Broken MirrorI am not,Broken Mirror6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What you see,
Although you may indeed,
Choose not to believe
I am a fabrication,
Built to make you smile,
So you don't know that I lie
I am not,
As strong as I seem,
And it is not laughter,
That in my eyes gleams
I am a tale of woe,
And one of sorrow,
So weak that I can't lead,
I can only follow
I am not as whole,
On the inside as out,
I am full of misery,
And so full of doubt
I am nothing more than illusion,
A master of it, I am,
I hope that you don't notice,
I don't expect you to understand
Pieces, big ones and small,
Force me to my knees,
Again and again,
Force me to crawl
Lurk underneath my surface,
Making me feel incomplete,
Making me feel worthless
The silver sheen which covers,
Hides my secrets within,
Keeps from you my shame,
Keeps from you my sin
But, if you look closer,
And come nearer,
You will find I am nothing more,
Than a stained and broken mirror
jlp June 1, 2009
BrokenI don't know why they call it a broken heart, because it's not, really.Broken5 years ago in Emotional More Like This
It's more like your heart is trying to break apart, but it never really succeeds.
It's like it's literally trying to pull itself into two, and struggling to function correctly in the process.
And oh, it hurts.
If you've never had a broken heart you won't understand, you probably think it's an emotional thing, like it's all in the mind.
But it's so much more than that.
It's a physical ache in your chest, a painful whine that just doesn't quit.
It's a kind of pressure, compacting your whole chest area and making everything inside hurt.
Then it rises, it forces its way up into your throat, forming an aching lump that pushes tears from your eyes.
And then you're crying because it's just impossible not to do so.
And even when you're all cried out, it's still there, this indescribable ache that feels like no other ache you've ever
Wolf DreamShe dances alone within the forest’s embraceWolf Dream2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Every movement a swirl of agile feline grace
Here in this moonlit glade where she is safe.
Her companions come on soft silent paws
Accepting her completely despite nature’s laws
Ignoring her scars, darkness and human flaws.
She runs on fleet foot quietly behind the pack
All senses fully alert from her eyesight’s lack
Flying like the wind she never once glances back.
They may find her someday out in this desolate place
This essence of wildness wearing a semi-human face
But never would she willingly rejoin the human race.
personificationi am a whisper no one else can hear.personification3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
yes, your butt looks huge,
yes, he will leave you
if you tell him how you really feel,
and no, you are never enough.
just because only you can hear me,
it doesn't mean i am any less real.
i will tint everything you see
like a pair of cheap sunglasses
with one lens opaque
so that you cannot see anything clearly
and your perception is skewed.
i am in the pilot's seat
and you will be mine
the second you let your guard down.
your heartstrings will connect my piano strings
as i hammer them down and knot with pain;
i will break you to your knees
and hit them to the pavement
like a child in the summer.
i will beat you into the earth
and offer you a hand,
but use it only to strike you
across the face.
i will always leave a handprint.
i am insecurity,
are all my
MeI am bursting with emotionsMe4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
that are not mine to keep.
Same story, different faces.
You keep telling me to make my move;
I told you, I told you,
I never taught me the chess game.
The horses feel nice pressed to me palm;
the checkered board looks good;
but I don't know the rules.
"Come out to play" the world rings.
Play? Play you say?
Come watch me play
within me dream painted walls.
Take me to the woods;
I'll be quiet, I won't need to talk
to converse with the fireflies.
Drop me in the ocean;
I'll keep real still, I won't need to swim
to reach the shore; I won't need to die
to float over the sharks and the fishnets.
In the city let me loose,
screams will scratch me from within.
Me fidgeting legs will run miles
among the concrete boxes,
through piles of undead, unheard, unloved.
I am bursting with emotions
that are not mine to keep.
One of me appears by the window:
"I can only hold a ciggy in my hands, babe;
don't give me your heart."
She is trying to be ironic I suppose.
I am sitting h
A Thousand Apple SeedsA thousand glorious daysA Thousand Apple Seeds3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
begin and end at my fingertips.
I picture the love that lived between the lines
and sigh upon the realization of its demise.
