Close.Maybe I could slip back into your heart,
the way I slipped in between your thighs.
Maybe I could hold you again,
but it will be to my surprise.
I am always here,
trying to show you my heart,
but then I hide it well,
out of fear you would tear it apart.
I try to show you how things could be,
through sacrifice and giving,
but if you were not in my life,
then it would hardly be worth living.
If you knew I wrote this now,
you would never want to see me again,
I cannot help the way that I feel,
but I know that I am just a friend.
Child gamesSimon says jump,Child games3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
simon says run,
simon says burn,
under the dying sun.
Lets follow the leader,
straight into hell,
hop-scotch across the field of flames,
and marco polo in the river Styx.
Let's play hide and seek,
in a toxic waste dump,
and let's play tag with porcupines.
Jump rope on a crumbling bridge.
Simon says die.
Forever if you wantEverything is dark,Forever if you want3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
everything is shadowed,
a hand that grabs the sun,
and chokes its last ray of light.
A frown of a moon,
and crying twinkle of a star,
but I don't want to stop dancing with you,
Even as the butterflies flutter about so blindly,
I still find a sense of joy,
just from being hand in hand,
body to body,
twirling about so graceful,
like eagles entwined,
falling from the sky,
So we can dance forever,
or longer if you want,
even in the dark,
under a lost and broken sun.
Nothing specialI'm a poet,Nothing special3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
a sculptor of words,
bringing phrases together,
in the harmony of a verse.
I am young,
wise in my mind,
but ignorant to the old.
every emotion of the rainbow,
with springtime rain clouds over my head.
I am human,
wreckless steam engine,
powered by hate,
The wheels in motion,
begin to rust.
I am nothing special,
a drop of water in an endless ocean of dreamers,
and other people.
Liars lieA lie. A lie. Liars tend to lie,Liars lie3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with hollow heart and empty eye,
tales so tall they reach the sky.
Knife in back, blood still fresh,
using words to cut the flesh.
It WOULD kill you to tell the truth,
because you feed off of lies like a fucking vulture chewing on the entrails of a three day old carcass.
You're fairy tales are wearing thin,
Snow White's a whore,
and I can't win.
Malicious whisperLook at the birds,Malicious whisper3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
they're so free,
but that's never the life that was meant for me.
I'm stuck in this cage,
like a canary singing,
but I've gone mute,
my voice isn't ringing.
sitting in the sea,
ever so violently,
the water spins,
like my emotions,
I try to speak them,
but my voice is broken.
A whisper caught in the wind,
an angry butterfly,
in the air it spins,
falling through the sky,
crashing into a blank page,
its wings become the ink.
Is the ocean blue with sadness?
Or black with madness?
Can I drown in the emotion?
It seems to take my breath,
with hands so desper
King me.I'll leave this world the same way I came in,King me.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
completely naked and vulnerable,
screaming bloody murder,
looking for an escape,
ready to be judged,
beyond your feeble mental grasp.
except my own mind,
ready to fight,
ready to claim the throne,
ready for the needless slaughter,
waiting for my holy grail of rust.
the demon I've become,
I'm right here,
flick your fiery tongue at me,
I can take it.
But you can't take what I am,
who I've become,
the pain I've caused,
the innocence lost,
THE PERSON I'M NOT,
THE PERSON I'LL
Passing byI'm left sitting in a dark corner of my own creation,Passing by3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
while the world passes me by without even a glance.
Continuous blurs of motion,
while I slowly crawl on concrete,
each crack in the sidewalk,
Falling backward in the thoughts of others,
am I allowed to still say I exist?
Like a comatose victim waking from 1991,
only to discover,
that he's been left behind in time.
Pull me into the future,
so I may abandon the abandoners.
And leave them helpless as I was.
Enemy of mineI see my enemy.Enemy of mine3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
he is cold and heartless,
ignorant of the hole he has dug himself into.
He contradicts his own word,
the hypocritical fool.
I see hate in his eyes,
and I almost feel remorse,
but I remember he is an enemy of mine.
