Once a dear friend of mine told me that
there are three types of people:
the Normal ones, the Made ones and the Born ones.

"You are something really different if you are a Born one because you are never going to stop
thinking and looking for the... well, for the cause of the human mistake.
On the other hand, if you are a Made one you are going to grow and search only during the time
when you are with the person who "made you", who has to be a "Born" one.

♡ i really enjoy this song .♡

Do you think there's such a thing as a box of lost illusions ,
or a place to all the people we miss or lost in our lives ?
A cemetery inside us all that we keep them in ,
cause why would we ever want to let them go .
and what if there's nothing in it ?

Some people live in their own world ,
and sometimes you see someone trying to get in ,
other times , you see the same person trying to get out .

I don't think people understand that ,
although most of us just want someone
that wants to see what's inside .
Most of the time ,
we are more afraid to let what's on the inside
going outside .
So precious in our unique way ,
we preserve and glorify
and we won't ever let this world corrupt us all .
and we may never . . . 


" that moment when you are reading a book and
something absolutely amazing happens and you need
to take a breathe to let the information sink in "

So my iMac have crushed and i lost so many things .
Sure i have a back up for the photos and stuffs but , sadly i never did a folder backup for my random thoughts that
were written in between spaces .
I don't know if it's only me but , i have like 4 note-books ( the handwrite type) around my house .
randomly i write stuffs in them but , lately i use more pc or iPad .
Typing is faster to catch my thoughts and not leaving them to the forgettable usual ...
let's say i have a problem to focus .

Anyways , this is new . This one . From this year .
this is my favorite spot cause , i grab my guitar and sit in here
almost year around . And so around . . .
Those are the seasons . this is not some touristic place where
you can find in guide books elsewhere . This is part of my life .
and like so , it has a little bit of me in there as well .

Technology companies are doing so well these days as they change the way we live our lives,
“It’s irony, a group of technology companies showing the way how to be human,”
showing real understand of how to be human beings .

- anon talking about technology conquering the humans .
( Our conversation in the tattoo studio )

Contre jour, French for 'against daylight', refers to photographs
taken when the camera is pointing directly toward a source of light.
This effect usually hides details, causes a stronger contrast
between light and dark, creates silhouettes and emphasizes lines and shapes. 

- wikipedia reference .

Since these spider Lilies usually bloom near cemeteries around the autumnal equinox, they are described in Chinese and Japanese translations of the Lotus Sutra as ominous flowers that grow in 地 獄(also known as Hell), and guide the dead into the next reincarnation.
A famous legend is of two elves: 曼 珠, who guarded the flower, and 沙 華 who guarded the leaves. Out of curiosity, they defied their fate of guarding the herb alone, and managed to meet each other. At first sight, they fell in love ♥ with each other. G.O.D, exasperated by their waywardness, separated the miserable couple, and laid a curse on them as a punishment: the flowers of 曼 珠 shall never meet the leaves of 沙 華 again.
It was said that when the couple met after death in hell , they vowed to meet each other after reincarnation. However, neither of them could keep their words. ♥

Some other legends have it that when a person sees someone that they may never meet again, these flowers, also called red spider lilies, would bloom along the path. Perhaps because of these sorrowful legends .

“Charlie, we accept the love we think we deserve.” ♡

Contre jour, French for 'against daylight', refers to photographs
taken when the camera is pointing directly toward a source of light.
This effect usually hides details, causes a stronger contrast
between light and dark, creates silhouettes and emphasizes lines and shapes. 

- wikipedia reference .

Last day of the equinox flower this year .
tomorrow i have to work and after that ,next time i'll be
able to photograph this season will be over .
this year was really special. spectacular if i may say .
i 've never capture those lilly's quite the way i did this year,
i am very happy about it .
thank you for all the ones who fave and comment .
thank you for the support . See you all next year .
please also check contre jour songs in iTunes .
the soundtrack is amazing ! ! !
well recommended indeed .

btw : i just finished the "hunger games" trilogy .
i didn't like even a single chapter of the third book .
the second is simply the best ever .
i cannot imagine how they will make a movie
about the third (actually two) . cause let's face it .
it could be quite boring .
but having Katniss Everdeen a little more is always a plus . Cheers

what if I fall and hurt myself

would you know how to fix me?
what if I went and lost myself

would you know where to find me?


if I forgot who I am . .
would you please remind me?

i just saw this movie called " lars and the real girl ".
you know , some people think you are special ,some only says that because mostly ,
they are religious and so every single f* one is special .
but there are also , some people that can make this world so much more darker .

today we are not talking about them , cause Lars , see ,
i wish i knew someone like him , and we all could use some .
i once knew one person , and even today , i replay things in my head .
do you think this is normal ?
well , what it's normal . ... a definition . .
Lars ? was he ill ?
i don't think so , i think that we all get lost in here ,
but see , he , he found himself .
the world could really be a little more like that .
the saddest part is that we are not .
no.


never once in my life i've been like this , stuck .
something is awfully wrong .
i wish i knew the things i once understood ,and i was fine living by those rules.
now i just don't know anymore ,i don't see how things were supposed to be .
i keep talking to myself , i hear you , every f* day .
and the saddest part is that too ,
will never be like it would .
this is all like season coming in full circle ,
they are never fully here .
neither they are completely away .
although it seems they are gone ,
a wind blows something that take them back again .

are we living in the past ?
and why is that ?
cause we know that ,
in our hearts , there will be no future .
no future in this at all .

"it's my insecurities that make me watch other people in a way
they're not even aware of themselves
and slowly, although never on the spot,
I am becoming their signs of beauty.
I see myself in the mirror day after day
and even so it takes some time to realize
who I’ve become."

Jesse Fisher: Because it's like saying what if reality is all an illusion,
then there are no consequences to anything, we're completely off the hook...
and I believe in consequences.

Zibby: No, you believe in guilt.

Jesse Fisher: Maybe, but guilt before we act is called morality.

In the elevator her heart began to pound

To the rooftop, in her slippers, and her gown
Quietly she turned and slipped away
On the edge,
She took one last look around

Then closed her eyes and pushed away



Speeding toward the ground

Through the air without a sound

So grace f u l l y
. . .

Twelve flights down, nearly naked on the ground

Skin and tagedy always attract a crowd

More than fifty eyewitness accounts

Each one in awe, for they'd never seen a girl so sad and so beaut i f u l .

- David Bazan (pedro the lion).

I wish the world could appreciate this song as much as i do .
but in the other hands , a meaning can only complete it circle when it means for two .

Can you help me remember how to smile

Make it somehow all seem worthwhile

How on earth did I get so jaded

Life's mystery seems so faded