What a CrimeWhat a Crime4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Believe I'm here
I'm here for you
You can't pull through
Pull through the pain
The pain will forget
Forget the game
'Cause I can't let
If I end up alone
Alone on the street
The street can be home
Home's a warm place to sleep
Sleep is love without a heart
Without a heart's the only way
The only way to live painlessly
But I don't want to
Don't wanna leave you
Would rather sit silently
By your side
And do all I can
If you'll only keep me safe
Please keep me safe
'Cause when I'm really honest
Starving isn't nearly as scary
As realizing I don't fit anywhere
And that the one expected to love me most
Forgets my very existance.
Time is running out and I'm bleeding
Between a spike and a hard place,
Calling out to anyone who will listen...
Can you hear me?
Float on, baby girl...
These wings were broken so long
That I can only remember vague bits
Of how to fly,
So will you carry me,
Just for a little while?
Just until I can walk
And not get dizzy,
MeltingMelting4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sometimes I feel like I'm melting
Into the world,
Into the planet around me,
Running my fingers through the warm,
Breathing in the subtly sweet smell of earth
That reminds me of him.
Other times it's just the sunshine,
The gentle, radiant
Embrace of pure warmth,
Like the touch I long for
As I lie down to sleep.
Sometimes it's cold,
As cold as it could ever be;
So cold that my bones throb,
My hands quiver,
And I pale
Until I am a fortress in the silence,
Chilled so deeply that
I cannot feel cold
And fear heat.
My body could wither away
And I would still be here,
The relentless spirit,
Lost in its own heart,
Reaching urgently to grasp
A prize that isn't there.
I linger with my fingers pressed
Against my lips,
Afraid to speak and
Desperate to scream,
Torn right down the middle,
A tapestry of pain,
A stone table stained with lies
As red as roses.
Death is a journey we must make alone,
And I think it wouldn't hurt so much
If we didn't need each other
Throughout our lives.
The Earth is SmilingCool night air on pale flesh,The Earth is Smiling3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Bare and pressed
Together in joy and comfort,
In love and affection of a quality
Impossible for the tongue to express,
Articulated adequately only by
Body, mind, and soul
Moonlight amplified by
Blankets of cloud, drawn
Lazily on a gentle breeze
Over shining silver stars.
The sky, rolling velvet indigo.
Frogs singing from trees
And insects humming steadily,
As we sigh soft vapors of fulfillment;
Two beasts in each other's arms,
In the presence of our Mother,
Sharing one soul in abounding peace.
Be still and hear;
The earth is smiling.
If I Had My WayIf I had my way,If I Had My Way4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I would lie beside you
On a bed of roses every night,
Cover you with
Kisses and shower you
With gold and garnet,
Caress every inch of you
With the sweetest subtle touch,
And fight away your nightmares.
If I had my way
You'd see how much I really care;
But you have to have your way,
And you don't even know I'm there.
2. LoveLove2. Love4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is such an overused
And misunderstood word,
But not a word
Or an emotion;
It's a choice.
A choice to put the beloved
To make them feel special,
Make them feel cherished,
Show them that they are respected,
That they are wanted and needed,
To show them the beauty
That one sees in them.
To be loved
Is an entirely different
It is to feel special,
Wanted and needed,
To feel beautiful...
And to feel safe doing so.
It is much more difficult for me
To feel loved than it is
For me to love another;
I love so easily,
Give of myself so freely,
That it is easy for me to be
Taken advantage of...
And it has become difficult for me
So I love,
But am afraid of believing
That I am loved,
For to believe would allow
Me to be very hurt,
Should I not truly be as loved
As I think I am.
i will teach you how to mourn.my mouth has neveri will teach you how to mourn.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to swallow the brittle edges
of a prayer,
never felt its walls rubbed raw
by cold stones that swell with grief
against my teeth like
some foreign bird. but victor,
i would learn the tongues of
a thousand gods
if it would make me believe
that you are a little
happier in death.
Moonstruck AffairYou sail through the rugged seas of my mindMoonstruck Affair4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
dropping your anchor into the depths of my heart
My eyes are flooded by your wake
as they gaze up defying your gravity
I see you all alone my moon
as I'm shooting stars
wishing you down to your home
here in my garden where your touch
makes my soil glisten
I am lost in this frenzy of love for you
Drunk on its divinity
At home in its sanctuary
as we swim around this galaxy
walking down our milky way
You visciously tug at me
trying to pull me safely away
keeping me from spinning out of control
from my inevitable doom of her wrath
but your tender fingers
are slowly losing their grip
I took roots in this earth
bound to my inevitable doom
Her warmth blankets me like a child
She can even compete with your pale beauty
exposing her aurora in your midnight sky
The emanation of her hot love
causes a need to grow in me
You have tried to block her radiant glow
yet her halo still showed
Her summer breeze teases
making me ache for longer days
I am a prisone
EdgeIn this moment, my beloved, I am reducedEdge4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to but a few sensations: your fingers
wound tight in the hair by my scalp,
the cool smoothness of the wall against my cheek
working to soothe the thud-heat of
impact. I cannot catch my breath. My
racing heart is driven by fear and the twinge
near my stomach which is swelling, radiating
outward to every atom of me. And you smile then
and I am lostI do not need to exist except so
you can smile like that; you whisper to me,
leaning close, and your breath on my trembling lips
stills me, and the words on your trembling breath
tell me that I exist for you. You are so beautifully proud
of yourself, that you hold me in your broken-glass
hands, dangerously, gingerly. No sand, no wind, no
saltwater waves have abraded your jagged edges. You
press against my skin, just until it stings, just until we know
that we are more alive than anyone else.
Songs with our eyes closed.i am 23 and filled with contempt for things i do not yet understandSongs with our eyes closed.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and anxious for words I have yet to pen, taste or whisper to you.
i've hollowed my bones in hopes that one day i will see the sun rise
through my own clouded judgement. i dream of neon lights and i
still dream of you, i tried to tell you as much. i know i can teach the
flowers to be brave and stand tippy toe tall like the trees do, i know
the wind can sing sonnets to the moon if someone would just take
the time to help her understand, and i know i am real.
i am 23 and i think about my funeral and how i would like to live
forever. i know there are secrets we will never know when we close
our eyes and i know i owe the time between seconds to you and
the soft smiles you've given away.
i am a little bird, a cageling, and i long to fly.
i am 23 years away from changing lives and 23 years away from
the first time you smiled and 23 years away from my first mistake.
and i am 23.
The StreamIt's a place aloneThe Stream2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Not a lonely place
With a softly whispering stream.
A basswood tree by the side
And a sea of ferns
Sway in a shared dream.
There's a pool on the edge
Where the tadpoles swim
Oblivious to the moon,
And a nest in the tree
Padded with down
That the birds will finish soon.
The still is broken
Only by the boughs
Stirring in a gentle breeze
And the tiny fish
In the clear water
Swim upstream with ease.
There's a leaf,
Now only veins
It's a delicate lace
By the whispering stream
Is a place alone
And not a lonely place.
9. DriveSometimes9. Drive4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The only thing that makes
The rest of the world
Is to slip away from this place,
To grab the keys,
Start the car,
Every now and then
I would sneak out of my bedroom,
Careful not to wake anyone else,
And take off into the night,
Driving along the highway until I reached
Another quiet place
To sit and watch the sunrise,
A place to feel alive
When all else fails.
One of these days I'll drive away
And watch the sunset while I do it;
Pretty soon I'll know where I'm going,
And I won't have to