Nightmare: The Only Cure
Nightmare: The Only Cure
My insides burn-
Like swallowing acid
Reality slows down-
Smiling is therapeutic
Health is a virtue / Strength is torture
Alive again tomorrow / Enduring the horror
To keep on breathing
Mirrors are left sickened
Grinning back at myself
You must be enjoying this hell
Perfect possession / Muffled suffocation
Heart is racing / Sight is darkening
In these hallucinations
My skin is melting
Oh how I wish I was dreaming
Of when I finally start recovering
It's only hopeful thinking
A cure for me is a delusion
Quarantined tears / Reality's nightmare
I am beyond repair / All were well aware
A bright light shone-
Like a welcoming presence
My suffering is done-
Take away my sickness
True DespairTrue Despair2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How the light has darkened.
How the strongest have fallen.
This cloak remains
Unseen by many
A barrier to hide away
Covering up my damaged sanity
I have to act a certain way
And pretend I still have a sense of humanity
But I know it's too late
So there is no restoring me
I am both sword and shield
My bane is myself
My wounds will never heal
I am both heaven and hell
I fear my own reflection / I dread my own aggression
I am your ruination / I am your protection
I keep all destruction within / I keep all sympathy distant
I am your nightmare / I am your savior
The gift of infliction
Tells the story of life
The curse of humiliation
Reaps all forms of power and pride
Oh how the human soul can be broken.
Oh how the darkness can be overpowering.
This overwhelming pain
Is what you shall not fear
As I start to break
I hold the thoughts of your love near
I cannot place blame
So I put it i
A Moment Of LoveA Moment Of Love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Moment Of Love
This is a perfect chance of weakness to finally tell you that this isn't just a crush
It's not all about lust; I've always wanted to confess to you that I care about you so much
I apologize for being hesitant all of the time; it's just very hard to say you're my one true love
I yearned to say it out loud, but the words couldn't escape my mouth, that's what my fear does
I tried to say it to you in every lucid dream, that's how strong these feelings are
And I found myself waking up to tears of joy, because a true sense of hope is in my heart
I want to win you over
And I will never give up
Because you make the dark brighter
And you're always there no matter what
Every time you smile at me, it makes my day
Every time you laugh with me, it completes my night
Every time you speak to me, my problems fade away
Every time you're with me, it betters this hopeless life
You've done a lot for me that you don't even know about
Like when you told me that I was never alone
My Invisible LifeMy Invisible Life2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Invisible Life
On the surface of anxiety
Getting used to this melancholy
They'd always be here to help
I've always only had myself
Opening the gates to this hell
And the screams are revealed
I let my sorrow and resolve meld
My desires are overtaken
I know this isn't right
But my lies weren't convincing
So this will always be my invisible life
Am IAm I really a bad person?Am I3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Do I only hurt people?
Do I really not care for anything?
Liar. Hypocrite. Whore.
Do I do everything wrong?
Every damn little thing I ever try...
Just to be taken away.
To be proven wrong, to be looked down upon.
To be made fun of, to not say anything.
To be quite, to hold it in.
Am I really a bad person?
Words To AshWords To Ash2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Words To Ash
My embers burn / A dark fire roars
My suicidal war / A blaze of words
I wrote this for you...
The old me really wanted you to read it
To tell you the truth...
Of how I came to be beyond broken
But I had to keep it
Because I'll never see you again
So my wounds remain hidden
A letter deprived of hate, I forgave us in vain
I'm trying to undo what you have done
Even if its just a placebo effect
This is me trying to “move on”
From this smothering resentment
Confessions turn into infernos
You crushed my faith
A villain disguised as a hero
My lungs starts to shake
The sinner is attending church tomorrow
While this saint is endlessly praying for strength
My soul surges / A red sky clears
My resolve emerges / A cure for tears
I've journeyed through the flames...
