He askedHe asked me if i wanted to liveHe asked3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
over and over
gun coming closer
face jeering at my tears
little did he know
i wasnt crying out of fear
i was crying
I didnt know what to tell him.
She is alone at Christmason the night of ChristmasShe is alone at Christmas3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
she is alone
with a bottle of alcohol
lost in the ocean garlands
she will send a message
to her mother and sister
she will cook a pizza
ending with a chocolate cake
In misery, watching TV programs
Christmas celebrations is beautiful
she vomits this celebration
will never be a girlfriend
All A LieThree wordsAll A Lie3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Was all it took
To pour out her heart
Which he greedily took.
"I love you" she said
With a smile on her face
Waiting for an answer
That never took place
Was all he said
To replace all the lies
To her he had once fed.
"I don't want you" he said
With a smile, oh so sly.
"I never wanted you,
It was all just a lie"
HappyI want to feel alive,Happy3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I want to feel alright.
I want to feel delightful,
I want to feel wonderful.
I want to feel free,
I want to feel like you do, you see.
I just want to feel happy.
i can't take itI have rivers pouring out of my eyesi can't take it3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The tears won't stop but that's no surprise
For the past week I could barley sleep
And I rarely chose to eat
Why do I waste my time pretending?
I know there's no happy ending.
I might as well give up before it gets worse.
It's not like I haven't thought of this before
I just thought something in life was worth living for.
Again I'm wrong. I've already started to break
This is too much for me to take.
My armor shatters to the ground.
My minds so lost it can't be found.
I can hear the voices as they say,
That there is no other way
I try to help but only hurt.
Half the world treats me worse than dirt.
No one cares about how I feel.
Do they realize my pain is real?
No one wants to hear what I have to say
My friends left me on a path without a way
It's not the first time this has happened before
But somehow it's different now
And I can't take it anymore
ChoicesCan we dig ourselves out; out of the hole that we spin?Choices3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Or do we continue to wind the clock further in?
Is it too easy to let go, or is it too hard to fight?
The tests that we fail and some seem to blight.
The choices of strife, there are all around us, but we're too weak to stand,
Against the feelings that betray us and the shortcomings of man.
A struggle as old as time, waged against our own kind,
A war that never dies, is one where shadows lie,
They feed the hunger, but quench the wrong thirst;
So is it harder to battle then it is easier to consume?
That's the choice that comes with a tomb.
Kiss Me.Lips as soft as the petals of a flower.Kiss Me.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your taste is always sweet, never sour.
They fit perfectly against mine.
Our tongues always end up intertwined.
I want your warm breath to fill my lungs.
We can't stop once it's begun.
Hold me tight, around my waist.
Hurry up, we have to make haste.
There isn't much time to spare.
Without a kiss, I'll be in despair.
The world we live inRejection of love,The world we live in3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Acceptance of hate,
Rejection of life,
Acceptance of death,
Obedient to fear,
A slave to your own existence.
Walk For AllWalk For AllWalk For All3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The weight upon my shoulder,
The weight that only gets thicker.
Why is it that everyone is getting colder?
Why is it that it seems all we want to do is bicker?
Don't let me fall,
Hang my weights up on the wall,
I don't think I can make is down this long hall.
My hands are shaking, and knees quaking.
My feet don't want to work, they're about to give out.
I have to do something to end this aching, to keep from breaking,
I have to do something to keep moving along this seemingly endless route!
I'm at a crawl,
Dragging myself up the next wall,
Through all the pain there is gain and I must stand tall.
Not all about this road is arduous,
Not all of this walk is never ending strife.
When walking with others laughter is contagious.
When smiling and feeling worthy, you find the meaning of life.
A promiseMy heart is only satisfied when I'm thinking about youA promise3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I will never, nor have I ever, loved anyone the way I love you
You're the best thing that ever happened to me
and I promise you that I will not leave
I promise we're gonna meet one day
and then I'm gonna hold you
and kiss you
and never let you go
we can get married
I'll move over there
because I hate this shit hole where I live
I'll study hard
I'll get a degree
I'd do anything for you
I can't wait until I see you at the airport
I wanna jump into your arms
and we can sit in the car and hold hands
and then we can lie together and just be happy
I love you
And I don't mean that lightly, I really really do love you
I loved you since day one
I'm so glad you're mine
and I can't wait for our future
HopeWorry not, my one, for if you'll hear;Hope3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Put the dead ground to thine ear,
Hark! Spring's new sound shall echo through
Thine chest, thine eyes, are born anew.
