A Therian Curse or BlessingWhen I'm near you,
And close my eyes,
I can feel my claws,
My phantom tail weighing on my spine,
The twitching ears perked,
The flattened ridge above a small nose,
I can imagine everything,
And it feels so weird and amazing and startling and perfect in the same second.
She may have called me a freak, but what I am is more than that.
I am not human, she cannot call me that much for my spirit.
I am feline trapped in a human masquerade,
My slitted irises burning under frosted glass,
And as I close my eyes,
And let you trace my jaw line,
Let you pull back my hair and chuckle,
I'm stuck between two worlds…
One is telling me it is better to shrug off this human skin and be my true self.
The other is telling me that I was meant to be yours in this way,
that I am stuck between two worlds to befriend you…to be here for you and you for me….
For if I was truly feline, I would not be able to speak to you.
I would not be able to laugh at your jokes,
Or play with you the way
A Lone TherianThe more I search for her, the more I feel her.A Lone Therian3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This feline purring under my skin,
Her tail coiling like one of my stray curls
Her eyes become mine,
Slanted and gold,
And I place my hands paws
Into the overgrown grass and leaves.
Stretching my fingers,
I grip the earth,
And enjoy this her
If only I had another who understood this connection to instinct to animal
Someone who knew it more, and would care for me as only a therian knew how
Laying back in the grass, I sit in the sun,
I let it paint my skin with tan stripes and smokey wind
Yes, If only I had another
Who would play as only a therian knew how
Lazily, I watch a dragonfly flit across this emerald sea,
Leaves clapping create the sounds of breaking waves .
What I wouldn't give to have someone to pounce .
Yes .If only .
Being therian alone is not much fun at all .
A Wild AnimalSlowly the angel stood,A Wild Animal3 years ago in Settings More Like This
Watching his wild lover shake,
Her mind tormented by two separate souls,
One wild, one tame,
Both to fight for their own name.
Chained to bedpost,
Clawed hands bound behind,
Her hair fell across her weary face,
Her eyes burning with fire found in cats alone.
Crouching near her panting form,
He brushed her hair from her face,
A small smile twists his lip,
And his eyes trace her shivering skin.
"What do you want from me?!" She whispers hatefully,
"What are you going to do? Destroy me like the others of my blood?
"I never knew you hunted my kind!" She spat at his feet,
Her teeth glaring in the bedroom light.
The angel reached for her jaw,
Gently cupping her face,
He looked into her eyes.
"I wish to tame you.
"And to love you.
"I wish for you to see the pain you are causing yourself,
"And I wish for you to listen."
Startled and scared,
Wary and untrusting,
Her heart pounded in her veins,
The thrum of their heartbeats combined in her ears.
For one mom
CanvasThe staining ink of your darkest Sharpie,Canvas3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The bitter scent both relaxing and startling
The gentle tug of felted tips and pen on skin
Just rest my head down,
Let the shivers take me,
I wish you could experience something similar,
But I wouldn't know how to explain,
How wonderful it feels,
When I become your canvas.
Closing my eyes,
I listen to your steady breaths,
Your soft but precise movements on my skin,
My arm stretched across the cool wood,
My knuckles lightly touching your chest
I think, if I lay still enough,
I can feel your heartbeat through my skin
When you set that ink upon my skin,
I forget about everything bothering me,
Everything hurting me
And let the shivers consume me,
When I become your canvas.
A Therian's PurposeOn this Earth I walkA Therian's Purpose3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Paws sinking into soft damp soil
But these paws are not mine
They are the paws of a true monster
This furless body without my powerful claws
In this form I am encased for a lifetime
How do I live out my life?
Knowing I am in the form I hate the most
So much cruelty humans bestow
Burning destroying all in their path
Us therians are few
Some draconian, canine, feline, and a far larger variety
We walk the Earth in our new forms sometimes in doubt
What is our purpose?
what is my purpose?
Are we here in mere torture?
