The Lies We Tell OurselvesI'll stop pretending to be okay,The Lies We Tell Ourselves4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'll stop lying to myself and accept that
I'm in total disarray. I blinded myself with
a lie saying I didn't need you.
I lied to myself when I said I can be
happy without you. For awhile it worked
exactly like a perk, it made all my pain
disappear, all my agonies unreal, but my
uncontentment reappeared. I see no color,
I see no reason, I see nothing but a void
without a proper decorum. For once I wish
that I could turn back time, relive the moments
that made me feel so alive, because all I want
to do, is live my life forever with you.
As I got lost in my memories, oh the bittersweet
sensation, your angelic smile gleaming through the
white abyss of damnation. So this would be my
last confession, to save myself from utter
humiliation. How I wish you could see the pitiful
state I'm in, oh how I wish you said "you too"
when I uttered the words "I love you".
FallingA white feather floatsFalling4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Down from the sky.
Landing among the
Gray skies part
Soft light comes.
Falling from the heavens
A small angel,
Torn and broken wings.
Feathers cascade down
The sky opens as rain falls.
Tears over falling for love.
Hitting the ground
A soft voice echo's all around.
"Do not weep for me,
It is love that I have found.
These tears you shed have come too late,
I cast no blame.
If this is the price I must pay
Then I do so with a smile upon my face,
No love should be forbidden."
ScreamsSlit my throat and watch the blood,Screams6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Streaming down my skin.
It only hurts a little bit,
But the screaming never ends.
Follow me everywhere,
Pretend I will never know.
I don't know where you're hiding,
But I do know that you're watching.
Sing me a love song,
To strangle me to sleep,
But don't feel guilt,
I'll pretend it's just a dream.
Cut me in a thousand peices,
Hide them in the sea.
I know you won't remember me,
But you won't forget my screams.
Nobody KnowsNobody KnowsNobody Knows3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Behind closed doors, no
one can see, I bare my soul
as my tears run free.
shadow of a mani fell in love,shadow of a man4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
it didn't work out as planned and -
for day after day,
week after week,
month after month,
i kissed him goodbye and
as best i could.
denialI am who I am because of what I have.denial5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who cares if it is labelled as a "Mental Illness"?
I'm sick of labels.
I'm sick of judgement.
I'm sick of people.
I'm sick of "being sick".
Do I look like I'm sick?
Can you tell by my face, that there's more to me beneath my skin?
Can you look behind my eyes and see more than my insecurities?
Can you tell me if you know how to make it all go away?
No, you can't. No one can. I'm "incurable".
Huh, if only I was sick in the first place.
Kiss Your Demons GoodbyeYou can spend your life in the dark allies of your mindKiss Your Demons Goodbye4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Or you can step into the light of a meaningful life
And kiss your demons goodbye
But you just stand there and turn off the lights
It's the darkness that keeps you blind
Who needs to see, not you, why me?
You can spend your life looking through shattered eyes
Draining the meaning from the cracks in your lies
Returning the decay to the walls we've refined.
Your walls will only fall dissolved by your deceit
If you're willing to listen I have a lot to teach
Please open your ears and take a seat.
This world is fucked, I'm not gonna lie
It will devour you and turn off all the lights
if you don't make a stand and fight
What can we do?
Keep shining through
All the bullshit they tell you.
A cry out for hope is louder than screams of terror
Fighting is the only way to make this corrupted world fair
It’s a lot to take in but it’s a fight we can share.
We can spend our lives in the dark allies of our minds
Or step into the light a
I'm sorry...I tried to escape this world...I'm sorry...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Even though I said I would stay
I'm sorry I lied to you love
Maybe you can forgive me someday?
Just so you know the last person I thought about was you
I thought about our jokes
Your laugh, your smile, everything and anything about you
But than everything went black...and I swear my heart broke
Even in the darkness I still saw your light
Maybe that's why I'm still here...
I know I promised I would keep fighting this fight
But there was just too much fear
I'm sorry if this hurts you...
I'm sorry if I let you down
Please don't leave...help me make it through
I still need you or I will forever frown
Are you mad at me?
I really am sorry my friend...
It was just getting too dark to see
But I'm glad it didn't end...
I still haven't done all I've wanted
Haven't got my chance with you yet
And if I was gone your face would always haunt
I'm waiting, for we still haven't met
So I'll be here...
