left on your answering machineListen, okay ?left on your answering machine5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Close your eyes and listen.
Are they closed ?
Now keep them closed and picture me next to you:
I want to be with you so much. When you're with me, holding me in your arms, all I want to do is just stay like that, with you, forever. Then you leave. And as soon as you're gone, I miss you. And when I miss you, as pathetic as this sounds, I just keep thinking about you. And I realise that you could probably have anyone you want. And I wonder why you'd ever settle for me. And this makes angry and jealous and hate myself and just ugh. I don't want to be your burden. You see, whenever I talk to somebody as much as I talk to you, eventually they always get sick of me. Always.
But I can't ever blame anyone; I would hate me too if I were them. I mean, I know I'm annoying, but I don't do it purposefully. I hope I don't irritate you with my cynici
I love myselfI need to love myselfI love myself3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I need to care
I need to be myself
I need to stand
I got to love myself
For who I am
I got to see myself
Like no one else
So I will love myself
And I will care
I’m gonna free myself
From this despair
DeviantART: The Endless JamWhen I first joined DeviantART in December 2004, I found it by a listing on the <a href=http://www.nanowrimo.org>Nanowrimo site where some authors were linking illustrations for their Nanowrimo novels. Id done a few illustrations for my Nanowrimo and wanted to post them somewhere that I could link the images to writer sites. It was that simple -- free image hosting. Something Im sure we could find many other places online, and Ive got a couple of others set up for when I need to be able to link to an image easily.DeviantART: The Endless Jam8 years ago in Academic Essays More Like This
DeviantART rapidly became more because I found myself doing more and more traditional art and jamming with other artists on everything from techniques to materials to subjects. It is a marketplace and like certain places in the world from the Left Bank in Paris to the French Quarter in New Orleans, it creates an atmosphere of creativity that seeps into everything else.
Like print on demand, DeviantART breaks down the social barriers between p
Notice MeLook up from your desk.Notice Me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Look up from your book.
Look up from your laptop
or iPod and songs.
Why can't you see me?
Why don't you care?
Why won't you answer my letters?
Do you even know my name?
Do you even recognize my face?
Do you even think of my eyes?
HumanThey cannot help but stare;Human3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
They think you are an animal;
They do not even pretend to care
You now feel like a fool.
They will not ever see
You too have a heart and soul;
They tease you mercilessly,
And you begin to lose control.
They think that is all right
Just because they can;
They ignore your bark and bite,
And you no longer feel human.
They cannot end their play-
Not that they have ever tried;
Your only hope as you pray
Is that they do not hear you cry.
You cannot understand what they find
So amusing in your pain;
You begin to lose your mind,
Forgetting you were ever sane
Or once knew a day when all
You felt were peace and joy;
So you weep and hide, scream and bawl
Because they made you their toy.
You blame yourself every day
For what they made you be;
And all you can pray
Is that your tears they never see
Even though this sorrow
Seems like it will never go away.
You hope that they might
One day know what they have done
By smothering your dying light
And only allowing you to figh
Lost with myself?Sweet little soul, come here to seeLost with myself?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The path of salvation, light to follow
Are you lost, my dear little soul?
In the shadows you have been too long
My tears, where are you?
The pain I need to release
Release out of me
Please, my tears
Come back to me
Oh wings so white, hold me
Please don't let me fall
Heal my broken raven wings
Let the angel rise once more
Eyes, eyes, be aware
Enemies are stalking us
In the shadows, in the dust
We see them before they come
Eyes, don't you fail me
My heart, nowhere you are
They once tore it apart
Pieces hidden, lost
No heart, no heart
Who am I?
Who am I?
Lost in here, away from there
My mind shattered, yet so dark
I have no place to call home
My eyes won't face another day
A day without suffering
I have no heart to call own
I have no tears to shed down
I have no life to live for
I have no love to hold on
I have no dreams to share
Nothing I am
Beautiful CarnageNightmares smiled sweetly as angels shattered.Beautiful Carnage3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
There was a time.There was a time.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
There was a time when you made me feel beauitful
There was a time when you said I was special
There was a time when you made me smile
But now I am ugly.
There was a time when you were my everything
There was a time when you said we'd be forever
There was a time when I only wished for your kiss
But now I am alone.
There was a time when you said you'd fight the world for me
There was a time when I lived for you, and you for me
There was a time when we were inseparable
But now I am worthless.
There was a time when only you could stop my tears
There was a time when only you were there for me
There was a time when only you said you loved me
But now I am hopeless.
Ugly, alone, worthless, and hopeless.
Just look at what you've done.
Took a strong girl and left her broken.
Let me ask you, now was it worth it?
