The Truthful RealmIf I were to look through a different world,
I could see you smiling softly,
Your hand stroking something orange-furred and sleeping.
On your left is a golden-eyed tabby,
Her tail striped with three dark rings,
Her whiskers long and patience thin,
But heart, greater than the sun.
Sitting there beside you,
Is what I feel to be
In this alternate world,
Where spirits run true,
That is where I am
I look up to you,
I feel for you,
I forgive your every sway,
And I feel envious of this other realm,
Every breaking day.
Because if I were to be what I am.
I'd be with you most afternoons,
You'd come home and I'd be there waiting,
Waiting just for you.
And around my neck would be a ribbon,
Golden with my name,
And you smile as you placed your palm upon my brow,
And chuckle when I purred.
I am often envious of this other realm,
Where spirits run as they are true,
Because what my therian side is telling me,
Is that I belong with you
Burnt PopcornI cremated a bag of popcorn in my microwave...Burnt Popcorn3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
and it's honestly not that bad...
but each individual piece tastes like a memory forgotten,
smokey and warm, like campfires in autumn...
if I close my eyes while the soft skin of the piece melts on my tongue,
I can imagine the crinkle of fire and the sparks of fallen ashes...
the miraculous image of twirling smoke against Orion's Belt...
And the harsh, reawakening sounds of pulling the individual black pieces of wood back into the center, raking the powdery ashes into a circle, and realigning every smokey brick...
And even though we never shared a campfire before, I really would like to...
to be able feel it burn my lips when we sit too close, and to have your arm around my waist as you lean into my hair....To hear you sigh as the night lingers on, in the beauty of firey autumn winds....
All this, from a cremated bag of popcorn smoking up my kitchen...
A Therian Curse or BlessingWhen I'm near you,A Therian Curse or Blessing3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And close my eyes,
I can feel my claws,
My phantom tail weighing on my spine,
The twitching ears perked,
The flattened ridge above a small nose,
I can imagine everything,
And it feels so weird and amazing and startling and perfect in the same second.
She may have called me a freak, but what I am is more than that.
I am not human, she cannot call me that much for my spirit.
I am feline trapped in a human masquerade,
My slitted irises burning under frosted glass,
And as I close my eyes,
And let you trace my jaw line,
Let you pull back my hair and chuckle,
I'm stuck between two worlds…
One is telling me it is better to shrug off this human skin and be my true self.
The other is telling me that I was meant to be yours in this way,
that I am stuck between two worlds to befriend you…to be here for you and you for me….
For if I was truly feline, I would not be able to speak to you.
I would not be able to laugh at your jokes,
Or play with you the way
Please....Remind Me...Falling through their split-laced curtain,Please....Remind Me...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Their venom-gilded web,
I extend my hand towards their bitter cackling,
Trying to hold on to my existence .
They are my blood,
They are my family,
But every glance is two-faceted,
And every remark is double its original worth.
They will never accept me,
They will never understand,
And the metallic sharpness,
Creates acid from their lips,
And the stinging denial,
Gives birth to underlying hatred.
I dance between both worlds known to me,
But I'd prefer to be in only one.
I lie through my teeth daily,
I put on a show and pretend,
And I constantly remind myself I am stronger,
I will survive their sickening trials .
If I know that I am stronger,
That I can do this until I am free,
Then why do I find myself holding myself together at night,
Crying in the corner of a chilled shower tile,
Wondering why I never feel like I have a future,
Where they will accept me for what I am doing and have been doing
Hurtful RecognitionsWhat torturous hearts we have...Hurtful Recognitions3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
where we fall in "like" .....
with those who are already in "love".........
What tempting memories pass under my eyes...
knowing the truth of reality...
but refusing to recognize it....
What a troublesome world we live in....
when you give and give and never receive what your heart....
Your Feline Shadow...Go ahead and tell me,Your Feline Shadow...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your darkest deepest fear,
Whisper it, type it slow,
And never let them hear
Because you know how much I care,
You know what I really mean,
And because I care so deeply,
You're secret's safe with me.
Go ahead and tell me,
Who you really love,
Whisper it, and type it slow,
And never let them know
Because you know that I still care,
So I'll never tell you no,
I'll support your whims on hand,
And never to let go.
