i shouldn't resenthaving lefti shouldn't resent
be burning from
the resignation that
you wouldn't try.
i cried you out
into rivers that flow
gurgling with doubt
and each breath i take
takes my sanity away
and still i struggle
for your silence.
you're the thread that threatens
the lingering hurt that festers
and each moment tightens
the noose around my neck.
i am burning from your lack
of utter dis-regret.
i shouldn't resent
the fact that i
had the courage to leave
because had i stayed
i wouldn't have learnt
the difference between love
Don'tGo ahead.Don't7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Break my heart like you always do.
I don't give a damn.
(I'm so tired. So goddamn tired.)
Of your innocent pretty smiles and your beautiful hazel eyes.
w a l k a w a y
you're s l i p p i n g
i never had you...
Love Letter to No OneDear ____________,Love Letter to No One7 years ago in Ballad More Like This
I'm sorry for all the times I ran away,
For all the days I wasn't there...
For everything I said that hurt you,
For my callousness and inability to care.
I'm sorry that I hurt you bad...
Sorry that I never said,
"I love you" back.
I'm sorry for pushing you aside,
Sorry for all my stupid lies.
But most of all, I'm sorry
For hurting you.
Because all that you ever did
Was love me.
And all that you ever did,
And I've just been so selfish,
Pulling you along, pushing you aside,
Suiting my own purposes
And needs every time.
And even after I decided to let go,
I still expected you to come running.
Running back to me,
The moment I asked you to.
And so I'm sorry.
Sorry for all the stupid things I did.
For all the times I made you cry.
And most of all, I'm sorry.
For all the time we'd wasted on each other.
And most of all, I'm sorry,
For hating her.
Hating her for making you happy.
Hating her for always being there.
Hating her for loving you.
My ProblemI think I might be getting over you.My Problem7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But that isn't the scary part, no.
The scary part is...
I think I may actually want to.
You scare me. You always have,
And a little part of me has always blocked that out.
I never wanted to find love because love...
Screws everything up.
You tore my world apart and made everything seem
so out of place. You made my heart
beat out of rhythm and now
all that's left of me is a little bent out of shape
tin can that I place
in the empty cavity in my chest.
Within my brain resides
millions of images of you and your smile.
But that feeling of ease has slowly been crowded out
eroded by this empty pain that fills me
every time I see that same smile.
Cause now I've finally realized that...
It doesn't matter how much I am there for you.
It'll never matter how much I care about you because
you're never going to notice me.
And this pain has triggered
the defense system wired around my heart
cause even though it's screaming
I love you
my mind has shut dow
A Little Bit LongerJust a little bit longer.A Little Bit Longer7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just hold me a little bit longer.
Just smile at me a little bit longer.
And everything around me will fade to rainbows and
Sunshines. Just a little bit longer and I'll be fine.
Just a little bit longer and I'll be better than fine.
You don't know that my heart beats in a crazy
Tempo whenever you walk by and you don't see
That my eyes light up whenever your name falls
From my pretty lips. Just a little bit longer.
Just a little bit more.
Everything that's you is perfectly adored.
Just a little bit longer and I'll be fine.
Just a little bit longer and the world will be right.
Just a little bit longer and I'll be fine...
SmilesShe smiles:Smiles7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
So perfect, brilliant,
Laughs out loud
At a funny joke
That in retrospect,
Really isnt that funny at all.
She squeals in delight,
As she scores a goal.
Works hard to make sure,
Practices hard just so that she wont let
Everyone else down
She bounces down the hallways,
Arm in arm with a friend,
Always with someone,
When she cries,
They ask whats wrong,
And they show concern.
But its the wrong kind of concern.
And she smiles:
So perfect, brilliant,
And she laughs out loud
And she tells jokes.
And her friends laugh,
And her friends care,
And she always smiles.
And her smiles are perfect;
They are happy,
And they are real.
They are real.
Just a LittleYou asked me if I'd cry,Just a Little6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
when I said
I didn't think about stuff like that.
Not at all.
Truth is, of course I would
You have become
essential (to me)
within just a little under
I think if you ever ceased to be I would
dysfunctional though physically intact with all
cut off and stemmed into other beings
through the redirection of energy.
Love is a paper-thin word designed to ignite
the greatest of emotions within ancient man.
In a modern context, I am stuck
with the trite economics of
and I am wont to exclaim
love in a paranoia of events
leading up to a chained reaction of
petitioned drugs- you are my ecstasy, heroin
Inclusive of tax, I would be charged
with the attempted murder of a heart:
I think maybe I might have fallen just a little too hard.