StarvingI eat because I'm not hungryStarving3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I starve because I am
Clean hands are always dirty
It's all just an honest sham
I'm happiest when I cry
I do my best when I don't try
I love her 'cause she hates me
I am because I can't be
Warm blood flows through skin stone cold
I listen to what I'm not told
I close my eyes when I'm cognizant
Wide open when the world seems distant
I'm smart because I don't know
Watering a rose that will never grow
I know where I am when I am lost
I love the warmth of winter's frost
I often finish before I start
Listening to the beat of a lifeless heart
Giving things I don't posses
Terrifying the brave and fearless
I'm openly locked up tight
Take a left when they say "go right"
In the shadows I quietly scream and holler
Such a hateful little lover
I'm silently floating on the ground
I can truthfully tell her a lie
I'm loudest when I don't make a sound
Maybe I will awaken
T h e d a y I f i n a l l y d i
Forge of the MindForge of the MindForge of the Mind3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The iron forge sang.
Sing a song,
But it's all gone wrong.
Tears streak down with grace,
Beats of the falling mace.
Turn regrets into ash.
Said good-bye too soon,
Stuck in the mind's monsoon.
Things will be restored,
Straighten out the bent sword.
The forge of happiness.
Convince the mind,
Become one of a kind.
Keep the stars bright,
With the newly forged white knight.
SilenceSilenceSilence3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Is it golden?
In a city of life
Silence when a homeless fades
People laughing on the phone
Silence when there pulled into an alley
A yelling teacher in a classroom
Silence when a student takes her life
Men complaining about there job
Silence when a child dies from forced labour
So, is it golden?
In the noise
Behind the scenes
It waits to pounce
To take in its grasp
From the hopeless
Saying GoodbyeI touched her reflection in the water,Saying Goodbye3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It rippled, making waves
A tear rolled down my cheek and dripped into the pool.
My scarred arms were shaking hard,
Memories of her raced through my mind,
But she was no more.
I had taken her place¡¦
I was going to miss this girl,
This girl who used to be me
I didn¡¯t want her to go, I wanted to her to stay,
Reclaim her rightful place
But she¡¯d moved on to another life.
Leaving this part of her behind.
So I said goodbye to her,
Goodbye to myself,
And slipped into the waiting Darkness.
20 random things20 random things20 random things3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
1.Kid to pregnant girl at bus stop, "what are you expecting", girl: a bus, kid turns to his friend and says, "wow this girl got screwed by a transformer".
2.I'm not insulting her. I'm just describing her.
3.Teachers call it cheating. We call it teamwork.
4.You better take good care of your eyeballs, cuz they're the only balls you got.
5.If a tomato is a fruit, wouldn't that make ketchup a smoothie?
6.Life is all about about butt. You're either kissing it, kicking it, trying to get a piece of it, or acting like one.
7.Them:you're gay, You:you're about as straight as a circle.
8.I would slap you, but my hand will get stuck to your 5 pounds of Covergirl.
9.Does your butt ever get jeliuos of the crap that comes out of your mouth?
10.He broke her heart so she broke his xbox. Who ya think cried harder?
11.Some ppl need a high five...in the face...with a chair.
12.If I ever need a brain transplant, I'd choose yours, cuz I'd want a brain that had never been used.
If I RunI am not easy to hold on toIf I Run3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The fear of getting hurt
Or the feeling of being trapped
Are cause for me to run
There are very few times where I did not disappear right away
They were the best decisions I have ever made
Those times have passed
And the desire for that kind of affection
Is like a hunger I have never known
The fear of letting down the walls
That took so long to put up
Is enough for me to convince myself
I am happy alone
I have yet to find the person
That I consider "my other half"
I pray with all my heart
That he is out there
And that I have the strength
To let him in
If I am worth it
If I run
Hello, My Name is OrphanHello, my name is Orphan,Hello, My Name is Orphan3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've never seen my face,
Some thing's are better left unknown,
Nor do they have a time or place,
Some words are better left unsaid,
And so they say,
Others are better left for dead.
His hands grew big around my neck,
I bled and cried,
And bled some more until his death.
After that I was alone,
Broken bones without a home.
The scars I kept as I grew up,
Solemn memories I just couldn't forget,
But still I was laughed at and abused,
Altogether it was nothing new.
Tear stained cheeks above wobbly knees,
Not once did she hear me scream,
Farther away than one should be
[He] smiled in his toothless way,
[Took] me for granted every day,
[Everything] I thought was solely mine was taken
[Away] forever; gone faster than time,
[From] the day I breathed sweet pungent air,
[Me], myself and I were never cared for.