The Goddess and God loves us
We are their special children
Purely loved are we
The protectors of this realm
In our true form is where we thrive guarding our Earth
Guarding our loved ones
True wold and free
The beasts we truly are
-Saysha Dragonsong Wolfe
Feral in the HeartI wish you could see through the skin I wearFeral in the Heart3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
how feral I am, in the heart:
not these little bruises and cutmarks and ink from the papers
I'm not here,
underneath I am true
I have much more than
anxiety and panic attacks
prozac for breakfast,
under here, I am ancient
I am a river
I am the seals in the sea.
I have freedom in my veins, I have stars in my blood
Bursting out! Supernovas, explosions in the
dark universe behind my
I wish you'd see me when I am what I am
Tangled in honeysuckle scent, lungs heavy and
amongst ancient cities, flowers and water
in this net of people
who aren't my people.
when it's spring and the smell of coming rain
is in me,
as I am
feral in the heart:
exhausted from the joy bubbling under
let me be a deer,
let me be
the spark within my muscles and nerve memory
underneath we are all wolves
hunting and howling
among the frozen trees
There, in the dark,
in the grey
of the woods my skin rips
Did He Just Say....The words drifted in the air,Did He Just Say....3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like silver sugar lacing my smile,
I feel the skin around my eyes and neck warm and tint with red,
I cast down my eyes and smile,
There they are,
His fingers in my hair again,
Tapping and playing,
But all I can hear are those words
Dancing through my head like perfect hallucinations,
But he said them .he did
."We could be" ..
Therian DreamsWhen I lie in my bedTherian Dreams4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And drift from this world
I feel free again
I become the hero
I become more than a man
For I am the wolf
Ears to hear the slightest wisper.
Nose to pick up the scent.
Eyes to see the terrified prey
Claws and teeth to kill.
Fur to keep me warm and dry
Against the winter's chill.
Paws to run like the wind
From meadow to mountain and hill.
I protect my charges from man's cruelty
And destroy my enemies with fear.
And then I wake up from my dream
In sorrow, for I am man once more
Your Feline Shadow...Go ahead and tell me,Your Feline Shadow...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your darkest deepest fear,
Whisper it, type it slow,
And never let them hear
Because you know how much I care,
You know what I really mean,
And because I care so deeply,
You're secret's safe with me.
Go ahead and tell me,
Who you really love,
Whisper it, and type it slow,
And never let them know
Because you know that I still care,
So I'll never tell you no,
I'll support your whims on hand,
And never to let go.
So go ahead and tie the string,
Draw the face of my true soul,
Tickle, laugh, and trick me, boy,
But you have to know,
That these games make it difficult,
They make it oh so hard
I care for you,
And yet you're not sure..... who you care for
And I can't let go
I'll be here,
Waiting, smiling, laughing, and playing as always seen.
I'll be here,
Hoping, trusting, caring, and saying what I mean
And you'll be there,
Swaying to and fro,
Never knowing who to love
I'm your feline shadow, boy,
Drifting MemoriesPulling covers over chilled shoulders,Drifting Memories3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Closing my eyes to the setting sun,
I feel my lips pinch in a small smile,
As I remember everything about you that makes my days special.
Every moment spent, every text sent,
I smile, knowing that you are mine,
And I sleep into dreams of holding your hand,
And kisses in courtyards,
Darkened rooms and bleachers,
Special memories take my hand,
And guide my heart to the reasons why I need you.
As long as I can dance the dance of both worlds,
Tread that fine line and remember my lies,
You'll be mine, and I'll be yours.
My Label/ Hi, My Name Is...Sometimes I think I need to wear a label,My Label/ Hi, My Name Is...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That will tell you what is wrong with me
"Hi, My Name Is:
Easily loving, falls to quickly, doesn't know when to stop, tries her best but can't succeed, and only wants to hold someone's hand to feel that hand on her shoulder when she cries "
The ink would be smudged across as if written in haste, a couple letters bolded in spots as if trying to fix a mistake So many mistakes
The edges would be peeling as if to forget I ever existed all together
Sometimes, I think I need to wear a warning
So you will know ahead of time that I'm too broken to repair too lost to be found too hurt to heal and pretend to smile, often .
