MyselfThe jar of tears has fallen to pieces, lost are the memories from within the creases.Myself3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
They've all abandoned me, my silent friends, our bonds have withered beyond their ends.
So predictable this scene truly was, the girl who fell from not a single cause.
Twas my own fault, for I banished all help, rotted to pieces within myself.
Though alas a mark has been etched within stones, "My soul lives forever without my bones."
Words HurtWords HurtWords Hurt3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hit me one more time
Hit me again
Push me around
On the floor
Down the stairs
It hurts less than your words
So kick me
Bruise my skin
But don’t call me names
It causes too much pain
I love you I really do
I’ll take the abuse
And be your punch bag
But please keep your words
My head can’t take it
My mind won’t survive
It destroys me.
Define Depression."Define depression for me, will you?"Define Depression.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"Well, not doing anything or having the motivation to, is one."
"You're just lazy."
"Okay, what about another one?"
"Staying inside all day and being anti-social?"
"And what did you shout at me for yesterday?"
"That's got nothing to do with it!"
"...Why did you stop me seeing her?"
"You know who, the shrink."
"...It was making you worse."
"Ah... And how was it making me worse?"
"Well, you were acting... You were arguing."
"Acting human, maybe? Showing my feelings?"
"Shut up and take the dogs out."
"...She suggested medication, you know."
"You'd rattle when you walk if you took all the meds."
"Yes, if I took all the meds the doctors suggest..."
"Glad you're finally seeing sense, son."
Fortress of SorrowI may be brokenFortress of Sorrow3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but you cannot mend me
You cannot get close
You will never befriend me
For I have built walls
around my shattered heart
They keep me together
and they tear me apart
They keep what is left of me
Safe from attack
They keep me bottled up
and hold my emotions back
They shield me from this blackened world
and within them I shall hide
But these cold walls are my self made prison
and I am trapped inside
They keep me from being hurt again
but they are my greatest sin
From the moment they were fabricated
I haven't let anyone in
No matter how many times
I admit that I have a problem
Nobody will ever be able to help me
Because I refuse to let them
I have become so guarded
I have imprisoned myself
I have become so untrusting
I lost faith in my own mind
I have become so lost
I have misplaced my own humanity
I have become so broken
You can never pick up the pieces
Because if you break down these walls
and breach the heart of the problem
my deepest fear
is that there will be nothing t
BrokenEmpty, distraught, laid bare, cleavedBroken3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
off my skin. Crumbling to the weight
of reality. Crushing dreams which outweigh
thoughts of utopia. Life's cumbersome
relief, falling apart. My knees stagger
along. Treading roads meant to hurt.
Pain unbearable felt with every piercing
stride. Bleeding me dry, I have nothing
left to give. Empty a vessel carrying hope.
Moving, crawling, squirming forward. The
dirt moving through the skin infecting the
flesh. Spoiling the purity that had once existed
in places shut out from the barren scapes of
reality. An idealist who does not realize; reality
paints a bleak picture on a canvas that is fading.
A dream world cascading in an illusion of life
which was meant to be. Reaching out desperately.
Trying to hold on as the world sees the crimson
clot which covers my naked body. Cheering on
a brutal song which echoes about in a deaf
man's ear. Forever heard as the rumbling cuts
through whatever is left to give to these empty
fields. As the dust gathers around c