ShardsThe dream shatters around me like a broken mirror.
Pieces of you surround me, but nothing seems to be clear.
I'm still cleaning up the mess you made.
You should have put down your fear,
You could have stayed.
I'm done chasing.
I've stopped running.
Have you even noticed that I'm walking the other way?
I'm cut by the shards of what's left of who you were.
Red tears stain the surface while the world is in a blur.
GhostThe dream shatters around meGhost2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like a broken mirror.
Looking at the wreckage,
My reflection unrecognizable.
A broken image.
A broken heart.
I'm cut by the shards
As I try to piece it back together.
My blood sprinkles the surface
Like a red rain.
The mirror is whole again.
What's left of the dream.
I look at my reflection,
And tears finally begin to fall.
I Will Love MeI measureI Will Love Me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Through your eyes to only
When I see myself
If you do
Not love me
Then why even bother
To tell me
I'm special at all
From now on
For living is not
For some one
Who’d throw me aside
Will love me
The way I had wanted
Love me first
TearsI didn't cry in empty roomsTears2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With closed windows and no furniture,
I didn't cry during steaming hot showers
And lavender body wash,
I didn't cry under thick blankets
And coarse bed sheets and thin pillows because
I was sad.
I cried because I was scared, because I was tired,
Because I was sheltered too much
To be able to find my way on my own.
I cried because love wasn't easy
And life was even harder.
I cried because sometimes
What matters the most hurts the worse.
I cried until my eyes
Refused to produce more of that clear, salty liquid.
I cried because…
I loved you…
But you hurt me every time.
HeartI left my heart's door open,Heart3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But no one walked in.
I laughed but no one laughed with me.
All that's left is a symphony.
It's coming from the back of my heart.
I'm waiting for someone to hear it.
Will you listen?
Fading Shades of GreyDearest reader, please think twice before you try to speakFading Shades of Grey2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Words can be like knives that cause the victim to grow weak
Thoughts can be as bullets shooting freely through the sky
Injuring the innocent with every spoken lie
Please forget my laughter, please forget my broken heart
Please do not remember how you tore my life apart
Leave me as a memory that slowly fades to grey
Spend your days as usual, and I shall fade away
Listen to my cry for help, although it is too late
I've become the monster that you struggled to create
Trying to be perfect was a wonderful mistake…
Now I mustn't worry about which chance I will take.
Please erase all memory of who I tried to be
Please do not remember how I tried to be set free
Please do not be saddened under any circumstance …
What's makes now so different from when you still had a chance?
Black and WhiteSealing up memoriesBlack and White2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In cardboard boxes,
Hiding old injuries
Inside dusty closets.
Riding a beaten track
With busted brakes,
So I run right back
Into past mistakes.
Tried to know for sure
If this time was real,
‘Cuz there's no cure
For love's ordeal.
Life seemed so grand
When I was beside you,
When you held my hand
And said you loved me too.
Now I'm clutching at the place
Where my heart used to be,
A hopeless empty space
To which you held the key.
Maybe if I had known
About all of your lies,
And your heart of stone,
Your whole disguise--
Maybe I could have saved
Myself from this pain,
And not become enslaved
By a love we could not sustain.
The words left unspoken
Keep me up every night,
When your heart's been stolen
Life becomes black and white.
innocenceYou may have itinnocence2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But you you may lose it
It's such a simple thing to lose
But when it's lost
You look for it again
You try to have it once more
But what to do?
It's already gone
So you pretend
You fake yourself
You try hard
but instead of that you could
have just cherished yourself
before you get sullied
now it's too late
once it's gone
it will never come back…
Him and HerHimHim and Her2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I was born in 1994.
I was your boyfriend.
I was someone who you loved.
But I didn’t love you back.
I was your first kiss.
Your first love.
Your first many things.
But that didn’t matter because I lied.
I knew that it would end the way it did.
And I knew you’d end up hurt.
But I still did it, because I thought it would be best for
And for that, I hope you understand that it isn’t your fault.
Don’t be so nice.
Find someone who actually cares.
Try to forget me.
Even though I know you won’t.
I was born in 1996.
I was your girlfriend.
I was someone you used.
You didn’t want me as your girlfriend.
I was your first kiss.
Your first girlfriend.
Your first many things.
But that didn’t matter to you.
You only wanted someone to pay attention to you.
Someone who would undoubtingly be a fall back if you didn’t
get what you wanted.
I loved you for wh
Me and You.Before we drown in uncertaintiesMe and You.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and throw away old priorities.
Lets replay all the old lullabies.
Even if only save goodbyes.
