Last HopeWhy am I doing this again?
I always do.
Why do I try anymore?
It'll happen again.
What am I doing?
Everything's a mess!
Is it selfish for me to wish the world would end?
I'm going to fail.
It's inevitable now.
Why do I keep trying?
How do I keep going?
I wish someone would save me.
That's not how the world works though.
Will light ever shine in my world?
I don't think it can.
I won't let it.
I bring it upon myself.
Why do I keep this up?
What is the point of me existing?
I'm always the third wheel anyway.
Who'd even miss me that much.
I'm not trying to get attention.
I'm not trying to make excuses.
I'm not trying to take it to far.
But it happens anyway.
There's no escape.
I dug my grave.
With my bare hands, I have been digging for years.
I don't want pity.
I want people to hear me.
I want others to have hope and feel good.
I want something selfish as well.
I want someone to be there with me.
I want someone to automatically be with me like all my friends have.
Someone who wil
Dirty little secrets Pt.7 Noah's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.74 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
My dad had asked me"Why the heck is that boy dressed like a girl?"I had a good answer for that question.I told him"I don't know,but he does look hot."My dad just looked at me weird and turned away.A smirk formed on my face.Cody and my mom came back into the room about a minute later.They were in a conversation by the looks of it.My mom started laughing.This is going well so far.
(A little bit later)
Laughter was all through the dining room.I was relaxed now.Everything was going great and it was pretty fun.My parents really seemed to like him.I was starting to think about what I would tell my siblings when time came to tell them.Then there was the sound of the door opening.Everything got quiet."Mom!Dad! I couldn't
Gender asideI want to find the girl that will be by my side through it all.Gender aside3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I want a boy who will stick it out with me in the hardest times.
I want a girl who will hold me close.
I want a boy who will hug me tightly.
I want a girl that I can call "beautiful" because to me she's just that.
I want a boy that I can call "handsome" because he is to me.
I want a girl who is unique and sticks by me.
I want a boy who's different and dedicated.
But all I really want is someone to love me.
Dirty little secrets Pt.4 Cody's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.44 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Oh my gosh...His parents want to meet me??I was speechless.I had apparently gotten lost in thought because Noah then said "Babe you still there??"."Ya sorry just kind of taking it all in"I said."So dinner??"he asked again.I thought for another moment and then answered with a simple"sure...".He then said "Great!!Well I gotta go tell my parents that it's set up and then they want me to go to bed".
"Awww"I said with sadness in my voice.He then said"aww don't be sad....I'll see you in a little bit anyway"."Your parents are actually letting you come over here...At like 11pm??"I said."I never said they were letting me come"he replied.I blushed at that and giggled slightly."ok bye gorgeous I love you"he said."bye
PurposeWhen the day holds no meaning, and life has no purpose.Purpose3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When the waves are to high and you can't seem to surface.
When you're lonely and empty inside.
When you feel that you should hide.
Push a little harder and walk another step.
You have purpose, you just haven't noticed yet.
Dirty little secrets Pt.3 Cody's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.34 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
I wondered how Noah's confession was going.My parents weren't home so I have 3 weeks to prepare,but Noah was doing it tonight.I was so worried about what was going on.I swear it felt like I was the one doing it.I wish he would call me and tell me what was going on...
I felt my heart racing.Everything went quiet and still,like time was frozen.I held my breath.I could feel them starring at me.I looked up at them after about a minute.They both just sat there.Shocked expressions were plastered over there faces.
My mom was the first to speak.She looked me in the eyes cleared her throat and began with a shocke
Worry RING!Worry3 years ago in Settings More Like This
Finally came the bell signaling the end of class. My hands were cramped from writing two sets of notes. One for me and one for Rarian. 'He pulled a pretty bold move back there messing with Mr. Rioter like that.' I thought as I gathered my stuff and left the classroom. As I was walking down the hallway towards my next class, I saw people starting to gather into a little cluster outside the boy's bathroom door. Something in me said to just keep walking but my curiosity got the better of me and I found myself approaching the group.
I tapped the shoulder of a girl with dark purple hair and pale porcelain colored skin. She turned abruptly with a rather rude "What do you want?" her lip ring flipping slightly as she spoke. I couldn't help but notice she had dark ringed eyes like Rarian exc
Begining of Secrets My eyes slowly fluttered open and I saw bright white light. My head hurt like hell. I put a hand on my aching head and groaned lightly. I felt a bandage wrapped around my forehead that went all around the top of my head. I also soon realized I couldn't move my other arm. I sat up abruptly which made me woozy and I fell back over. Where am I? I look around and realize I'm in the hospital. Before I can freak out I hear an unexpected voice. "Hey you're up. How you feeling?" came the voice from the doorway.Begining of Secrets3 years ago in Profiles More Like This
I look over only to see Blake standing there holding a coffee. He stands there casually despite the fact there's blood on his jeans and T-shirt. I then remember what happened...
