Open HeartI sacrificed my passion for potential happinessOpen Heart3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Lost my drive, but gained some semblance of peace...
And I lost it in one fell strike.
Afraid that Ill be hurt
More afraid that ill hurt you...
I hid myself from my own mind
Ran from the pain I caused.
Id give anything for you
To understand the fear
That strikes me when Im with you.
You open me up,
Expose my vulnerabilities.
Happiness mingles with dread,
And I know ive fallen for you.
Behind my love a new fear lies,
Can you stay with someone
So damaged as I?
Can I expect you to know
What I hold inside
And still stand by me?
How can someone
So destined to burn
Make an angel happy?
Black Canvased PainDarkness greeted my arrival tonightBlack Canvased Pain4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Insanity wasn't vibrant and colored
It was cold and Black.
Demons of my own creation tore apart my reality.
I groped at sanguine walls coming into view
They met me with the flesh of my family.
Any scream made was lost in the laugh
Coming from my mouth curved into a wicked smile.
The other side of my psych was alive
It drank in the repulsion spewing from my rational mind.
Frozen in terror I put up no fight
When he locked me in the box that was his life
And I saw everything his oppression caused.
A smiling child changing in terrible metamorphosis
Gives birth to a horror never before seen
And now let out to reap and rape.
I could only sit as he slated his thirst
For the blood of my friends and lovers.
And I began to grow wicked as I witnessed his freedom
The metamorphosis was mine
And the Horror outside was me
Free and wild as I craved to be.