WrathHe wishes to burn away it all
Hear the screams of the ones
Who made his heart tear apart
Blood will flow
As the sun sets
Hope will fall
As night arrives
His corrupted mind desires for eternal destruction
As all who had hurt him now died away
His hatred yet grows deep within
As he finally starts to realize
He is the one meant to die
It's now the time to break his own mind
My purpose is to be undone
As all my decisions
Lead to misery
I am the one to blame
He feels so numb
Lost he is forevermore
He slits his wrists open
Laughs as the blood flows
Forming a crimson river
On the frost ground
No tears he will shed
As his bones break
His body starts to fail
He falls on his knees
He lays crippled
With a broken heart
And finally he knows
He has ended it all
I chose the wrong way...
Save MeI am lost deep withinSave Me10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Cannot find my way out
Silently crying in despair
I can hear only echoes
Of my unheard pleads
My voice is slowly fading
This sore throat failing me
Eyes cannot see through
Where did the light go
I feel my blood pouring
Running down my body
As I tremble weakly
Pain is holding me awake
They left me all alone
Trapped me down here
In the bitter cold
Freezing ice under me
Making me numb
Save me with your love
Morbid HeartThese painful tears still fall downMorbid Heart1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
For the suffering I never give in
Angel wings of mine covered in crimson
Had forgotten how to fly long time ago
This little piece of ice I hold in my hands
For it shows the coldness deep inside
These eyes now empty and merciless
No tears, no more tears I shed
In this forest of darkness I walk
As a deadly shadow of the night
I roam forevermore these paths
There is still lost beauty within
These morbid thoughts better hide
They have darkened innocent hearts
Once so warm, pure and loyal
Turned into the worst suffering
His vicious life
Ends as the dawn rises
This shattered heart of mine I give
... For freezing winter
For fallen leaves
For forsaken lands...
To Save You- Just For YouI'm slowly breathing...To Save You- Just For You10 months ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
But you can't see me
Anymore... No more.
How can I be;
How can I live.
But they can't see it
Since I'm smiling,
No tear stains on my chest.
Though I'm slowly fading
A lowly life,
And I'm staying.
No effort to climb back
I'll be waiting here at the bottom
So I can push you up,
And send you off.
No point in seeing you
Here. Alone with me.
Can't you see?
I drowned so I could save you
From the horror that is me.
SolitudeToday, this is the word that sticks most in my mindSolitude1 year ago in Emotional More Like This
Flowing into my ears, to my brain
Like slick, black oil
Sinking into me
Making me cold
And leaving me bereft of happiness
Leave this WorldI will slit my wristsLeave this World9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
to watch the blood fall to the floor
to end my life for good
and nobody cry a single tear
I will leave this world
pretend that I never existed
This life dont need me no more
I am better off gone from this world
I will slit my wrists
to ease the pain
I can't take the crying
I can't take this pain
There is no hope in this world
There is no reason to live
I will leave this world for good
Maybe someday I will be reborn
I Had Feelings...My feelings for youI Had Feelings...11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Were no doubt there
And you shared them with me
Thank God, I swear.
But not too long later,
As I think over,
I slowly lose the emotion.
I don’t know what to tell you,
I surely don’t know how!
It was never a one night stand,
We still haven’t held hands,
And my lips are still a virgin to others.
Though I know how this goes
Yet I don’t I don’t remember
How to let you know
I want us to be over.
So soon it happened
It will be.
My feelings to you
Forbidden SongsFor my death I singForbidden Songs1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
This hate inside
My mind darkened
Desires for more
Shall flow forever
Wallow in this pain
Feel the coldness
Your wounds still bleed
With ripped heart you scream
Those pleads unheard
In this forsaken world
These wings used to cary us
...Now we are falling deeper down
When the despair
On your knees
With trembling hands
You still try to reach
My withering self
Silence is left.
Stenciled Smiles on Paper HeartsI don't like to feel this wayStenciled Smiles on Paper Hearts1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
There must be something I can say
Cause I hate just watching you
When I know the pain you're going through
You're not alone; I've been where you are
Contemplating where I'll place my next scar
Hiding razor kisses underneath long sleeves
It doesn't make it better; nothing is achieved
All you'll earn are the scars you've got and
The lesson learned is the lesson forgotten
You feel like no one's there, no one cares what you do
Let me put it to you straight: That is never true
I was shunned, pushed away many times before
Then I realized it was I who had closed the door
I took a chance and opened up to the people around me
Told them of my secrets, now their love surrounds me
You're not alone; I've been where you are
And I know that life sometimes seems so hard…
But believe me, from one person to another
To make a book better, you never destroy the cover…
You are worth it...