The new me knows the reasons for your trespasses
In Between DreamsIn Between Dreams2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In Between Dreams
A fragment of a second
Just one slight glance
You're the only person
That puts me in a trance
I feel so close to you
But I am so far away
If only you knew
I felt this way
To fully express this feeling
It's like raw torture at heart
Because you live on without knowing
And it makes me desire you even more
A solace night of dreaming
I thought I never would have it
This longing luxury of sleeping
It's what I've always wanted
I thought it was too much to ask for
A sense of rest and relief
I feel as if it's more than I deserve
It's been so long since I had this nightmaric disease
I wish you could know
Of the peace that you bring me
It's something I never had before
I'd give anything to always have this serenity
Never again do I wish to awake
I can't let this placebo end
It's for my own sake
I can only pretend
When I see your face
A Dying RainbowA Dying Rainbow2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Dying Rainbow
I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened
My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break
I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
Surrounded by fear is where I don't belong
I just want this lucid nightmare to be over and done
Society these days
Teaching children the old prejudice ways
And that's why certain individuals grow up so afraid
In the end, a premature death is the price loved ones pay
I'm one of those
Dwelling in fear at the end of my rope
Trying to conceal agony tha
A Spark In The DarkA Spark In The Dark2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Spark In The Dark
After I had met you-
I found out that hope can be so wounding
And now I know what meaningful desires can do-
The pieces of my dreams are still crumbling
You made me fade in-and-out of your Heaven
Allowing me the taste of peace momentarily
And then right back to testing my withdrawing patience
While I plunge back into my same old Hell called: vulnerability
This feeling...is too raw
A tug of war between different kinds of torment
I'm missing you...so much
The rift between us seems to be infinite
Don't go...don't leave
Don't let go...of me
But when you left me for the last time-
I knew that the wrong kind of love can be so fucking addicting
I realized that you combined my truth with your lie-
You always made your words so fucking convincing
You forced me to despise what I will never have-
As you pretended to hand me m
Shadow SunShadow Sun2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And in that very moment, I knew it was already too late
My vision has adjusted
The memories of my former life all just slipped away
My light has faded
The last of the fallen sparks fluttered in the distance
My hope has been obliterated
The shadows rose to claim their long awaited radiance
My destiny was always fated
In my heart, I lost it all
To this very second, it's still my fault
In my body, I have been tainted
From all of the damage I sustained
In my mind, I felt everything snap
I smiled as all of the colors turned black
In my soul, I had to let it all go
Cradled by the darkness is all I will ever know
In my eyes, I
I'm Almost ThereI'm Almost There2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm Almost There
Drunk with rage
Twisting my face
They say the prison is here to save us
To cage my thoughts that are dangerous
Weeping for the hollowed
Can't live through tomorrow
My pride I swallowed
And I put on cold smile
My choice is my own
An addiction to being hurt
I want help, but I don't
I wanna change, but I won't
I have too many dark secrets
Flowing in my veins of concrete
This is what they've done to me
The product I like to call "a perfect tragedy."
Syncing with blame
Soon to break
I said it's too late
I want it to end this way
The Unseen LifeThe Unseen Life2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Unseen Life
I thought pain was created to fade
But it seems like my life was crafted to break
So I apologize to the mirror and say "I'm sorry, it's too late."
I can't even look at my own face, as I can never accept my mistakes
I realize that I am brokenly made
My mind bleeds away the memories I've wasted
Remorse begins to slowly fill in the gaps that are left
This stained razor blade leaves every dark moment perfectly divided
I try not to indulge in act of prayer, because I refuse to ever confess
Even in death I will never rest
All visible colors descend into the ground
And time drifts off to sleep
Every sharp outline ascends into the clouds
As this reality begins to dream
This world has truly abandoned me
I keep on doing what I've done
So I can't deny that I've forsaken hope
I couldn't stop the emptiness once it had begun
But I had no other choice, because I was left alone
All I have ever had was myself to disown
Dawning self-hatred with no e
In The DaylightIn The Daylight2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In The Daylight
A false downfall
An unexpected revival
Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness
In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest
I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic
I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid
A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete
Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrath of the wicked
Victims can be vengeful or forgiving
Prolific tears are forever listening
To the cryptic lyrics that layout life's experiences
A few simplistic words can become so endearing
