MirrorWhen I look in the mirror,Mirror1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
you know what I see?
I see the one person,
who was ever good to me.
I see lips that are too thin,
A crooked nose,
I see oily skin,
And a far too ridged pose.
I see hair that never
Falls the way it should
I see chubby cheeks
that I'd thin out if I could.
I see a big head
I see brown bug eyes
And a crooked smile,
that I use as my disguise.
I see stretch marks on my legs,
Scars that will never heal,
I see all these in perfections
Tell me, does my confidence pass as real?
I try so hard to hide it
These walls won't ever fall back
You won't ever see the real me
I have a first class act.
Watch me joke
Watch me smile
Watch me be fine
But when our time is over
And it's finally time to go,
I breathe a sigh of relief.
I can let the real me show.
You'll never see my self-hate
I swear you never see me cry.
You'll never get to sit around
and watch me want to die.
You'll never see how I have changed
Or how my strength has faded.
I will never tell you,
Ana'Too little!' the friends scream...Ana1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
'Too much,' Ana whispers...
I listen to Ana.
'Not enough to you!' the doctors cry...
'Far too much,' Ana snips.
I believe Ana.
'Please, you need it!' the counselors plead...
'No, you do not.' Ana yells...
I bow to Ana.
'Stop, please, don't do this to yourself,'' they all whimper...
'Find some control, you're not beautiful yet,' Ana tells me...
Ana is the only one not lying to me.
They are wrong.
Ana knows what is right for me...
I know what's right for me, too.
Winter's EmbraceThere was a time…Winter's Embrace11 months ago in Emotional More Like This
When in winter, I would stand at my window, in the dark, at the early hours of the next day, and watch it snow. There’d be dark music playing in the background. Heavy lyrics that probably shouldn’t make much sense to me yet, but they did.
As I’d stand there, I’d feel a strong, pulling longing that made me want to walk out of my house, around to the backyard, and lay down in it. Let the snow cover me. Let it caress me. I was always longing to have someone hold me…the snow could hold me. I could sink down in it and let it hold me tight in its death grip. I could finally get the satisfaction of being wrapped up in something.
I wanted more than anything to lay in it until it was so cold, it burned. Cuddle into it until the burn burned so badly, I went numb. Wait and wait and wait until I was frozen. Until I could snap my frozen limbs off and still feel nothing but cold.
There was a time when I was an empty shell with a tormented mind.
Last Chance“I’m just so tired, Chris. I’m just so damn tired.”Last Chance5 months ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I know, I want to tell him. I know that now. I didn’t know what to say at the time. I just looked at him; I just watched the snow get in his hair and his DCs scuff at the icy pavement. After a moment, I nodded even though he wasn’t looking at me. I decided, after that beat of silence, that he was always tired. Always. He never slept. He meant that, physically, he was so damn tired.
“You should go home and get some sleep,” I told him.
He smiled at me. It wasn’t a happy smile though; it was a bitter kind of a smile. The sad kind that you never quite know how to respond to, because if they’re smiling at all, they probably don’t want you to ask. But I guess if I was a good friend, a truly good friend, the kind of friend I thought I was, I’d have asked anyway.
“You’re right. I will. I definitely will.” Then he smiled that sad smile again, turned, and
RIPRIP1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Beloved, we gather here today to celebrate
The fortunate and timely death
Of a girl that no one liked…
You will all remember her best by
Her attitude. And her lack of people skills.
If you’re lucky enough to have seen her, you might even remember her tits.
Yes, she did notice when you stared, you pervert.
I personally remember her by her anger,
The amount of hatred she had was stunning.
And the way she tried to fit in
Was funny. That is the only funny thing she did.
If she wasn’t reading, she was yelling.
She was always the odd one out.
She was voted most likely to kick kittens
She was the first of her friends to fall in love.
…She fell in love with a girl.
That gave everyone another reason to hate her.
She drank the hate up. She was a total addict.
She was horrible at hiding her scars,
That emo whore.
She tried so
HappinessStanding out in the wind,Happiness1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
On a cold gray day.
You’re ready to go in,
But then the sun peeks out.
Run to it!
Bask in it,
You’re feeling it’s warmth when—
The clouds come back out.
Seeing that white tuft,
And running for it.
The dandelion fluff,
And the wish it holds.
You grab for it.
Run for it!
You almost have it when—
It slips through your fingers.
Some else’s warmth,
When their arms are around you.
A feeling known since birth,
It’s comfortably familiar to you.
You hold onto them,
They are holding you back!
You’re feeling loved when—
They let you go.
The sound of a bird singing;
You catch a glimpse of it.
To its beauty you are clinging;
Beauty is rare—remember it.
You are entranced,
Capture this moment!
You’re hypnotized when—
The bird takes flight.
All of these things,
These moments of beauty.
They make your heart sing,
They fill you with peace.
But they never last long,
These moments of peace.
A blink and they
My SecretsI am never going to tell you them.My Secrets10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I never tell you, you'll never know how awful I am.
If you never know how awful I am, you'll never hate me.