.:Just want you back:.
A tears slides down your cheek as you stare into the abyss before you, no need to think…why should you? Thinking only hurts. You run your hand over your cheek for the twentieth? Hundredth time? To stop the tears that will never stop. And you know that. Deep down you know that nothing will ever fix this….nothing will ever fill the hole in your heart. Nothing will bring the spark back into your eyes like he did. Just a glance from him….his eyes shining with mischief could make this world a brighter place…no… Your eyes they are red…puffy….soulless….have been since the day he went. He isn't coming back…but you don't want to believe and maybe he will come back…or that is what you keep telling yourself…let's face it…it's impossible for him to come back. It is never going to happen. Your eyes stayed fixed on the blaze dancing in front of you…you don't know how the fire in the fireplace started…you don't remember anyone being in here…then again you never move or notice…someone could come in he
Lipgloss -brohnny-"Matt? Matt, do you have any lipstick?"Lipgloss -brohnny-3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Matt grunted, once again being woken by Brian above him, asking another stupid question. He sat up in bed, sighing as Zacky rubbed his eyes open and grabbed the duvet, wrapping it around himself and groaning into the pillow.
"Brian, why the fuck would I have lipstick?" Matt grunted, glaring at Brian as best as he could at 3 am. Brian gave Matt a ridiculously innocent look, jutting his bottom lip out in an attempt to get sympathy from the younger man.
"Does Zacky have any? Or at least some lipgloss?"
"What the fuck do you need lipgloss for at this time in the fucking morning?" Matt snapped, frowning at the tanned man above him. Brian let out a hurt whimper, keeping his stupid pout on his face.
"Zacky, do you have any-"
"I have some fucking lipgloss in our bathroom, just take it and leave, please," Zacky grunted, his voice muffled by the pillow. Brian chirped a thanks to Zacky before running in the bathroom and rummaging through the cabinets
Drenched In SinFor the third day in a row, Brian spits out a mouthful of blood into the pearly white sink, his head pounding louder than two trains crashing into each other as he glances at himself in the mirror. He sighs at the sight of his eyes looking like they’ve been punched due to lack of sleep, and the little trail of blood dribbling from his mouth to his chin and dripping slowly into the basin, his hair is greasy and his nose looks bent out of shape, and it all makes him want to cry. He hears the floorboards outside the bathroom creak and he shudders, wiping the blood from his chin with a piece of toilet paper and dropping it into the little bin by the sink before turning the cold water tap on and splashing his face to freshen himself up a little, letting the excess blood in the sink drain away with the water before stepping out of the small bathroom, coming face to face with Matt.Drenched In Sin2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
“You took your time in there,” Matt cocks an eyebrow and Brian tips his head up a little to lo
Macky mpreg requestMacky mpreg request3 years ago in Drama More Like This
"Matt?" Zacky whispered to the dark room. He heard quiet breaths coming from the man next to him, but not a proper response. "Matt, are you awake?" Still, nothing but quiet snores served as an answer. Zacky rolled over on his side, with some struggle, so he was facing his sleeping boyfriend. He shook him gently a couple times before whispering his name again. This time he earned himself a quiet groan from Matt before he finally opened his eyes.
"Zacky? Do you know what time it is?" He asked groggily, slightly sitting up and rubbing the sleep from his eyes. Zacky smiled wide and nodded.
"It's midnight! Do you know what that means?" Matt just shook his head, still too tired to hold a proper conversation. "It's Christmas Eve! Only one day left until Christmas!" Matt chuckled and rolled his eyes.