And I start again
To Save Your LifeTo Save Your Life2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To Save Your Life
Heroes are hard to come by
Especially in this day and age
Because of you- I am still alive
Hail, the vanquisher of pain
I fought as long as I could have
But I sank into the weakness below
And I felt my sorrow's wrath
The helplessness took over
My fists let go
Of the resistance
I fell from hope
The light faded in the distance
It was all a dream
A simple false belief
Hands dangled frantically / Tears dripped endlessly
I needed a hero to save me / I yearned to be set free
A hand reached out
I was finally found
I rose back to grace
And the darkness brightened
The savior I awaited
Lifted me up and triumphed
I prayed as much as I needed
Even when I was beyond drowning
I knew a kind soul would pay heed
Every mourning human deserves saving
In The DistanceIn The Distance2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In The Distance
I've realized that nothing never truly ends
Because it's just the beginning of the emptiness
I want to take back my actions / I want to give you reasons
I said all of the words I've needed
And to the mirror
I wish those were silent confessions / I wish none of this had happened
I finally let out all of those feelings I hid
Beneath my surface
They're just emotions from a fallen / Because without you, I'm nothing
I meant every single tear I cried
My one true purpose
I'm feeling so goddamn faithless / To my world, you're everything
I couldn't hold on, I slowly let go of my grip
It took the best of me
All of our moments are worth remembering / This pain in my soul is worth keeping
I didn't stay silent forever, I let my cries slip
So I could weep pathetically
I hope you find the happiness you'
StormwalkerStormwalker2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tread harshly on my nightmares
Make all my fears disappear
Hold me close, my rainstopper
So I won't be alone...anymore
A night like tonight-
It'll be alright
Tears seem to fly-
Within glistening light
Relieve thy tired heart
Put thy pain in my arms
Allow those woes to depart
The strong are the weak ones / Once the damage is finally done
Crack and shatter my soul / My protected tears are no more
Don't let my sympathy be wasted / My morals won't become faded
I'm leaving my heart open / Don't let yourself worsen
I will always care / I will always be here
This is what I will always be / The vanquisher of your agony
A day like today
You'll be okay
Bathe in this sunshine
Doubts will ignite
Recover thy power
You survived t
If I DiedIf I DiedIf I Died3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
If I died, if I didn't exist,
Would you feel pain, would you feel bliss,
Would the heavens cry or the demons sing,
Would you feel the burn, would you feel the sting,
Would the lies be truth, would content become regret,
Would you remember me, would you forget,
Would you fall to your knees, would you begin to cry,
Would you ever be able to say goodbye
I want you to hurt; I want you to grieve,
I want you to stay and never leave,
Miss me, want me, never let go,
Your happiness, your joy, to me you owe,
As I ready to mount the reaper's horse,
I want you to bathe in everlasting remorse,
May your heart bleed, may the wound never heal,
May you pray, beg, and wish for one last feel,
A good thing is gone; you did not treat me well,
My desires, your denial, I'll see you in hell
I'm So Far Away From HopeI'm So Far Away From Hope2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm So Far Away From Hope
Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different
Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing
I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew everyone's morals are blinded
Maybe it is meant
To be like this from beginning to end
To endure without crying
To practice the art of suffering
I wanted to find change
But I'm not strong enough for this pain
The hollowed promises won't be found
Because I was taught to despise myself
I was told that there was nothing here for me
I failed right
Death SongTake heed and witness,Death Song3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Devastation and annihilation,
Of our darkest dreams drowning in sickness.
You know it isn't just a chaotic commotion,
When desires are constructs of diabolical devotion.
But you will suffer as one,
Caught in a twisted trap all alone,
With your soul set in stone.
Watch as you burn your heart,
And listen as you tear your flesh apart!
Take heed and witness,
Suffering and damning,
In our ethereal eyes echoing in blackness.
You know it isn't just a manic mourning,
When dreams are martyrs of passive pleading.
But you will suffer as one,
Caught in a twisted trap all alone,
With your soul set in stone,
Taste that acid in your throat,
And listen as you pluck your veins out!
Are you bleeding?
Are you concealing,
All the furies you are feeling?
Is it me or is it you without breath,
When all about us is the void we call death?
We are all insaneI hide away from the world, I know the pain out there.We are all insane3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hear it from my cell's window, the world is not so fair.
The world in here is cold and dark,
but my mind creates a light.
Still I hear my friend's voices,
we never have to fight.
And never do I hurt within my mind.
Thus I hide away.
I know the world beyond these walls,
sufferers day by day.
I cant say what went wrong.
there's not much I CAN say.
I've learned it's best to simply watch.
As the world wastes away.
