gravity. i always wonderedgravity.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
if this was an outwardly apparent thing.
oh look at her
i can see her cheekbones
or theres a bit of a slight
in the way she breathes
like something is catching in her chest
and threatening to swallow her whole.
i can fucking smell it on her.
she wants to die.
its a definite scent you know
or maybe its completely hidden
and its only when i swallow too much air
and my lungs spasm
and burn and i choke and my face
turns the same colour
as a week old bruise
that i realise i can feel a rush
when my brain trips over the
i might just die thought
that normally scares people
but not me.
instead my thoughts backfire
and speed to other things like
i wonder if this will look like an accident
or will they be able to tell that i thought
about doing it
and if they will cut me open and
see that its actually a predisposition
like diabetes or heart disease
you can see it lining their veins
or in the way their lungs are shaped
or the curve of their spine.
My Bleeding HeartMy Bleeding Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My heart is bleeding
Try sleeping with a broken heart
The nails are deeper than I ever thought possible
Didn't even know there was flesh there
The air I breathe is toxic
The food I don't eat can't heal me
Everything slowly kills me
Insomnia haunts me
Pieces of my heart keep shattering my dreams
Try living a never ending nightmare
Pain and fear my faithful companions
I have made them a special place
Where they can spend the night comfortable
I swim in darkness cause my misery blinds me
I know where the light is yet I don't want it
My cries and my sobs by all go ignored
They look at me but the truth is in codes
They can't read what's written on my soul
That the love is almost over and so is the hope
What am I supposed to do? How do I get back to where I belong?
I know he's somewhere, I can feel his presence
Yet I can't hear him, I can't see him
The knowledge gives me courage, the strength to endure
I'm still not ready to lose
But there's not much you can ask of these broken p
Will You Ever...?Do you love me?Will You Ever...?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Simple question, complex answer
Don't give me measure
Don't give me quantity
All I need is a straight answer
I want depth, not length
Truth, not a bunch of well constructed lies
I want an explanation
Of what you feel on your heart
I want it bare
I want it raw
So look me in the eyes
And answer me
Do you love me?
Your maddening insensibility
A cover-up mask
Hiding from my view
A heart that over flows with love and desire
Yet, I don't know
If I'm the recipient of that love
You hang me around your neck
For the whole world to see
And I still wonder, is that love for me?
How hard Is it to tell me?
How hard is it to show me?
How will I know if you really love me?
If I ask you to be there for me
Tell me, am I asking too much?
If I ask you for understanding
Will it sound too demanding?
Why do you stay mum?
Why not tell me what's wrong?
Is it just me, your own flesh and blood
If even from me you conceal it
Then, who do you trust?
Is it that im not enough?
Is it that in your eyes