I watch as he unknowingly walks toward the edge,
and falls off into oblivion.
I realized I was staring at myself...
Dancing under a fallen skyWe can both dance under the stars as the rest of the world burns tonight.Dancing under a fallen sky3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
We can kiss while the sky falls,
lips to lips,
until is hits our heads.
Pieces falling everywhere,
but we don't care.
I've seen the world through the reflection of your eyes,
but I just can't turn away and hide,
I won't run,
unless you run too,
hand in hand,
I dance with you.
The night is ours,
but it must be shared,
I don't care,
just as long as I'm with you.
What's it worth?I'd follow you to the ends of the earth, but no further.What's it worth?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'd walk a thousand miles for you, but not one inch more.
I'm too tired to do this anymore.
Why do I wait,
what separates you from any other beautiful girl out there?
What makes it so worth while?
Maybe I'm just in denial,
maybe it's just your smile,
or your figure,
or the way you make me laugh.
Maybe I'm just a fool,
a lovestruck fool,
being commanded by a fate so cruel.
Sometimes I just don't see the point,
maybe my heart sees something I don't.
Is there a connection on a different level here?
Or are those just false voices in my ears.
I wish a little bird
As the world burnsThe world is is burning at my back,As the world burns3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
charred before my eyes,
this is a minor disappointment,
among all the little lies.
I saw a lush, green forest,
now I see a desolate waste.
I see...fragments of life still clinging onto nothing of worth,
this place is just a hollow shell,
of a place I used to know so well,
but now the smoke rises and blocks out every thought.
The dying breed fighting for existence,
against a self made apocalypse,
this is what you've created,
this is what you've made,
this is how you sacrifice,
everything we've ever gave.
The sun glows red on the horizon of smoke,
bodies laying in the ash,
Matter of perspectiveMy time has elapsed,Matter of perspective2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
so elliptical the ways it passed,
I feel like I've done this before,
How about you?
Do you dread time the way I do,
do you feel it drag on like I do,
the way it scrapes by as if to drive me to my breaking point.
Minutes melt formlessly to hours fusing endlessly into days.
I grow tired of the pattern,
but I can't break the cycle.
Time is not a what,
it's a how,
how you experience it,
how you spend it,
how you hate the way it goes by or drags on.
It's just a matter of perspective.
I don't want to play a gameI don't feel the same,I don't want to play a game4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I feel like there's a void.
A pain creeps up my chest,
and I'm becoming so annoyed.
you'd think about it,
and tell me when you decide,
but instead you disappeared,
and chose to run and hide.
When did this become a game,
when did I volunteer to play?
When did I have to bow my head in shame,
and quickly run away?
You're mentally incomplete,
but very weak.
could break with stones,
and you're an outsider,
and so alone.
I want an answer,
not a riddle,
I hate these things.
Dream, dream againDream, dream, and dream again,Dream, dream again4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
run through the mist,
catch me if you can.
This is so surreal,
but not so real.
Colors fade to black,
and then a dark teal.
I wander through an endless void,
but it's so small,
I can hold it in my hand,
and fill it with miles of sand,
or a vast wilderness with buffalo,
or just leave it like it is,
untouched and unaware,
to the outside world,
even to the air.
and so delicate,
and subject to corruption.
Dream, dream, and dream again,
but I can hold this world within my hand.
Thrown awayEverything in nine circles of hell,Thrown away3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
can't compare to the place I dwell,
a conflict of friends,
pushing me, pushing me,
off the edge,
and it's pointless,
but no one else sees.
With blood running like a faucet,
we had everything,
but now we lost it,
we can't retrace these now obscured steps,
we thought we knew it all,
but we never knew best.
And I am filled with rage,
and I am stuck,
in this cage,
and you swallowed the key,
your final decision,
to abandon me.
Like suicideI am craving your destruction,Like suicide3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
like a suicide bomber,
watching you waste your life,
almost puts me in a mood so somber,
but I've waited for this moment,
for too many days,
I won't let that go to waste,
the final moment,
I can almost taste.
