Hmm, should I......Nah." I had many thoughts of slumber, but my book was much more intriguing. But, I was starting to yawn a lot, and it was getting quite annoying. So I marked the page and sat my book down on the night stand. I slowly bumped my head on the wooden headboard placed behind my bed. "This is honestly the best hotel Chris could get? That cheap schmuck!" I muttered to myself. It'd been three years since total drama island. Three years since that one moment that changed my life. I woke up 'accidentally' kissing the ear of the cutest boy there. "Cody...." I sighed as something snapped in my head. "What on earth am I thinking? He's obviously into Gwen, and I'll never get Sierra gone!" I clenched my ears, somehow thinking this was all a bad dream, but it was far from it. "UGH." I said as my head was buried into my pillow. ~knock knock~ I hear the faintest noi
NoCo: Late Nights pt3Cody's POVNoCo: Late Nights pt34 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"Well, the-the only reason-I-Um stuttered is because that I-um.....yeah...." I couldn't help but stutter with his dark eyes glaring at me.
"Cody, if you need to tell me something, you know you can. I can keep a secret,y'know." Noah said as he patted his bed side, wanting me to sit down.
"Well, I...." I couldn't think of a good enough lie. So I just kind of made up one. "I'm...uh angry at Duncan (yeah that's it)" He somewhat sighed, like he was upset. Like I'd actually tell him how I feel, he'd hate me forever. But, his cheeks were a little dark, nah, I must be dreaming.
"~sigh~ oh. Okay then." Noah said glumly.
I cocked my head to one side. "Is-Is every thing alright Noah?"
I scooted a little closer to him, and gave him a hug.
"I love you man. Well-um not in that- kind of -yeah way." He started to breathe heavily.
"Cody? I wanted-to um never mind so what about Duncan?" I rolled my eyes and started to explain how much really I wanted to cut off Duncan's hea