Life Sucks, So DieI may not be nice,
I may not be kind,
But there is something
On my mind.
It is something
That I must share;
It is the reason
Why life isn't fair.
Life may not be kind,
Life may not be nice,
But it is what it is and that
Has to suffice.
We don't get a choice;
Life is just this
And we are forced to rejoice.
We must be thankful
For every and all
awesome and awful;
The rise and the fall.
It could be worse,
You could be in a hearse,
But what if that's what you want?
What if that's you're dream;
If it makes you smile and beam?
Then you're an outcast,
And the won't let you leave.
And your life just got worse.
Finding meTime flies by without a trace.Finding me1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Sometimes I feel I'm in a race.
A race that's never gonna end
With cheeriness I must pretend.
The goal of which is "happiness"
And the undeniable feeling to impress.
We all struggle on and carry our load
And sometimes it's too much to hold.
I for one have a particular care:
To do something I would not dare.
But I have to do it, no, I must!
I have to do it to earn their trust.
It's weird though it's so hard to do
And I'm all alone without a clue.
He said: "Tell me when you love again"
Yet he doesn't know what I must defend.
Poor me! I shall never find this happiness.
I was never and never will impress!
For I am lost without a doubt
Like the weary words coming from my mouth.
He'll never know for he does not see.
The pain that's brought by finding me.
December 21, 2012Perhaps the world is ending,December 21, 20121 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Humanity a dying breed.
Satan's taking over,
Still, more time for me I need.
Prophecies fulfilled daily,
It's all coming to a head.
Precious moments stolen,
Words I've left unsaid.
I do not yearn for Heaven,
Nor do I wish for Hell.
So many wasted seconds,
The rose I did not smell.
Life gone before you knew it,
You lived only in my heart.
My sweet unborn angel,
Now we'll always be apart.
Growing up and growing old,
I guess that I'm too late.
Dying before I really lived,
How could this be my fate?
Though Time Has PassedThough time has passedThough Time Has Passed11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
You are no more gone
Than you will be
Though time has passed
I love you no less
Than I did
Though time has passed
It is still hard
It is hard today
It will be hard tomorrow
It will probably still be hard
But it’s okay
We love you
And we miss you
And we will be with you
And it’s okay
It's EnoughI know I'm not good enough,It's Enough1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I know that life's got too tough
But here's something true;
I don't live to please you.
I know times are getting hard,
I know I'm no goddamn bard
But didn't you know that
The Earth is not flat?
I know that I'm not smart,
I know this isn't my part
But I don't care anymore
About every little flaw.
I know you don't get me,
I know I'll never be free
But at least I'm holding out
For something to smile about.
ForbiddenFor within there lies the soul, a fragment of anotherForbidden10 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Outer shell, the lies of the flesh, future denied
Remember the past, dreams and memories, 'tis but another
But this is the body I wear, I was the boy who cried and tried
I gave and loved and lived, it wasn't enough for the other
Dances and kisses and hugs were in abundance, they couldn't hide
Dried blood, tears and sweat, screams of pain and agony, rather
Exalted bliss is denied and there is almost no one that I can confide
Nay, I must obey my mind and bury her deep inside, her I must smother
Girl in the GlassI hate this girlGirl in the Glass10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
With the sneer on her lips
Her fingers knotted in her pretty hair
Her eyes are wild
She's so curvy it's almost sad
She can't hold down a diet
She keeps yanking down her sleeves to cover those pathetic scars
Her eyes are droppy
Her legs too wide
Ink stains on her finger tips
And pentagram's drawn on her sneakers
She has a silver ring and leather coat
She's so desperate to worm into some else's skin
I don't want to hate her but I do
Who is this, stupid bitch who's smiling like she doesn't have a clue?
Putting on a brave face? Ready to face her accuser?
He's waiting in the car outside
A man she should call father
Looking in a mirror is forgein to me
Trying to contact that girl in the glass
This useless bitch staring at me
Who are you?
And why would anyone want you?
What Is Love? A little over six months ago, a boy who was interested in me at the time asked me what I thought love was. "What do you think love means? What does being in love mean to you?" he asked. Of course, the first thing that came to my mind was a face. Not his face. Someone else's face. Someone I'd been trying to convince myself I hadn't been in love with for the past six months.What Is Love?1 year ago in Philosophical More Like This
I didn't tell him what immediately popped into my head, although I did answer him. And I answered him honestly. "Love is wanting to be with someone all the time," I replied. "Love is the pain you feel when that person is gone for even five minutes." I rattled off a dozen or so more things that constituted love as love in my eyes.
"Love is when you care about someone else's happiness more than your own."
"Love is when you want the best for someone."
"Love is when nothing else matters to you more than being there for that other person."
"Love means never leaving, even when things get really hard."
This is TerrorYou can't breathe.This is Terror1 year ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
It is physically impossible and, for something that you don't normally even think about, you miss it terribly.
Perhaps it's the tightness that is stealing away your beloved breath.
