Missing YouSince I woke up todayMissing You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've been struggling to breathe.
Choking on your name
Asking you not to leave.
It happened again,
I saw you in my dream.
I'm still trying to catch my breath
Trying not to scream.
I need to wipe these tears
I need to blur your face.
Force this heart back into gear,
make it regain its normal pace.
So I'll go get my pills
And I'll bring out the liquor.
Keep on lying to myself
Saying "today I really don't miss her".
But I'm haunted.
Can't get you off my head.
I wish that I would die,
For you to be the one suffering instead.
Why did we fight that night?
How could I let you drive away?
If i knew that you'd been drinking
I should have forced you to stay
is the anniversary of your death.
I've been trying not to think of you,
But I'm crying, still short of breath.
I take out my wallet
Where I still hold your picture.
Wondering if I'll meet you soon
Thanks to this pill and liquor mixture.
But I feel nothing
I've been drinking this all morning
My heart still hasn'
DeviantART: The Endless JamWhen I first joined DeviantART in December 2004, I found it by a listing on the <a href=http://www.nanowrimo.org>Nanowrimo site where some authors were linking illustrations for their Nanowrimo novels. Id done a few illustrations for my Nanowrimo and wanted to post them somewhere that I could link the images to writer sites. It was that simple -- free image hosting. Something Im sure we could find many other places online, and Ive got a couple of others set up for when I need to be able to link to an image easily.DeviantART: The Endless Jam7 years ago in Academic Essays More Like This
DeviantART rapidly became more because I found myself doing more and more traditional art and jamming with other artists on everything from techniques to materials to subjects. It is a marketplace and like certain places in the world from the Left Bank in Paris to the French Quarter in New Orleans, it creates an atmosphere of creativity that seeps into everything else.
Like print on demand, DeviantART breaks down the social barriers between p
Ohyes.Ohyes.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The trees are screaming,
And the ligers are pooping out skittles with the old zebra talking in an English accent,
The pink giraffes with the sombreros are row-boating to the chimpanzees,
And the lady bugs with the mustaches,
And toaster strudels are kicking the narwhals with baby traffic cones singing lollipop with a train,
And the UFO with the Christmas mistletoe is trying to gum the eyebrows that are eating the socks with big hairy Sasquatches,
And party poppers that are tanning with tinfoil,
And s'mores that are licking the gravel that have bedazzled underwear,
And swimsuit models attacking killers bees with superman,
And the island that hails the teddy bear that kills llamas,
And nyan's with gingerbread houses,
And fiddles with the paint that defeats the evil muffin,
And chews the man in the moon with pumpkin pie howling with some neon flying cars,
And heading to Narnia with my cookie that Kory sent there last year.
Lost with myself?Sweet little soul, come here to seeLost with myself?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The path of salvation, light to follow
Are you lost, my dear little soul?
In the shadows you have been too long
My tears, where are you?
The pain I need to release
Release out of me
Please, my tears
Come back to me
Oh wings so white, hold me
Please don't let me fall
Heal my broken raven wings
Let the angel rise once more
Eyes, eyes, be aware
Enemies are stalking us
In the shadows, in the dust
We see them before they come
Eyes, don't you fail me
My heart, nowhere you are
They once tore it apart
Pieces hidden, lost
No heart, no heart
Who am I?
Who am I?
Lost in here, away from there
My mind shattered, yet so dark
I have no place to call home
My eyes won't face another day
A day without suffering
I have no heart to call own
I have no tears to shed down
I have no life to live for
I have no love to hold on
I have no dreams to share
Nothing I am
Thank You My LoverThank You, My LoverThank You My Lover5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Thank you for being with me
Thank you for caring for me.
Thank you for loving me
Without your love,
I would have lost my sanity long ago
I would have given up on life.
There is no sense of living.
You soothe me
With your words.
You loved me
With your actions.
Your hands caressed my face,
Letting me know you are with me always.
You comfort me, you cared for me,
You loved me.
So, again, I say,
Thank You, my Lover.
