Warm Me"The world is big and I am small,
I am short and the world is tall.
The world is cruel and I am hurt,
The world is cold and full of dirt."
The melody of a children's song
Echoed through the empty floor
When the shadow of a former self
Marched towards that certain door.
Behind that door there was a short shelf,
Drawers unlocked by a key
Agile fingers had stolen before.
The lighter was found with glee.
"The world is big and I am small,
The world is too deaf for my call.
The world is cruel and turned away,
The world is cold and has to pay!"
Like ice the darkened walls did glisten
On the floor there was a lake.
The last canister soon was empty
And the pale hand did not shake.
With a soft hiss the flame's brought to life.
It stretched and began to dance.
A hand tried touching it tenderly
Staring eyes entered a trance.
"The world is big and I was small,
It never did love me at all.
But with you the tables will turn!
But with you my friend, it will burn!"
Frightful MeetingShe ran into the woods aloneFrightful Meeting2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Until she reached an ancient stone
A forgotten giant's ashen bone
Overgrown by moss and firs
Where there was the love of hers
But not joy guided her today
Not happiness showed her the way
As rain fell from a sky led gray
Saltwater ran down her face
When she reached their meeting place
Adorned with a ruby red stain
A body awaited her slain
Causing such unbearable pain
Whom she'd given her heart to
Now had his own cut in two
Jelousy, the bitter passion
This cruel scenery did fashion
Where he ended up as ashen
and cold as the stone and sky
Made the loved girl want to die
Winter BluesA blanket fallen from the cloudsWinter Blues2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Covers the land as snow falls down,
So white, white as a wedding gown,
White, white as the burial shrouds.
The firs wear coats made of snow,
The solemn silence like mist soars
To mountain tops from valley floors,
Silence of graves does follow.
Lonely cart tracks slowly fade,
Now they only lead to nowhere,
Their origin is no longer there,
Soon they are but a white shade
A blanket fallen from the sky
Covers the peaceful land below
With the innocently white snow
Comes the cold that lets us die.
BeautyOnce upon a dream there was a boyBeauty2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
who whispered metaphors into his blankets
in the dead of the night. he pǝuɹnʇ them
over and twisted them and s t r e t c h e d them
searching for the melody that would define him.
what he didn't know is that his ears were traitors;
they rejected every rhyme without a trace of shame
and never allowed him to realize that his melodies
were real music, were beauty and love woven
into delicate threads; he only heard cacophony.
night after night he struggled and agonized
never satisfied with any combination of notes
always concluding that he was inferior to the world.
on the other side of the fence, close and far away
a girl with with stars in her eyes cried; her tears
were of the purest silver, the plainest pain.
she cried for verses lost to the valley of her strife
for missed opportunities and bro/ken hearts of iron.
their paths strayed along the leafy jungle of time
l i t t e r e
HousecatI don't care if you say you love meHousecat2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Take care of me, but let me be free
Fresh water, food in my bowl,
I am someone you cannot control
That is all I want from you
Satisfied I'll forever be true
But neglect me, and I'll be on my way
To find myself a better place to stay
We kill angelsWe take the kindness for granted whenWe kill angels2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
We think that we deserve it but then
The angel we owe this to falls finally
We wonder aloud and we wonder why
And over the angel we broke we cry
Still we can't see we caused it initially
It's too easy to make angels fall
While wond'ring "Where are the angels all?"
It's so easy to push them over the edge
By demanding and taking it all, yet
We never give, never repay the debt
Tell me, what excuse do we have to allege?
Oh, leeches we are, vampires feeding
On angels' hearts, don't see they're needing
Kind words once in a while, arms to hold them, too
Why do we not tell them they are precious
Instead we're treating them so malicious-
ly, We kill angels, we're hell and them is woe
My Master's VoiceI screamed at him "I'm leaving!"My Master's Voice2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
He smiled and said "okay"
I said "no, for once I mean it
This time you wont make me stay"
But bags were never really packed
And that night in our bed I lay
The taste of blood on my lips
Still remained there the next day
I screamed at him "please stop this!
I am the Mother to your child
Baby, I know you have a temper
I know my ways make you so wild"
"But I promise I'll try harder
Not to push your buttons so much"
With that the beast resumed control
As I quiver at each stolen touch
They scream at me to leave him
To them it's such a simple choice
But it's been so long since I've heard
Anything but my master's voice
To the point that I no longer know
My own mind or my own heart
But today he said he's sorry again
And tomorrow will be a fresh start
SolitudeToday, this is the word that sticks most in my mindSolitude2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
Flowing into my ears, to my brain
Like slick, black oil
Sinking into me
Making me cold
And leaving me bereft of happiness
Dance With MeCan you teach me how to danceDance With Me2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Show me each step and stance?
I want to dance with you away
Into a brighter day
Let us waltz across the room
Just like we're bride and groom
Let us dance over the sea
Across the stars and moonbeams
Let us sway into the night
Where we're painted in silver light
Let us dance through the fire
As we make a path of desire
Let us sway into the stars
A tango set us free from pain
And samba brings us throu the rain
Let us dance until the end
Forever I'll hold your hand
The only rythm that we need
is your steady heart beat
The songs of love only we hear
Tenderly in each others ear
And we both now it is true
As we both whisper, "I love you."