Sick MachineIf you could cut deep into my bearable blood,Sick Machine1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Would you see it as a circuitry of veins,
Madly manifesting itself across blackened bones?
But I won't forget when it rains all the pain,
Salivating from scarlet sides of that knife of wood.
If you could slash hard into my subtle skin,
Would you know it to be a mimicry of silicon,
Insanely invigorating itself over mildewed muscles?
But I won't forget when it snows all the blows,
Impacting from emerald edges of that dagger of sin.
If you could claw slowly into my pitiable plastic,
Would you find it more than a secrecy of nerves,
Wildly wasting itself under obliterated organs?
But I won't forget when it hails all the flails,
Singing from crimson curves of those talons of static.
GuardianYour sleep is restlessGuardian8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hear your breathing
Your body trembling still
And cannot wake up
You cry desperately
I can sense your pain
Hear your silent call
I wake you up tenderly
Kiss away salty tears
I hold you against me
In the beautiful night
You open your eyes
Realize I ain't there
Still you can feel me
Watching over you
My love will be protecting thee
Not AloneNot Alone1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
When your dreams are golden
But your life has become a tarnished memory
When your socks have a holes
And your bread is moldy
Just remember it isn't over
When the world is five steps too far
And the cold is woven into your sweater
When the lights fade out
And your crying is muffled by the mask
That you have worn for too long
Just remember that it is not the end
When the doors close in your face
And the cold shoulders kick in
And time has finally frozen solid
Remember that I am always here
And that you are never alone
When your world caves in
And the darkness is inescapable
And the end seems to be approaching
At an alarming rate
Don't let yourself forget
That you are not alone
No matter what they tell you
You're never alone
Not That DayNo one wants to remember their worst nightmare.Not That Day1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
No one wants to relive the pain.
No one wants to go back to a time without joy.
No one may want to, but the memories remain.
There was a time when I trusted people.
There was a time when I let others inside.
There was a time when every bruise was accidental.
There was a time, but that time is long past.
Maybe some day I'll have the will to live.
Maybe some day I'll learn to love again.
Maybe some day my scars will heal.
Maybe some day, but today is not that day.
MessEverywhere I goMess1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Every single place
The troubles seem to grow
Every smiling face
Eventually frowns with woe
Why can't I do
I just screw
Up everything despite
The happiness I try to spew
Is it me
Am I the source of this ache
Does the pain flow free
Is this what I make
Should I go away and hide
Never to see others
Or the outside
But would I stop another's
Pain and be the only one that ever cried
What is a life with no grey
When everyone is sad
I'd give it all away
It wouldn't be that bad
I would finally be able to say
I saved a life
GhostThe dream shatters around meGhost1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like a broken mirror.
Looking at the wreckage,
My reflection unrecognizable.
A broken image.
A broken heart.
I'm cut by the shards
As I try to piece it back together.
My blood sprinkles the surface
Like a red rain.
The mirror is whole again.
What's left of the dream.
I look at my reflection,
And tears finally begin to fall.
The Girl Sat In The CornerThe girl sat in the corner, face pressed against the glass,The Girl Sat In The Corner1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Asking herself questions but always saying pass,
The concrete wall separating her emotions from others,
Never giving the chance to Struthers.
Everyone thinks she's happy and fine,
They never knew when they had crossed the line,
Face hidden under a sweep of hair,
Why was she so different from others? It wasn't fair.
She heard a noise and looked up,
Face lightened by the streaks of sunlight,
She got given a sup,
If they had seen past her wall they would have been given a fright.
The girl sat in the corner with a tear streaked face,
With no emotion and with no one caring,
She leaves places without a trace,
Because of how she is people are always staring.
People always thought she was happy,
A little bit quiet and a bit meek,
All that happiness is so sappy,
The world she lives in is like hell and very bleak.
The girl sat in the corner suddenly disappeared without a trace,
Only leaving a suicide note written in blood,
They always t
*Mars*Travelling fast, speed of light*Mars*1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Course is plotted, Mars tonight
Red planet sojourn far from home
Travelling apace, on my own.
Phobos and Deimos moons of Mars
Orbit faithfully among the stars
Atmosphere pink, particles of dust
Light years from earth, visit a must.
Imagination will take you there
Just sit comfortably in your chair
Close your eyes, let thoughts run free
Will meet on Mars, half-past three.
