So young and so used,
Don't stop, the world is watching,
They can't look away.
I am a coward,
I've seen things you won't believe,
I wish you would stay.
Try to convince you,
I made peace with who I am,
Deny who I was.
We cover our scars,
We take hits when we are bored,
They make us look good.
Not afraid to die,
Where will we be tomorrow?
Bear a sincere smile.
I taste only sin,
The night is our memory,
No fear of regret.
Smell the stench of death,
Burning in the lust of youth,
Breathing is shallow.
I glamorized suicide,
Brought stories from down under,
And I'm a hero.
~きょ~ © J-Goth/Amanda P.
YouThe perfect smileYou2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The coolest walk
The sweetest style
The smoothest talk
Such beautiful eyes
Such tasteful lips
The greatest surprise
And erotic hips
I'll be your lover
I'll be your friend
We'll lie under these covers
Until the end
Paperback SpineIn stories,Paperback Spine2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the lucky ones
have their lives changed
by one little moment-
one dandelion puff
between your palms.
And the author stresses
this moment, how tiny,
that seemingly unimportant
into a novel.
You have to be
My eyes have gone dry
and my lungs are about to pop,
and my tongue is oversaturated-
If I kiss youWhat if I kiss you?If I kiss you2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What if I pull you close?
And whisper you the truth
Will you say “I love you”?
Because you shine light into this dark room
I wish I could turn the whole world to slow-mo
Just so I could see this beautiful flower bloom
Maybe then you’d see how much you mean to me
I go on my days with my heartfelt thoughts
Warmth is what you’ve brought into my feather heart
And all of this just feels like the start
I know that one day, we will never be set apart
Imitating NatureThe morning sun streamed through a series of large plate glass windows lining the library's east wall, its rays warming the room's wooden paneling and illuminating the cavernous space. Tall bookshelves stuffed with literature from across the world towered over polished oak reading tables, each furnished with a plain, green-shaded banker's lamp. On the far side, a massive painting gracing the west wall depicted the solemn face of Saint Patrick, whose protective presence could be felt watching over the library's sole visitor.Imitating Nature3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
All was perfectly quiet, save for a tap, tap, tapping that echoed in the otherwise silent room. Seated at a desk near the door, glued to the screen of his laptop, Eoghan quietly tapped his pen against the notepad in his lap as his eyes scanned through the different news reports.
Another roadside bomb outside of Kandahar, three dead, all soldiers. God frowns upon careless mistakes gentlemen. You should have noticed the dead dog along the side of the road.
Broken AngelA broken angel's trip to HellBroken Angel4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
in desperate need for love she fell
a broken heart that once was lost
must find her way at any cost
to the world she seems just fine
engraved in skin she hides each lie
she knows exactly what they'll say
it's alright, she'll be okay
so every night she climbs in bed
and prays to death she'll wake up dead
she dreams to leave this world behind
and know for sure she'll be just fine
a broken angel left in Hell
in desperate need for love she fell
NecromancyShe replaces her wristsNecromancy2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with the sharp thorns
of roses and slurred
as she speaks
in an old tongued
language that whispers
She collects stars
on her knuckles,
& her dust eyes
are sad moon nebulas
starved for love.
But, the kisses
she sinks into the curve
of her lover's ribcage
by night, warm that
Can i keep you?he was just as dispersed as the scattered pieces of paper heCan i keep you?3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
had shredded the night before.
and if i put your segments back in designed formation.
"Can i keep you?"
Deep In ThoughtShe walks along the corridorDeep In Thought3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She wants to go
Anywhere at all
She walks into an empty classroom
And collapses into the first chair
Hitting her head against the desk
LEAVE ME ALONE"
Insults keep on throwing themselves
She stands up and
leans her head against the window
Stares at the sun until her eyes hurt
Until her head hurts
A knock on the door
And a group of girls walk in
"We were looking for you"
"Why did you go running off like that?"
She stands up straight
She leaves with them
And leaves the voices
Inside the classroom.
For her to be alone
To kill her
From the inside out.
LongingHey girlLonging3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I know you notice me staring
And you're staring back at me
But in disgust instead of admiration or adoration
I don't blame you though
I'm disgusted by myself as well
But i can't help but stare and imagine you walking up to me and starting a conversation
That maybe we could get to know each other
Talk frequently, and start to get fond of each other
Become more than friends
Then i wouldn't feel so alone
All the anxiety, negative thoughts, and fear would cease to exist
All these fantasies spawned from just one glimpse of you
And i don't even know anything about you
Not even your name
Why do i feed myself all these false hopes?