About HateWhen hate is a fire, then it's burning cold.About Hate2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
All consuming, raging uncontrolled.
Hot tears are burning in eyes and on skin,
Unable to calm the storm within.
The consumptive flame turns from red to white.
Burns down borders between wrong and right,
Disoriented reason leads astray.
Lined with ash and debris is the way.
Beneath the heat of raging fire is ice,
For firstly the cold did heat entice.
When freezing the heart in its icy grip.
The shell won't melt, won't break or rip.
A House Of CardsDesperate, she searches for a wayA House Of Cards2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To leave all the pain behind
Yet the only one she can find
Always causes so much more
After a tiny moment of false peace
She just woke up again
Alone and tired of holding on
Tired of fighting, staying strong
when everyone believes she's fine
Even you who should know better
You were her love, her light, her life
Proving it all was worth the strife
You were her prince and the guard
She was fragile like a house of cards
You ensured you'd be there for her
No matter what she had to go through
But then, of all peple it was you
Who said he couldn't stay with her
Drove the knive into her back and heart
You were the wind to lift her up
But now you became her death cup
When suddenly your love discards
She collapses like a house of cards
Murderer!you killed her when you said these wordsMurderer!2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You killed what's left of her heart
You killed her trust in herself
You killed her trust in love
You killed her will to live
You killed her!
Obituary Of A FriendshipAfter all this time we finally meet again.Obituary Of A Friendship2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm excited to hear how you've been, my friend.
But when you start to talk I start to abstain.
While I smile, secretly I wish for this to end.
We're thrown back into a time that ended long ago.
What we had in common does not matter anymore.
Again you want a shoulder so you can have a good cry.
I am diplomatic though I sense this friendship does die.
About all the tragedies that happend to you I shall know
While I cannot tell you why my smile becomes so sore.
I am really sorry that things have come to this.
We used to be good friends but we both have changed.
I treasure what we had, but you I won't miss,
Once we parted ways and the goodbyes are exchanged.
We've grown apart and the distance between us is vast.
You talk so much and more yet still nothing has been said.
The conversation runs dry, as it dies we start to brag
About what we achieved, but that's just hoisting the white flag.
There is no sense in trying to keep alive what's dead.
MuteI rip out my vocal cordsMute2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
One at a time
With no disregard towards
The blood and gore I'm
Getting on my rotting palms
No one cares anyways
They wouldn't care if I was dropping bombs
They're too wrapped up in their own days
Why make myself mute
Now they can't hear me complain
About my oh so very cute
And insignificant pain
Now they won't need
To suffer anymore
They will be freed
From me, only a constant sore
Why...The weak heart wants to breakWhy...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To burst and release the pain
and tears contained inside
But still is has to stay strong.
Strong enough to force a smile
Strong enough to face the one
Who shattered it in the first place.
And when the heart can't take no more
When the pieces lay on the floor
And the blood runs dry
The question left is "Why?"
After the fightPicking up the shardsAfter the fight2 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Of what cracked and fell apart
Though they pierce my heart.
Head and heartThe simple thought is enoughHead and heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To encumber me with grief
The bitter tears froze on the cheeks
And can't ease the pain within
The simple truth of loosing you
The simple weight of forever
Weights down the eloquent tongue
And lets me choke on tears uncried
The head knows it's part of life
Yet the heart refuses to accept
While fruitless hope takes roots
Denying the inevitable truth
Another artifact of childhood days
The last object of innocent, implicit love
Is dying too slow while dying too fast.
The head collects and stores memories
Of the laughs and fun we once shared.
Recalls the adventures and the songs
Of bygone days when you still had a goal
When did the life burning inside
Became a flame instead of a fire
And when was it blown out?
Only fading smoke is left...
The head repeats the mantras of comfort
"Old people die", "death is part of life"
As if those insights were something new.
It can't stop the heart from mourning
A loved one's decay in fast motion
And missing what will be lost f
Death is knockingDeath knocks at my door.Death is knocking2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I pretend I'm not around,
Hoping he would leave.
But he's just the messenger
For the mourning yet to come
Death keeps on knocking.
There is no way to fool him.
He knows my place well.
No matter where I move to,
He never fails finding me
Death is still knocking.
I give in, open the door.
"It's been quite a while."
He's acting like an old friend
While he tells who died this time.
RetributionA black stripe covers the skyRetribution2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A dark storm is approaching fast
Trouble is brewing, danger in delay
Soon deep night will fall during midday
Old quarrels erupt from the past
New hate's born from truths awry
The only light's a red glow
Like of the inky sky a threat
Getting brighter and brighter until
For a short moment, the world stands still
Then the sky is burning crimson red
And burning stars fall like snow
Dies irae dies illa
solvet saeculum in favilla
The world is consumed by fire
Burning winds roll across the lands
The water becomes the blood of dead
On the scorched earth hungry flames do spread
The glaring light shines through our hands
No salvation from straits dire
Horae irae horae illa
solvent saeculum in favilla
"Oh God almighty, save me
From this. Have mercy on me, please!