Was it greed or was it lust?
Was it the human mind?
Could it be that human pain is caused by human kind?
Where are MY fires?
Where's MY gun?
Where are the instruments which humans use for FUN?
Where are the desires,
Which humans claim to shun.
Man would run from man, as the night would from the sun.
Though my eyes are fading, and my legs are lame,
I fear I no longer play this human game.
This sense of humanity is another sense tamed.
We were all together,
in that place from which we came.
And should yo
Today, I cried.December 10th, 2012.Today, I cried.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Today I cried.
I wasn't bullied today.
Neither was I bullied yesterday.
Nor am I going to be tomorrow.
But I cried.
Because I relived every moment.
And that was enough.
I succumbed to my emotions.
Today I cried.
I wasn't particularly weak today.
Neither was I weak yesterday.
Nor am I going to be weak tomorrow.
But I cried.
Because I relived every moment.
And I'm not ashamed.
I succumbed to my emotions.
But... I'm not ashamed.
Today I cried.
But that's just the way I am.
Once in a while, you just need a good cry.
To remind yourself of:
the little emotion you have left.
Breaking Away TONIGHTBreaking Away TONIGHT2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Breaking Away TONIGHT
Your name is...fear
And you demand that I abide by your despair
I gave you everything that you have ever asked
And I never got a thing in return for ANY of that
But you still managed to continuously stab me in the back
Your name is...remorse
And you wish for me keep true to this damaging oath
I was nothing but a puppet; I was just your personal scapegoat
These sinister strings guided me to cast aside all forms of pride and hope
I considered us to be friends because you were all I used to know
Your name is...sorrow
And all you want is to darken the brightest tomorrow
I was your undying sacrifice; the one and only reoccurring offering
You had an unquenchable thirst for my untimely, man-made suffering
There's countless times where I put you before myself- it's so god-damn sickening
Your name is...tainted
And you believe that we are fated
I've remained here, behind your bars, locked up and
A Voice In The WindA Voice In The Wind2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Voice In The Wind
I can only think of how much I miss you
The fragments of my shell scatter
The smiling dreams of you rupture
On the inside, I know it's wrong
That I still cling onto you as I fail to carry on
I try and search for where my passion belongs
I can only remember how much I loved you
Tribulations welcome singularity
Upon the footholds of my diverse insecurities
I still whisper apologies to try and feel a difference
Because I can't take any more of this sleepless conscience
And I don't know which one of us is the one who is unforgiven
I will always be the arms of the storm
Trying to rebuild what was most dear to me
I don't even have the luxury to mourn
For the person that tried to hold me when I needed to be
Wincing at the random flashes of lightning
They temporarily distract me from our memories
This weakened state of mind isn't worth enduring
The harsh sting of freezing rain-
Sends staggering chills all over
The waves of r
The MazeThe Maze1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Divide reality from illusion
Forwards is backwards
Separate belief from redemption
Success is failure
Where shadow crosses light
The ground meets my face
I'm surrounded by lies
The truth is too far away
Hope is this-
Faith is this-
Pain is this-
It's just another dead end / It's filled with emptiness
This is death's discontent / Resenting life's rhetorical existence
Fear is this-
Chaos is this-
Peace is this-
An infinite cycle mocks
Turn after turn
The timelessness cannot stop
As the same path is reborn
An unstable prisoner drowns
Lost inside my own encrypted mind
The way out can never be found
In this maze called “my life”
The Hero and the VillianYou're a splurge of insanity, contained within the highest of IQ's egotistic whims. You're a falling piece of glass that refuses to shatter upon impact, and I find myself cutting my fingers upon your surface. You're the reflection of a sputtering genius, bent upon fooling the world of their eyes and ears. Oh god, I've found myself holding back the skips that my heart tends to throw out I've shielded the intensity of my foolish obsessions as you skip to the beat of an already out of tune melody.The Hero and the Villian4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've never witnessed a miracle, but you might just be it. You've split the heavens in half and called yourself humble. You've sat perfectly still and in your presence I find myself waiting waiting for another beautiful disaster to happen. You're a madman, and I love that. I've caught myself staring for far too long. I've forced myself to ignore the hero in a room full of ordinary people, and I think at this point it is only denial.
But baby I'm the villain of this war-time scene. I