So go ahead and tie the string,
Draw the face of my true soul,
Tickle, laugh, and trick me, boy,
But you have to know,
That these games make it difficult,
They make it oh so hard
I care for you,
And yet you're not sure..... who you care for
And I can't let go
I'll be here,
Waiting, smiling, laughing, and playing as always seen.
I'll be here,
Hoping, trusting, caring, and saying what I mean
And you'll be there,
Swaying to and fro,
Never knowing who to love
I'm your feline shadow, boy,
How Dare The FoolSpitting hate burning my tongue,How Dare The Fool3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Clenched fists believing in ghostly strength,
Nails biting pinked crescents into my palms,
The anger stirs and tenses,
She gathers her energy from behind my eyes,
Tinting everything red and hazy….
My head tilts forward,
My eyes singe any unfaithful soul in my sight,
And I feel my teeth grind,
My voice carrying hateful, malicious words of revenge, retorting and twisting every misdirected phrase,
Clawing the air with electrifying negativity…
How dare he,
How dare he,
How DARE he say such things to my kin, my family…
Taking short, unfulfilling breaths,
I raise my gaze to search the crowd of unconcerned idiocy,
And see the crown of my treasured human…
Somewhere beneath this crimson haze,
I hear the slow chant, "Kyubbi, Kyubbi, Kyubbi….I need...him…"
His name circles my mind uneasily,
And the voice of the fool draws back my insanity,
Instantly I have left, and she takes over again….
This anger overcomes me, my skin shaking and hurting,
Her frustration is so
Did He Just Say....The words drifted in the air,Did He Just Say....3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like silver sugar lacing my smile,
I feel the skin around my eyes and neck warm and tint with red,
I cast down my eyes and smile,
There they are,
His fingers in my hair again,
Tapping and playing,
But all I can hear are those words
Dancing through my head like perfect hallucinations,
But he said them .he did
."We could be" ..
Lost in the StaticShadowed figure and prickled brick,Lost in the Static3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sheening metal and shocking screams,
Chipping paint and whispered pain,
Barbed lightning choking me
Distractions, distractions .
Clawed hands gripping denim,
An urge to wander to just walk .away
Shaking my head .tangled hair .
Shadowed figure .I'm the shadowed figure
You'll never notice me
Disintegrating in the static
Falling apart with no aide .
A heartless smile
A painted star
A lost dream
Shadowed figure .that's me
You'll never know,
Because I'll just walk away
From what I don't want to see .
Don't want to hear
Don't want .to fall apart .
I would rather get lost in the static
Hide, cover my ears, comforted by nothing .no one
I'm just a wanderer
Why why .why?
You, Just YouYou ..you make me think of,You, Just You3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Soothing lavender-colored cloth,
Twinkling indigo, midnight skies,
The first taste of autumn in a warmed coffee cup,
Hazel scented steam twisting everywhere
Fiery eyes of gold and dreams of silver hair,
A glinting smile, a smirk .
The softest touch,
And inked vines coiled across softer skin,
Sleeping lilies and koi fish across bronze tinted plates,
And the comforting hand, the reassuring gesture,
For fear of metallic insanity .
Peeking from behind silver scales,
Towering above like sharpened swords,
Smiling to myself,
I watch your careful eye,
The weight of your shoulder against mine,
That determined smirk, again,
And a new look of awe.
Have I brought that smile to your lips, my friend?
Am I the one that brought that beautiful treasure forth?
I follow, step around, and raise my eyes,
Looking away, I feel your steady hand on my back, once more .
Something tugs at my spirit,
And a shiver on my porcelain skin,
Please tell me I'm the on
This Is MeI am not sure of much anymore,This Is Me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As I sit here under a softened light,
And muffled tunes of music drift into the air like smoke,
I simply sigh and ponder over everything….
What is it when you cannot be free…
When you are trapped forever, eternity…
Tied up and caged in,
Masquerading in a human skin…
If I swim long enough,
Within the depths of feline thoughts,
A bitter hatred and anger,
Boil resentment for those against my kind…
Are we not all living our own stories to tell,
Can we not all be free?
It is only nature for there to be control….
For someone to stand up and crown their own brow…
I suppose to say we are all equal would anger so many…
Are we not all living our own stories to tell,
HelplessInked circles across my wrists,Helpless3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Feathered shivers chill my skin,
Every touch like static,
like a jellyfish sting.