Can't StopFrom the moment eyes metCan't Stop7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
there has been nothing
All the confusion
like a festive paper chain
gone wrong. Each link
only serves to lay waste
to an already broken heart
that was nothing more
than stitched together pieces
of irrational desire
from the very beginning.
Your eyes are mirrors
reflecting a kaleidoscope
of impossible dreams.
Your lips are gateways
to forbidden lands
where the golden apples grow.
Need outweighs sensibilities
and try as I may
the handcuffs only tighten
with each display
of hopeless resistance.
One may as well
catch a falling star
with silver chopsticks
because though I don't want to
I can't stop liking you.
For my SonWhen he is older, I will tell himFor my Son6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the dreams his mother never dared
to achieve and the land mines his grandmother
I will teach him the difference
between lust and love; warn him of the edges
of girls in too short skirts
and tell him to love what's good for him.
I will sing to him stories of my youth:
recycling heartbreak into fairy-tales
and he will be unburdened by the finances
that I was brought up with.
He will be allowed to wish on stars
and to fish for hearts. And I will teach him
the difference between
need and want.
He will know of the girl who scribbles
poetry into notebooks and love her instead
of the head cheerleader with her pouty looks
and just-out-of-bed sex appeal.
I will teach him how to be a boy
without chaining him
within the confines of the man
he should turn out to be.
For my son, when he is older
I will tell him
of the too young girl in too old thoughts
warped by society and drowning in dreams.
And he will know, he will know
of the girl his mother use
FreeFallingLalaFreeFalling6 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
These words they pour out of my soul
I'm writing a new song, a new tune that's
begging for you to sing along.
I've been walking down that road
For far too long, way too alone
and you're here now but that doesn't mean
that everything is ok now. No.
Baby if I could say I missed you, I would
but the words wouldn't be true.
I wanna tell you the way I feel, the way
the earth seems to move away from you
cause I'm falling, free falling
from the grace of God, when you're near me
I'm falling harder each day.
Falling into you.
And I wanna tell you that this isn't what I wanted
And I gotta tell you, this isn't what I'd planned
nothing ever goes the way life wants to,
but tomorrow starts with a single step forward,
and tomorrow, I'll start anew.
Baby if I could say that I missed you, maybe I wouldn't now.
Cause the days are longer
and they've slipped faster than I care to count.
But baby, maybe
someday, we'll be together again. Someday, we'll sit around
an old fire and remember
Once.I loved youOnce.7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of this, I'm sure.
You took me
and you burnt me
by the fire that my
own lust fueled
and the passion died
with the fizzling
as the air
charred with the scent
I loved you
and note the
exclamation mark at
the end of each
define our lies
lies and words
a haunting replay of
noticed if i hadn't been
so caught up in
your mesmerizing smile
I am a myriad
illusion and fantasy
broken down into
three simple words
i loved you
To Walk AwayYou probably won'tTo Walk Away7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the room for yours,
to fill up this empty space.
You probably won't
Or to conceal the fact that
Whenever you catch
is pounding wildly
With the alcohol
fuzzing my brain
There's so much
here right now
here to blame.
The price is
haze the air
You giggle as
your hand up
Tossing my heart
flipping me up
ignoring all the signs.
the souls around,
My lips tingle
all the careless wounds
What does it take
for me to let go?
if I ever will
don't know how
I am to the edge
me aside till
don't notice the tear
slipping down my face
what do you think
how much does it take
to walk away?
DreamsI'm so tiredDreams7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but I don't want to go to bed.
I'm afraid that if I sleep
the remnants of yesterday will
I like the way you're so
now but you're also smothering
my mind with worries
cause now I'm so afraid of the emptiness
that will fill up when you leave.
saying goodbye to me now would be less cruel.
I want you to want me in a way
that I don't want you to.
Does that make sense? Cause I'm
to make sense of this topsy turvy
heart that's breaking to the
beat of a different drum. the world
spins over and over in circles
and constellations that have no names
and I'm flying flying flying through
all your emotions and imagined perceptions
perceived feelings are all fine and good
but my heart is beating in overdrive.
you're the only person in this world who can
make me feel alone in a crowded room
and i love that
i love you.
higher and higher up this crazy roller coaster
I am drifting and falling and tripping over
the truth, the lies and the im
The Greatest Sin of LoveI've learnt to stop loving youThe Greatest Sin of Love8 years ago in Surrealism More Like This
Learnt to guard my heart from you
I've stoppered my ears from your honeyed lies
And wiped out your smiles from star-studded skies
Our love was pure, you let it fade
And now all that's left are undiscerned shades
The black and white; greys inbetween
Distinct blurs where you have been...
our love was the greatest sin...