What have I done to deserve this fate?"
People start praying but it's too late.
My revenge nothing can appease.
No remorse, no prayer from thee.
Facta illa facta irae
Hic tempus ultiones mea
GranddadNo words can describe the hurt that resides now within me. It fills a hole of your shape, showing as many facettes as you used to have. But the tears it causes, they aren't the tears of joys you always caused. I miss you. I misss you so much, though you're just gone for a almost two days. We haven#t talked for weeks before you were sent to hospital. We didn't tlak much when I last saw you there. But mostly because I was fighting tears already. I didn't want you to see me cry, not when you were still alive. But when you spoke of your funeral, did you notice me looking away? Did you see I stared out of the window instead of looking at you? Did you wonder why? Or did you know?Granddad2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I can't name my earliest memory, but I since you're gone, the memories of you come back, even those I thought I have forgotten.
Do you remember your old house? The old farming house with the ancient toilet in the garden. I wonder of the stain at the kitchen ceiling is still there. You enjoyed making the child that I
25. LurkingFrom my dark room I see right25. Lurking2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Into yours filled with light
Gossamer courtains frame the scene
Of you staring at your T.V. screen.
I have no need for T.V.
You're all I want to see
But there is that man by your side
Who doesn't deserve you, I wish he died
I watch you leaving for work
While in my room I lurk
Hours pass and patiently I wait
For you to return home about eight
I see him kissing your lips
And his cursed finger tips
Desecrating your skin so fine
You shouldn't be with him you should be mine!
I left my dark room and went outside
Wait in the shadows where I did hide
And I wait for you to walk by
The attack was quick, just a sigh
Was heard before you fell
Down, it all went so well
Now we're together, my dear
But why, why are you in fear?
Please forgive me gagging you
Something I had to do
Your screaming was so very loud
That's why to speak you are not allowed
What is wrong you look so sick
Is this another trick?
So you can try to get away
Just like you did on the oth
Modern WitchcraftTell me, how does it workModern Witchcraft2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The invisible date stream?
Why can the touch of a hand
Change so much on screen?
Smoke's strangeness all around
And the haze of a careful flame
The minute hand quietly moves
It is time to strike twelve
One simple movement
Changes meaning at once
Press to start a new world
Unfolding in your hand
Smoke stops, blazes burn
A glowing green light
And the soft beat of drums
Blazing brilliantly in obscurity
A voice resounded
Music starts play
A whole orchestra
Coming from my hand
It is a symphony of color
One which shines as an Aurora
These Spirits begin to dance
Much like that of Borealis Beauty
Then suddenly a click
A moment taken from reality
Is captured in my hand
The aura of techonology
With that of this strange feeling
They are an aurora of creation
Together linked for eternity
Where Things Went WrongI think I owe you an apologyWhere Things Went Wrong2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
For the way I acted towards you.
Ignoring my own advice I failed
To follow the rules I made for me.
I still don't know what's wrong with me,
Neither why I took it out on you.
So here I stand and wonder if
We can go back to how we once were.
"I am sorry for what I did",
These words I can't force out.
Trying to solve a puzzle I can't see
I wonder where things went wrong.
Where things went wrong
Maybe I just wasn't aware of how thin
My usually thick skin had become.
While I went into the swamp of doubts
And depression to help others out.
I've sunken in without noticing
Until it all went so very wrong.
Or maybe the constantly "fuck you"
Of a friend hurt more than I did know.
"I am sorry for what I did",
These words I can't force out.
Trying to solve a puzzle I can't see.
I wonder where things went wrong.
Where things went wrong
There are still more things I could bring up,
Like the anniversary of death.
But I am not sure, if I were you,
If I could be satisfied
Backstabber!I don't know how this startedBackstabber!2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And I don't really want to.
I don't need to know that to see
Who crossed the line
Who aimed beneath the belt
And backstabbed a trusting heart.
Are you happy now?
A fragile soul was stumbling,
The vision clouded by doubts.
The light in such dark hours
The crutch on shaking ground
Are rare treasures in this world
You successfully used them as disguise
Are you happy now?
When someone has nothing left
Except for those who give their best
To find reasons to hold on one more day
To withstand the deadly siren once more
When all there is are true friends
And you take away the trust
What will happen now? Guess...
Wet LeavesThe leaves clungWet Leaves5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to their branches for weeks. Yesterday
the wind rattled these old
houses and they flew,
spinning, downwards, to
coat the streets in brilliant hues
that crunched beneath
my eager feet.
This morning, rain fell. The
once-a-year magic turned to technicolour
frustrating in its brilliance,
but at least the clouds
and invited me to glower
back at them, apologetic for the
loss and the pain they had
caused in their powerful glee.
We were at a stalemate, glower
I did, and they
were sorry and knew that I
knew, but would not apologize. They simply
and allowed me to scold them, tolerant
of this strange girl
taking their actions
"It's our nature" they wailed, and
burst, pounding me, crushing me
into a scarlet maple leaf.