I can't help it
Can't help but smile.
Drifting MemoriesPulling covers over chilled shoulders,Drifting Memories3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Closing my eyes to the setting sun,
I feel my lips pinch in a small smile,
As I remember everything about you that makes my days special.
Every moment spent, every text sent,
I smile, knowing that you are mine,
And I sleep into dreams of holding your hand,
And kisses in courtyards,
Darkened rooms and bleachers,
Special memories take my hand,
And guide my heart to the reasons why I need you.
As long as I can dance the dance of both worlds,
Tread that fine line and remember my lies,
You'll be mine, and I'll be yours.
Your Own SunflowerLike a sunflower caught in awe of the sun,Your Own Sunflower3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Turning blonde petals whichever way he dances,
Draping her body in the wind of ages,
And decorating her skin with the dew of secret dawns
Waiting and hoping one day he'll see,
How much is gathered in the whispered songs of weeds,
How much she trusts that the firm ground she has grown from,
Will stab her heart the moment truth is found
How far she stretches and yearns to touch his golden heart,
Waiting and hoping one day he'll see,
What love from a sunflower means.
A Lone TherianThe more I search for her, the more I feel her.A Lone Therian3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This feline purring under my skin,
Her tail coiling like one of my stray curls
Her eyes become mine,
Slanted and gold,
And I place my hands paws
Into the overgrown grass and leaves.
Stretching my fingers,
I grip the earth,
And enjoy this her
If only I had another who understood this connection to instinct to animal
Someone who knew it more, and would care for me as only a therian knew how
Laying back in the grass, I sit in the sun,
I let it paint my skin with tan stripes and smokey wind
Yes, If only I had another
Who would play as only a therian knew how
Lazily, I watch a dragonfly flit across this emerald sea,
Leaves clapping create the sounds of breaking waves .
What I wouldn't give to have someone to pounce .
Yes .If only .
Being therian alone is not much fun at all .
Armageddon.Yes, I still want you.Armageddon.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But do I still need you?
I need you like fire thirsts for water,
I need you like a cactus craves the sun.
I need you like a bird needs its wings clipped,
I need you as penance for all I have done.
Yet I still want you,
When your eyes are purgatory itself.
There is no passion in that fire,
But I want that simple burning hatred.
I need you like a child needs to plunge its hand into fire,
And yet you still glint and catch my eye and I want you.
I want you and need you,
Like I want and need the world to end.
You are my armageddon,
And your name is Jennifer.
Humble Mediocrity.I see the truth in your web of lies,Humble Mediocrity.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's hard to see when you use your eyes.
Problem is, I'm a liar too.
I knew exactly where to look for you.
You're living one of your lies,
As you watch through the eyes,
Of humble mediocrity.
I'm here because someone has heard your plea.
You look at me and you scream for help,
Whilst saying nothing at all and not wanting to tell.
But that's not why I came,
I'm here because of what I became.
I came because I know what you can do,
Because I was once someone just like you.
I was once like you, living a lie.
Which is why I'm here - to silence your cry.
I came because you are a danger to me,
As you watch through your humble mediocrity.
Takes one to know one and I like my privacy,
So please forgive me because I am sorry.
As I look into your dead eyes,
With the potential to see through my lies.
I killed you for you saw my grand life as it really is
- Humble Mediocrity.
Denial.I know I'm in denial,Denial.3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Saying I don't love her.
But I still say it all the while,
Because I have been hurt.
I know I should stop this,
I know I should just face it.
But I can't face up to this,
I can only run away from it.
I know that I still love her,
I would take her back in a heartbeat,
But as I can't have her,
I lie to myself, looking down at my feet.
I know that I still love her,
But Denial is my only friend.
It.How do you tell someone they've lost it?It.2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
That talent that they pride themselves on,
Or maybe you have to tell them they haven't got it.
That one thing they think they should focus on.
My friend wanted to be an actor for so long,
But how are you meant to say, "You can't act."?
My friend's talent for poetry is seemingly gone,
But how can I tell my good friend that?
It's not that they didn't once have the talent of course,
Or maybe they didn't, and were doomed from the first.
How can you tell someone that they just haven't got it?
And where did it go, once it had been lost?