So that when you don't like what you read, I can just tear it away, and write another
But no matter what I try, my name is always the same .
The Only Therian Known To MeDo you know what it's like to be alone?The Only Therian Known To Me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To look at the stars and know,
That even though across the threshold, there's family,
And across the land and sea, there's friends,
You still feel alone?
And this kind of alone feels so hollow and cracked….
I have a love of my own,
Sleeping soundly, dreaming of my touch,
I have two families, one of blood and one of spirit,
And yet…I am the only therian known to me….
I am the only one who connects animalistically…
Who does not believe in her own humanity half the time.
I am the only one who wears her tail for something more than they do…
A part of me yearns for a pride…a pack…
I just wish I wasn't the only one…
You can't make someone therian.
You can't force the animal spirit into their blood.
You can explain and try to let it out,
But more often than not, you're labeled crazy or odd…
I just wish I wasn't the only one…
I am the only therian…the only ailuran…known to me…
Do you know what it feels like,
This kind of alone?
The Gold Wolf CallsThe Gold Wolf CallsThe Gold Wolf Calls2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You've found your brother and this is good.
As you are doing that which you should.
He is the key as you now know.
And to all shall now the Gold Wolf show.
You need to go back and read the word
Of all those poems from me you've heard.
For all of them together form the tale.
Arrange them in order and you'll not fail!
Follow the meter, follow the rhyme.
You my brother know the laws of time!
Cause and effect, the ticks and tocks
Avoid now the perils of paradox!
Your brother now opens the doors within
And you now show the powers to him.
But remember the number must equal five.
In order for our true selves to be alive!
Time and energy, matter and force.
Must be present to cause change of course.
Together these four bring forth the One.
Who's golden splendor shines like the sun!
Arcanus Tempus Tempestas Draconis Greywolf
27 July, 2013
Therian ThoughtsI can feel her,Therian Thoughts3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tensed up and ready to strike,
It's almost like a rubber band,
That's been stretched too thin.
Her golden eyes waiting for the band to snap,
And then, she'll pounce.
I can feel her when I'm angry,
When I'm annoyed and stressed,
She purrs and reminds me,
Of what she would do if she were let out.
Strike, Claw, Snarl, Growl, attack.
But then she also compels me, this beautiful cat.
She is truly beautiful,
She is the best and worst part of me all together.
When I am angered to the cliff's dangerous edge,
I can feel her stretching her lean muscles,
Preparing to take over,
To unleash her feral feline behavior.
Sometimes she wins but other times, I catch my own attention,
And remind her I am strong.
That I can do this
How Dare The FoolSpitting hate burning my tongue,How Dare The Fool3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Clenched fists believing in ghostly strength,
Nails biting pinked crescents into my palms,
The anger stirs and tenses,
She gathers her energy from behind my eyes,
Tinting everything red and hazy….
My head tilts forward,
My eyes singe any unfaithful soul in my sight,
And I feel my teeth grind,
My voice carrying hateful, malicious words of revenge, retorting and twisting every misdirected phrase,
Clawing the air with electrifying negativity…
How dare he,
How dare he,
How DARE he say such things to my kin, my family…
Taking short, unfulfilling breaths,
I raise my gaze to search the crowd of unconcerned idiocy,
And see the crown of my treasured human…
Somewhere beneath this crimson haze,
I hear the slow chant, "Kyubbi, Kyubbi, Kyubbi….I need...him…"
His name circles my mind uneasily,
And the voice of the fool draws back my insanity,
Instantly I have left, and she takes over again….