So What Do I Do?If only I could read your mindSo What Do I Do?1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
If only I could interpret you emotions
Understand what you're going through
See through your eyes
Hear through your ears
Feel through your heart
If only I knew how to help you
But I can't
And I don't
And it's killing me
So what do I do?
A flower in the darkIn a world of darkness a small flower grows.A flower in the dark1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
So soft and sweet its existence against the cruel darkness that surrounds it.
It slowly grows the only life in this barren world.
A lonely life it doesn't realize.
A blissful peace, full of an unknown longing, of unknown feelings.
In a world of light nothing in the barren ground grows.
A planet full of light, yet no life to use the gift.
The world slowly dies with no life to live on it.
A painful death that none will morn.
The flower reaches out in the darkness searching for something unknown.
The world cries for life.
So quiet is their beings but to them it is everything.
A flower whose beauty is hidden by darkness, a world whose warmth is unfelt.
A cruel reality they both live in.
Time passes slowly by.
The flower wilts no longer having the strength to struggle in its cold world.
The world is reduced to fire, its own light killing it.
Death is swift taking their life.
Rest In PiecesThe day I said I loved youRest In Pieces1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Was the day I was most vulnerable.
I don't just give my heart away.
I don't just care for anybody.
I try to be careful.
I try to be smart.
But i tried to make myself believe you were right.
You felt right anyway.
Then you cheated.
You almost committed rape.
Smart and careful,
It's a joke to me now.
When I said I loved you,
Was the day I was most vulnerable.
The day I took abuse for you,
to save someone else,
Was the night I realized you were my biggest mistake.
And I loved you.
But I'v sent you away finally.
And hopefully forever.
Now I'll find someone new to love.
A new set of eyes to look into
A new set of lips to kiss
And I'll be careful.
Oh so careful.
And you will hate me.
Loathe me, for being stronger
Than a naive girl who thought she knew love.
And I'll be smart.
Enough that when you come back I'll feel nothing.
So this is my goodbye
I'm off to meeting better people.
People that feel compassion and not just passion.
People that aren't
HateYou hated me so much that now I hate me too.Hate1 year ago in Short Stories More Like This
You succeeded are you fucking happy? There's nothing left of me to love or save yet your son is still trying, still standing there. We can't see each other but he's the only thing keeping me alive and you don't care.
I want to go to somebody anybody and tell them how much I hurt and cry and cut and how it gets me nowhere. I want this to be better. I want you to stop hating me, judging me and lying.
"I'm not trying to sabotage your relationship"
You won't let him see me other than school, let him out of the house except for work and school and you may as well take his phone away too.
I feel like we are sabotaged. I feel alone and numb. I feel dead inside.
Do you feel fucking accomplished? You destroyed me! You can say I ruined your honeymoon all you want but you ruined it. You looked through his phone; you invaded his personal life by looking at our conversations. Maybe if you'd looked back further you'd have seen I was numb, I was depressed
Something to SayHey.Something to Say9 months ago in Scraps More Like This
I just want to tell you,
Sorry for being a failure,
For disappointing you,
For not being what you want.
None of us were, were we?
Not the one who is semi successful,
Nor the one who is handicapped.
Then there’s me,
You know, the one who can’t keep up with school,
The one who is weird and out there.
And that’s when I try to be like how you want me,
But that’s not me, I’m too much of a failure
Don’t try saying otherwise.
You seemed to like me more when I wasn’t being myself
But you dislike it when I act like me.
And guess what,
My bright neon colors and black,
Not a ‘phase’ I’m going through!
I’m NOT that girly girl who is normal
Not you or your wants
So, I’m sorry I’m a failure
Who disappoints everyone,
And can’t ever get things right,
No matter how hard I try.
Your Only Daughter
Inner MeI am so numb. I want to forget all these things happened to me in the past... It is too traumatic to get through it. Too fucking painful to even think... and still I do remember.Inner Me1 year ago in Emotional More Like This
I've told my history before as it is.
I... I don't know how to start this... And I am sure no-one will read it to the end. This... text... is all about my inner feelings. It might repeat the things I've told in the past. It might repeat itself... but I am purely writing my mind out.
I will.. also add lyrics.... at times. They seem to fit in.
I see when the sky turns black
The clouds start to cry
Then the rain starts to fall
It feels like a burning acid
The tears run down my cheek
They are so salty and sweet
I don't know what is happening
I hope the rain will never end
This rain will wash away my sins
It almost feels like a second skin
The burning feeling
That I have when the sun comes out
Could the storm just appear to the sky
And push away the sun
I have always lived in the rain
For me it's not a game