Feline FreedomSometimes, I just want to shrug off this skin,Feline Freedom3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And step out as my spirit's form.
To be able to unzip this body like a suffocating winter coat.
Sometimes, I just dream of what it would feel like,
What it must be like to be my feline-half
Stifled inside this clumsy, lumbering form.
Watching another place her paws gracefully in place,
Her tail held coyly above her,
I envy her freedom.
Sometimes, I just want to be able to actually be this other part of me
I feel pity that she must wait,
And control her urges, her instinct, her anger
I feel how much she yearns to explore, and be released
But we both know we are feeling the same
What I wouldn't give, to set us both free
Our Poor JesterOur poor Jester bit off more than she could chew,Our Poor Jester3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I suppose it was inevitable, being the human in the crew.
It happens to all of us, and we all must start anew,
But still, our poor poor Jester, you have us, your crew.
Now I know you might not want a Reaper's comforts,
And well, even despite my best efforts.
The touch of death is hardly the greatest of comforts,
Even though an Angel's pity is one of the sweetest of desserts.
Callous hands and callous ways, coupled with a callous tongue,
I cannot help but feel I'm to blame, at least if only for some.
Please know, none of it was intended, I never tried to depress you,
Guys, it looks like our poor Jester has bit off more than she can chew.
Don't worry though Riddle, we have people to take care of you,
The perfect person, an Angel for comfort, and of course Sarah too.
Our poor poor Jester has bitten off more than she can chew...
But as long as we have breath in our lungs, we will look after you.
Bitter SweetSo ends a tragedy years in the makingBitter Sweet3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
So many smiles I wasted time faking
Everything now is a bitter sweet end
So is this how we move on my friend
Gotta say I just don't know how you do it
How you amass all the strength to get through it
Aim to commit and alone here I sit and
I'm scared to death, that I'll gladly admit
One for the money
Two for the show
Three to get ready
Four to go
Five and I wonder
Dead or alive
Six and seven
I'm in heaven~
Therian ThoughtsI can feel her,Therian Thoughts3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tensed up and ready to strike,
It's almost like a rubber band,
That's been stretched too thin.
Her golden eyes waiting for the band to snap,
And then, she'll pounce.
I can feel her when I'm angry,
When I'm annoyed and stressed,
She purrs and reminds me,
Of what she would do if she were let out.
Strike, Claw, Snarl, Growl, attack.
But then she also compels me, this beautiful cat.
She is truly beautiful,
She is the best and worst part of me all together.
When I am angered to the cliff's dangerous edge,
I can feel her stretching her lean muscles,
Preparing to take over,
To unleash her feral feline behavior.
Sometimes she wins but other times, I catch my own attention,
And remind her I am strong.
That I can do this
Only Half LupineThe silenced moon blinks from above,Only Half Lupine3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Watching me howl under my fur,
My tail dragging in the dirt,
Covering itself with dust and debris.
They'll never know what it's like,
To feel the cold stare of blood,
To know you are not one,
But only half lupine
A stretched whine escapes my teeth,
And the heads of those who claim love, turn,
I cannot possibly be fully accepted as one of them,
All for something out of my control .
Outside the pack, I watch and linger,
They accept me, but they do not,
And I am silently separated
I would protect them!
I would love them!
I would fight for them, lead them!
But it is not my path to do so
I will not be a pity case for their pack
My paws softly graze the worn paths of night,
I gaze through the thickened trees,
This darkened forest, a maze of my life,
I will never find my way
I am not fully one, or the other,
And for this reason,
I howl silently to myself as to not be heard,
For even if they sympathize, they will never kno
Juliet's Curse,My Own...Music used to be my aideJuliet's Curse,My Own...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Now it only makes it worse...
A star-crossed lover by trade,
This longing heart a curse
How is it possible to feel this much pain
To go to sleep crying his name,
Someone please, I'm begging you,
Tear out my heart, stitch up the skin.
It's like a venomous hole burning through my lungs,
A boiling thrum through my veins,
Hot tears cool my skin, and taint my tired lips,
I'm begging you, tell me the cure
Where is the cure that Juliet swallowed?
What is the potion that let her sleep?
And did she feel like me .
I'm begging someone, anyone,
To tell me how how to breathe and sleep again,
Because even though I've tried, and tried
The infection is still devouring my soul,
And forbidding me to let go .