So comfort your emotions with the whiskey blanket,
and disguise your fears in the drug abuse banquet,
so take your fill,
of endless pills,
and get your cheap thrills,
if it means your life.
You'd rather be numb than just deal with it,
when will you realize you're just ending it,
the friend I used to know has died.
Time changes everythingTime changes everything, my friend.Time changes everything3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I used to know you,
but time has changed.
I used to be a good person,
but the clocked ticked away.
I used to give a shit,
but that's the past.
I used to love,
but now I don't.
I used to be happy,
but the hands of time work against me.
Everything changes in time,
I don't care if you differ,
because I know,
day by day,
second by passing second,
you'll be gone,
and I'll be dead.
Dead to us.Look into the eyes of the traitor,Dead to us.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
stoned pupils of the hater,
speaking words of the corrupt,
and fill your enlarging gut.
Has it occurred to you that your only friends are ghosts,
you open your mouth and away they float.
Why don't you look into your own damned soul,
before you throw judgments at us,
why don't you look and see yourself from the outside,
and die puking from disgust.
Dark alleys don't lie,
and this is where you'll forever lie,
between rusted dumpsters,
covered in the afterbirth of a prom night whore,
umbilical cord around your neck,
this unmarked grave is yours,
you never had our respect.
Reality is too real.(Escape to your fantasy worldReality is too real.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
nostalgia for the immaculate make-belief
transcend to another world, another time
discard the real until your dreams become tangible
touching the air lost inside your mind
pretend you exist no longer.)
Close your eyes.
I'm comatose and ready.
I don't need your flying device,
I just need my mind.
(Leave me to dissolve myself
self-destruction within my thoughts
mind over matter, over mind, over matter.)
Reality will bend, but I will crumble,
because matter doesn't matter,
and I'm just a huge disaster,
so I snap,
under weight of reality,
dreams fused with gravity.
A separation at the chest and in the mind.I wrote that for her.A separation at the chest and in the mind.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
When we flowed through the cracks like fluid,
and just moved together so perfectly.
For when we dreamed like skeptics,
always questioning the fabric that held us tied to consciousness.
"Forever if you want"
But respect for opinion fell apart.
The days that music and hushed voices leaked out of the upstairs room.
Something is wrong now.
Fading is the hardest thing that these memories can do.
bloom. Like sores
on my skin. They
loom like my own
The things that I did to you.
Just a little lessThe clouds crawl heavy,Just a little less3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
at the foot of the sky,
it's raining blood,
the angels died.
Little less innocent,
little more diseased,
little more hollow,
a lot more less than free.
What are these chains that bind her so?
Can she not walk from the nest?
Does mother bird keep this hatchling,
and never let her fly...
I can't save this one from insanity.
This one can't save herself.
In a void of her own fear.
And I can hardly give a shit.
All together nowMonsters in my closet,All together now4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
monsters under the bed,
demons outside my window,
and nightmares in my head.
Blood filled rivers,
vermin filled valley,
so many corpses,
lying in the alley.
A darkened sky,
a tiny sliver of light on the horizon,
creatures maruding across the landscape,
just for fun,
when we're the ones suffering,
we're the ones dying,
we all die.
Too crypticI don't want to hear the name slip from your fingers,Too cryptic2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
scraping my ear drums like the bitch at the chalkboard.
I didn't want to see you go,
but it's necessary now.
Necessary to watch the world die,
essential to watch you die,
with me not at your side.
It's better that way,
sometimes I don't know,
It's hard to care when not cared for,
but I don't care.
UselessReconstruct my life,Useless4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'll just fall apart again.
Sooth my soul,
the flame will ingnite once more.
I can try and make it through the door,
but I can't guarentee I won't end up back on the floor.
Grab my hand,
you slip away,
just for me to find you,
on another day.
without you here,
time goes so slow.
Remember a time when we laughed,
remember a time when we sighed,
remember a time when we wanted to die.
Hold each other close,
whisper words of hope.
Do I hate you for leaving?
I just wish you would've stayed,
just a little longer,
Because sadness is settling in,
I never wanted this to b