What We Had
What We Had
I think it was the lack of connection.
The lack of... touch?
I didn't mean for it to happen.
My desire for love was too much.
He was right there,
In my peripheral vision.
The party was intense.
Nothing but flashing white lights
Filling the room.
He walked up to me,
Wanting to dance and I said
I was with someone.
It's not like it was a
We only ever kissed and said
A whole year of just
Maybe he didn't love me
Like I loved him.
Maybe he was straight.
Maybe he didn't think of men
I still loved him.
I didn't want to let him go.
But I desired something.
I desired something more than
I wanted to touch.
Wanted to be touched.
I wanted to feel another's skin on mine.
I was feeling too much desire to care
I woke up that morning next to a
I never knew his name.
I never asked for it.
Because I didn't
I just got up and
Days after that night,
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AJ and Cain [Part 1]
An idiot! That's all he is.
AJ grimaced to himself, pulling his hood over his head to keep the icy wind from stinging his pale skin and checked his phone.
He didn't even apologize! What the hell is wrong with him? Kissing me and then saying he didn't mean it. That makes absolutely no sense!
The blue-haired teen walked along the sidewalk, turning and ducking into the music store Gage always went to, to escape the crisp air. His eyes perused the room, it consisting of many rows and tables of soundtracks, DVD's, and even some vinyl records. The walls were heavily adorned in posters of famous rock bands like Three Days Grace, Papa Roach, Seether, etc… and AJ loved it. A store never spoke to him like this one did. He wandered to the back of the room, examining the CDs in awe before a voice spoke to him, making him jump.
"Let me know if you need help finding anything," It said, carelessly, the voice low and gruff. Familiar.
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Caleb grabbed his mask back from the receptionist after she had checked the mesh and bib, running his thumb along the new blue stamp on its side amidst the many other, older, ones.
"Are you all checked?" Delacruz asked him when he found the boy stretching in the men's locker room.
"Yep," The fencer replied, switching legs.
"Alright then get your stuff on. I'll help you warm up."
"m'kay." The brunette nodded, looking over at Delacruz knowingly, "Gonna show off for all the sponsors, eh?"
The Asian man smirked before leaving Caleb to suit up.
Alec sat up from where he'd been lying on the bed and stalked out of his room to get some food in his stomach. He hadn't eaten since yesterday, his head too clouded from constantly thinking about Caleb to worry about food.
As he walked out into the hallway, the sound of the TV in Danni's room made him freeze mid-step. Glancing over from where he stood, he saw the brunette that had been invading his
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Author's note: I know I have a lot of stories I'm working on at the moment. I have been working on this one for quite a while now and decided to post. But see it as more of a preview chapter because I won't be posting the next chapters for awhile. Hope you enjoy, nevertheless!
Captive of My Embrace
Adeon watched, with admiration, the young boy passing by all alone. He leaned forward on the park bench, his elbows on his knees and his chin resting in the palms of his hands, his eyes entranced by the child. The boy turned toward Adeon watching him and cocked his head at the man. The black-haired demon smiled lovingly, putting his hand out, the brunette walked forward without hesitation, his soft green eyes not leaving the cold, black ones of the demon.
"Kasey," He whispered as he gripped the child's hand, pulling him close to speak to him. His hand cupped his cheek, tenderly. "You're mine now."
"What?" The child fur
:Forbidden- Ch 9::Forbidden- Ch 9:2 years ago in Romance More Like This
"What's going on?" AJ asked, an eyebrow rising in confusion. "Why are we going to Cain's? I thought you and Talen"
"I want to get him back," I interrupted, putting my hands to my temples and rubbing slowly. "I realized how much he meant to me when I left him."
"What were you doing for the past two weeks that kept you from calling or texting me? You could have at least told me you were okay!"
"Nothing," I laughed dryly and stared at my hands. "Literally."
"You don't know how worried I was. I'm serious."
I glanced over at AJ, his blue hair was disheveled and dark bags were under his eyes, making him look older than he really was by a few years. He looked like he hadn't slept in days.
"Why would you worry?"
"Because you're my best friend. I care about you, man."
I turned my head away, my eyes lowering and my cheeks turning a light shade of pink.
"W- Well," I stuttered. "You shouldn't."
"Yes. I definitely should," He laughed a bit, raising a
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Alec opened his eyes slowly, blinking away the last fragments of his dreams. He rolled to his side and regarded the lump under the covers there, smiling softly. The blonde scooted himself closer to Caleb's sleeping form, brushing strands of brown hair from his closed eyelids. The fencer stirred under Alec's fingertips, burying himself deeper into the sheets.
A grin stretched across the blonde's face and he leaned close to Caleb's ear, his hand slowly traveling down the boy's arm and under the covers.
"Wakey, wakey " He whispered seductively, shaking Caleb at the hip. The brunette opened his eyes and squinted up at Alec.
"Rise and shine!" The hazel-eyed boy said warmly, smiling down at him. Caleb pursed his lips, his eyes only half open.
"Why are you touching me at like 6 in the morning?" He practically growled at Alec.
"It's 9:30, silly!" He said laughing, letting his hand slide down and around to the inside of the brunette's thighs. Caleb
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My mother looked up from her book and raised her eyebrows at me expectantly as I rubbed the back of my head.