You made me forget my nothingness
with dreams of beating hearts.
I could have remained a faint shadow
were I only ever-present in your eyes.
A thousand tear drops I buried
in an orchard tonight;
never to be shed,
never to be found.
(My lashes have been digging up worms;
I shall turn them back up to the moon now.)
© 2012 melekelif
Nightmare FreezyIt was like this:Nightmare Freezy2 years ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
I woke up from stomach scraping nightmares. I hardly have nightmares anymore, so this was both unexpected and exhausting. I reached over to check the time on my cell-phone, but it wasn’t on the nightstand. I found it in the corner, on the floor. There was a mark on the wall; the cell-phone was clearly thrown at it. I hardly act out my dreams anymore, so this was both unexpected and annoying.
I opened the window, breathed in. I held the cold air in my lungs. I hurried out the room and let out filthy, hot nightmares through the crack before I shut the door behind me.
In the bathroom I stood in front of the mirror for a long time, a few seconds long. A thousand thoughts passed through my eyes, you can do that through silence. I was annoyed, tired and filthy. The dirt, the blood, the screams had rubbed into my hands, in between my teeth, behind my ears. I took a long, cold bath; fifteen minutes long. I didn’t get out until I managed to control the shivers, I d
HauntingHaunting3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am the last ghastly ghost,
glib tongued and glimmering,
in the space beneath the stairs.
My name glows upon your tongue,
gleeful and dreadful
in the dreary dregs of memory -
a keening cacophony
of deadly delights.
You called me here,
made me legion -the languid
languish of laughter,
your new language of the air
and all unearthly promises
pondering their place
in this shallow grave.
Bury me in beauty,
in the bounty of wanton
wonder and I will waste
eternity, a willing wraith to wait
upon your pleasure.
Faery Tale - Chapter TwoFaery Tale - Chapter Two4 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Once upon a time in a faraway kingdom there was a grumpy and very confused lord, a clueless girl who dreamed of a better life and one mysterious idiot. Oh and some plot to overthrow the ancient King of Fire Kingdom, but really it's about the idiot trying to retrieve a 'sacred relic'.
Genre: Romance, adventure, comedy, fantasy, mystery
Chapter Two: A Grumpy Lord
If a visitor from another country were to ask, regardless of their station, they would receive the same answer. Every Fire Kingdom citizen learned this answer when they were young, also regardless of their station.
'Fire Kingdom is divided in three main districts; the Outside Town, the Main Town and the Upper Platform.
Outside Town is a dark filthy place. It is a land lost in time where narrow alleyways shelter beggars, thieves and criminals. It is a 'no man's land'. In order to separate that human jungle from civilization there is a thick
Re-BirthdayRe-Birthday4 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
mezame tatoki boku wa hitori
kuroku nuri tsubusareta heya
nani mo miezu nani mo kikoezu
hitori furueru yami no naka
tenjou ni wa ooki na ana
yoku mireba soko ni wa kyodai na zenmai
sono saki kara totsujo hibiku
etai no shirenu bukimi na koe
"tsumibukaki shounen yo
omae wa kono saki eien ni
kono heya kara wa derarenu" to itta
shunkan omoi dashita subete no kioku
mizukara ga kasane ta tsumi no kazukazu wo
koko ni iru riyuu to ketsumatsu ni kizuita
mou ano koro ni wa odorenai no dato
kizukeba ryouude ni wa merareta akai tejou
sore wa kitto dare ka no nagashita chi no iro
ryouu no ashikubi ni wa aoi iro no kusari
sore wa kitto dare ka no namida no iro
"Ru ri ra ru ri ra" kikoe tekita uta wa
dare ga utau komoriuta darou ka...