HumanThey cannot help but stare;Human2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
They think you are an animal;
They do not even pretend to care
You now feel like a fool.
They will not ever see
You too have a heart and soul;
They tease you mercilessly,
And you begin to lose control.
They think that is all right
Just because they can;
They ignore your bark and bite,
And you no longer feel human.
They cannot end their play-
Not that they have ever tried;
Your only hope as you pray
Is that they do not hear you cry.
You cannot understand what they find
So amusing in your pain;
You begin to lose your mind,
Forgetting you were ever sane
Or once knew a day when all
You felt were peace and joy;
So you weep and hide, scream and bawl
Because they made you their toy.
You blame yourself every day
For what they made you be;
And all you can pray
Is that your tears they never see
Even though this sorrow
Seems like it will never go away.
You hope that they might
One day know what they have done
By smothering your dying light
And only allowing you to figh
Beautiful CarnageNightmares smiled sweetly as angels shattered.Beautiful Carnage2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Notice MeLook up from your desk.Notice Me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Look up from your book.
Look up from your laptop
or iPod and songs.
Why can't you see me?
Why don't you care?
Why won't you answer my letters?
Do you even know my name?
Do you even recognize my face?
Do you even think of my eyes?
Perfect Again (Josh Ramsay One-Shot)“Fuck you Josh, you’re a fucking douche. I’m leaving.” You screamed. “Whatever. I don’t care.” He mumbled before you walked out of the apartment and slammed the door behind you. You two had been fighting. Again. It really hurt you when he said he didn’t care I you left, even if he probably didn’t mean it. You knew him to well to believe that. But since a few weeks you weren’t so sure anymore. You were always fighting, till you ended up crying yourself to sleep in your bed while he was lying on the couch in the living room, trying to sleep, what didn’t work most time and you heard him crying in the middle of the night. You both knew you were hurting each other, but it didn’t change anything, but now you’ve had enough.Perfect Again (Josh Ramsay One-Shot)2 years ago in Romance More Like This
You walked out on the street, it was raining, so you pulled the hood of your sweater up. You didn’t take a jacket with you and it was pretty cold, but you didn’t want to go back, that
Lost in your loveI won't let you see me cryingLost in your love2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I won't let you see me dying
Nothing changed we are still the same
You know nothing except my name
The river is flowing and rain is falling
The sun is setting and I'm still drowning
But I won't let you see me crying
I won't let you see me smiling
Times are changing life is going
Rain is falling and I'm still drowning
No one's here, no one but me
I've cried all night so you wouldn't see
I died tonight and return as a ghost
To let you see what you have lost
You never saw me crying
You never saw me dying
You never saw me even smiling
You didn't see me at all
How I let myself fall in love
The CaterpillarYou are like aThe Caterpillar11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
You won't realize
until you finally shed
that cocoon of yours.
And once you do,
you will feel
and wonder why
you spent so long
in that cocoon
and believing that you
something more than
you would never ever
but look at you
SadnessYou said you don't like any of my poemsSadness3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You don't like it cause they're sad
at least you said the truth
But what can I do about that?
If you think I can change myself you're wrong
People don't change
Believe it or not, they don't
I tried to write something good from all my heart
I've tried so hard
but nothing can help me
sadness is all i can feel
don't know if it's bad
certainly not good
but what i can do?
it's easy to say...
probably not that easy to do
everyday people passing me by
hiding inside what they want to hide
i feel like I'm not moving
just watch them all walk
what are they doing?
trying to stop world clock
you're saying I was born to be sad
i guess you're right
but I'll tell you what
we all were born to be dead
and nothing is simple
or just too simple to understand
why we can't just live it?
holding each other hands
cause we have to fake it
that's what make us friends
still don't like my stuff?
well i don't care
it's all I've got
SilenceSilenceSilence3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Silence is not an illness, no! Well
I choke myself with this unheard pain every day
Like a baby wishing to speak, but being simply unable to.
Every time I try to spread my voices wings and fly;
Noises of others push me back in a bird-cage.
Consider the Silence not to be a dieses but a sign, for
Every one of us tries to fly but sometimes we've just no wings for it.
