MusicLike a drug addict'sMusic1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
needle music elicits
pleasure within the
very depths of the soul.
It pulls the strings
of emotion like a
The melodies are like
stitches that closes the
lacerations that life has
cut into the fragile heart.
The truthBeing alone is how I liveThe truth1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Been this way since I was young
I watched the other children play
And heard the happy songs be sung
But I was exiled to myself
Expected to smile with my back to a wall
It takes a village to raise a child
But it seems they all just watched me fall
I heard the others make plans to hang
And I was never invited to be "in"
Not "in" amongst any of the crowds
as if my very presence was a sin
Those who do choose to have me around
Just call me depressed and tend to avoid me
I searched for someone to treat me as a friend
Someone who would be willing to set me free
But every time someone starts to show
That maybe i'm not a complete waste of time
They start making excuses of why they can't hang
So often that I could memorize every line
So now I sit alone yet again
Alone as I have been since I was very young
Unimportant once again but they aren't to blame
I'm just blinded by truth as if it made up the sun
Last Song of the NightYour handsLast Song of the Night1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?Falling off the Edge1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.
In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.
There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea enveloping your body
while you sink into the unknown,
taking your last breath.
Irish DreamsMy dreams of Ireland are paintedIrish Dreams1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
with pastel green eye shadows
and emerald bushels of garland
that glisten in the charcoal night.
They're visions of golden showers
and fresh aquamarine dew drops
that embrace the lively bedrock,
awakening the creatures within.
They're the rush of bustling winds
weaving through the loose locks
of Irish boys and their lovers,
dancing under the Celtic stars.
They're the ancient melodies
that consume every fantasy heart
and yearner of good luck,
well-wishers and explorers.
My dreams of Ireland are painted
with every enticing touch of beauty
that one could possibly imagine.
The Lies We Tell OurselvesI'll stop pretending to be okay,The Lies We Tell Ourselves3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'll stop lying to myself and accept that
I'm in total disarray. I blinded myself with
a lie saying I didn't need you.
I lied to myself when I said I can be
happy without you. For awhile it worked
exactly like a perk, it made all my pain
disappear, all my agonies unreal, but my
uncontentment reappeared. I see no color,
I see no reason, I see nothing but a void
without a proper decorum. For once I wish
that I could turn back time, relive the moments
that made me feel so alive, because all I want
to do, is live my life forever with you.
As I got lost in my memories, oh the bittersweet
sensation, your angelic smile gleaming through the
white abyss of damnation. So this would be my
last confession, to save myself from utter
humiliation. How I wish you could see the pitiful
state I'm in, oh how I wish you said "you too"
when I uttered the words "I love you".
FallingA white feather floatsFalling4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Down from the sky.
Landing among the
Gray skies part
Soft light comes.
Falling from the heavens
A small angel,
Torn and broken wings.
Feathers cascade down
The sky opens as rain falls.
Tears over falling for love.
Hitting the ground
A soft voice echo's all around.
"Do not weep for me,
It is love that I have found.
These tears you shed have come too late,
I cast no blame.
If this is the price I must pay
Then I do so with a smile upon my face,
No love should be forbidden."
The River bankWhen I'm down I like to tell myselfThe River bank1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Everything will be okay
But when it just becomes a lie to myself
I take a walk down to the river bank
When I'm there I just watch the water flow
and feel envy for it's simplicity
Why does it get to lie around all day
Whilst life comes and tortures me
Then I think to myself everything has it's place
And every dog will truly have it's day
I may not be able to bite back right now
but i must build up the courage to stay
Stand strong in the face of pure aggravation
Stand strong when I am feeling weak
Stand strong because the very river that i had envied
Continues to push itself to reach it's peak
So I walk along my river bank
for it has always inspired me
And instead of standing still and letting me sink
It pushed forward and set me free.
ScreamsSlit my throat and watch the blood,Screams6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Streaming down my skin.
It only hurts a little bit,
But the screaming never ends.
Follow me everywhere,
Pretend I will never know.
I don't know where you're hiding,
But I do know that you're watching.
Sing me a love song,
To strangle me to sleep,
But don't feel guilt,
I'll pretend it's just a dream.
Cut me in a thousand peices,
Hide them in the sea.
I know you won't remember me,
But you won't forget my screams.
Nobody KnowsNobody KnowsNobody Knows3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Behind closed doors, no
one can see, I bare my soul
as my tears run free.
