Last HopeWhy am I doing this again?
I always do.
Why do I try anymore?
It'll happen again.
What am I doing?
Everything's a mess!
Is it selfish for me to wish the world would end?
I'm going to fail.
It's inevitable now.
Why do I keep trying?
How do I keep going?
I wish someone would save me.
That's not how the world works though.
Will light ever shine in my world?
I don't think it can.
I won't let it.
I bring it upon myself.
Why do I keep this up?
What is the point of me existing?
I'm always the third wheel anyway.
Who'd even miss me that much.
I'm not trying to get attention.
I'm not trying to make excuses.
I'm not trying to tak
Gender asideI want to find the girl that will be by my side through it all.Gender aside10 months ago in Emotional More Like This
I want a boy who will stick it out with me in the hardest times.
I want a girl who will hold me close.
I want a boy who will hug me tightly.
I want a girl that I can call "beautiful" because to me she's just that.
I want a boy that I can call "handsome" because he is to me.
I want a girl who is unique and sticks by me.
I want a boy who's different and dedicated.
But all I really want is someone to love me.
PurposeWhen the day holds no meaning, and life has no purpose.Purpose10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
When the waves are to high and you can't seem to surface.
When you're lonely and empty inside.
When you feel that you should hide.
Push a little harder and walk another step.
You have purpose, you just haven't noticed yet.
A New Friend Did he just...blush? No no, it's gotta be in my mind. He's just another Mr. Popular trying to mess with me because I'm queer in both the real and "new" definition of the word. "Here, let me help you." he said as he reached out a hand to help me up. I grabbed his incredibly smooth yet slightly firm hand. He easily helped me to my feet. "Uh, t-thanks." was all I could manage to say. "Hey, you seem pretty cool and I uh...wanted to know if you like...wanted to hang out sometime or something...I think it would be awesome if we could be like friends." he said half rushed.A New Friend1 year ago in Settings More Like This
"Uh, s-sure." I said happily shocked. Wow, this is the nices
FlashBlake I looked down at the bitterly sweet looking boy cowering in the corner. His fear of those fat headed idiots bluntly obvious. I asked him if he was alright, but he just stared at me like I was speaking a foreign language. I would imagine he'd be shaken up after that. I ask him yet again if he's alright, and I finally get a response.FlashBlake1 year ago in Settings More Like This
"Y-Yeah, I-I'm fine." he says shakily mixed with something I can't quite read. I smile slightly glad that I was able to protect him. He looks so...delicate and...fragile. He's an almost completely pure white color. There's a dark ring of eyeliner under his eyes that's a perfect contrast to his po
Begining of Secrets My eyes slowly fluttered open and I saw bright white light. My head hurt like hell. I put a hand on my aching head and groaned lightly. I felt a bandage wrapped around my forehead that went all around the top of my head. I also soon realized I couldn't move my other arm. I sat up abruptly which made me woozy and I fell back over. Where am I? I look around and realize I'm in the hospital. Before I can freak out I hear an unexpected voice. "Hey you're up. How you feeling?" came the voice from the doorway.Begining of Secrets10 months ago in Profiles More Like This
I look over only to see Blake standing there holding a coffee. He stands there casually despite the fact there's blood on h
Dirty little secrets Pt.7 Noah's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.72 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
My dad had asked me"Why the heck is that boy dressed like a girl?"I had a good answer for that question.I told him"I don't know,but he does look hot."My dad just looked at me weird and turned away.A smirk formed on my face.Cody and my mom came back into the room about a minute later.They were in a conversation by the looks of it.My mom started laughing.This is going well so far.
(A little bit later)
Laughter was all through the dining room.I was relaxed now.Everything was going great and it was pretty fun.My parents really seemed to like him.I was starting to think about what I woul
Dirty little secrets Pt.4 Cody's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.42 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Oh my gosh...His parents want to meet me??I was speechless.I had apparently gotten lost in thought because Noah then said "Babe you still there??"."Ya sorry just kind of taking it all in"I said."So dinner??"he asked again.I thought for another moment and then answered with a simple"sure...".He then said "Great!!Well I gotta go tell my parents that it's set up and then they want me to go to bed".
"Awww"I said with sadness in my voice.He then said"aww don't be sad....I'll see you in a little bit anyway"."Your parents are actually letting you come over here...At like 11pm??"I said."I n
Why did I have to say Hello?When I first saw her...Why did I have to say Hello?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I felt something strange.
