You, an Almost-Crush.You are in my dreams
both day and night.
You're a permenant fixture
in my unconscious life.
I miss you without doing so
and I "like-like" you without the pain
yet pain still thrives in me, painlessly
breaking my heart
but the pieces are still together.
I know who you are,
and I know my limits,
and I'm familiar with the art
of fixing my broken heart.
I missed you then,
and I miss you now,
and you're always on my mind
but my heart isn't broken
and I'm not in pain
and I don't really love you
nor have I ever really loved you.
Now I must thank you
for being my first
I still love you. "Hey Rob." I said, placing a dozen red roses up against his gravestone as I sat down. "God, this is so weird... Listen, I'm sorry for not coming by since the funeral, it's just that things have come up, and who am I kidding? You're dead, and I still can't lie to you. It's just been so hard without you." Tears started making their way down my cheeks. "I, I can't do this." I started crying harder, and I couldn't stop. I then felt arms slip over my shoulders and hug my neck gently, and a slight weight on my back. I didn't bother checking to see who it was, because I already knew. Rob. His scent engulfed my nostrils, calming me down aI still love you.2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
This Town chapter 14 About 4 years have passed since Mike and I first started dating. Let me get you up to speed- Mike and I are still working at the same old office, but we both got promotions. Mike is the company's graphic designer for advertisements, and I got bumped up to human resources, and we're both getting a little bit more money. Speaking of money, Rob is still around, living in the same house, making the same amount of money as before, but now, he has a girlfriend. They met about two and a half years ago. She's got light brown, almost dirty blond hair a little bit past her armpits, and has brown eyes. Her name is Jaclyn, aThis Town chapter 142 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
This Town chapter 15, The End. Mike and I walked into the airport in Hawaii, backpacks resting on our shoulders and our hands entangled together. Hawaiian girls dropped leis around our heads, along with everyone else who had just gotten off our flight.This Town chapter 15, The End.2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"We're finally here." Mike said, half in awe as he glanced around the small airport.
"Yeah it's beautiful " I said, trailing off. I put my arm up against Mike's, hands still together, feeling the need to be closer to him. He looked over to me and smiled, his wonderful smile, and said,
"I love you." He always utters those three little words with such sweetness.
"I love you, too." I said back. We
This Town chapter 10 "So, I guess we're dating, huh?" I whispered. "Yeah, I guess so." Mike said, in a whisper as well, with a small smile. My once happy face was replaced with a worried look, "But nobody knows that I'm gay- no one except for you " I said in a soft voice. "Don't you worry. I promise, as your boyfriend, that not a single soul will know of us until we are both ready to let them know." Mike then lightly kissed my lips. He has the greatest way of reassuring me- by making my heart flutter like a butterfly's wings and making my legs threaten to buckle under. "I love you, so much." I said quietly to him, pressingThis Town chapter 103 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
This Town chapter 12 On Monday, after putting in my index card, the day went by a lot better than I had expected. I had gotten a hug from every girl in the office, well, except for Pam. A lot of the guys in the office had congratulated me on my coming out, even Pam's boyfriend Jim. I felt like only Pam had disliked me coming out. I always saw her whispering to other people and looking over at me, and I swear to God I heard my name a couple times.This Town chapter 122 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Hey, Chester?" Jim said, coming up to my desk.
"Yeah?" I responded.
"Um, I've been wondering, who's your boyfriend?"
"Mike." I said, both of us turning to look at him. Jim smiled.
"Congrats. I wish you tw
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Mike Shinoda was sitting alone, again, scribbling in his sketch book. Everyday, his lunch break in the office was spent sitting alone, scribbling after eating. He was this half-Japanese, Olive-skinned, Brown-eyed, Red-haired, Earring-wearing 20-something year-old, who you'd think would be one of those nice, popular guys, but popular wasn't his "thing". I knew exactly why he wasn't popular among our staff- It's because he's gay. I felt bad for him... So I sat across from him today. He looked up for a second, and then went back to scribbling. I looked down at his paper, and was immediately drawn into a fantasy world, filled with c
My Pain. Walking down the path in my black suit and tie, I noticed something to my right. I looked, and chuckled.My Pain.2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"So how come you're not all dressed up?" I asked one of my best friends, Chester.
"I am dressed up! You see any holes in these pants?" Chester replied. He and I let out a small laugh. Chester continued, "I'm glad you made it... listen, there's one more thing you have to do for me."
"You can't keep me from getting drunk!" I said with little hesitation. Chester smiled, then put on a serious face as he said:
"You have to forgive yourself for everything that went down the other day."