Do you remember all the late nights?
Before our disputes and all of our fights?
The way you held me in the cold.
Or the way you promised 'till we are old'.
Do you have the trinkets I sorely left.
Hear our laughs that now fallen deaf.
Find our pictures in old worn boxes?
That lay so hidden like wary foxes.
Lets try again through hopeful wishes.
we hold back tears, more broken dishes.
We see the mess we created.
Our once happy bubble, now deflated.
The bags all packed and tied so tight.
Our home so warm now cold at night.
We'll soon leave so don't be mad.
The silence killed the 'love' we had.
How did we come to fall so far.
Our broken hearts kept in a jar.
A love we once thought was so true.
Leave broken memories of me and you.
In everything I doIn the second it takesIn everything I do2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
For you to race through my mind
The world seems to have stopped
Just to give me time to savor the picture,
The one of you that never leaves my head
And the best part is I get to enjoy it often
For in everything I do, I think of you
You are my inspiration, my hope
Balance to my life is brought by you
So I thank you, my dear, my darling,
Queen and guardian of my heart,
For being yourself.
Daddy, Please Daddy....Daddy, don't lie to me, I wanna knowDaddy, Please Daddy....2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Where is she hiding, and why did she go?
Daddy, don't lie to me, please, pretty please
It's like I can hear her voice within the breeze.
Daddy, don't lie to me, where did she run?
Daddy, I know all the things you have done.
Daddy, don't lie to me, I've seen her scars
Hidden from me like the faraway stars.
Daddy, don't tell me, I don't wanna hear
I'm hoping these thoughts are just worries, just fears.
Daddy, don't tell me, I can't stand the facts
I just wanna think this is some silly act.
Daddy, I love you, you know this is true
But honestly, why do you do what you do?
Daddy, I saw you when you pushed her down
She screamed and she cried, and you made not a sound.
Daddy, I saw you when you stabbed her back
She fell to the floor and again, you attacked.
Daddy, I saw when you stole her goodbyes
And Daddy, I saw when you silenced her cries.
Daddy, don't lie to me, I know the truth...
You hurt her, you killed her, you've darkened my youth.
Daddy, don't hu
Take It All Away.There’s a tear between each smile and a fracture on my heartTake It All Away.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
And a thousand feelings breaking me and tearing me apart
Knowing when it’s over I may lose my sanity
Embrace the mess I am and the storm inside of me
In the dark I have a chance to fight away my problems
To ignore them all away instead of trying to solve them
All I saw when I looked back was a mass of insecurity
Laying waste to who I am and ripping at the seam
Lowering my already non-existent self-esteem
And I couldn’t help admitting I’m a self-made failure
Walking a broken path as a second-hand savior
And it all adds up to nothing; me in a nutshell
Yanking on the chain that tethers me to hell…
SnowLet's lose our faces tonightSnow2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Chemical anxiety and paper highs
Thrown to the curb by something stronger, small and white
While stars burn out their insides; Prometheus in the sky.
I always thought you were a lie:
Stinking pop culture curling bright around my eye
But now I wonder if your treasure is something I could find
Leaping from the bass lines into my frenzied, eager mind.
GuidanceGuidance.Guidance2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My father once told me that life is supposed to be a struggle
And that everyone has their own specific type of hustle.
Whether it be working in an office or stacking products on a shelf.
Naturally we all share the same aim of accumulating wealth.
He also told me that nothing is promised in this life time.
When you least expect it the man upstairs will throw you a life line.
Something or someone that will give you a reason to continue.
Awaken the hidden belief and talent that law dormant within you.
He then told me that happiness and success are short lived.
In time your name will both appear and disappear from life's shortlist.
At some point you will feel like the whole world is against you.
No matter what you do some people will just always resent you.
Accept their venomously kind words but never take them to heart.
The show must go on and no one else but you can play your part.
Lastly he said that you must find a balance between work and leisure
Because those priceless mome
ListenCan you hear meListen2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Listen to my cries
Feel my pain
See your neglect
Understand what you've put me through
Hear me roar
My anger bouncing off the wall
My sadness ringing in
Your deaf ears
Can't you hear me
Do you just not care
Listen to me
Don't walk away
I'm not finished
If only you'd hear me
If only I could make you see
Why won't you listen
Why don't you care
Do you not see the tears
You're the one that's made to care
It's your job
Why can't you just listen
Maybe you can't hear me
I'm just not loud enough
My NoteI cry as I sit in the silence,My Note2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Alone in the lounge not watching TV,
The volume muted but screen aglow,
For I fear the silent darkness.