Yes, now that you think about it, everything is uncomfortably tight; your chest, your lungs, your eyes tight-shut to offer you a slight reprieve from sight. It's quite a sacrifice though, sight for darkness. But that's okay; the darkness is gentle and all-consuming. Kind of like a blanket on a cold winter's night. Everything feels like less of a threat to you when it's hidden, sort of like when you were little and hid under the covers of your bed whenever you heard a scary noise. It's that kind of logic, just amplified to an infallible level.
But even that level of warped comfort given to you by the darkness does nothing to calm you now, does nothing to take away this tightness and lack of breath.
Your precious darkness, your oldest friend, has abandoned you to the claws of nothingness and
Stardust.I partook in the poisonStardust.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
of your miracle, for
I believed you a magician:
You pulled chronic weariness
from my marrow—
from hazy depths grown
The eggs spoiled fast:
you pulled from your hat
an act of distrust,
and you left me
I Need You.What if I need you to stop me?I Need You.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
What if I need you to stop me making myself sick for the fifth time today?
What if I need you to stop me running that razor across my wrist tonight?
But I've got to not need you anymore...
Where are you?
Where are you when I swallow all those pills?
Where are you when I run out of a classroom bursting into tears?
But you're not here for me anymore...
Who can I talk to?
Who can I talk to when I don't want to eat for four days?
Who can I talk to when I can't take things anymore?
But you don't really care anymore....
Who can give me that support?
Who's going to tell me it's okay to be scared?
Who's going to give me that hug when I'm shaking?
But not you, because my problems aren't your responsibility anymore...
But now I am alone.
And I can't feel this way.... Not anymore.
Things I'll Never SayThere are certain things I’ll never say,Things I'll Never Say9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like how I thought about killing myself today
Just to keep my own scary thoughts away.
Like how I stay awake way too late
To be sure I don’t awake in a bloody state.
Like how I soaked white into red last night
And turned myself into a ghastly sight.
Like how it hurts too much to breathe
When I make my own skin seethe.
Like how I Google things I shouldn’t
When I want to do things I couldn’t.
Like how I’m scared of being alone
Yet I’m only happy when I’m on my own.
Like how I know I’ll wind up killing myself
And turn into just a dusty photo on a dusty shelf.
Like how I make myself bleed every day
Even though I know I can’t go on this way.
Like how I maybe want someone to see
And for them to somehow help me.
But nobody will ever help me,
Because those are all the things I’ll never say.
TodayI saw something in the mirror today that kinda creeped me out.Today7 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
It was a girl wearing a smile, not a frown nor a pout.
Her eyes were wide and shining, just as a summer sun.
Her laugh wasn't wooden and fake, but true and full of fun.
Her irises reflected happiness, not a trace of pain.
She was under perfect skies; not a drop of rain.
Angels swam around her, keeping the devil at bay.
Her life was precious and she wasn't throwing it away.
Her lips were red and shinging with a pure smile.
It was a sight her mirror hadn't seen in a very long while.
She wasn't at all pretty but a care she did not give.
Because today she woke up and said, "Today I am going to live."
You're My PoisonI'm dyingYou're My Poison1 year ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
The pain seeps through
Clutching at my heart
Ripping it to shreds,
You merely watch
Pretending you're not the cuase
Seeing me die slowly
Every time you leave me,
But you return
As you always do
Slowly sucking the poison out
That you yourself placed
And i begin to forget,
Just for a moment,
And fall back into love with you again.
And with every kiss
Every time we fuck
Every second i spend loving you,
I feel the poison
Seeping back into my heart
And with everytime you leave me
i begin to die again
While you pretend not to see.
You're the poison and the antitode
My killer and saviour
The reason i want to live
While i slit my wrists,
You're my poison
And my addiction
As i continue to drink you in
And choke you down
All EndsIf you cut you'll bleedAll Ends1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
If you bleed you'll die
If you're sad you'll smile
And if you smile it's a lie
If you lie you'll live
If you live you'll die
If you cheat you'll win
And if you win you'll cry
If you cry you'll lose
If you lose you'll die
If you run you'll stay
And if you stay you'll fly
If you fly you'll fall
If you fall you'll die
'Cause no-one will catch you
If your life is a lie.
Audreydear girl i sit by in englishAudrey1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
this is for you.
this is for you because you are
the dreamer of impossible dreams, and the
doer of improbable things.
this is for you, because
you balance on two legs when your life
is spinning out of control
and poetry will always confuse you.
you love fudge brownies like you love
every single guy you like.
for so long, the only thing i knew about you
was the fact that you liked reptiles in second grade.
this is for you, because
you walk around swim meets without pants
and brush your hair in the bathroom before lunch.
you're a mess of contradictions and the most
securest insecure person i have ever met.
this is for you because
i still feel guilty about the reptile thing and
you once begged me to use the line,
"you played fruit ninja with my heart" in a love poem.
this is for you because
you told me in third grade that
grace, everyone has the thing they're best at—
ady's the artist, you're the writer, mili's the smartest.
what am i? what's my niche?