"Hey faggot!" I heard from the familiar voice of one of the popular jocks, Danntec. I wanted to tell him to leave me alone or scream for help, but having the foot pushing down on my back made it hard to breathe let
How do you love someone?How do you love someone?3 years ago in Profiles More Like This
"Rarian?"he said approaching me. "She's no one." I said kind of meanly. He moved my hair curtain out of my face. "You don't have to tell me" he said with that smile that never fails to make me blush. "I'll tell you." I said with a sigh. He smiled a little more and waited for me to continue.
"Well she was my friend when I was little. We were super close and she was super nice to me. My parents always had it set in there minds that I was going to get with her." I said a little nervously,"But as I got older I realized I was...gay. My parents refused to except it and forced me to hang out with her all the time as if it would change me. She got...obsessive." I stopped there hoping he would just take that instead of making me complete the story. He wasn't talking for a while and I was worried that he hated me or something.
A New Friend Did he just...blush? No no, it's gotta be in my mind. He's just another Mr. Popular trying to mess with me because I'm queer in both the real and "new" definition of the word. "Here, let me help you." he said as he reached out a hand to help me up. I grabbed his incredibly smooth yet slightly firm hand. He easily helped me to my feet. "Uh, t-thanks." was all I could manage to say. "Hey, you seem pretty cool and I uh...wanted to know if you like...wanted to hang out sometime or something...I think it would be awesome if we could be like friends." he said half rushed.A New Friend3 years ago in Settings More Like This
"Uh, s-sure." I said happily shocked. Wow, this is the nicest I've ever been treated at school. He smiled at me sweetly. I smiled back while looking at the ground. He was about to say something when a bell rang signaling the end of lunch. Oh damn, I forgot I was at school. Dang I also missed my whole lunch. Oh well, It was well worth i
FlashBlake I looked down at the bitterly sweet looking boy cowering in the corner. His fear of those fat headed idiots bluntly obvious. I asked him if he was alright, but he just stared at me like I was speaking a foreign language. I would imagine he'd be shaken up after that. I ask him yet again if he's alright, and I finally get a response.FlashBlake3 years ago in Settings More Like This
"Y-Yeah, I-I'm fine." he says shakily mixed with something I can't quite read. I smile slightly glad that I was able to protect him. He looks so...delicate and...fragile. He's an almost completely pure white color. There's a dark ring of eyeliner under his eyes that's a perfect contrast to his porcelain looking skin. His eyes gleam a demon shade of red, but have no evil in them whatsoever.
It's more like secretive and innocent yet strong even though he's still shaking. His dark black hair, in the li
First kiss "I can't stay..." he said in such a cold tone. "Why not?" I asked. He shook his head and remained silent. He was looking down at the ground with his hair curtaining his face. "Rarian?" I said as I put a hand on his shoulder. He looked up through his hair just slightly. I saw tears trying to edge there way down his face but he was holding them back. Some manage to escape and run down his face lightly. I don't know what's wrong, but this isn't the time to ask about it. Instead, I hug him close but carefully.First kiss3 years ago in Profiles More Like This
I look down to see his face. His eyes are wide and he's blushing lightly. We stare at each other for a moment and I unconsciously inched my face down towards him. *ding* Came the sound of the elevator reaching this floor. He moved out my hold and walked into the elevator with his hair curtaining his face yet again. I
Let Me Show You I kissed him... I kissed him and it was brilliant. It felt so right, but something I did was wrong. I probably stepped out of line with that kiss, but I couldn't resist. Something in me kept telling me to. Kept making him seem so... irresistible. Especially when he would smile. I got so lost in thinking about his smile that I ran into a post. "Ow.God dim it!" I said instead of cussing because that odd kid was still sitting there with his toy car. Tomorrow I'll come back and talk to him.Let Me Show You3 years ago in Profiles More Like This
(The Next Day)
"Down this road here." I said to my dad who had offered to give me a ride. I knew we were headed in the right direction when I saw the little boy with the toy car. "These houses are so old and small." my father remarked sounding disguste
BeautifulThey say that beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.Beautiful3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Well then, I know beautiful.
Beautiful is the feel of another man's arms around me.
The way he looks into my eyes like I'm all he can see.
How the words I love you fall from his lips like a gentle rain.
Not caring who approves of what we are or could be.
It's that beauty that I search for day in and day out.
But what was that other euphemism.....?
Beauty can be deceiving?