Because i yearn to have someone
Someone to love
Someone to give my heart to
Although i would give them the opportunity to destroy it
But reality hits
And i no longer see you there
All the thoughts fade
I feel alone
Alone because i realize no women could or would ever love me
I yearn for companionship
But i will never have it
Obituary Of A FriendshipAfter all this time we finally meet again.Obituary Of A Friendship2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm excited to hear how you've been, my friend.
But when you start to talk I start to abstain.
While I smile, secretly I wish for this to end.
We're thrown back into a time that ended long ago.
What we had in common does not matter anymore.
Again you want a shoulder so you can have a good cry.
I am diplomatic though I sense this friendship does die.
About all the tragedies that happend to you I shall know
While I cannot tell you why my smile becomes so sore.
I am really sorry that things have come to this.
We used to be good friends but we both have changed.
I treasure what we had, but you I won't miss,
Once we parted ways and the goodbyes are exchanged.
We've grown apart and the distance between us is vast.
You talk so much and more yet still nothing has been said.
The conversation runs dry, as it dies we start to brag
About what we achieved, but that's just hoisting the white flag.
There is no sense in trying to keep alive what's dead.
GhostThe dream shatters around meGhost2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like a broken mirror.
Looking at the wreckage,
My reflection unrecognizable.
A broken image.
A broken heart.
I'm cut by the shards
As I try to piece it back together.
My blood sprinkles the surface
Like a red rain.
The mirror is whole again.
What's left of the dream.
I look at my reflection,
And tears finally begin to fall.
Save meMy wrists,Save me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The never ending cuts,
When will the bleeding,
The never ending tears,
When will the crying,
The never ending hell,
When will death come,
Take it all away?
Only in my DreamsOnly in my dreams I can feel the warm and gentle embrace of a womenOnly in my Dreams3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Her lips against mine
Staring into my eyes without a trace of disgust
Holding hands with me as we share smiles and laughter
I'm happy in this world
No negative feelings
I have her
Even in my dreams she has flaws
But all i see is perfection
I want this to last forever
She's perfect despite her flaws
And she thinks the same about me
But i wake
And the dream is over
I don't see her anymore
I'm back into reality
I dread the day that awaits
It was all just a dream
And that's all it would always be
Reality is the nightmare i can't awake from
It would always be this way
These wordsThere is so much i want to say to youThese words3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
so much i want to tell you
but the words dont describe
how much i feel about you
There is so much i wanna do
so much we can do together
so much for me to be
with you until the very end
You're now in my heart
and forever kept
there is so much i wanna tell you
but dont have words to explain
Forever in my heart
for you to be
until the end
i will be with you
Cause there is so much i wanna do with you
so much i wanna say
but i will leave you with these words
that i will love you forever and always
Cause baby i mean it
you are my life
i will always love you until the end <3
Poem: Hold OnHold OnPoem: Hold On2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I heard you crying last night
Did you stop trying last night?
You scream there is nothing left
You say there is nothing inside
You used to fly up so high
But you fell to pieces in the sky
You let go of your faith
And threw away your dreams
Try and find something left for us
I'll turn the lights out
Sleep for tonight
I have to leave,
You have to face this alone
You need to build your strength
You lost faith in me
And gave up
You know there is nothing
Left of us
You say it's too late
And nothing hurts
The feelings will come
And some will burn
But some will heal
If you keep strong
You won't hurt anymore
You can lay in the grass
And feel the sun
If you'll just wait for one
Keep shining darling
It's never too late
To turn your life around
Even if only for a day
You can reinvent yourself
And become someone new
Live a different life
And dry off your eyes
Just keep smiling,
I promise you it's not all gone
There is light at the end
All you have to do is hold on
A Sudden GoodbyeDid you forget that I was here,A Sudden Goodbye3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
No matter what was wrong?
And that I was always yours,
When you needed someone strong?
Are you mistaking me for someone else,
Who doesn't know you like I do?
Were you looking at me while you spoke?
Cuz I swear you stared right through...
Could you hear that sound of breaking glass,
As you ground your foot into my heart?
And did you feel something inside of me snap,
As you verbally tore me apart?
Could you taste the salt of my endless tears,
As you sucked my soul right out of me?
Or my bittersweet confusion,
As you abandoned me so abrubtly?
Did you feel any chillingly familiar regrets,
As you stroked my cold dead skin?
Or did you feel some sunny fleeting happiness,
Because you think that now you win?