"I should have known." Zacky smiled wider. Matt slowly laid back down in bed and pulled the covers up to his chin. He closed his eyes even though he knew Zacky wouldn't be letting him go back to s
Close To You -brohnny-"You gonna move sometime soon, babe?" Johnny murmured into the couch cushion, trapped on the stupidly uncomfortable couch in his boyfriend's embrace, the tanned man still half asleep behind him, their hands still linked together. Brian grunted a short 'no', pulling the blonde closer and chuckling when his lover gave a noise somewhere between content and irritation. "I'm hungry, Bri, I wanna make breakfast."Close To You -brohnny-3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
"Too bad, boo, you're stuck here while I remenice our finest moments," Brian grinned and pressed a gentle kiss to the shell of Johnny's ear, nibbling softly at the younger's lobe and sighing happily. "Remember when we went on our first date? When I took you to the movies and-"
"You ended up fucking me in the backseat of your car. How could I forget?" Johnny sniggered, fond memories flooding his head of the first time they had sex, sweet, tender nothing's being whispered to each other as they basked in the glow of their glorious first time together, the first time everything has seem
Never Let Me Go .:Jatt:.Never Let Me Go .:Jatt:.3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Looking up from underneath
Fractured moonlight on the sea
Reflections still look the same to me
As before I went under
Matt smiled to himself as he walked into the house he shared with the love of his life. Johnny. They had been together for years now…even if they were only 18 now. Despite that though, they did have their own house…thanks to their parents who had gotten it for them as a gift. They had been best friends as the tender age of 6 and from there it just grew. Eventually they confessed their feelings at the age of 13 and well…they had never turned back. Both knew they were not normal…both had accepted that and when they found out how…well it just seemed to fit. No one was really surprised that Matt and Johnny had ended up together…they had been inseparable…always affectionate and had never cared about what people thought. It was like it was meant to be….Fate. Matt sighed as he looked intot he kitchen and saw Johnny not there…normally at this time of the day he was in
Oh, My Agony - .:Part One:.Oh, My Agony - .:Part One:.3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
It was the first day of autumn as Matt Sanders made his way home from the grocery store. With his beloved son, Owen, in his right arm and several bags of groceries in the other arm, Matt couldn't help but feel happy. Happiness rarely came to him since the passing of his four year long wife. She had died over five months ago due to a drunk driver and ever since then, Matt's world was dreary and dull. For several months Matt was intent on staying in the solitary confinement of his home, which was once so full of love and joy.
Though Matt did have a child, he rarely seen Owen. Most of his friends thought he was unstable, so Zacky and Gena had taken Owen under their wing for nearly three months. That left Matt alone to grieve silently in his cold home.
The buff lead singer strolled down the street towards his home. Hazel eyes scanned the dreary weather, black clouds hovering over his head and Owen staying quiet as usual. With a unusual bounce in his step he made his way up the stairs to hi
Third Mpreg Contest - Raine (Jatt)Third Mpreg Contest - Raine (Jatt):Third Mpreg Contest - Raine (Jatt)2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
This is a follow-up of sorts to my previous Jatt one-shot The Sweetest Kind Of Love. You don't have to read that first. They can stand alone. This is also my entry for the contest at Mpreg-Love.
Johnny Seward-Sanders brushed out his daughter's long, soft cinnamon brown hair, braiding two pigtails and tying matching ribbons around the ends. Today would be the first day of kindergarten for 5-year-old Raine Seward-Sanders, and the little girl was extremely excited.
"Papa, where's Daddy?" Raine asked as Johnny tied the mini purple Vans on her feet.
"Daddy's making breakfast. We better hurry before he eats it all up on us," Johnny smiled up at her from the floor where he was knelt between her legs.
"That's not a very nice thing to tell our daughter, Johnny," Matt Sanders replied from where he was leaning against the doorway, eyes twinkling and smirking when his husband jumped a little bit.
Turn Me On"Matt, where do we keep the clean sheets in this fucking apartment?"Turn Me On3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
The sound of Brian's irritated voice came from above Matt's previously sleeping form, making the younger man groan in annoyance. It seemed like every time Matt got a decent night's sleep with amazing dreams, Brian just had to disturb him with some stupid request about water or Starbucks or now clean sheets. Why the fuck would he need sheets at 1 in the morning, unless-
Realizing things about Brian was never one of Matt's favourite things to do.
"Oh my god, Brian, you can't be fucking serious," Matt groaned, pushing himself up in bed and glaring at his roommate, wanting nothing more than to punch him in the face. "Johnny's only been away for one day and you're already resorting to your hand to-"
"We have sex every day, Matthew! I'm fucking needy right now, the only thing I fucking have is my right hand and... never mind. Just find me the sheets, please," Brian sighed, storming out of Matt and Zacky's room with his dirt
The Only Thing I Ask Of You -brohnny-"Is there a hedge maze in there or something?"The Only Thing I Ask Of You -brohnny-3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Brian looked up at his roommate, frowning at his words. Zacky had never been the clearest with words, but what he had just muttered was pretty random, seeing as they hadn't spoken to each other for the previous ten minutes.
"I mean, in your closet. Seeing as you're still determined to stay in there." Zacky said nonchalantly, flicking through his English textbook and scribbling down a few sentences, not reacting when he heard his best friend give an irritated sigh, or when he felt a pillow hit the back of his head. "Don't blame me because you're too much of a pussy to come out."