"Do you mind if I go out tonight?"
"And where do you plan on going?"
"Over to Dan's."
"Oh, but of course! That Daniel is such a nice boy," My mother picked her book back up and smiled to herself. "If only you were more like him."
I frowned and ran upstairs to my bedroom to change. Before I stripped, I stared at myself in the floor-length mirror on my closet door. My black hair needed a trim to keep it from falling over my icy, blue eyes. My skin was white as a sheet and my body lacked the muscles guys were supposed to have packed under their skin. Flesh and bones. That's all I was. I was never going to get a guy, looking like this. Not that it mattered. Dating really never interested me all that much and I had yet to find a guy that perked my interest. My parents didn't like the fact that I was gay and I usuall
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"Ugh! It's hot! How can you wear that thing? It's like 100 degrees!"
AJ fanned himself and stuck his tongue out, panting heavily like a dog would. I shook my head, smiling as I zipped up my sweatshirt.
"It's 60 out and perfect for a sweatshirt."
"What? It's boiling!"
"You are so over-dramatic." I laughed and stared down the road, my eyebrows furrowing.
"What time did they say they were picking us up?" AJ asked, mimicking me as I stared towards the corner.
"Talen said he'd be here around 5:00. It's 5:30 now."
"Of course, he'd be late," the blue-haired boy scoffed and crossed his arms, sticking out his bottom lip. "I'm hungrryyyy."
"Quit complaining," I snapped with irritation. "Why didn't you eat lunch?"
"Because I needed to save room for the greasy, fried shit at the carnival. DUH."
"Well, he should be here any minute."
Just as the words came out of my mouth, the familiar red mustang pulled around the corner and up AJ's driveway, sounding the
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I didn't want to be here anymore. I just felt like I should shrivel up and die; cease to exist. What was wrong with me? I hadn't left my room for days. Even my parents were beginning to worry, which meant that this was a pretty serious problem.
When was this torment going to end? I stared at my phone and just laid there, wrapped in my blanket, watching my blank screen that occasionally lit up and vibrated because of a concerned AJ. Every time AJ texted me though, it got my hopes up thinking it might be him. But I knew it was no use. He wasn't going to text me or call me. He didn't want me in his life anymore. I didn't blame him.
I licked my lips, the skin feeling cracked and chapped. My mother would always come in, offer me food but I wouldn't respond. I couldn't. My father would try to talk to me, even sit on the edge of the bed, rubbing my back as if he was a good father. I wouldn't answer.
If I wasn't staring at my phone, I would jus
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I hesitated a moment before turning and running back into the house. AJ was already trying to push his way between the quarreling brothers.
"Cain!" The blue-haired teen screamed, his fist tightening around the man's shirt. "You need to calm down!"
Cain ignored AJ, pushing him aside to swing his fist toward Talen's face. Cain's sibling dodged it and retaliated with a right hook of his own but instead of his brother, Talen's knuckles struck AJ's face, the dark-eyed boy staggering backwards and lifting his hands to his eye. He whimpered for a moment before shaking off the pain and re-centering himself between the two, turning towards Cain.
"Cain, please stop!"
His hands wrapped around the man's waist as he burrowed his already bruised face into his slightly blood-stained shirt. Cain stilled, staring down at AJ, his eyes widening. Talen stumbled backwards, a wall catching him before he could lose his footing altogether as he lifted his arm, wipin
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Caleb sat back in his seat, cradling his new bowl of ice cream protectively in both hands. Alec watched him with amusement as the brunette shoved a spoonful of the Dippin' Dots into his mouth. His eyes suddenly widened in alarm and he opened his mouth wide, waving his hand frantically as if trying to scoop in the air.
"Dude it's cold." Alec chuckled as Caleb fought off the brain freeze, his hands on his temples and his eyes squeezed shut.
"No! Really?!" Caleb retaliated, his words dripping with sarcasm.
"Yeah, that's why you don't put a huge spoonful of it in your mouth, smart one." Alec rolled his eyes and laughed as the fencer stuck his tongue out at his date, turning away from him and crossing his arms, pouting. Glancing at Alec from the corner of his eye, he slowly brought the spoon to his lips and took another bite of the ice cream. Alec laughed at him as Caleb slid the spoon from his mouth, his eyes large and innocent. He looked a lo
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"So where are we going?"
AJ gave me an odd look as we left the club and I shrugged, looking around for Talen. It had taken me twenty minutes to lure my blue-haired friend away from the girls and 10 extra minutes to persuade him into leaving the club. My patience was running out as we walked into the crisp, night air.
Inside the club, I had checked my phone as AJ dramatically came up with an excuse for his new fan club, only to find 3 missed calls all from my mom. She found out, I just knew she must have. She must have tried to reach me at Dan's. For some reason, my mother finding out wasn't the big catastrophe it had been earlier in my naïve mind. All I wanted to do was find Talen. I dismissed the calls and resumed my search for the lanky bartender.
"We have to find someone," I murmured to AJ.
"That's really specific, dude," AJ sneered, sarcasm dripping from his voice.
"Just look for that bartender that was working in the club."