Indecisive suicidePlunged into gloomy darknessIndecisive suicide2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Snared there for eternity
Without an ounce of light inside me.
Farewell, all my former friends.
It wrecked and tore me inside,
I can't even walk anymore
I can't live no more
My fate is awfully decided.
My heart is pounding.
My hands are shaking.
Still, why is it so hard?
To end my life.
Lady of the LakeTan squirrels hunt nuts before purple dawn.Lady of the Lake2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Violin notes whistle through dried branches,
Puddles - eager redbreasts moisten their throat.
Vast painting of the poet's dreams!
I hear; siren's melody baits lost souls from the wood,
The misty air is loaded by scents of dews,
Tremendous land of dead leaves, out of sight! Swimming peacefully,
White waterlily feels the dragonfly scratching its back.
Trees' woody eyes are pointing at the sapphire surface,
I stare at polychromatic clouds, leaving the heavenly throne.
And from her very breath, she blows them off. Lady of the Lake.
Condescending Nature! Your cruelty is matched your greatness.
Natural, hazy shivers flow through my bloodstream,
There, there she looked at me! Lady of the Lake!
That summer nightSitting amid the silky sand grainsThat summer night2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that glisten under the silver moonlight;
contemplating the forth worlds above,
I yearn to comprehend the eerie language -
of those forever-glittering gazing eyes.
The bittersweet northern wind rustles
blowing to me the spray of the mild sea;
I shiver, and then,
breathe in the most exquisite smell;
and along their melody my heart merrily leaps
Among so poetic atmosphere, a comet shines:
lighting up the horizon,
enthralling my soul, and mesmerising my mind,
as it sweeps the sky with its luminous tail -
of magical golden dust, and sparkling water drips.
To my feet I shift my weight to bid
my farewells to the transient guest as
it exists the scene;
drooping my eyelids, drowning in a trance,
I make my wish:
'May all the years' nights be as -
fabulous as this summer's splendid one'
Thirst of revengeAre you serious? All of youThirst of revenge2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Laughing out loud
What's wrong with this hysterical crowd?
Looks like I was left out, threw
My heart's petals have faded
No souls by my side
Deeper and deeper into agony
Loneliness has become heavy
This blade I hold
Will shed my blood instead
Do I target the proper enemy?
Why should I use it against ME?
Are you serious? All of YOU
Laughing at ME? Miserable amused faces
You should reconsider it anew
Before I tear you to pieces
You'll know the meaning of pain
It'll become your best mate
My tears wouldn't have been vain
I'll destroy all of you without any regret
"Hey, guess who it is.
Do you hear it?
Nop, seems like you fainted.
while you still breath,
The silent sound of my steel...
Drilling the shell
You used to call
What have you done?"Worthless being, you don't deserve anybody's affection."What have you done?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"...I already know."
He was holding his heavy head
Full of shame and lies instead
Tears wanted to flee but were stuck
His body motionless as a trunk
"You hurt her terribly this time, you silly moron."
"...Oh shut your mouth."
"She was kind and blind enough to love you, and yet..."
Slowly realizing what he has done
This petty mind was torn
From any sane mental state he flew
Painfully raising the head anew
"...You're pissing me off."
"And yet, you screwed everything she has brought you."
"...Stop talking, you piece of trash."
The gaze abnormally empty
Darkness surrounding him as a krone
World has become hostile so quickly
In his dreary room, alone
"...I should really stop talking to myself."
I'm Lost, I'm Lost...I’m spiraling downward,I'm Lost, I'm Lost...6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Breathing heavily outward,
in a ceaseless slump
And feeling down in the dumps.
I’m lost, I’m lost, make this all stop!
Seated at the desk
I’m immobilized by stress,
Giving work a blank stare
As if I don’t even care.
Feeling under a spell
I cannot cast away,
I’m lost, I’m lost, in a solitary hell.
Each corner lies a wrong turn,
Sorrow swells and anger burns.
I can’t find out why
No matter how I try.
I’m lost, I’m lost, can’t see a way out!
Lying in my bedroom
With a sense of gloom,
Gazing upwards I ask
“How long will this last?”
Drifting off for the night
With fractured faith,
I’m lost, I’m lost, with no guiding light…
When a girl tell you she loves youWhen a girl tells you she loves you.When a girl tell you she loves you10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
When she stutters those butterflies,
Her eyes go pure, and her heart pauses.
Waiting, hoping, to beat again.
When she gives up me for a we,
Myself for us,
And I to be half a person,
Half of what she could have been.
She gives up being alone, to be alone with you,
She gives up the freedom of her hands, to be held by yours.
She gives up her identity to belong to you
Be there for you, put you above all else
She gives up on herself,
Admitting her failure to cope without you in her life.
She gives up
So she can be yours.
With love she takes a step into the ocean,
Hopping to float.
Hoping for the sun to beat down on her,
Blinding her sight from reality.
Hoping to see colours dancing behind her eyelids
Making starts brightest in the light.