I felt like I knew her,
or I had to know her.
I said hello.
Plain and so simple? No.
I saw here again later.
I felt like i needed to meet her,
and know all about her.
I gave her a compliment.
She smiled and said thank you.
I felt something more.
We sat together in choir
Later we walked to lunch together,
and sat together.
Then walked to our lockers together.
Then went to class.
We sat together again in our last class.
We kept waving at each other randomly.
Cheyenne.I love her name.
We were best friends the first day we met.
I think I have a crush on her.
I had to tell he
Let Me Show You I kissed him... I kissed him and it was brilliant. It felt so right, but something I did was wrong. I probably stepped out of line with that kiss, but I couldn't resist. Something in me kept telling me to. Kept making him seem so... irresistible. Especially when he would smile. I got so lost in thinking about his smile that I ran into a post. "Ow.God dim it!" I said instead of cussing because that odd kid was still sitting there with his toy car. Tomorrow I'll come back and talk to him.Let Me Show You9 months ago in Profiles More Like This
(The Next Day)
"Down this road here." I said to my dad who had o
Worry RING!Worry10 months ago in Settings More Like This
Finally came the bell signaling the end of class. My hands were cramped from writing two sets of notes. One for me and one for Rarian. 'He pulled a pretty bold move back there messing with Mr. Rioter like that.' I thought as I gathered my stuff and left the classroom. As I was walking down the hallway towards my next class, I saw people starting to gather into a little cluster outside the boy's bathroom door. Something in me said to just keep walking but my curiosity got the better of me and I found myself approaching the group.
I tapped the shoulder of a girl with dark purple hair and pale porcelain c
First kiss "I can't stay..." he said in such a cold tone. "Why not?" I asked. He shook his head and remained silent. He was looking down at the ground with his hair curtaining his face. "Rarian?" I said as I put a hand on his shoulder. He looked up through his hair just slightly. I saw tears trying to edge there way down his face but he was holding them back. Some manage to escape and run down his face lightly. I don't know what's wrong, but this isn't the time to ask about it. Instead, I hug him close but carefully.First kiss10 months ago in Profiles More Like This
I look down to see his face. His eyes are wide and he's blushing lightly. We stare at each other for a moment
Who have I become?Twisting. Grinding. Bleeding.Who have I become?8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Falling down the pit again.
I want to break from the chains.
The depression takes over.
All will is lost in a fog.
Who have I become?
HollowHollow emptiness.Hollow9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A blank page.
An empty mind.
some place unknown.
Dirty little secrets Pt.1 third person's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.12 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
"Hey babe."said the tan skinned cynical teen. "Hey."said his pale skinny little boyfriend in a quite sad tone. "What's wrong?" asked the tanned teen,referred to as Noah.The young pale boy named Cody simply said "nothings wrong." Noah could tell that he wasn't telling the truth. Noah wrapped his hands around Cody's thin waist and pulled him in close. Noah whispered in Cody's ear in a soft and concerned tone "please tell me baby." Cody couldn't hold it anymore.He began crying.Noah turned him around and held him closer.Cody clutched to Noah's sweater vest.Now Noah has decided to find out what's wrong no mat
Dirty little secrets Pt.13 Noah's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.132 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Oh no that stupid betch did NOT just say HER Cody!!She's dead!!!
"He is not YOUR Cody he's MY Cody you stupid little betch!!!"Noah said.I was taken back by his expression mixed with the tone and words he used."Oh no you don't you freaking faggot man stealer!!"I retorted.I saw the anger in his eyes grow.Cody then looked at me and said"WHAT DID YOU JUST CALL HIM!!"
"Cody!!your not like this weirdo!!"I yelled.Cody was standing beside Noah now instead of holding on to him.They both looked incredibly mad.I ran to Cody and tried to hug him.All of a s
In My Closet...I have pudding in my closet...In My Closet...1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have a violin in my closet...
I have Swedish fish in my closet...
I have a cape in my closet...
I have sour patch kids in my closet...
I have two printers in my closet...
I have a sleeping bag in my closet...
I have socks in my closet...
I have chocolate mint in my closet...
I have clothes in my closet...
I have plastic bags in my closet...