Perfect Again (Josh Ramsay One-Shot)“Fuck you Josh, you’re a fucking douche. I’m leaving.” You screamed. “Whatever. I don’t care.” He mumbled before you walked out of the apartment and slammed the door behind you. You two had been fighting. Again. It really hurt you when he said he didn’t care I you left, even if he probably didn’t mean it. You knew him to well to believe that. But since a few weeks you weren’t so sure anymore. You were always fighting, till you ended up crying yourself to sleep in your bed while he was lying on the couch in the living room, trying to sleep, what didn’t work most time and you heard him crying in the middle of the night. You both knew you were hurting each other, but it didn’t change anything, but now you’ve had enough.Perfect Again (Josh Ramsay One-Shot)3 years ago in Romance More Like This
You walked out on the street, it was raining, so you pulled the hood of your sweater up. You didn’t take a jacket with you and it was pretty cold, but you didn’t want to go back, that
Humanity.Humanity.Humanity.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
What is it?
Is it good?
Is it evil?
Are we kind?
Are we cruel?
Do we care?
Or do we not?
Can we get along with one another,
Or does our blood spill into the river?
Can love overcome all?
Or do the three evils
Get the best of us?
Is it the bitterness
Of the ignorant
That holds us back?
Or are we incapable
Of going any further?
Are the foundations of man built
On blood and bones?
Or love and peace?
Do we tolerate and respect others?
Or spit on those who have different views?
Is the fire too hot for our liking?
Should we deal with it in blood,
sweat and tears for fruitless results?
Or do we live to fight another day?
Or do we just live to be corrupt from the inside?
By our fellows, our friends, or lovers.
Such is the way of humanity,
All of our lives are pawns
In the game of humanity.
You never really loved meMay I tell you something?You never really loved me4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
May I tell you the whole truth?
What I'm actually doing here
And what I feel about you
I hate you.
Yes I'm saying this
Right in your face
I hate you with all my heart
With all my power of hate
And you know what?
You completely deserve it
You're such fake
Such a mistake
But I am a loser
Yes I admit
But here are the facts
So deal with it
You're faking person
You don't belong to me
And I am sick of it
I want to cry
I want to scream
But I will survive
And I'll get over it
I'm strong enough to face the truth
Strong to kill all memories of you
I'm not broken hearted
Whatever you have started
I'm done with it
Lost in your loveI won't let you see me cryingLost in your love3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I won't let you see me dying
Nothing changed we are still the same
You know nothing except my name
The river is flowing and rain is falling
The sun is setting and I'm still drowning
But I won't let you see me crying
I won't let you see me smiling
Times are changing life is going
Rain is falling and I'm still drowning
No one's here, no one but me
I've cried all night so you wouldn't see
I died tonight and return as a ghost
To let you see what you have lost
You never saw me crying
You never saw me dying
You never saw me even smiling
You didn't see me at all
How I let myself fall in love
Love=PainI don't have proper words in my mindLove=Pain3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No proper scene in my eyes
Because love is so hard to describe
Some might say it's pure and innocent
Other says it's dark and evil
For someone it might be all the sense
And for other it might be without meaning
I don't know if I know the definition of the love
If I actually know anything at all
But I have something inside
Something what holds me in this life
Is it love?
I don't know
Maybe yes, maybe no
But as long as it makes me going
I don't really care how it's calling
I know it hurts
It causes pain
Makes me insane
Sometimes it makes me even cry
But it's worth to fight
Your love is poor if you can describe it
Cause real love strikes you as a lightning
It means all and nothing at the same time
It feels like heaven but the feeling lives inside
I said so many words right now
But still don't know what love is about
And I don't need to
All I need is to feel it
GD Fanfic - ChangeGD Fanfic - Change8 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
- Billies Point of View -
Thought I ran into you down on the street
Then it turned out to only be a dream
I made a point to burn all of the photographs
She went away and then I took a different path
I remember the face
I felt someone touch my shoulder. I ignored and continued to skull down the beer.
You should go home Billie the voice said remaining the hand on my shoulder.
I have no home to go to My words were all slurred and I felt like shit.
Because I paused. I couldnt remember why. I just sat there staring out to space. The person removed their hand and sat next to me. His face was bright, yet pale. His worried blue eyes staring into mine. I felt like crawling in a hole and dying, but Mikes face staring at me made me feel somewhat better. Even though his expression was fairly b
Loki LaufeysonWithout burden, I am without name.Loki Laufeyson2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
For deep within my heart malice burns so dimly but..
I am without shame.
It is sweet and yet it is bitter that my lies have taken flight.
That my fears and my woes have become an organ in my soul.
I am glorious in all things and in this evidence I am not without plight
but my lies will catch up and they will take its toll.