When devil falls for angelPlay with darkness I want to see itWhen devil falls for angel2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Penetrate it, wishing for me to feel it
I am the devil; you chose to be an angel
You play with fire, you play with danger
Hold your breath, don't scream just yet
Rain swept me off my feet, I'm lying wet
Choose your fairy tale, I'll be you magic
Let go your tears, it won't cause the tragic
Recall the feelings, give them breath of life
Even purest truth ends being a darkest lie
Longing for something you can't have
I refuse to live without you, I refuse to understand
Like the night craves to be saved by day
I crave for you, in each and every way
Questions with no answers, love is not reward
Everything seems so wrong but opposites attract
The devil and the angel never could decide
Was this feeling true or was it just a lie?
You never really loved meMay I tell you something?You never really loved me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
May I tell you the whole truth?
What I'm actually doing here
And what I feel about you
I hate you.
Yes I'm saying this
Right in your face
I hate you with all my heart
With all my power of hate
And you know what?
You completely deserve it
You're such fake
Such a mistake
But I am a loser
Yes I admit
But here are the facts
So deal with it
You're faking person
You don't belong to me
And I am sick of it
I want to cry
I want to scream
But I will survive
And I'll get over it
I'm strong enough to face the truth
Strong to kill all memories of you
I'm not broken hearted
Whatever you have started
I'm done with it
Flirt All You Want...You talkFlirt All You Want...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You guys have a blast.
Look behind you.
In the shadows.
I see you talking to her.
I see you laughing.
I see you.
But it turns out that you don't see me.
You even do it when I'm there.
Laugh with her.
Smile with her.
Joke around with her.
What about me?
Guess I'm just a doll.
Just something to be made fun of.
It's not like you actually cared.
You guys can talk.
I'll just sit here and listen in to both of your laughter.
Sitting here hearing the sound of ripping.
While you two laugh and have fun.
Who's the girl, you ask?
Oh, no one, really.
Just my best friend, that's all.
The one who's been there for me through everything.
Guess I really do need to be careful when I'm making decisions.
White words on black wallsI may never askWhite words on black walls3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You may never say
And it's all wrong
White is turning into grey
You played with words
Now they're playing with your mind
Why won't you say?
Why did you left me all alone
I tried to run away
Writing on the black walls
Those simple words I said too much
But not enough
Speak your mind
Speak out loud
I let you drown in your own thoughts
You deserved it all
But I will never say these saving words
I just put them back on those black walls
I love myselfI need to love myselfI love myself2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I need to care
I need to be myself
I need to stand
I got to love myself
For who I am
I got to see myself
Like no one else
So I will love myself
And I will care
I’m gonna free myself
From this despair
Love is gonna save usLove is gonna save usLove is gonna save us2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Love is gonna kill us
Love is gonna heal us
Love is gonna break us
Love is gonna lead us
Love is gonna stop us
Love is gonna wake us
Love is gonna take us
Love is gonna love us
Love is gonna hate us
Would you like to know some more?
Go ahead and fall in love
Love is gonna show you all
Where Light is SwallowedI only step out when no one is coming homeWhere Light is Swallowed3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The sun sets, and drags the veil from my eyes
I sink just below your searching lights
There is a heaven in this night
that evacuates my mind into the world around me
Where I'm going, there will be no stopping
I'll glance over my shoulder,
then I'll disappear
There was a time.There was a time.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
There was a time when you made me feel beauitful
There was a time when you said I was special
There was a time when you made me smile
But now I am ugly.
There was a time when you were my everything
There was a time when you said we'd be forever
There was a time when I only wished for your kiss
But now I am alone.
There was a time when you said you'd fight the world for me
There was a time when I lived for you, and you for me
There was a time when we were inseparable
But now I am worthless.
There was a time when only you could stop my tears
There was a time when only you were there for me
There was a time when only you said you loved me
But now I am hopeless.
Ugly, alone, worthless, and hopeless.
Just look at what you've done.
Took a strong girl and left her broken.
Let me ask you, now was it worth it?