But one thing NOT in my closet is ME
Dirty little secrets Pt.16 2-2 Noah's P.O.V:Dirty little secrets Pt.16 2-22 years ago in Romance More Like This
I heard someone yell. Oh god I'm caught! It kinda sounded like my mom...*gulp*. I turned slowly to face the person who had caught me. "MYA! What the heck!! You had me so scared!!" I yelled. Yeah it was just my sister and she was laughing at me! "The look on your face was so hilarious!" she said in between laughs. "Shut It MYA!" I said getting angry. "SHUSH! or mom and dad will hear us!" she whispered. "Wait Mya why are you up and dressed anyway?" I whispered. "Ugh...Bye!" she whispered and tried to make a break for the stairs ,but i grabbed her arm. As i grabbed her arm i noticed it..."Oh my god Mya!!" I whi
Home. "We're almost there! My house is just up ahead." Blake said to me with a smile. I nodded while trying to ignore the feeling that I was being watched. I looked all around, but didn't see anyone looking at me. I looked around once more. That time I spotted him. There was a boy with bright orange hair and green eyes starring at me, completely unfazed by the fact I had spotted him. He had square rimmed glasses and expensive looking headphones on. Who is he? Why is he starring at me? He looks vaguely familiar, but I just can't seem to remember where I'd seen him before.Home.9 months ago in Profiles More Like This
How do you love someone?How do you love someone?9 months ago in Profiles More Like This
"Rarian?"he said approaching me. "She's no one." I said kind of meanly. He moved my hair curtain out of my face. "You don't have to tell me" he said with that smile that never fails to make me blush. "I'll tell you." I said with a sigh. He smiled a little more and waited for me to continue.
"Well she was my friend when I was little. We were super close and she was super nice to me. My parents always had it set in there minds that I was going to get with her." I said a little nervou
Photographs Mark The Past Today has been quite eventful. No, I think crazy might be a better word. Now was a relaxing moment actually. A complete contrast to the rest of the day. We were walking down the road in a comfortable silence. We started to go down a road that I had never gone down before. The houses were old and falling apart. The street was quiet with the exception of a little boy playing with a red toy car. The little boy stared at us as we walked past but remained silent.Photographs Mark The Past9 months ago in Profiles More Like This
Everything was to quiet. "Uh...Rarian?" I said disturbing the quiet. "Hmm?" he responded with a glance in my direction. "Why's it so quiet?" I asked with a
BackwardsA hand reaches out.Backwards10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The world fades.
Roses fall from the ground.
Rain grows in the sky.
The dead dance.
The living lay.
I love becomes I hate.
I want becomes I don't.
Today becomes tomorrow.
Tomorrow becomes today.
In the backwards world.
The CourtCase: The JuryRoom Day I Part IThree: Hello, everyone. I understand that this is not an ideal case.The CourtCase: The JuryRoom Day I Part I11 months ago in Personal More Like This
One: No shit, Sherlock. It is not ideal to have to discover the fate of a faggot.
Twelve: 'e migh' as well call 'im by 'is name.
Four: Could you repeat that?
Two: Forget it! Look, I have done this before, thus I should be the foreman.
Three: I have been in politics, thus I should be the foreman.
Two: Wanna fight me on it?
Nine: Your wishes are not on trial. The more experienced, however, should take the chair.
Eleven: Sit your Indian-ass down, bitch!
Ten: Shush up! We might as well try to cooperate.
Four: I for one could actually care less what the verdict is.
Eight: Oh, really? And what makes you so special Ms. Furcoat?
Four: I have a cruise to catch with my estranged lover.
Six: 'An estranged lover', hm?
Eleven: It must be a girl.
Four: Ew! No, it is my horny secretary. Now, may we please stop discussing my personal agenda.
Eight: You started it!
Four: Shut up! I cannot believe they ever let you out of Harlem.
What is Perfect Love?No more.What is Perfect Love?10 months ago in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
I just can't take it any more of having to walk around and trying to pretend Im someone Im not.
For years, I'd hid my true self.
Ever since I found out who I was, I had locked myself in the closet.
I can still recall the smells of fabric and the feel of wool on my face. Yes, I was a bit too big to fit inside comfortably, but my own fear of what they would do if they ever found out had made me regardless.
It isn't shame that kept me in the closet. Its the fear of prejudice.
I am the trapped bird that has finally been let out.
The time to spread my wings and show the world my pride of who I really am has finally arrived and