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I'm afraid. . . I might drop the pen. . . . . . .I'm afraid. . . I might drop the pen. . . . . . .1 year ago in Emotional More Like This
. . . . . They're at it again.
"My mind. . . . It's playing with me again.
The voices. . . . they just wont stop. . . . . . .
&& they're. . . . driving me crazy."
I feel pathetic, weak. . . . . stupid.
I just want them to stop!
Please,
I'm begging you!
Those painful memories. . . . . . that voice. . . . . please!
GO AWAY!
"Please go away please go away please go away please go away. . . . . . "
I'm scared, It won't shut up!
&& I'm about to lose it. . . . . . . .
"Pathetic"
"SHUT UP!"
"Weak"
"GO AWAY!"
"Stupid"
"PLEASE. . . . !"
"You piss me off"
"LEAVE ME ALONE!"
"You're not good enough, just end it. . ."
"AAAAAAAAHHHHH
The BeginningThe BeginningThe Beginning6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The feeling of hopelessness so deep,
I can barely, gasp, for air
The suffocating feeling of my defeat
I try to show all the feelings that aren't there,
Seeing the white light vanish,
As if I am falling, into a deep ,abyss,
There is no escaping your own mind
And I have, accepted this,
The flow of blood that my soul needs,
The color, red ,so sweet,
The thoughts that are in my head,
For my life, I will never complete,
The yearning for death,
Gnaws, at the pit ,of my heart,
But I give it one more night,
And this, is what, I got ,
the light then grew brighter,
I shrug, shyly ,away,
But you reached, out your hand,
A MurderA Murder1 year ago in Short Stories More Like This
She waited at the bar, glass in hand. The shadow of it covered her lips as she raised it up to take a long drink of the amber colored liquid it contained. It burned down her throat in a way that would have been unpleasant to most, but she relished in it.
She set the glass back down before brushing her hair, dark like ink, over her shoulder. A flash of skin became visible as she did so and the shade of it was the kind you would have expected from a corpse. She tapped her fingers on the bar, just waiting.
The chair next to her was pulled out to allow a middle aged man to sit down next to her. "Waiting for someone, baby?" he asked. All he re
Anya Wikipedia BioAnya Wikipedia Bio6 months ago in Profiles More Like This
Annalisa Maravikovch (Born June 6th, 1986) is a Russian-American Model. She is known for her signature works with Playboy, Venus Swimwear and Maxim. Donovan is also a Professional wrestler and Valet, known by her ring name Anya. She is signed to World Wrestling Entertainment (WWE), appearing on the RAW brand, and where she competes in the development territory, NXT Wrestling.
Anya began her modeling career in the summer of 2006. After posing for many catalogues, she was contacted by John Laurianitus in 2008. Anya debuted in Florida Championship Wrestling in 2009, where she wrestled, and acted as a Valet. During her time in FCW, Anya worked o
Please be The OneI'm sitting here re-reading over yourPlease be The One2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
text messages, and guess what
that smile just keeps coming back.
All these songs I play wont change my mood
what can i do i guess i will be lost
without you.
You came into my life not knowing whats
gonna happen next...
You came into my life and took all
my bad now am in recovery thanks to your
beloved heart.
When I hear your voice you don't know how
much my checks hurt...
You called me baby earlier and i cant help but
cringe to that word ;)
You say your coming soon for me,
i will hope and pray you will, i hope to wrap
my arms around you soon....
It's that time of the year where its cold
so come
Violette wikipedia bioViolette wikipedia bio7 months ago in Profiles More Like This
Victoria Annalisa Nicholson (born September 22nd, 1979) is a British-American Tattoo Artist, and former Model. She is also a semi-retired Professional Wrestler, best known for her tenure with the World Wrestling Federation, later known as World Wrestling Entertainment, under the ring name(s) Violette, Baby Ink, and Tattoo Baby.
After beginning her career as a Glamour model, Nicholson began working on the Independent Circuit, before signing with the World Wrestling Federation (WWF), which was later renamed World Wrestling Entertainment (WWE). Early in her career, Violette appeared as one of the GodFather's "Hoes", which involved a storyline
Natalie wikipedia bioNatalie wikipedia bio1 year ago in Profiles More Like This
Natalie Ariadne Nikolaou (born February 22nd, 1983) Is a Greek Singer, Model, and Occasional Actress, simply known as Natalie. She is also a professional wrestler,best known for her time with World Wrestling Entertainment (WWE) competing on it's RAW, ECW, and Smackdown Brands.