He took everything away from me.
Hello, my name is Orphan,
I came from my mother's grave,
They said I had no place to go,
And now I have no place to stay.
NightmareHe was trapped inside a crystal glove,Nightmare3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
His hands shaking,
His caramel-coffee eyes wide with disquietude.
For his bête noire,
The darkest pocket of memory
Detailing the yielding of his submission
Had been reawakened via his subconscious in the night.
Though desperately he did beg
For the solitude of weightless sleep minus thought,
The restless depths of his wounded soul refused to abide.
The fireball of his abused, accused, accrued
Tangled destruction of emotions
Denied his plea for Sanity,
And kept him crying in the dark of night.
In summer we all burnThe summer is coming,In summer we all burn3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hear the beach roaring from here,
can see shirts hung over shoulders,
sunglasses, arms round waists,
can feel the earth's purrs,
pollens tossed up at us in fanfare.
Ants are walking over me
because we're sharing a tree together.
Back to back, we're trying to
make our winter's pallour a warmer shade.
Is it some sort of personal sign
when you let your shoe-tongues fill with tan bark,
when it's driven you mad your whole life?
Or when you eat ice-cream in public (the sticky
fingers a mere afterthought)?
These trees though, they're not changing.
I can't help thinking they're
often doing better than we are.
Summer is coming; they sit still and burn.
Some go out with a bang!
Others fall to dust.
But us, we fuss and flail.
Still we burn.
Summer is for beaches and getting laid.
Summer is for stretching,
for sticking your proboscis into
the rivers and guzzling.
No, I can't help thinking about
the skeletons at the waterholes in the Mallee.
LoveYour heart and mine entwinedLove3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like the soft Summer breeze
Sweeping through the grassy meadows in Spain.
Our tentative hands touched,
Your fingertips gracing mine with an
Ever so soft sprinkle of human touch.
My eyes reached up into your inquisitively knowing gaze,
And I forgot what it was like to need, to want, to desire,
Because those verbs indicate a position of lacking,
But I couldn't barely remember what it was like
To be anything but content, fulfilled, and undeniably happy.
The Birth of DarknessI was only a childThe Birth of Darkness3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
A child who was still young and somewhat mindless
My education in a advanced standarad was tough
I struggled endlessly in my classes while acting obnoxious
My peers and I would play in the playground
Like all of us did in the past
But then one day it changed when no one said hello to me
But I was still clueless in what my feelings were like
I was foolish to believe their demise of me
My birthday present was a punch to my stomach
I cried but no one came to help me
They watched me suffer in a public plead
I felt so cold and so alone at that time
I didn't know what to do next
I was still clueless and still stupid
But I felt something crawl into me
The next year was the worse years of my young life
A teacher who was like the slave master
She always cracked her whip and yelled, "FASTER"
But it wasn't really like that you see
My struggles kicked in almost everyday
I was abnormal some would call
Every math problem that came in front of my eyes I struggled
She would yell and
Letting goFor the last time I'm standing hereLetting go3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Forgive me please
I'm writing these words to you
I want to go easily
Not saying good bye
But saying I'm sorry
For all I've done
And for all I haven't done
Looking back on the days when we were happy
I feel good, I'm even smiling
I remember everything and I don't want to forget
But surely after last step I'm gonna regret
If I still be able to think
Forgive me please
Forgive my soul
I should've done this long time ago
But I was holding on
You kept me safe and made me going
That's how it is, the ways of loving
But I was weak I've destroyed myself
I've destroyed everything that I had
So here I am writing to you
Saying I'm sorry
And all words that is going to you
They're coming from my almost empty heart
I'm going now
If you're reading these words
Probably I'm already out of this world
And I'm not able to see tears in your eyes
I can't see anything because I've died
Forgive me if you can
But don't try to understand
It's not gonna help
And now b
I may seem strongI may seem strong to youI may seem strong3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
You - those who know me on deviantart
You - also those who know my close in real life
I may seem strong to you
Because you know my invisible scares
Because you know about the time where my smile had been lost
I may seem strong to you
But I am weak
I am hidding myself
Trying to run away from reality
Trying to be invisible
Not too often but sometimes.
Crying isn't weakness.
Crying is a sign of life.
Why do I hide?
Why do I hide?
Hidding is weakness...
I am 15.
I am alife.
And only from ashes a phoenix can arise...
What do you think?
Can I show my face?
Can I exist in their minds?
Can I arise?