This I BelieveI believe in happiness.
I believe in happiness as a state of one’s being and not an emotion that disappears overtime. But I also believe that most human beings do not know how to be happy.
As people and as somewhat needy and materialistic animals we possess an immense need to find happiness and keep it for as long as we can. That being said, when we think of contentment we think of it as a bar of wet soap that might slip out of our hands if we do not grasp it firmly, and this is exactly the problem at hand. We always expect “happiness” to just pop out of nowhere and then poof away in no time. But what if we just stop for a moment and think that perhaps if we accepted happiness as a permanent state of one’s being instead of part of a mere ever-changing emotion, then maybe we will learn to be happy for a very long period of time.
Let’s take this analogy: Happiness is much like a rabbi
UnknownI'd listen to radio signalsUnknown2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But all I'd hear is chlorine bleached static
That leaves a the bitter taste of Advil in my thoughts
Drugged up in an anaesthetic haze of morphine induced comatose
I'd clench my teeth to stop the florescent vowels
From escaping my insomniac lips
I've chewed them shut and pasted book spines on my ribcage
In an attempt to be something organic and interesting
Because the plain Jane exterior I've laced between my iris's
Is becoming a contradiction of what little sanity I possess
Love LetterYou are re-creating the word love for meLove Letter2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have never felt anything in my heart so deep
I'm so in love that I'll never be the same
I just want to be with you every single day
You have touched my heart in many different ways
And now from my heart you'll never go away
I feel so warm every time you're here,
I feel so cold whenever you disappear
Though it feels like you are already mine
Who knows if that's real, who know if it's a lie?
I just think about you every single time
Every time I write, and when I close my eyes
But I'm just waiting for that special day
For when you finally say, yes
ReleasedI was chained tightly upReleased2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In my own bitter thoughts
Of endless pain and misery
Dreams filled with death
You released me
In your arms I fall
And forget myself again
Bitter thoughts disappear
When you gently hold me
My heart will be
Yours to carry for
As it'll wither away
By the day you are gone
I never felt this real
You made me whole forevermore
WordsWords float on a thin lineWords2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Some scurry through
My cloudy mind
Never to be caught only
Leaving their essence behind
Give me writings to where
People can sometimes find
What I mean
No matter what I do
I can never seem to convey
The emotion of my poem to
A person despite who they are
I even doubt you
Will get just what I mean
When I finish a poem I rue
Make the stupid poem
My own words
Are twisting and forming
Into a poem I didn't make
Sometimes I feel like crying
The frustration is so great
I keep writing
Otherwise I'll always
Be just scribbling
DreamThere he stands,Dream2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The man simply known as Dream.
He's different now, fallen from grace,
And risen back up to it.
He was a joyous man, but he was beaten,
Torn and scarred, starved and tormented.
How did he get past it all they question me.
I know the answer, only because I asked him myself.
This is what he said to me,
"You can only be broken so much,
Eventually they stop trying,
Then you take every scar,
Every fracture and shattered piece,
And turn them into strengths and advantages.
Since they can't hurt you anymore,
You have nothing left to fear."
He turned his tortured soul into flawlessness.
That is who he is now, a happy wounded soul,
A perfect little broken Dream.
Discarded.You cry for your sorrows and you bleed for your dreams,Discarded.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just always remember, this world is not what it seems.
You can be the best of friends and then disappear,
They'll just discard you, I know it's hard to hear.
But this has happened enough to me,
It's all everyone's been doing recently.
So here I lie, discarded, fearing to stand up,
Because what waits just isn't worth getting up.
Thrown away and lying in a puddle of mud and blood,
All the other times I got up, and wiped off the mud.
But this time, as I lie here, broken and bloody,
I don't want to get up, I want to be a dead body.
I know getting up is inevitable, because I will never give in,
But I really just want to give up and say that "I'm done in."
Release MeI've tried for so long nowRelease Me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To build myself back up
What is it all for though?
When I can’t seem to get over
The things I've done in the past…
Why can I not let this go?
Must I torture myself so?
Just let it end, that’s all I want
How long must I continue like this
Before I have made up for my past?
Just let today be the day
The day I let it all go
And accept with grace
All that has been given to me
All that I feel I don’t deserve
Let today be the day I embrace it….
Please………just let it happen….