When devil falls for angelPlay with darkness I want to see itWhen devil falls for angel3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Penetrate it, wishing for me to feel it
I am the devil; you chose to be an angel
You play with fire, you play with danger
Hold your breath, don't scream just yet
Rain swept me off my feet, I'm lying wet
Choose your fairy tale, I'll be you magic
Let go your tears, it won't cause the tragic
Recall the feelings, give them breath of life
Even purest truth ends being a darkest lie
Longing for something you can't have
I refuse to live without you, I refuse to understand
Like the night craves to be saved by day
I crave for you, in each and every way
Questions with no answers, love is not reward
Everything seems so wrong but opposites attract
The devil and the angel never could decide
Was this feeling true or was it just a lie?
Alone is not lonely, lonely is not aloneLonely, I won't find the one I loveAlone is not lonely, lonely is not alone3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Lost, I can't remember the place where I belong
Dreams, it's all that left to me
Tears, drowning my pain in the sea
Nothing for nothing, I can't say what I feel
I'm trapped for her, I'm trapped for him
I'm reading my own thoughts on the paper, drinking for no reason, celebrating with no occasion, smoking too much cigarettes filling my eyes with the smoke, looking for salvation, everything it's just the way it should be, but I still can't feel anything but pain
I lay down, lay down here no space I could possible feel but so much more else to feel, so many emotions to scream . Loving the scent of the freedom, captured in the moment with you . As much as I want to, I don't really need you.
I don't need you my love, I am alone
Fearless body filled with cold spirit and that's me, I am alone Stop longing for my soul it's not it never was yours. I am alone, all on my own
This is the
The Forward MovementThe Forward Movement3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Tragedy, abrupt to my very soul,
that left me far from whole.
The withered memory born unto my dreams again,
refreshed and once more binding me by chain.
The reopening scars I once upon a time, thought healed,
gape wide to open for the flood gates, red and revealed.
My witnessing eyes bleed out old tears from a rusted well,
Attempting again to put back out the fires of this age old Hell.
The rising waters find my feet and climb,
the two floods meet, where their cause is rhymed.
My heart from which the blood and tears flow,
now at where the pain does ever grow.
Close these outpouring wounds, build back up the walls...
Make for my feet, the forward movement from where my future calls.
Once again I will shed my skin,
leaving behind the marks of where I've been.
The CaterpillarYou are like aThe Caterpillar2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You won't realize
until you finally shed
that cocoon of yours.
And once you do,
you will feel
and wonder why
you spent so long
in that cocoon
and believing that you
something more than
you would never ever
but look at you
As Autumn beginsAs Autumn beginsAs Autumn begins2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As Autumn begins the leafs turn and leave
As Autumn begins the wind blows in and grins
As Autumn begins geese fly south and field mice move in
As Autumn begins the sun moves away making shorter the days
As Autumn begins night comes calling sooner leaving us all in the dark with only the lunar
As Autumn begins school does too, soon the night will be filled of witches and ghouls
As Autumn begins the air gets cooler fresher and crisp
As Autumn begins it’s a sure thing winter will be next
SadnessYou said you don't like any of my poemsSadness4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You don't like it cause they're sad
at least you said the truth
But what can I do about that?
If you think I can change myself you're wrong
People don't change
Believe it or not, they don't
I tried to write something good from all my heart
I've tried so hard
but nothing can help me
sadness is all i can feel
don't know if it's bad
certainly not good
but what i can do?
it's easy to say...
probably not that easy to do
everyday people passing me by
hiding inside what they want to hide
i feel like I'm not moving
just watch them all walk
what are they doing?
trying to stop world clock
you're saying I was born to be sad
i guess you're right
but I'll tell you what
we all were born to be dead
and nothing is simple
or just too simple to understand
why we can't just live it?
holding each other hands
cause we have to fake it
that's what make us friends
still don't like my stuff?
well i don't care
it's all I've got
MenschenEin Mensch der sich die Welt ansiehtMenschen3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
und darauf achtet was geschieht,
erkennt nach längerem Bedenken:
„Man könnte sich so Manches schenken!"
So manche gutgemeinten Räte,
nie Niemand je beachtet hätte,
so manche heldenhaften Taten,
die in Vergessenheit geraten,
so manche guten Grundideen,
die ungebraucht zugrunde geh'n,
so manche Regeln und Gesetze,
die Jeder mit Genuss verletze,
so manche noch so gute Absicht,
die an Stumpfsinnigkeit zerbricht.
Die Einsicht ist unangenehm,
die die Menschen sind das Problem.
Die Stümper und die Dilettanten,
die Schlamper und die Ignoranten,
Die Faulpelze und die Chaoten,
die Spinner und die Vollidioten,
die Psychopathen und Narzissten,
die Neider und die Egoisten,
geleitet von Charakterschwächen,
die Regeln und Gesetze brechen,
den Ruf der Menschlichkeit beschmutzen,
unfähig den Verstand zu nutzen.
Und wäre das nicht schlimm genug,
so sind die Wenigen die klug,
ganz unten in der Hierarchie,
nach oben schaffen die es nie.
Denn unsre Führungspositionen