"I'm not gay, Zack. How many fucking times do I have to tell you?" Brian hissed, resisting the urge to just storm out and tell Matt to talk to Zacky instead of having to explain himself once again. It seemed like the rhythm guitarist's boyfriend was the only person able to talk some sense into Zacky most of the time, especially when it was pissing someo
Vengenz is sweet with a touch of Syn .:Chapter 2:.Vengenz is sweet with a touch of Syn .:Chapter 2:.3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Zacky had been in the kitchen putting his cup away after washing it, so he didn't get the message right away. But when he went back to his room and saw he had one his heart flipped. So soon?? He hoped this wasn't some sick joke When he clicked on the message, he saw that it was indeed from a guy .he bit his lip, his heart stopping for a moment. Was he ready to finally admit he was bi? To take a step into the unknown .He had never had a relationship with a guy .But during the time he was out and about clubbing hard, he had realised he was always looking for a guy even if it were just to check him out. It had scared him at first but to be honest he didn't mind it at all. However he had never acted and just ended up taking girls home. It was the only way he knew .and he wasn't ready then but as he thought back he felt that now he was ready and that was why, after taking his sweet time processing this, he had already clicked on the image of the
Behind the Sea -brohnny-“You know how much I love the beach,” Johnny smiled, resting his head on Brian’s shoulder and smiling, inhaling the smell of sea water like a perfume. The light of the moon made both men glow in the otherwise pitch black night, a small, now empty picnic basket next to them as they basked in the white glow of the night sky. “Thanks for this, Bri.”Behind the Sea -brohnny-3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
“I told you I’d surprise you sometime,” Brian hummed, lying back on the sand and smiling as Johnny did the same beside him, leaning closer to the blonde and pressing gentle kisses to his naked chest, smirking against his milk white skin when the bassist shuddered gently. “I’m doing a good job, right?”
“Mm, you’re good at everything you do,” Johnny murmured, resting his hand on Brian’s head and lacing his fingers in the elder man’s soft hair, humming softly and yawning. “You’re so perfect, darling...”
“I swear, we were made fo
The RiverYou began your summer face up in the river.The River2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Your mother had always told you to not lie like that, because it resembled the likeness of a dead fish, but you defied her nonetheless and continued to lie with the sun warming your face and the water cooling your back when she wasn’t around you. You laid there for what seemed like hours, floating aimlessly until your face burned and your back ached to twitch and throw your relaxation off course, but you were adamant in your quest to float until something interesting happened, whether it be beneficial to you or not.
The sun was getting closer to the west by the time you heard voices, faint but still audible, coming from the shore which was just out of your line of vision. They got louder but then quieter, until they faded to nothing, and you wondered if that was your one interesting thing of the day, which would be rather disappointing but still better than nothing. You were about to move when the voices returned, higher up this time, u
Oh, My Agony - .:End:.A familiar voice called from the distance and Matt looked around. Everything was black, but he could see a tiny light coming from far ahead of him. Was that the light that you seen when you died? Once he got to the light, what was going to happen? He started to run towards the light, a strange weight finding its way onto his shoulders. The light just seemed to get farther away, so Matt ran faster. Little waves came from the light, pushing him back. The buff man stumbled back as something stepped out of the light.Oh, My Agony - .:End:.3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
The light disappeared and the only thing Matt could see was blue blue looking around.
After a minute, hazel met blue and Matt gasped. Jimmy stepping forward, his hands behind his back. "Hi, Matt." His was voice was soft. Matt gawked, looking for words. He had to say something; anything. The only reason he couldn't say anything was because he couldn't take his eyes off of Jimmy. The absolute flawlessness of death overtook him, and it frightened Matt. White wings stretched from
Oh, My Agony - .:Part Two:."What!?" Matt screamed into the phone. No! That wasn't possible. Jimmy, dead? Jimmy was far to invincible to die, and Matt knew it. "He's not dead Brian, he's just playing a stupid joke on us!"Oh, My Agony - .:Part Two:.3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Matt I'm so sorry, but.. He is." Brian sobbed. His voice was a broken whisper and Matt finally processed what was going on.