Only HumanHypocrite, selfishOnly Human2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Judgemental and pain
These words are similes
With your name
Greed and envy
Jealousy and a liar
Dancing on hot coals
And questioning the fire
Not even considering
The people in the picture
Forgetting what the purpose is
Ignoring the scripture
Preaching on poverty
Then blowing off your money
Yelling at the racist
But thinking t's funny
Crying at the people
To stop judging and assumin'
But we always fall again
We who are only human
Do They Even Know? (Beautiful World Part II)After years and yearsDo They Even Know? (Beautiful World Part II)2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of sitting in sorrow,
Watching the Beautiful World
Outside my window,
Feeling pain of separation
The great divide between me and them
It felt as though my heart were made of wood
And termites were slowly eating away,
But they would never finish
There was always more to consume.
I just wanted to die,
To escape torment
But for some cruel reason,
I was never given that option.
Now I just lie on the floor
The carapace of a person
Existing, but not really alive
All days blur together
I'm not even sure, exactly
How long I've been here
Scrunched up in a ball
With all my hope lost.
I just feel nothing,
I've become anesthetized.
And now all I do is wonder,
Does the world outside,
Even know I am here?
One Last SongThey didn't see the signs.One Last Song2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
They should've read between the lines.
Her lifestyle they scorned,
and for this reason, they mourned...
She suffered in silence.
Her sorrow, a cadence.
With her life they had gambled,
but with her world in shambles,
they had gone all-in and lost.
They should've known the cost...
In front of the grave, a boy thought of the girl he'd forsaken.
He wished this was a nightmare from which he'd awaken.
He was her high-school sweetheart,
but they had drifted apart.
Once he had left her alone,
the suicidal thoughts found a home...
On her guitar, sad notes she played,
whilst overhead, a noose had swayed.
From quivering lips, she sang one last time.
Shutting out a million thoughts, she managed a rhyme...
"Mother, father, I have a confession...
This song shall never be completed,
for I battled with depression,
and depression succeeded..."
Distant Memories Of A Love Done Gone .They say it's difficult to love someoneDistant Memories Of A Love Done Gone .2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When you can't even love yourself.
But I loved you nonetheless,
The problem was I didn't know when to stop.
You kept sending me mixed signs
Making me dizzy until I
Much less right
When our world started crumbling down and
T e a r i n g at the seams
It was so easy for you to let it fall apart.
But I, knowing no other kind of love,
desperately clung to the remaining bits,
Trying to put them back together.
Yet the pieces changed too much, too quickly,
They kept growing and
growing a p a r t,
until your world was only yours
and mine a hollow echo of its past.
Looking back now, it seems like it
All happened in a different life,
With some other you, some other me,
And the lips kissing my own were just a dream.
Shattered heartWith this broken heart I'll keep moving onShattered heart1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
And the scar you left me will help me become strong
For my heart used to be so numb, but then you showed me love
Sadly then you shattered it, once you saw I held you dear
But I hope you don't regret what you have done
For what I felt, you'll only receive it once
Lately...Lately I've been thinking, if the stepsLately...1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
That I've taken were meaningful at all
I'm not sure if my conscience helps me anymore
Maybe faith is guiding me through this storm
My heart feels like it's being torn
By the one who I've cared about the most
I'll Be HereIt only takes a thought of youI'll Be Here2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To lift me up
When I have fallen
Even as I write, you are what I desire
I wish to look you in the eyes
To tell you once again
How much you mean to me
And now, more than ever
I just want to hold you
Tell you not to be discouraged
Everything will work out
The ArsonistIt's burning, slowly and painfullyThe Arsonist2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Her soul that is
Set ablaze by him,
Her manipulative boyfriend
He knows just what to say
To lure her right back
Into his arms
Where he can crush her
But for now
He bides his time
While getting a sick pleasure
From watching her burn
In the inferno he ignited
a dying heartI just wanted to tell you that I never meant what I said I never thoughta dying heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That you were gonna be upset
Now I m regretting it
Now I get the meaning of the bitterness after those sweet times with you
I know that I can't get rid of it by candies because you are the only sweets that I need
I can't stop thinking of you
Sadness and darkness took over my heart
And my heart can't stop crying and bleeding while longing for you
I wish that my feelings can reach you
The feelings of someone who is agonizing
And calling for you.