She got her start for wrestling in 2004, before joining WWE. Her first appearance for WWE Television was apart of the 2007 RAW Diva Search. She is a former Divas Champion, having held the Championship for five months in 2011. She has worked for other promotions, most notibly in Ring of Honor. She is three time Playboy Covergirl, and appeared on Maxim. She models for o
how i dominated your tvSHINE 5 PPV 11/17/12how i dominated your tv6 months ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
kharma lifted nikki high up then slammed her into the canvas, kharma getting the three count. after the PPV nikki treked to her car and started the long journey to NXT. nikki talked to multiple fellow indie wrestlers and listened to wrestling radio stations for the next tryout matches and all sources said 11/18/12. nikki stoped at a motel and camped there for the night.
when morning came nikki sped to the arena were she made it in the knick of time. nikki stood with 1 other girl and 7 other guys. " today we are going to be holding try outs this includess promos and match qualities " dusty rhodes eloborated. " not everyb
pills make me feel weirdWhy does it seempills make me feel weird7 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
As if this dream
Is nothing more of a nightmare
Trying to rip and tear
The only thing that I use to cope
Which is my endless hope
Hope of a better life
Hope of a beautiful wife
Hope that ill leave this world
With a blazing trail
A legacy
For all to see
In hopes that my name
May hang one day in a frame
That at least my loved ones
Will miss me once im gone
The DrinkHelplesslyThe Drink8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I listen
As she confesses
What hapened
A bottle
A glass
Sip after sip
She took her first drink
The dizzy feel
The laughter
That one glass
Brought on
And with those words
My mind
Flashes
To see her future
A drink
A drop out of high school
No diploma
Laughing in a drunken state
One more glass
A job at McDonalds
Flipping burgers by day
Wasting the money on drink at night
Another drink
Scraping through life
One dollar at a time
Earned then lost
My mind flashes back to the present
And I fling myself at her in a hug
And her started expression
Stares at my sudden tears
She blinks
Listening to what I saw
He's Gone, He's Replaced - Novel PrologueHe's Gone, He's Replaced - Novel Prologue8 months ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Prologue: He's Gone
I was wandering again. Mama always told me not to wander, especially not when it was getting dark and the weather did not look too calm. But did I listen to her? No, I did not. What teenage boy willingly listened to his mama?
A slight, almost nonexistent, falter came upon my step as I approached the edge of the field. Demon's Grassland—that is what the other boys and girls called it. Stories of mystery, disappearance, even death came of this field, this so-called "grassland" . . . only it was not grassland exactly.
There was no grass there—just tracks of thick sludge and mud and tire tracks that were wider t
Cracked Rabbits: Sprout of a Monster - HopCracked Rabbits: Sprout of a Monster - Hop10 months ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Chapter 6: Hop
--------------
You know that bisexual girl in middle school that always had a boyfriend and about three other girlfriends? That was Hop. Since Hop was never classified as either male or female, we will address Hop as a "her" for better reference. Hop was born a female with dark brown fur and with a mom and dad, but at the age of five, her dad disappeared. There were countless rumors on exactly what happened to Hop's father, but she was told by her mom that her dad had commit suicide. The real question is "Why would he commit suicide?" Hop never found out. She went to school as that wacky girl who would never shut up. She got
Cracked Rabbits: Sprout of a Monster - MidnightCracked Rabbits: Sprout of a Monster - Midnight10 months ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Chapter 5: Midnight
-------------------
Midnight grew up as the oldest of three. Her mother had all three of her children with different males. Midnight was always busy. She had almost no time to herself because she was taking care of her baby sister, helping her other sister with her homework, cleaning the house, and running errands for her mom and dad. Midnight was sometimes driven to the greatest depression any of us may have ever experienced. She never had any real friends because she was too busy with her family responsibilities. It was meeting Crimson that let her know god had some positive plans for her. As it is mentioned in the pre
Cracked Rabbits: Sprout of a Monster - LingCracked Rabbits: Sprout of a Monster - Ling10 months ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Chapter 3: Ling
---------------
Born as the youngest of three, Ling grew up never having any real responsibilities. Ling went two years without knowing she had a big brother. Ling's two older siblings were Neve and Bronze. She was unexpected child. Her birth came faster and easier than others. Ling's child hood was utterly lonely. She wasn't given the education Neve had. All Ling had was her older sister, who spent most of her childhood with her mother and brother. Ling eventually got into her first few years of school. It didn't take long for Ling to get into boys. She was in her second year of school when she would constantly come with bo
Cracked Rabbits: Sprout of a Monster - BronzeCracked Rabbits: Sprout of a Monster - Bronze10 months ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Chapter 2: Bronze
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Even at birth, Bronze never learned to stay out of trouble. He shared the same father as Ling and Neve, but never truly knew his mother. His mom gave birth to him and tried her best to keep herself and him away from his dad. For seven years, his mom evaded his dad. He eventually met up with his dad at age 7 and came home with him. His mother never worried for the disappearance of her only known child. At age 10, Bronze was presented his first sister. Her name was Neve. Neve, of course, came from another female, but she was impregnated by Bronze's father. Bronze spent time with his new baby sister for 3 wh
Which Cracked Rabbit Are You?Are you ready to see which Cracked Rabbit you relate to the most? There are over 10 character results you can possibly get so chose wisely! :3 Good luck!Which Cracked Rabbit Are You?11 months ago in Profiles More Like This
1) What is your favorite thing to wear?