Just waiting for your forgiveness this night
And I'll understand if you
Fallen Angel"They're only blackberry stains, Scottie." She assures me, soft voice lilting and whispery like the east coast wind, tinged with the taste of salt, that teases her obsidian hair.Fallen Angel4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I'm tracing the harsh purple bruises that tell painful stories as they paint her ivory skin like serpent tails, crawling down her concave collarbones, and curling unforgivingly around her thin upperarms.
"Angel kisses will wipe them all away while I sleep." She promises, brushing my fingers away from her bleached porcelain skin, as if she might break under my fleeting and gentle touch, and I wonder which one of us she's trying to convince.
"You're the only angel I've ever seen." I reply, smiling and trying to grasp her hand in my own, as she pushed me further
"No...I fell from Heaven too long ago." She whispers, more to the bluffs at our backs than to me, "I got lost in the poison ivy and briar thorns, ripping and tearing at my skin like demon teeth. The sky seemed so far away, and blackness buried the sun, co
WordsI only have one face, but so many sidesWords4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I have one soul, but there's something hides
Beneath my skin, beneath my smile
It's so different with its own sense of style
I am human, I am my feelings
I have no grounds but I have ceilings
I am words, written in poetry
I am bones, lost in a cemetery
Words, with action only towards others
One child with two different mothers
Written on stone, blood is the ink
A rosy flower with a lethal stink
I can't be mad, and I can't be sad
I can't have everything I ever had
One big smiley face with brown eyes
I tell the truth when I tell lies
Can you understand me, can you feel
A heart of ice locked in steel
I won't change, even If i could
I understand the misunderstood
"Such a lucky girl" that's what I heard
My curse is like a hummingbird
I just know my place in life
I'm music with a high-pitched fife
I'm words, just words with meanings
I'm one of Edgar Allan Poe's poems with his raven screenings
Does it make any sense?
I think it's the thought of suspense
Between the stallsAmung the sinks and filthy tilesBetween the stalls2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I stay between two dirty walls
I really just need to be here alone
No where but here amung the bathroom stalls.
As I sit upon the toilet lid
I can see the water between my knees
I glare into this toilet bowl
And all I find is a circular sea.
I watch as they drip again and again
The tears come streaming down my cheek
They fall into the bowl directly below
And vanish into the water so bleak.
This is the place I come to hide
This is the place I always go
Where theres a place I can be myself
And not my emotions' puppet show.
I hear the tap of my shoes echo the room
But its shushed asleep by the sound of the flush
This way I can drown my emotions dead
To finally get them to shut up and hush.
I use my sleeves to wipe my eyes
And walk out from between these walls
I walk with nothing but a smile to show
Like nothing happened, even at all
Fuck YouAnd this brown paper bagFuck You4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
filled with warm secrets,
that make me melt
from the inside out.
You say I'm masochistic,
that I crave the ache
And the burn of the knife
You slice through my spine
You bend me backwards-
contorting my limbs
just to spread my thighs.
For I was never made
to mold under your hands.
This liquid fire is
merely a reminder,
Of all the nasty little things
you have made me do.
You whispered, bit and tore
That [hollow] blood pumping
organ from out my chest.
Then, hid my heart away
under the floorboards
of your darkest dreams.
For this, you swore.
So selfishSlowly he puts the gun to his temple,So selfish3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A moment of doubt for something so simple.
A loud bang and he falls to the floor,
his family screaming as they burst through the door.
If only they had realized, if only they'd seen
that he was not well, insane it would seem.
The signs were all there, paranoia and depression.
He had thought it through completely, to the point of obsession.
The only release, a sweet moment of bliss
only to bring it all to this.
So foolish, so weak, so selfish to die.
But to carry on with life, living a lie.
He had to do it, it was the only way.
No longer would he be tormented, living day by day.
The pain was too much, the choices so slim.
It was either he went out, or took them all with him.
Slowly he puts the gun to his temple,
reflecting on his choices, so simple.
A loud bang, and his hand just trembles,
a moment of doubt, his world had crumbled.
His family bursts through the thick oak door
Only to find the gun on the floor.