She hopes for the heat to seep through her skin,
Making her very cells glow
And transform into miniature supernovas
Bursting with ecstasy into her veins.
But she’s also ready to drown.
To choke and gasp.
To flood t
Confession about me Silent StrengthI am strong, but please never confuse this strength with invulnerability.Confession about me Silent Strength2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I do hurt.
I do cry.
I do love.
I do feel.
I do get crushed.
I do regret.
But please never think that while I may never show these things in front of you, that I don’t feel them.
Because I do.
More than you could ever imagine.
I’m a hyper sensitive person, forced into a role of strength.
It is just a rare occasion when my reserve breaks and I show it in front of people.
And when this happens, I reach a state of such openness and vulnerability that I fear.
Because I can withstand a thousand blows, but just one word can cut me down. And at that moment, I fear what could be said to me.
I’m very sorry if anyone who see this thinks of me as cold, or heartless, or unfeeling.
It's just in my life, I have had people who rely on me to be the strong one who keeps a level head and calm emotions.
And so when I break in front of someone, I apologize profusely.
Because what if they were someone that needed me
Human thoughtShe is what some call an ideal.Human thought2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why did the roads of our destiny cross? No one knows. Hell is waiting for me, since the Gods made me taste paradise. There is no weak words to describe her ; pejorative becomes meliorative, this embittered perfection of her face reminds me those delightful paintings of Goddesses.
If Beauty and Charm melt into a being, this very abject being would suffer of her heavenly presence.
This infinity of sensations in her gaze, make feel and shudder of everything best this world offers.
Alike a luminary with a human face: only needing to be to shine brightly, no one can touch her, inaccessible.
Faint men would fight ; I would fight, slay, die, just to feel her breath.
Such misfortune for the inept man who, goofy, dullard, can only think about one thing.
Such fortune yet that the only thing I think about is Her.
Haiku: The ladder quandaryHaiku: The ladder quandary4 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Look Nick, a ladder!
Maya, that's not a ladder
That's a stepladder.
I'm Udyr and I know it ('Sexy n I know it' parody)I'm Udyr and I know it ('Sexy n I know it' parody)3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I'll just pass on through, if you don't ward up I'll take your blue.
I'm so Elite, I run to every lane like a meet and great; Yeah
This is how I roll, Tiger Stance is out of control
I wear this fur like a flattened fro, and with Phoenix Stance it's got the glow, YO!
AHH better kill Akali, AHH better gank that Ahri, AHH better help that bot lane
AHH I-I-I, I Rock out!
AHH better kill Akali, AHH better gank that Ahri, AHH better help that bot lane
AHH I-I-I, I Rock out!
When I come gank a lane (yeah) this is what they see (okay?)
"That Bear Stancing mofo's gunna try and stun me!"
I've got Turtle Shield ready and I'm not afraid to throw it, throw it, throw it, throw it...
I'm Udyr and I know it. I'm Udyr and I know it. I'm Udyr and I know it.
Yeah, When I fight them all, I just whip out bear and maul them all.
And when I'm at Dragon, a few Tiger hits make an insta-win (Proc?)
This is how I roll, come on you guys it's time to go.
Taking down t
Carbon DioxideI feel like I am dying inside.Carbon Dioxide2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Every part of me screams to breathe in the carbon dioxide in your words
So that I might suffocate within the voice that was my downfall.
You tell me
You finally talked to that person you like.
You didn't talk to me yesterday.
I want to make a noose from my tears,
I find that I am happy for you.
I am glad that you are happy,
Even if it wasn't my doing.
This love is not about me.
It was never about me.
It does not exist in the simple plane of needing to be requited and accepted.
I am not infatuated, simply needing to feel your skin on mine.
I am in love,
And so I smile,
And say that I am glad,
And it is not a lie.
My heart combusts,
Pulling inward so quickly, it expels itself,
Creating a supernova,
The start of a new universe.
But I cannot think about that now.
There is a brilliance in your ecstasy that demands my attention.
I say that I hope everything between you works out.
We exchange a few jokes.
We say see you later.
So much for being friends!I tried to tell you how I feltSo much for being friends!10 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
But you never understood me.
So, I put my feelings on a shelf,
Hoping someday I'd be set free.
People come and people go
That is what I've learned.
But I got too close to raging fires
No wonder I got burnt.
You were the only one I ever trusted;
Secrets flew away.
I gave you everything you ever wanted
Every single day.
I should have known that this would happen,
It would all come to an end.
I guess I'm the fool for trusting you;
So much for being friends.