"God, you're... you're so annoying." Chester let o
This Town chapter 6 There's nothing like waking up in a park in the fall with a hoodie on, one blanket and no pillow on a Saturday morning. As I started my walk home, aching with pain, I decided to check my phone for no real reason. When it turned on, I noticed I had only 1 message, a voicemail from Rob's phone. "Hey Ches, it's Mike. Rob and I were wondering if tomorrow- Saturday- would, uh, work for all three of us to hang out. Call Rob's phone. See ya." I immediately hung up and called Rob's cell phone.This Town chapter 63 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Hey it's Chester."
"Oh, let me put you on speaker, Mike's here- hold on." I heard him fidgeting and fooling around
This Town chapter 5 Monday morning. Work. Fuck. Mike wasn't in all morning, so instead of paying attention to the work I'm supposed to be doing, I focused more on Mike. So what if I'm slacking off? I'm gonna go all 'Office Space' right now. I think that Mike and I have become very good friends, in fact, I barley talk to my old friends in the office anymore. He's an amazing drawer, and he has the cutest smile Yeah, that's right- I'm gay. No one knows it but me. I've been gay since the divorce was final SHE made me gay I'll explain later. Still, I spent my whole lunch hour thinking about Mike. I came back to a surprise. I saw Mike, who sitsThis Town chapter 53 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
This Town chapter 2 "Hey Mike." I said as he walked by the next morning. "Hey." He said shyly. 'I wish we could talk a little bit more ' I thought to myself. So that's exactly what happened. As I was walking over to Mike's desk, Pam, a 'popular' girl in our office, came from behind a corner and grabbed my shoulder.This Town chapter 23 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Hey- do you think Jim's gonna break up with me?" She asked me in her stupid California-valley-girl accent.
"I don't know."
"Cuz it seems like it, you know?"
"Look, I said 'I don't know, okay?" I said angrily.
"Well, what's up your pooper?"
"I wanna talk to Mike."
"Oh, faggot-boy over there?"
"Hey- shut up. He's a nice guy- oh
This Town chapter 7 40 minutes. That's how long it took to get to our local mall- the JV mall. We spent most of the car ride talking and laughing, and when I say we, I mostly mean Mike and I. Mike was right- Rob is a pretty quiet guy. We had found a parking space after driving around for about 5 minutes. After being inside the mall for what felt like 10 minutes, I thought I saw my old friend Sean walk into a tattoo place, called Club Tattoo. I had unconsciously started walking towards the store.This Town chapter 73 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Chester? Where are you going?" Rob said grabbing my shoulder.
"I- I I thought I saw my old friend Sean walk into this place." I
This Town chapter 11 "Don't worry Rob, you'll be fine." Mike said, attempting to comfort the taller man. "I'm fine." He said, trying to hide the nervous fear in his voice, but had failed to. We climbed up the stairs in the building to the little hallway that led to the office. I could feel a vibe shooting off of Rob, which was a mix of fear, nervousness, and definite shyness. We walked past Pam's half of the semi-circle reception table, and stopped at Piper's side. She appeared to be writing down a note for Mr. Aggo, when Mike greeted her. She looked up at him with her light blue eyes and returned a "Hey Mike." "This is Rob." Mike said plainly, pointing to RThis Town chapter 113 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Secrets Unsaid - Part II"It's you, Rob. I love you." I quickly twisted my upper body and looked at Chester, confused. I wanted to say "No it's not." But, nothing came out. The expression on Chester's face told me that he might have regretted saying those last six words, but his face also told me that he didn't regret anything that he's said to me. I turned back and faced the water, wanting to say something- anything- to make the silence between us go away, but I couldn't find the words.Secrets Unsaid - Part II2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"You You really " I said. "You really, feel like that?" I didn't know what I was saying. My mind was still trying to process the fact that Chester said all those things
Secrets Unsaid - Part I The lights of the city reflect off of the water, and the moon glares at me in all of its silence. Nobody's in the park at midnight, making the moon's silence all the more powerful. I listen to the waves bump into each other about 50 feet below me as I lean over the 2 foot thick concrete barrier that divides the ground I stand on and the water below. Here I am, wondering if I'm making the right decision by doing this. Should I? Should I really jump? Yeah, I should. I mean, there is a chance of it ending in immediate death, right? I looked up at the moon for an answer, but I got nothing. Nobody'll find me for days, though. Hell, maybe evenSecrets Unsaid - Part I2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Waiting for the end.I stared at the white walls. They stared back, blankly. I've been in here for about an hour now, changing positions every couple of minutes. All I've been doing is thinking about my past, and trying to get it out of my mind.Waiting for the end.2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I can't though.
You're unforgettable. I've come to realize that I need you, and I can't live without you. You're the only one who can keep me sane. But you don't want me anymore. I'm just another toy to be played with, then thrown away.
Thrown away into a mental institution.
You thought I knew what it was like to move on, didn't you? What made you think that? What I've been through? This and what I we