"Jimmy " He hands began to shake, and he held onto the cupboard above his head so that he wouldn't fall down. Matt could hear screaming and crying but he was far too gone to process any thought. The only thing that the man could think was, why Jimmy? After a few minutes, Matt stumbled like a blind man threw his kitchen, his eyes to blurry to see anything. His big hands rested on his car keys and he quickly made his way outside. He made his way to the black BMW sitting idly in the driveway and his eyes cleared up a bit, but his mind only seemed to get foggier.
Hopping into his car, Matt's heart pounded in his chest and his mind slurred with all the memories that
Use Somebody. -Bratt- It was the middle of December, Christmas day in fact, and Matt was leaned up against the glass of the coffee shop he visited. He got the same thing everyday, a double shot, iced mocha. Pearly white snow fluttered from the sky gracefully, swirling around Matt but some hitting him on his red tinged cheeks. Matt hummed to himself, faintly being able to hear the carolers in the distance.Use Somebody. -Bratt-2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
He side smiled, his dimples partially showing themselves as he opened the door for a family of three. The smell of coffee and the feeling of warmth escaped from the building. The first person who walked in nodded in Matt's direction, showing him approval while the man spoke with a husky voice, “Thank you.” As he walked in the shop with their newborn baby cradled in his chest.
Matt nodded shyly in response and shoved his hands right back in the front pockets of his blue jeans. “You gonna go inside or are ya gonna stand out here all day?” A man asked, approaching Matt from t
Paradise .:One Shot:.ParadiseParadise .:One Shot:.3 years ago in Romance More Like This
It was that day again. How I always dread this day. I hate how girls get very emotional and dramatic when it came to this day. But who am I to judge when all of this is coming from a boy’s point of view. Oh well.
“Johnny, Happy Valentine’s Day!!” Zacky exclaimed running towards me with a box of chocolates. I bet I know who gave him those! “Look what Bri-Bri gave me!”
“I see that! It’s all over your face, Zee.” I chuckled.
Zacky licked his fingers and wiped them on his black jeans. “So what are you doing on today for Valentine’s day?”
“Bah humbug! I’m doing nothing just like last year and the year before that and the year before and the year before that.” Zacky gave me a sigh and then he raised his eyebrow in a devious way.
“Hmm…I bet I got someone that can change all that!” He grabbed my arm and dragged me down to Central Park.
“Zacky what th
Vengenz is sweet with a touch of Syn .:Chapter 1:.Vengenz is sweet with a touch of Syn .:Chapter 1:.3 years ago in Romance More Like This
It had been a whirl wind of weeks that were filled of hard work and late nights for Zacky and despite enjoying the singles scene and being able to just fuck around and enjoy himself he felt a somewhat loneliness consuming him slowly and deep down he knew that all the people he hung out with or had met up with were never going to fill the void that he needed to be filled. He missed what he had, had before Gena had broken his heart. To be honest he hadn't heard from Gena at all but from the looks of her Facebook page she hadn't held back in moving on at all and that had hurt it was like what they had, had meant nothing to her at all. Maybe it was her way of dealing with it all but really. She had been the one that had ended it and to post over Facebook for all her hundreds of friends to see It ripped him up inside. It was like his heart had been ripped out, chewed and spat out before stamped on and then handed back to him .
He was currently on his bed
Like the Movies -brohnny-"Chris Hemsworth is so fucking hot," Johnny swooned, leaning against Brian's chest as the credits for The Avengers began rolling up the screen, flicking some popcorn into his mouth and yawning. "We need to watch that movie way more often."Like the Movies -brohnny-3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
"Robert Downey Jr is waaay hotter than Chris Hemsworth, babe," Brian chuckled as he mentally debated with himself as to whether or not he should move and put Captain America in the DVD player or just relax and listen to his boyfriend crooning about Thor, deciding the latter would be much easier. "But Chris Hemsworth is still pretty hot,"
"Can we watch it again?" Johnny bit his lip and looked up at his boyfriend, purring gently as he felt Brian's hands snaking up his shirt. "Please, babe?”
"I have a better idea," Brian smiled, shifting from underneath Johnny and opening the box for The Avengers, taking the DVD out of the player and placing the DVD for Brokeback Mountain in its place. "You're gonna love this, babe."
After around two hours and
Place Your Hands -brohnny-“C’mere,” Brian murmured to his boyfriend, taking the blonde’s hands in his own and squeezing gently, his eyes soft as he gazed lovingly at the bassist. “I don’t want you to be sad anymore, okay? No more tears, boo.”Place Your Hands -brohnny-3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
“I’m sorry, Bri,” Johnny whispered, leaning close to Brian and pressing their lips together gently, the taller of the two letting one hand go to wipe a stray tear from his lover’s cheek, pulling away to coo gently as Johnny let out a high pitched hiccup thanks to his previous tears. “I’m just-” hiccup “-a little sensitive after arguments...”