Insert creative title here.sometimes I hate the ideaInsert creative title here.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I rather eat the autumn
skies crushing cold air between my molars
and hiding shaky hands
between pages of dictionaries
and clickclickclicking sounds of typewriters
you asked me why I wrote poems
on the soles of my shoes
and I told you
it was because I wanted to
imprint myself on the earth
then I can create beauty
even if I am not
Why was i born?Born with disabilitiesWhy was i born?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
born with mental illnesses
born with no true mom
and no true dad
No true brother
and no other sibiling
taken away at birth
and put into foster care
but still no true dad
thought i had a true mom
until she met someone else
All my issues
all my problems
i am left unknown
to face all my problems alone
No true family
not a true friend
in this cruel world
With problems to face
as i am now a adult
dont know where to go
and dont know how to cope
No true family
all my problems i have left
why was i even born?
You Are Not AloneYou are not aloneYou Are Not Alone2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I see you struggling,
You have no motivation, you are fading,
You feel like you're surrounded by lies,
But I know otherwise,
I need you to think,
Let all your feelings out with ink,
I can really help you,
If you just give me the chance to,
I'm here for you and I shall always be,
You can trust me,
You can't keep on doing this to yourself,
I can't even bare the thought of being by myself,
You are beautiful, you are you,
And I love you,
So please, please don't feel bad,
You're only making me sad,
You are my friend,
And you will be until the very end,
Please feel better,
I'll be here forever.
I'm Not Good EnoughSlather my heart in my blood padded cellI'm Not Good Enough3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
From soft hands thumping on walls
Not cushioned enough to prevent grouted wounds.
I am flying through my cells with wordy screams
That tempted the air and thought best in expression
You can whisper coarse perils and I will
Meet you by the edged library books falling in my lap
With authors pouring out their hearts' desires
But flailing into mediocrity.
A Sad story about RainI tried to whisper my sorrowA Sad story about Rain3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
onto the evening and to my pillow
and I was reminded so bitterly
that there was nothing left of me
There was nothing left to cry
and I was so scared I'd die
of heartbreak and so much pain
and then you reminded me of the rain
You told me how you love the shower
the little droplets, pitter-patter of water
and how cool that it made us closer
Oh you whisper that you hoped it was forever
But now all of it was shattered
no more whispers nor forever
just a pillow and this cold evening
the only thing I have for mourning
I never liked the rain
but I had you to gain
I didn't mind it at all
twas just a small detail to call
It made me shiver and made me sleepy
I felt like I want to be lazy
I was more enamored with the sun
With whom I could play and have fun
But since you loved the rain so much
I kept my silence and just watch
appreciating the silliness you made me do
since I was so in love with you
But now that you've left me be
rain has becomes an unbearabl
I just need to get this out of my systemDear Boys:I just need to get this out of my system2 years ago in Letters More Like This
Treat the woman you're in love with the same way you'd want the man who's in love with your sister to treat her-
With utmost respect and integrity intact.
If you don't want your sister to be inappropriately touched, foul-mouthed or gossiped about, then do not do so to the woman you are after. She too is somebody else's sister.
Close Your EyesLay your head down to sleepClose Your Eyes3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Take your last few breaths
Don't be scared, I'll hold you safe.
Close your eyes and trust me.
Although I am Death itself
I'm here to end your suffering.
I'm here to carry your soul
To a place that's better than here.
You won't be in pain anymore,
You'll actually be quite safe.
So close your eyes and relax
It will be over quick and soon.
I know people are scared of me,
But I'm actually quite nice.
(Please don't listen to them)
I only want to help those in need.
So please lay your head down to sleep
And take your last few breaths
And please please please don't be scared
I'll hold you safe (I promise)
So close your eyes and trust me.
True loveFrom the first day we started talkingTrue love3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i knew that there was a bond going on
I knew that one day you will be mine
forever and always
Than i started getting to know you
and i found out i had feelings for you
from the day we first met
i knew that i fell in love with you
I love your gorgeous eyes
and hugging you
if i could
i would hug you and never let go
I knew this was love
from high above
the moment i have fallen in love
was the moment i knew it was true
I started getting to know you
and everything about you
i thought that we can work this out
especially since we have so much in common
Now we are finally in love
and you have finally reached my heart
a heart for you
and i wont let anybody get in the way
Cause i love you so dearly
and you mean something to me
more than anybody that ever knows
and to me this is what i called
and forever will be
until the very end
of our living lives <3