ArkuriaShipping: Mamoritai (White Wishes)ArkuriaShipping: Mamoritai (White Wishes)3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Hunter and Saber are walking around in a park holding hands. When it was beautiful and the flower petals in the flower gardens float around them, this song by BoA plays:
Think of days, with no hope, so all alone in the dark, I cried so many tears
Now I know, Now I know, the page was turning chapter one in my book of love
But you came and you showed me that dreams can come true
I want you to know, my heart glows from your touch
In your arms, all the pain inside washes right through
Together we'll find the way
I believe your love, I believe in our love
No matter what, I know our aim is true
Every step we take, our love will grow stronger
I wish that two hearts could be one
Here we are, hand in hand
We watch the stars up in the sky, they're shining down on us
We can share everyday, in every way we hold the promise of tomorrow
When we try, when I feel you close
Don't let me go, I want us to be until the, end of time
Call my name, any time, when your heart feels sorrow
I'll wipe the tea
I'd Rather Be DeadYou're always asking me if I had anything worth dying for.I'd Rather Be Dead10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'll pose the opposite to you and ask you this:
"Why is it that you find life to be worth living?"
Is it so interesting to go through each day feeling anxious?
To the point that you feel nauseated enough to collapse.
Is it so joyous to spend each night staring at a blank ceiling,
Hearing the clock tick on toward morning,
And yet you lie awake.
Tired, but awake, emotionless, but awake...
Do you truly get up each day, facing it with optimism.
Or do you look at the news and the state of the world,
And genuinely fear for your safety?
Now, if it were me that you had asked my dear,
I'd tell you quite honestly: That I'd rather be dead.
At least I would not have to hear the white lie inside my head.
That tomorrow will bring me a 'better' day...
But of course, you are welcome to believe that.
To depression, for creating days without endWake up to the realization that you've been awakeTo depression, for creating days without end1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
for seconds, minutes, hours.
You've been awake in this warm, dark room
and you don't know how long it's been
but now you're conscious
and it starts again--
the pain, strong and steady, in your chest.
You gain consciousness in this too warm morning
and your thoughts whir in endless loops
because it's either that or face the weight in your chest.
Light breaks though the window, soft and unwelcome
but you take it as a reluctant gift--
a new distraction from the feelings awake in your chest.
Awake, but not conscious.
So you think yourself in circles a little while longer
waiting for those quiet pains
(the constant reminder)
to gain consciousness.
AdolescenceI am alone.Adolescence3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A dark, jerky, old BKV bus is carrying me to the shoreless,
in my eyes there are the tears of anger and hate,
in my bag there are unfortunate relationships: toothbrush and toothpaste,
on my face there are pimples: reflections of my dark thoughts,
among my guitar's strings, there is a paralyzing silence, restrained scream,
what can be tamed just by roaring music,
in my mind there is a huge, howling chaos.
LoveLove,Love9 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Is wanted and needed,
Like the falling rain.
It completes you,
It doesn't die,
It'll make you cry.
What I breathe for,
What's worth waiting?
This game of baiting?
You can't escape,
You can't deny it,
You can't ignore,
Or try to forget.
Every waking moment,
Every beat of the heart,
Everything you do,
For love from the start.
Find it within you.
Find it soon,
Find it in the shadows,
Of the fading moon.
Tales of Symphonia: Lloyd's Theme- Original LyricsTales of Symphonia: Lloyd's Theme- Original Lyrics3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Why should I wait?
For the world to decide its own fate?
There's no time to stand around,
We have to take our swords and stand our ground.
I won't accept, this cruelty that's always shown,
I'm sure that everyone, throughout this journey will surely grow.
What is wrong? What is right?
We'll settle this all in a fight.
I am sure I can protect,
Everyone to my last breath.
No matter what, we are all the same,
Where is the shame?
Don't think that everything,
Is just what you've brought to believe.
I will make this world change,
There's no strange.
I will not stand down,
I will cry until everyone hears the sound.
For what you believe in,
In this fight we must win.
No longer "try again"
Fight 'til you reach the end.
What If?What if I told youWhat If?1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
That I'd lost the will
To live another day?
What if I told you
That because of you
I may not laugh again?
What if I told you
That I don't care
About myself anymore?
What if I told you
That my entire life
Is spinning out of control?
What if I told you
That I'm done?
What You Can't RememberWhat You Can't Remember:What You Can't Remember3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You know that something's wrong inside
But you will try to hide it.
Far away from prying eyes;
You say you don't remember...
What is this memory inside.
You feel like you've forgotten.
A part of you decides;
To say you don't remember...
How long will you deny
The bitter truth behind it.
The day you lost yourself;
But now you can't remember...
When first you took away the mask
And looked back at the mirror.
You thought you saw another man;
But you simply don't remember...
The times when you were not yourself
When you forced yourself upon her.
It was a day like this;
But now you won't remember...
The past is locked away for good;
Now hide it with a key.
Smile and carry on in life;
In time you won't remember...
"It's easy to forget a monster..."
-Chen Yuan Wen, 10th April 2012
My personal liarMy personal liar3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I see your lies,
I drink your wine.
I see the deception,
I close my eyes.
I do not care.
Lies or truth.
Believe or not.
I see the lie,
It is in the drawing.
I see the truth,
It is in a stranger's picture.
I see you are a prostitute,
you can't hide your heart.
You worship no God,
you believe in no human.
I see your false.
I drink your evil.
I close my eyes,
cause I do not care..
liar and loner,
traitor and player,
I love you...