This anger overcomes me, my skin shaking and hurting,
Her frustration is so
To Kiss A GhostSlowly the drug pulls down my veins,To Kiss A Ghost3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Pulling my hand in purpled waters,
Dragging me down into a misty realm,
Of lavender smoke
Landing in a chilled crystal lake,
The ripples lapping against my legs,
I lift my eyes and see someone
A shadow of... someone
He reaches out a hand to me and touches my neck,
With the other, pulls me closer
It was like kissing a ghost,
He was there, and then... he wasn't
I never met his true self,
But I knew him then, and only then
My hair ruffled through his fingers,
Rough and red,
His skin was cool and fading,
I never knew what it was
To love a ghost
I Won't Exist...I sit here on a sunken bed,I Won't Exist...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Surrounded by bright, meaningless colors,
The room itself numbed by patterns and details,
So many treasures,
So many "important" awards, trophies,
So many perfectly stacked books,
So many perfectly arranged pictures of a perfectly posing girl,
All of it means nothing, NOTHING!!!
And yet everything
Every little freaking thing in this little freaking room,
Is a part, a piece, a puzzle,
Of my existence All of this is me as I exist in their eyes .
Sometimes I just want to sweep my arm across the dresser,
Throw everything to the floor,
Watch the cheap perfume bottles shatter, sending hazy fumes into the air.
Sometimes, I just want to stab a knife through the paintings,
ripping straight down and leave the canvas flying.
Breaking all the sculptures, decided I won't exist anymore.
Sometimes, I just really want to break these windows I sleep by,
And slip my pale legs through the shattered glass.
I want to hold the match and let it lick my finger,
TherianTherian8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Something wells and struggles down inside
Something Im no longer inclined to hide.
So much energy, a lethal surge
No longer now will I fight the urge
To run in the night
And feel the cold air.
To hear the silence
And see the darkness, so fair.
To take my life another way
To live the night and sleep the day.
Words cannot frame what I feel
Only shapeless sounds can make it real.
The howls of joy, or rage, or sadness.
I swear to you this is not madness.
I am what I am
I feel what I feel.
I am under no delusional spell
I am no demon thrown up from hell.
Two spirits inside this body dwell,
The animal being the least wicked and fell.
Lust and HungerThe crackling dawn shone down upon her face,Lust and Hunger3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Striping her skin and gleaming her frustrated tears,
The rope bit down into her wrists, the wiry twine rubbed raw,
Her mouth dry, and starved, she snapped her sharpened teeth.
“Let me go,” she snarled, “Let me GO!”
The dark haired man across the room sighed,
“I cannot, you are too hungry Aura.”
She spat at his feet and glared at his dark eyes.
“You are no angel of my kind,
“ You leave me to starve as you go and fill yourself on the skin of my brethren!
“ You expect me to not be hungry,
“ You expect me to be tamed and be satisfied with grains and fruit of human tastes!”
“Silence, Aura.” He commanded, “You are only speaking for lust of blood and meat.
“You are not yourself, and I am sorry for your hunger.”
“But,” he whispered to her as he fell to one knee before her, his eyes locked onto hers,
“I know you are stronger than this rag
Wolf WithinWatching from the shadows,Wolf Within8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I see the world for what it truly is.
The pain, the suffering,
And even the malice that fills the void.
I don't understand how my human,
How my other half, can stand them.
With their selfish wants,
And their furless bodies,
It amazes me how he can walk among them,
And not quiver at their strangeness.
But maybe it's me who's strange…
The one who might not fit.
I hide in the fabric of his soul,
Forever watching the world,
And waiting for another who is just like us,
Another who can understand…
Though my time does get lonely,
I often enjoy giving my human things,
That remind him of what he truly is,
Something that few can ever obtain.
I give him my own sight.
I let him run through the trees,
And let him feel the wind through my fur,
I even give him the thrill of chasing a deer.
Though these are mere illusions,
They are still as strong as the day I saw them,
Through my two golden orbs.