“I gathered that when you burst into tears, sweetie,” Brian chuckled gently, wrapping his free hand around Johnny’s waist and pulling him into a tender embrace, their other hands still laced together, gentle amounts of pressure being applied every few seconds, like a sign that they were still both there. “I hate argui
Synacky - SarcasmI throw my coat on the chairs next to me and place my feet both on the desks. I crossed my arms on my chest and sigh.Synacky - Sarcasm3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
"School's uniform sucks" I whined as I start to trash my necktie.
"Hey Brian, have you heard ...?" Matthew Sanders, the tough guy where his seats is behind me said as I turn around and face him completely with one of my brows rise, curious.
"Should I say 'Why' for you to continue...?" I said annoyingly as he cough and Jimmy Sullivan seats next to Matthew, leans forward and join our conversation.
"There's a new kids in our class!" Jimmy continued Matt's words as he fixes his glasses, like a cool kids.
"So? Not like he is hot or something..." I said blankly as Matt shook his head and Jimmy could only smiles with my words.
"Is that all you can think of, Brian Haner Jr?" Matt said sarcastically with the soundtrack of Jimmy's giggles.
"Yes" I answer spontaneously, I'm bi and they are cool with it. The sounds of thousands of chair move make me startle and face front. As I sus
Healing -brohnny-“Your stuff is so comfy, mmf,” Johnny smiled, cwtched up on the sofa with twelve empty boxes of tissues and a mug of hot chocolate, a plate of toast on his lap as he munched on the piece in his hand, the TV on the lowest volume where the bassist could still make out their words, Supernatural making the room glow. Brian was at the other side of the couch thanks to Johnny’s commands, his fingers sliding up and down Johnny’s leg beneath the layers of sweatpants and about three duvets. “Where did you even get this shirt from, babe?”Healing -brohnny-3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
“Some cheap store when we were touring, it’s the best for colds,” Brian chuckled, shifting a little closer to Johnny and leaning on the mound of duvets, cooing gently when his boyfriend gave a violent sneeze, the blonde man groaning and sinking further down the couch, half his face hidden under Brian’s huge sweater. “Aw, sweetie, you want me to get some more tissues?”
Zohnny - Super Bass"Boy you got my heartbeat running away~" Zacky sung trying his best not to wake up his roommate. His roommate stirred a bit, but Zacky just kept singing softly. "Beating like a drum and it's coming your way~"Zohnny - Super Bass3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
By now, Zacky's roommate was sitting up and looking at him. "What are you singing?" His question went unanswered, and Zacky's roommate quietly left his bed. He walked over to Zacky's bed and knelt next to it. Zacky was too distracted to notice the man kneeling next to him.
Zacky's roommate carefully pulled one of the ear buds out of Zacky's and whispered softly in his ear. "What are you listening to?" Zacky screamed loudly and looked at his roommate. His pulse eventually subsided, and he relaxed.
"Jesus, Johnny! You scared me..."
"You were singing and I wanted to know what you were listening to..." Johnny pouted, looking as innocent as possible. Zacky sighed and ran a hand through his hair. Damn bastard...He knows I can't resist that face.
"If you really must kno
Painting Flowers -brohnny-"Um, hello?"Painting Flowers -brohnny-3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Brian looked up at the man above him, biting his lip as he did so.
"Yeah?" Brian murmured, taking in the stranger's appearance. He looked nice enough; short, white-blond hair, pale skin, chewed down nails, and the widest, chocolate brown eyes Brian had seen in a while.
"Uh, it's just that... Well, you've been outside my shop all day and I-"
"Oh, I'm sorry, I'll move if you want," Brian rushed, standing up and flushing a rosy pink at the thought of being an inconvenience. He'd never been the nicest of people, but this blond guy seemed too sweet to be rude to.
"Oh, no, really, you don't have to. I just- Are you...?" Blondie blushed, chewing on his bottom lip to avoid finishing his sentence. Brian nodded, knowing all too well what the shorter man was implying. "Come inside, yeah? I live just upstairs; you can stay as long as you need,"
Brian looked up, finally noticing the sign of the shop. 'In Bloom'. Of course, a cute little blonde man would own a flower shop named after a