Kiss Your Demons GoodbyeYou can spend your life in the dark allies of your mindKiss Your Demons Goodbye3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Or you can step into the light of a meaningful life
And kiss your demons goodbye
But you just stand there and turn off the lights
It's the darkness that keeps you blind
Who needs to see, not you, why me?
You can spend your life looking through shattered eyes
Draining the meaning from the cracks in your lies
Returning the decay to the walls we've refined.
Your walls will only fall dissolved by your deceit
If you're willing to listen I have a lot to teach
Please open your ears and take a seat.
This world is fucked, I'm not gonna lie
It will devour you and turn off all the lights
if you don't make a stand and fight
What can we do?
Keep shining through
All the bullshit they tell you.
A cry out for hope is louder than screams of terror
Fighting is the only way to make this corrupted world fair
It’s a lot to take in but it’s a fight we can share.
We can spend our lives in the dark allies of our minds
Or step into the light a
I'm sorry...I tried to escape this world...I'm sorry...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Even though I said I would stay
I'm sorry I lied to you love
Maybe you can forgive me someday?
Just so you know the last person I thought about was you
I thought about our jokes
Your laugh, your smile, everything and anything about you
But than everything went black...and I swear my heart broke
Even in the darkness I still saw your light
Maybe that's why I'm still here...
I know I promised I would keep fighting this fight
But there was just too much fear
I'm sorry if this hurts you...
I'm sorry if I let you down
Please don't leave...help me make it through
I still need you or I will forever frown
Are you mad at me?
I really am sorry my friend...
It was just getting too dark to see
But I'm glad it didn't end...
I still haven't done all I've wanted
Haven't got my chance with you yet
And if I was gone your face would always haunt
I'm waiting, for we still haven't met
So I'll be here...
Just waiting for your forgiveness this night
And I'll understand if you
Fuck YouAnd this brown paper bagFuck You3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
filled with warm secrets,
that make me melt
from the inside out.
You say I'm masochistic,
that I crave the ache
And the burn of the knife
You slice through my spine
You bend me backwards-
contorting my limbs
just to spread my thighs.
For I was never made
to mold under your hands.
This liquid fire is
merely a reminder,
Of all the nasty little things
you have made me do.
You whispered, bit and tore
That [hollow] blood pumping
organ from out my chest.
Then, hid my heart away
under the floorboards
of your darkest dreams.
For this, you swore.
becoming alive.i feel alive,becoming alive.5 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
but the life is outside of me.
i wanna fly,
but there's nothing left inside of me.
and everything is so addicting.
i keep my head,
but i'm slowly unraveling.
i keep control
but my heart been ready to betray since i was lost.
so dance upon my broken wings,
and heal me.
tear me down from the sky,
try to break me.
i'm not yours to destroy.
turn off the sun,
and take the light out from my eyes.
i shouldn't go,
but you're coming back and pulling me.
the more i live means
the more i die.
dance upon these broken wings,
and heal me.
tear my soul out of the sky,
just to break me down,
in your eyes.
i'm yours to destroy.
i've tried to find salvation;
but everybody's dead and gone
i wanted to live in peace;
but the voices have all been silenced.
i've tried to live;
but the atrophy is breaking me.
i tried to care;
but the apathy takes over me.
sing from on top of my broken wings.
and heal me.
put me back up in the sky,
and forgive me.
i try to speak;
but words have all betrayed me.
you are poetry.there is poetry in your bones;you are poetry.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
written on the underside of
and all up and down
your frail little carpals.
limericks live on your
barely visible through
your see-through skin.
there is poetry in the
graceful curve of your
eyelashes against those
mermaids would kill
to have lips
as enticing as yours.
sonnets should be written
about the seduction of
there is poetry in way you breathe-
how you talk and how you eat,
how you move and softly sleep.
there is poetry in the beat of your heart,
the blush in your eyes,
the quiver in your lip.
you are poetry.
Frozen minds and personal -Somewhere past the frozen fields,Frozen minds and personal -5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
where snowstorms melt heaven and hell into one
giant mass of fear and slow fading
you pass by like a ball of fire.
Thank you for warming my heart
after every night
when the wolves come.
Their paws feel colder than winter itself.
Somewhere past the post-apocalyptic,
broken, denied parts of my mind
you stop by like a sun
crushing my ground to heat it up.
Thank you for warming my heart
after every nightfall in my soul
every moment of doubt.
Your smiles are never the killing kind.
Fallen Angel"They're only blackberry stains, Scottie." She assures me, soft voice lilting and whispery like the east coast wind, tinged with the taste of salt, that teases her obsidian hair.Fallen Angel4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I'm tracing the harsh purple bruises that tell painful stories as they paint her ivory skin like serpent tails, crawling down her concave collarbones, and curling unforgivingly around her thin upperarms.