What Is Love? A little over six months ago, a boy who was interested in me at the time asked me what I thought love was. "What do you think love means? What does being in love mean to you?" he asked. Of course, the first thing that came to my mind was a face. Not his face. Someone else's face. Someone I'd been trying to convince myself I hadn't been in love with for the past six months.What Is Love?2 years ago in Philosophical More Like This
I didn't tell him what immediately popped into my head, although I did answer him. And I answered him honestly. "Love is wanting to be with someone all the time," I replied. "Love is the pain you feel when that person is gone for even five minutes." I rattled off a dozen or so more things that constituted love as love in my eyes.
"Love is when you care about someone else's happiness more than your own."
"Love is when you want the best for someone."
"Love is when nothing else matters to you more than being there for that other person."
"Love means never leaving, even when things get really hard."
It's OverI like to see you happy,It's Over2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Only want to see you smile..
Just take a break from this never-ending
Search for love for awhile..
And all the answers that you are seeking
Will be troublesome for you to find
It might mean that everything is blurred in your eyes.
So if it's over, then let it end
Don't search for me,
For another begin,
Lets not be hurt again
When it's over, let it go
Because I'm not worth it,
Gotta let me go.
There is no other way to put this
No other words for me to say
You'll just keep losing your mind,
You'll just keep losing all your faith.
Maybe now you won't believe it
But there's not much time to spare
I know the things that you're feeling, I see
That you are just scared
So if it's over, then itis really over
The past is gone you have to understand
I'm not worth your time, your blood, your tears,
Why do you still care?
When it's over, let it go
Because I'm not worth it,
Gotta let me go.
Just sit down
I'm left with hope.I know it happened once, but it left me scarredI'm left with hope.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I won't give up, but I'm still afraid
But I will be brave, I just hope it won't happen again
Because I'm not sure I'll be able to handle the pain
It feels like all I can do is hope, for the best days.
LiarYour words are wovenLiar2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Together so carefully
That no one could possibly
Find a single hole in them.
No one can see the emotions you hide,
Or what you really did last night.
No one can see the real you.
No one, but me.
Swing life awayGoodbye my dear old friendSwing life away2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How I wished it did not have to end
How we laughed and sang
Together with the whole gang
Goodbye my dear friend
How I wished that changes that now impend
How we once compared our scars
How we once gazed at the lone stars
Goodbye my friend
How we stood together till the end
How our days were filled with laughter and joy
How you made fun of me being a mama’s boy
Our time was not misspend
We will meet again one day
And we shall swing life away
EpiphanyIf I wasn't such an introvertEpiphany1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And was more energetic
Would you have chosen to stay?
If I wore a bit more makeup
And I chose to be athletic
Would you be with me today?
Maybe if I dressed more girly
And I went to bed more early
You'd have thought I'm worth your time
If I didn't dye my hair
And I had more money spare
Maybe you would still be mine
And then I realised something
As I analysed myself
And it started to sink in
If I made all of these changes
I would become someone else
Hiding my true self from him
Would that really solve the problem
Or would it just be a lie?
I never got to find that out
But I wouldn't have been happy
Constantly in a disguise
I know that without a doubt
So I think I'll keep on wearing
All my 'unfeminine' clothes
And I'll keep my hair spiked up
I won't change to fit your standards
My opinions undisclosed
I no longer give a fuck
Maybe instead of depression
I should be feeling aggression
You always looked down on me
You were always very sure
Your opinions mattered
Fight or Flight?I have just a moment, one tiny moment to prepare. I meet his gaze from across the room and my response is instantaneous. My eyes dilate, heart racing, muscles tensing and a blush across my cheeks. He smirks, probably thinking I’m aroused.Fight or Flight?2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
In a way, he's right.
Fight or Flight?
I feel like an animal in this moment, like a rat who will try to escape when threatened and only fight if cornered. Perhaps I could stand perfectly still or play dead in hopes that my predator loses interest...
I rather wish I was a fish right now- one that could swim away or change color to camouflage myself.
And therein lays the problem. I am not entirely sure I what I want.
Oh yes, I want him. His allure is like none another before and that scares me. He makes me want things I've never wanted before. He's young and cocky, ruggedly handsome, someone who I thought was so beyond me. Someone who makes me feel beautiful and sexy, wanted.
And I hardly know him...
What am I doing here?