MightWhyMight7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Does it feel like I'm chasing
after a elusive something that
I could never get?
Asking you questions leave my heart burning with desire.
You answer my wants of "Do you like me?" with a simple heart crushing MIGHT.
How can you like more than one person at the same time?
suspend us. play us like musical notes that trickle from your honeyed words.
Sweet gentle lullaby.
how could I have been so
BreatheI wish when you breathe,Breathe7 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
You'd hold every breath for me,
Much like I need you.
Alright Alright AlrightIf it's alright. alright. alright.Alright Alright Alright7 years ago in Open More Like This
[[could you maybe hold me tonight]]
I need some warmth in my life
Right now. i'm so cold. cold....cold.
& if it's alright alright alright
could I ask you some questions about my life?
do you see the world when you look into my eyes.
see the stars flickering so light.
[your lies they illuminate my beautiful perfect simple harmony of world and time]
if it's alright. alright. alright.
(would you mind if I cried tonight)
All Hail the Heart breakerI'll give you me, the whole of me,All Hail the Heart breaker7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because there's nothing else I'd rather do.
I'll give you me, the unmarred mask,
Cause there's nothing else that I do well.
And when you cry, I'll shelter you,
Be the beacon for your hope.
And when you move, I'll sway with you,
Carry the world for you to mould.
And I'll let you have the best of me,
Because there's nothing else that I do well,
And I'll let you have the whole of me,
Cause for you, I bleeding fell.
So I'll be the giver, and you, the taker.
I'll give you all there is.
And I won't even ask for much,
Cause being with you is just bliss.
So I'll be the giver, and you, the taker,
I guess that's how this is gonna go.
I'll keep giving and you'll keep taking,
Smiling, putting me on hold.
Cause you've got me down on my fucking knees,
And there's just one thing I have to proclaim.
All hail the heartbreaker.
All hail the heart bleeding breaker.
Nature of TruthThe nature of TruthNature of Truth7 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Is that it's an Illusion
Flight is EasyIt's easy, I think,Flight is Easy7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to get caught up
in the world
and plans that are often
bigger than yourself.
So easy, really,
to lose these games
One moment is all it takes
to lose and slip and
Ultimately, cliched though it may be,
the winner takes it
So it's easy, I think,
to lose your soul in this game.
To trade and to barter
yourself for a
little shred of
in this crazy world,
the little pieces of you
disappear and fade
as quickly as
Let go of all the
shackles that bind
to the heart
and unchain the soul
just a little partAching and breaking,just a little part7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
my heart is still slipping and sliding,
hoping and holding out for you
to notice that you and me should be together.
But I'm tired of standing in the wings,
and the stage lights are trained on me right now.
I know the thought's never crossed your mind,
but maybe you know how I feel.
Yea, I can guess that you're scared,
or maybe you plain just don't care.
But the way I feel is just a little fraction of
something that will fade someday.
One day, when you wake up, you're going to realize
that I'm not around anymore.
And when that day comes, I hope that
you'll feel the hurt.
Cause even though it's selfish,
I just want to walk away with
a little, tiny, miniscule part of your
Second FiddleBest friends are not wordsSecond Fiddle7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Easily taken from my mouth
So please don't ever use it again
Till the day you are certain. You're
Friends with the whole damn world and I
Really can't take it anymore.
I'm tired of being left behind, of being the
Emergencies-only button. Tell me you
Never meant to hurt me or I may just
Die. Tell me you need me because
Second fiddle's not the place for me.
CrazyCrazyCrazy7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
into my ear
And I suppose
Crazy to have
and given my
Crazy to have
with my whole
you would rip
it all to
into the air
your words caressing me
lullabies embracing my soul.
And I surrendered my all.
My heart, I bared.
I whispered back
and fell giddily
into your smile.
On HumansShining lights burn outOn Humans7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The shades of grey stare
At little dreams fast fading
Rich imagination runs bare.
There's not enough of anything.
Little children starve in streets
Rushing beggars too caught up in themselves
No one cares beyond their mirrored images
And we all wonder what's wrong with the world.
There's never enough of anything.
Drowned in overachieving high expectations
We are never satisfied with just first place
Hollywood mansions spew out ready made pop princesses
As everyone else struggles to pay for college.
There'll never be enough of anything.
And the world progressively becomes colder
As temperatures fluctuate with our lies.
Our actions fuel the tempests storms
And we just slowly give up and die.