Thoughts of past and the present,
Flood every crevice of my splintered mind,
Pushing me to the precipice of madness,
Clasping to stop a fall from the edge.
Overwhelming sadness and hatred,
Despising of my own sorry existance,
That of a life of abuse and bullies,
Pathetically weak and wilting.
Incredulous of my own abilities,
And of the faith others portray in me,
Depressing feelings of abject failure,
From past, to present, to future.
Incapable of shedding emotion,
Relentlessly seeking a way to release,
Letting of blood through inflicted pain,
An aid to stop feeling.
Sprinting Towards DemiseSprinting Towards Demise2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
By burning waters, and smoldering bridges,
I await the genesis of our animosity.
Make the move that gives me permission to strike,
make the move that will bring about your end.
Near draws the line that which I advise you to never cross.
Though to my eyes comes the image of your sprinting legs.
It would seem, that through your veins flows pure pestilence,
and that you wish to bring upon me, nuisances by any cost.
Good God, such a fool bound for my throat,
knowing not the patient blade that waits.
Honor averts it's eyes, as your charge draws to an end.
It wishes this good and done, just as I.
A swift jerk of my arm to your direction,
and make you, a last descent to the ground below.
Then burden leaves my shoulders,
as life outward, pours from your filthy heart.
Battle in my MindEat.Battle in my Mind2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
I love you..
NaPoWriMo: Day 8I was toldNaPoWriMo: Day 82 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to slice through the thickest
of scar tissue this evening.
Let all my inner demons
fall to the floor
& write them out
in my own black blood.
It’s not red anymore,
even though needles
& the bruises
laid out like war-lands
on my arms
I don’t think it ever was,
My mind is a mess
of free versed insecurities,
cat’s eye marbles,
& untamed forest fires-
I still don’t have the nerve
to slice open my skin
& bleed for her.
It and the MaskIt and the Mask2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I feel like I'm wearing a mask.
A mask of normality.
Of the appearance that I know who I am.
Or that I know what I want.
But I am none of those.
Which is why I'm wearing these masks.
One of which I change every day.
This one is a mask of care.
A mask of sorrow.
A mask of feelings.
A mask of beauty.
The other is glued to my face permanently.
Until he or they or she removes it.
This other mask hides the hider.
I need someone.
Someone who knows how to get to my core and break my walls down entirely.
Someone who cares enough to do so.
Someone who won't accept no.
Someone who sees past rejection to the scared little girl yelling from a megaphone to seem louder than the voice I was actually given.
I need It.
I know It.
But I can't reach It.
Until It reaches me.
I'm nothing without It.
I'm nothing at all.
I'm certainly not enough to warrant the attention of It.
So I'll wear this mask of shame and distrust until It rips it from my shattered flesh.
Please, oh ple
Body LanguageI'm following your heart,Body Language2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's beating my name.
Leading me to my death--
To burn in your flame.
Your body is screaming for my affection.
Every inch begging for my love...
Every inch asking for my attention.
Your eyes burn...
Each look as intense as fire.
Lost in your gaze--
Death by desire.
My body is beaming for your touch.
Dancing just beyond your reach...
Swaying, and twirling, teasing, and such--
All to hear your body speak.
HATEYou try too hard to thinkHATE2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That it's not the case
That hate is just born like that
But what you deny
Is the truth
Hate can be born out of love
Even though you know it
Inside of you there is this
Little voice that whispers the truth
You try hard to ignore it
And not to see it
And to mask it
You hate more
But in the end you are
Just a person who
Lusts for love...
Don't hide it
And don't run away from yourself
Just face it and you will see more clearly...
Fade into Written WordFade in lines of written word,Fade into Written Word2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
disappear betwixt prose and rhyme.
Summon stories of stardust's song
and find fables of forgotten times.
Disappear from harsh reality,
seeking lettered escape.
Twisting lines into melodies,
leaving the long lost agape.
Whispering wishes of wanderlust,
daring dreams of dancing,
gushes of grace's grandeur
with the beauty blushing brings.
Let's fade in lines of written word,
disappear betwixt prose and rhyme.
Summon stories of stardust's song
and find fables of forgotten times.
This is Me, BeggingIf I could play guitarThis is Me, Begging2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I’d write you a song.
If I could run that far
Then I’d run all night long.
But I’m no good at that
So you’ll have to settle for this.
What is this?
It's a plea
Please come home
I'm all alone
And nobody understands.
I don't want you to R.I.P.
I want you here with me
But I'm not God
And He hates me
So, for now,
I guess it's R.I.P.