"Angel kisses will wipe them all away while I sleep." She promises, brushing my fingers away from her bleached porcelain skin, as if she might break under my fleeting and gentle touch, and I wonder which one of us she's trying to convince.
"You're the only angel I've ever seen." I reply, smiling and trying to grasp her hand in my own, as she pushed me further
"No...I fell from Heaven too long ago." She whispers, more to the bluffs at our backs than to me, "I got lost in the poison ivy and briar thorns, ripping and tearing at my skin like demon teeth. The sky seemed so far away, and blackness buried the sun, co
Her HeartShe runs away from youHer Heart3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Getting soaked by the pouring rain
She knows when she cries,
Tears cannot get discovered amongst the rain
You walk away and go into her house
Stealing her self esteem and her pride
You see pictures of you two on the walls in her room,
Smiling, hugging, and cuddling on the bed
And you look at them with disgust
You're searching for something,
And you can't seem to find it
But eventually you seek the treasure
A poem assuring your love for her
And you crumple the paper and toss it into the trash
When you walk into the rain,
She's nowhere to be found,
But you can picture her,
With her brown eyes staring into yours
With the crack of the lightning, the illusion is gone
And you are successful with your mission
You've stolen her soul, her happiness and memories
But you're happiest that you've broken her heart
Starless NightsSo it's dark outsideStarless Nights3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Another starless night
You made me swallow my pride
Why did we have to fight
So I'm walking alone
Down this empty street
Just trying to find my home
Suffering this defeat
So I find myself
With new cuts on my wrist
I don't want your help
You helped start all of this
And I duck away from the light
Out of sight, out of mind
Out of luck, out of time
I give up, don't even want to try
Screaming 'Fuck it, I just wanna say goodbye!'
It's these kinds of nights
That make you grow stronger
When you can't find the light
Or stand it any longer
When you've got to pretend
It didn't come to an end
That you can still send
Out your love to make amends
It's these kinds of nights
That you toss and turn
But you never sleep
When you can feel it burn
The pain and the hurt are
Running ever so deep
Tell me why you had to go
Tell me why'd you leave me
And it hurts with every step
Never thought I'd ever let
Go, of you
Is this what you meant
When you said that life is a
Live in Love Live in LoveLive in Love3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That new feeling
That keeps you up all night
And the green eyes
That you can see
Anywhere you are
And the way he walks
Different from any other
The beat of his heart
When he holds you close
And the heart
To catch up with his
When you're not in his arms
The feel of his hands
That clutch yours
And the feel of his lips
When no one else knows
This is the moment
Take it while you can
And live in love
Hand in hand.
The FallYou thought the way he looked in your eyes meant somethingThe Fall3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
When he said he cared, you assumed he meant it
But maybe you were too quick to believe
That he meant it when he said he'd never leave
You thought the way he held you in his arms was a sign
When he said he loved your smile, you didn't think he lied
But there's always another layer underneath
And there's always a wake up call to every dream
He had you fooled for a while, the way he painted on that smile
And acted with no shame, and said you were the one to blame
You tried to play his games, but you didn't know the rules
Why were you so skeptical? You had nothing to lose
But he got tired of waiting..
You figured there was a catch, some kind of trick
You wouldn't swallow your pride, too afraid to lose it
So daylight started fading..
Autumn ended, and then came the fall
He thought the look in your eyes was a giveaway
While your heart was in doubt, and you gave all you could take
You left his shadow in the dust
Because even the brigh
Oi'm feeling really sad.O4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
it's starting in my toes and
burning up my shins,
ashen sins seeping into the
cold bones of my hips
and filtering into every stream
of blood in my body.
i want a distraction -
from this sadness,
from the heavy feeling
in my stomach,
from the twitches in my
fingers as they grasp empty air
in hopes of a silver cut.
i think i will ask her to lend me a shirt
for saturday night,
something pretty and daring
and unlike me in every way.
i don't want to be myself anymore
and i don't want to be myself
when i reflect on the number of hands
clutching at esoteric bodies.
i am a secret
that is not worth hiding,
so i am prepared to share it.
i don't want to be myself anymore
so i will do everything i wouldn't.
i want warm bodies to take away
from my own cold,
to distract me from the beating
of my sore heart, always on the forefront
of my aching mind.
i want rhythms to swallow me whole
and pendulums swaying in the dark.
i want to be someone else,
and being someone else's is the