dore hodo no toki ga nagareta darou
ugokanu zenmai ni tazuneta
doko kara tomonaku kikoete kuru
utagoe dake ga boku wo iyasu
aru hi boku wa kizuitanda
sono uta no shinjitsu no imi wo
soshita boku wa komoriuta ni
atarashii kotoba wo tsuketashita
zenmai no sukima
Americaxreader - My brother the Hero"Hey, ____, wanna play superheroes?" you heard your older brother, Alfred, call out. You looked up from your colouring book and smiled. "Okay, Alfie!" you said, springing to your feet. Alfred came into the living room with an American flag tied around his neck. Following his lead, you grabbed your own special blanket that you carried with you everywhere, making a cape similar to Alfreds. He jumped onto the couch, making a fist and punching the air. "Prepare yourselves, evil villains, for the power of the mighty Captain Alfred and his sidekick, girl-wonder ____!"Americaxreader - My brother the Hero3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
You laughed as your adoptive father, Arthur, came into the room. "____, Alfred, what are you two doing?" he asked. Alfred suddenly pointed. "Look out, it's the eyebrows monster!" he shouted. Arthur took no hesitation in catching on as you began to run away. Grinning he said in a growling voice "Yes, it's me, the eyebrows monster, and I'm going to tickle you and your little sidekick too!" He moved forward and grabbed you around
Fatal Move"Worthless."Fatal Move4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"You're not good enough."
"You'll never be."
Those were the words told to me, a sickening fairytale.
"Part of the plan."
"Part of the game."
The lies you fed me, flawlessly portrayed, exposed through facade.
What do you take me for?
A fool, a pawn?
Don't make me laugh, as you had.
I know this game in a way you will never expect
You just won't know until I've won.
Harsh words, spawn through hatred over simple thoughts
Your true self coming through in a moment of darkness, destruction.
I have you now, right where I want you and where you want me
Question remains, whom can sort through the masks and lies?
"You're so stupid."
"It makes me laugh."
"Just how dense are you?"
Lingering thoughts spilled to me.
"I love him."
"You don't understand."
"I need out."
Oh darling, your lips never cease to move.
You fire your bullets
Quickly and daftly, slicing like a knife.
I try to ignore the penetrations of my heart
As I catch your bullets, waiting to use them.
The way you portra
Your Surprising FacadeEveryone has their secrets,Your Surprising Facade3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Of course, this I know.
But I didn't quite realize
How deeply these secrets could go.
What a difference there is
Once I uncovered the real you.
I thought you were amiable and kind,
But the truth really makes me blue.
I had not idea that you thought like that
And were so wrong in the head.
I had no idea you could've said the things
That you supposedly did.
What happened to the smile
Always written upon your face?
What happened to your generosity
And your kindness and grace?
I don't know what's happened
To you and how you are.
I suppose I don't know you;
The fake you is too far.
Now I can't even glance at you
With the same picture in my mind.
I'm sorry, but it's not my fault.
The real you I did find.
You must be a great actor
If you can pull off two different people.
Everything is so flawless
Like the top of a church steeple.
So we're done with each other,
Or, at least, I'm done with you.
Don't even try to act
Like you don't have a clue.
Goodbye "you", then.
Dreams, Golden and BlueSo let's pretend the sky is really blue,Dreams, Golden and Blue3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And we could touch the bottom of the sea.
To race upon the rings of Saturn,
And leap into the golden rays of sun,
At last the world could see my tranquil face
And know that there is something more to me
Than this disheveled, crazy dream.
My Thoughts Are A StormThe scars you bear I wish I couldMy Thoughts Are A Storm4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Die for, only the best do I want
For you, to be happy, the fault is
Mine own which tore us apart
Some days I was screaming inside
Yet I found complete happiness
With you, when you told me my
Apology was not accepted, it was
Like hearing news of an intimate
Suicide, your hate filled mind
Killed me inside, my thoughts
Are a storm, raging memories
Of every fight, every flaw fighting
For attention, yet the savage longing
To fall once more into you comforting
Arms, but who would I be if I
Allowed myself to go back?
PeoplePay attention and listenPeople3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To the people near you.
Because often, people
Leave subliminal clues.
Even if they never
Meant to tell anyone,
Their actions could
Show you things going on.
People aren't perfect,
And people have pain.
So, try to be sunshine,
And never the rain.
DollDo you honestly think, that you will change my thinking?Doll3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Do you honestly believe you can keep belittling me
And treat me like your slave like you always did?