He couldn't do it, couldn't follow thro
becoming alive.i feel alive,becoming alive.6 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
but the life is outside of me.
i wanna fly,
but there's nothing left inside of me.
and everything is so addicting.
i keep my head,
but i'm slowly unraveling.
i keep control
but my heart been ready to betray since i was lost.
so dance upon my broken wings,
and heal me.
tear me down from the sky,
try to break me.
i'm not yours to destroy.
turn off the sun,
and take the light out from my eyes.
i shouldn't go,
but you're coming back and pulling me.
the more i live means
the more i die.
dance upon these broken wings,
and heal me.
tear my soul out of the sky,
just to break me down,
in your eyes.
i'm yours to destroy.
i've tried to find salvation;
but everybody's dead and gone
i wanted to live in peace;
but the voices have all been silenced.
i've tried to live;
but the atrophy is breaking me.
i tried to care;
but the apathy takes over me.
sing from on top of my broken wings.
and heal me.
put me back up in the sky,
and forgive me.
i try to speak;
but words have all betrayed me.
DebrisDeity,Debris5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Your halo is incomplete,
Your name is not so sweet;
And my heart it burns
When I hear you speak.
Your name is infidelity,
A beast with amorality
Twisting my perception
Of what I assumed you to be.
You bring it out of me,
You make me suffer
For your own mistakes,
For all eternity.
-Brian Shuffett/Kat Ward
June 22nd, 2010
The truthBeing alone is how I liveThe truth2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Been this way since I was young
I watched the other children play
And heard the happy songs be sung
But I was exiled to myself
Expected to smile with my back to a wall
It takes a village to raise a child
But it seems they all just watched me fall
I heard the others make plans to hang
And I was never invited to be "in"
Not "in" amongst any of the crowds
as if my very presence was a sin
Those who do choose to have me around
Just call me depressed and tend to avoid me
I searched for someone to treat me as a friend
Someone who would be willing to set me free
But every time someone starts to show
That maybe i'm not a complete waste of time
They start making excuses of why they can't hang
So often that I could memorize every line
So now I sit alone yet again
Alone as I have been since I was very young
Unimportant once again but they aren't to blame
I'm just blinded by truth as if it made up the sun
you are poetry.there is poetry in your bones;you are poetry.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
written on the underside of
and all up and down
your frail little carpals.
limericks live on your
barely visible through
your see-through skin.
there is poetry in the
graceful curve of your
eyelashes against those
mermaids would kill
to have lips
as enticing as yours.
sonnets should be written
about the seduction of
there is poetry in way you breathe-
how you talk and how you eat,
how you move and softly sleep.
there is poetry in the beat of your heart,
the blush in your eyes,
the quiver in your lip.
you are poetry.
More Each DayWhen I saw you, you shone so bright,More Each Day6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your face was a beacon in the night,
You smiled and you took my hand,
You taught me to fly, but not how to land.
When you let go, I lost my way,
I lost all sense of night and day,
Flying blindly though the air,
Wishing that you still were there.
I suppose I was naive,
Thinking love could come to me,
And this is the price I pay:
Missing you much more each day.
Heart of Fire Heart of FireHeart of Fire3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You are like
A fire in a forest
Setting everything ablaze
In the warm smoke haze
And the way you dance
With the tongues of flame
Burning all around you
It makes me want to dance too
Can put you out
For your spirit
Strong as ashes
And hot as coals
And how everyone knows
That you are the girl
With her heart set ablaze
And the eyes full of desire
For you are the girl
With the passion of fire.
FullMy mind is full of secretsFull4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
My tongue is full of lies
I wipe away their tears
As I wait for mine to dry
My eyes are full of wonder
My ears are full of screams
I learn it once and learn it fast:
Nothing's ever like it seems
My feet are full of journeys
My fingers full of words
Sometimes I let them tumble out
And then wonder if they're heard
My back is full of burdens
My shoulders full of pain
But I'd rather suffocate in silence
Then sit a moment in the rain
My arms are full of weakness
My legs are full of strength
I don't know where my journey ends
I only know the length
My brain if full of knowledge
My soul is full of youth
My poetry's full of meaning
And most of it's the truth
Frozen minds and personal -Somewhere past the frozen fields,Frozen minds and personal -6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
where snowstorms melt heaven and hell into one
giant mass of fear and slow fading
you pass by like a ball of fire.
Thank you for warming my heart
after every night
when the wolves come.
Their paws feel colder than winter itself.
Somewhere past the post-apocalyptic,
broken, denied parts of my mind
you stop by like a sun
crushing my ground to heat it up.
Thank you for warming my heart
after every nightfall in my soul
every moment of doubt.
Your smiles are never the killing kind.