And one day soon,
One day very soon…
I hope that he and I can s
A Wolfs PoemA WOLFS POEMA Wolfs Poem3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A human you see
but a wolf I be
I feel the animal inside of me
Always yearning to be free
The beast always makes his presence known
I can feel it in all my bones
A human I can never be
With these animal urges going on in me
As a man I feel wrong in this skin
A wolfs fur I belong in
The wolf is strong at every moment
His strength and energy refuse to remain dormant
A red wolfs soul resides in me
even though you cannot see
I am a wolf and I am man
but you can't see what i truly am
A wolf heart beating within
A hidden beast beneath this skin
When in anger I will growl
In happiness & joy I will howl
My senses strong except my vision
To be man & wolf was not my decision
I'm stong, I"m friendly, I'll fight tooth and nail
I'm loyal, I'm a leader, I'm an alpha male
I live as both a wolf & man
A shifter, a were, awaiting his wolf clan
Tempt Me With WordsWords are luscious and flow off the tongue,Tempt Me With Words3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tempt me, suitor,
With words of honey and lilac.
With faded parchment and onyx ink,
Slowly seduce me, kind sir,
With words of velvet and flame.
Words are precious and form the souls' essence,
Court me, gentle man,
With literature and good graces.
Words are indefinite and lucid,
Speak my language, hot-blooded spirit,
By softly whispering stanzas in my hair.
Words are eloquent and unique,
Trace sonnets on my skin,
Capture my heart with words.
Stain my blood with poetry,
Heat my heart with haikus,
Make my skin shiver with lyrics,
Capture my attention, soulful man,
By reciting and writing.
Words are thicker written, fair souls,
And they taste of cinnamon and passion,
Tempt me, brave man,
With your words, above all.
True Love: A Painted Myth?Forgive me if I intrude,True Love: A Painted Myth?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I'm a little bold,
I've always been a little odd,
From all that I've been told
But something about the way you smile,
Something about the way you trust,
Good Lord, send me a soul to love,
And forget this useless lust
So many tiring hours spent,
Looking for his name
Trying to find a hint,
If he's still the same
I could have been the secret girl,
Chosen at a whim,
I threw my heart at his chest,
But still, I did choose him
I don't know what is real anymore,
My mind does war against me,
Somehow I must get the patience,
To tame the visions that taint me.
So please forgive me if I'm odd,
My heart is just too hopeless to worry with,
But also because I am scared,
That true love is just a painted myth.
Please....Remind Me...Falling through their split-laced curtain,Please....Remind Me...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Their venom-gilded web,
I extend my hand towards their bitter cackling,
Trying to hold on to my existence .
They are my blood,
They are my family,
But every glance is two-faceted,
And every remark is double its original worth.
They will never accept me,
They will never understand,
And the metallic sharpness,
Creates acid from their lips,
And the stinging denial,
Gives birth to underlying hatred.
I dance between both worlds known to me,
But I'd prefer to be in only one.
I lie through my teeth daily,
I put on a show and pretend,
And I constantly remind myself I am stronger,
I will survive their sickening trials .
If I know that I am stronger,
That I can do this until I am free,
Then why do I find myself holding myself together at night,
Crying in the corner of a chilled shower tile,
Wondering why I never feel like I have a future,
Where they will accept me for what I am doing and have been doing
The Shower's TherapyLetting the skins drape to the floor,The Shower's Therapy3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I reveal my body to the chilled sliding glass,
Stepping away from a mottled brown door,
The sudden sound of rain across tile soothes my ears.
Each step across the icy floor, over into the light blue haven,
A breath, a gasp, the warmth of each droplet slicing my skin, my blood spreading,
My hair loops down across my shoulders,
Like silken chords of brunette hues shining,
I watch as the water slides down the ropes, and dances off into the air before thinning below,
Slowly, I'm shaking,
My breath too shallow, backing up, clearing my eyes,
I lay against the stones and let the rain envelop me.
I forget everything and listen to it rush past my ears.
I watch as it decorates my pale skin with peach dew drops,
And I envy...
I close my eyes and let this constant pounding of the shower beat down on my back,
My nerves begin to dull and I feel rocked to sleep,
tucked in by the coolness of the tiles below my legs...
When I try to stand again, in fear of sitting