Let's face it you only talked to me when you wanted something
You can deny it as much as you want to, the fact is you still
After a while you told me yourself right
Did you think that I will just sit here take it forever
Like a DOLL.
That girl you knew is history.
I will admit I wanted to give you the world
That is no longer the case
But this fake respect, the fake mask
Is now more easy to spot than ever before
I know am showing you the real me.
It's Your turn.
Suicide DreamI hate this suicide dream,Suicide Dream3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I go to sleep and then I awake,
To the pitch black and then I scream.
I'm drowning in the depths of a lake,
And it feels so real to me and I die.
I despise this suicide dream,
I watch it with waking eyes,
In the glare of daylight by a stream.
I'm suffocating and no one can hear my cries,
And it's stopping me from even breathing.
I loathe this suicide dream,
I hear only silence in my brain,
But then again nothing is as it may seem.
I'm dying as I slash through a vein,
And all the blood does bubble then drain.
Malec:: The KissI spotted him in the crowd, his hair pulled back out of his face, wearing fighting gear. His eyes were lined with sparkling black eyeliner, but except this his face was void of any makeup. I knew it was him before I even took all of his features into account.Malec:: The Kiss4 years ago in Settings More Like This
"There's Magnus!" I exclaimed, pushing my way towards him, leaving Simon and Isabelle alone in the crowd. As I left, I heard the two of them whispering behind me, but I did not care.
"Magnus!" I hollered, nearing the warlock, who turned, a look of almost surprise on his face that was calmed very quickly.
"Alexander." He spoke.
"It's Alec." I corrected him, and did not let him respond before I continued speaking. "I was wondering; perhaps you would want to be my partner for this Alliance rune?" I asked him. He looked slightly taken aback.
"But, Alexanbut Alec what about your pare"
"I don't care." I interrupted. "And my parents shouldn't care. I need a partner, and I'm asking you."
Magnus was silent for a moment. Th
it was just a jokeHello, my name is Anonymousit was just a joke4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
and I am a bully.
I have always been the girl who gets what she wants, especially in high school. I had them all under my finger. Students, staff and the PTA. Then this new girl came to my school, my territory. Her name was Anna.
There was this boy I liked. He was that guy, and he was the one thing I still wanted. I'd had guys but that guy was the one Then Anna came along. I knew, when I saw them together exactly what she was thinking. She liked that guy too.
She was getting in my way. Anna was sweet and charming and such a cutie, that guy was bound to fall for her. I was jealous. I decided to play a joke on her. So one day, while I was sitting next to her in class, I took a pen and wrote SLUT on Anna's arm, where very one could see it. She was shocked, I could see it on her face. She almost cried.
I knew that guy didn't like girls who had been around. I knew that Anna wouldn't get in my way again. But I was wrong. He helped comforted Anna and helped her was
The Pain WithinLet go of your hate,The Pain Within3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your revenge can wait.
Whoever did you wrong,
Can never know the hurt,
That made you strong.
You know it's a part,
Of you're aching heart.
Whoever broke your smile,
Can never understand the pain,
That turned you vile.
Don't give up on love,
Though you'll feel rough.
Whoever killed your hope,
Can never believe the longing,
That more you cope.
INTO MY THOUGHTSINTO MY THOUGHTSINTO MY THOUGHTS4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
These voices, a thousand different voices in my head,
An agonizing attempt to get me to do what they've said,
They are the scars on what once was a brilliant mind,
But time and trauma have long since left the genius behind,
They are incessant verbalizations that taunt me,
As well as the unrelenting mistakes that haunt me,
I am mentally beaten and broken down,
Forever shackled to the sins I must lug around,
Trust me for it is the truth when I say,
You don't want to see through my mind's eye in any way,
It's a sickness, a life sucking disease you'll see,
The continuous circle of viciousness that surrounds me,
If only there was a forgivable way out,
I would take it with no hesitation or doubt,
I am lucky if you will, in some respects,
For my mind slips into the void each day allowing me to forget,
This is my response to you, who choose to criticize,
Step into my world, dive into my thoughts and perhaps you'll realize,
We all have different ways, some by choice others by c