A) Anything dark, like blood red, black or midnight blue.
B) The usual. Nothing to fancy or flashy.
C) Whatever is right in front of me when I go into my closet.
D) Something nice and cute.
E) I REEEEeeeeaaally don't care.
F) If it's lighter than grey, I don't want it.
G) Something flashy and pretty, so everyone knows when I'm in the room.
H) Anything loose or baggy. I don't wanna feel suffocated!
I) Something to express my heritage.
J) Some
RejectionRejectionRejection1 year ago in Profiles More Like This
Frank cried every night since. It was almost laughable from an outsider's point of view. But the pain and hurt of rejection from the one person you need to live, it more intense then most people will ever know, unless they've been through it. The constant pain filling your chest as you sit there beaming at old photos and crying into pillows at stupid hours in the morning, knowing you were never loved. Frank knew. Frank knew it too well and he hated it. Gerard was beautiful and amazing and he was the only thing Frank needed in his life, but because oh a simple misunderstanding, Frank would never know the truth.
He laid there, gazin
Mountain of LifeLife is like climbingMountain of Life1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
a mountain.
There are ups and
downs.
There are cracks and
cliffs.
You can slip and fall.
You can die instantly.
There are wrong turns
that can end
in bad situations.
There are acheivements and
goals.
There is heaven and
hell.
Life,
is a mountain.
CemetaryThey lay still.Cemetary1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Unmoving.
Deceased.
Gone.
Dead.
They are in peace.
Quiet nothingness.
I wonder what they feel.
Are they in peace?
Are they in agony?
Are they sad?
Do they cry?
Can they laugh?
Sorrow in the family
of those in
that
cemetary.
BloodRUNNING THICK DOWN MY FINGERSBlood1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
PUDDLES ON THE FLOOR
YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVE ME
BUT WHY DID YOU LEAVE?
I HELD YOU SO CLOSELY
CLOSE ENOUGH TO TASTE
BUT FAR ENOUGH TO HIDE THE PAIN OF WHICH YOU CAUSE ME
I CANT REMEMBER YOUR FACE
BUT I REMEMBER THE BLOOD
YOU STABBED ME IN MY BACK HARD ENOUGH TO KILL ME
BUT I KEPT ON LOVING YOU AT NIGHT
EVEN THOUGH YOU CALLED ANOTHER
WITH A BREATH OF PASSION
BLOOD RUNS BUT I DO NOT BELIEVE
THAT YOU COULD SEE HOW MUCH MY BLOOD RAN
ONLY FOR YOU
I CRIED
YOU DIDN'T SEE ME
I CRIED ON THE INSIDE
PAIN
AGONY
PAIN
TEARS
HURT
PAIN OH
THIS PAIN
OH THIS BURNING
DESIRE
MINE
YOU
NEED
I CANT
BREAT
RealizationI was watchingRealization1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
videos of my childhood
today.
It made me realize
how excited my parents were to
have me.
To raise me,
see the smile on
their faces.
They Love Me.
I imagine how they
felt when I told them,
"I just want someone to love me"
I feel terrible,
after the way I judged
them,
Insulted their parenting,
and hurt them in ways beyond
belief.
I thought at the time
they were hurting me,
but I was hurting them.
The way I suddenly
changed with no
warning into this
"Freak"
No parent would ever
want that.
They would want their child
to be normal and loved.
I wouldnt want my child like this.
Nobody would.
I realize
mortal life chapter 2mortal life chapter 21 year ago in Settings More Like This
Chapter 2:
Sam
God I hated this. I just hated being this beast in human form. I came to this hell hole to get an education. If I'd known vampires were living here I would've come here with stakes and silver crosses.
I missed my friends and family so much, and I knew I could never see them again. I wanted to die (well I was already dead), I wanted to simply fade away... but the thing is, I didn't know how to. You would've thought that is would be easy. That I could simply go out into the sun and turn into dust. Or I could just put a stake through my heart. But it wasn't that simple. I had tried everything that they spoke of in
The End of Me.I hear music up above.The End of Me.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It calls to me; the suicide I seek,
But the acts of which my body shall never speak.
Fly away. Gone forever is yesterday,
And in the fleeting hours found
Is the darkness of today.
Salt and stones; brittle bones.
Within my heart, I am alone.
Within space, without a trace,
Alone and broken, I can say
That with my death, my heart will play
The song of my last breath.
Sta.sh
