My QueenFor reasons unknownMy Queen3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have fallen for you
There is something great,
Something extraordinarily different
That draws my thoughts to you
And I may never know
Exactly what that is
But what I do know is
I've always believed
That my heart belongs
Wherever my mind goes
When it begins to wander
And that can only be you
For you are queen
Of the kingdom of my heart
DreamThere he stands,Dream3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The man simply known as Dream.
He's different now, fallen from grace,
And risen back up to it.
He was a joyous man, but he was beaten,
Torn and scarred, starved and tormented.
How did he get past it all they question me.
I know the answer, only because I asked him myself.
This is what he said to me,
"You can only be broken so much,
Eventually they stop trying,
Then you take every scar,
Every fracture and shattered piece,
And turn them into strengths and advantages.
Since they can't hurt you anymore,
You have nothing left to fear."
He turned his tortured soul into flawlessness.
That is who he is now, a happy wounded soul,
A perfect little broken Dream.
La nuit de l'angeNow is your chanceLa nuit de l'ange3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Take the stage and shine
Show me your best
Drown me in your light, your glory
Prove to the world
That you possess the greatness
That I have seen all along
Make them see you
Because tonight belongs to you
It's the night of the Angel
Distant Memories Of A Love Done Gone .They say it's difficult to love someoneDistant Memories Of A Love Done Gone .3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When you can't even love yourself.
But I loved you nonetheless,
The problem was I didn't know when to stop.
You kept sending me mixed signs
Making me dizzy until I
Much less right
When our world started crumbling down and
T e a r i n g at the seams
It was so easy for you to let it fall apart.
But I, knowing no other kind of love,
desperately clung to the remaining bits,
Trying to put them back together.
Yet the pieces changed too much, too quickly,
They kept growing and
growing a p a r t,
until your world was only yours
and mine a hollow echo of its past.
Looking back now, it seems like it
All happened in a different life,
With some other you, some other me,
And the lips kissing my own were just a dream.
Love LetterYou are re-creating the word love for meLove Letter3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have never felt anything in my heart so deep
I'm so in love that I'll never be the same
I just want to be with you every single day
You have touched my heart in many different ways
And now from my heart you'll never go away
I feel so warm every time you're here,
I feel so cold whenever you disappear
Though it feels like you are already mine
Who knows if that's real, who know if it's a lie?
I just think about you every single time
Every time I write, and when I close my eyes
But I'm just waiting for that special day
For when you finally say, yes
Do They Even Know? (Beautiful World Part II)After years and yearsDo They Even Know? (Beautiful World Part II)3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of sitting in sorrow,
Watching the Beautiful World
Outside my window,
Feeling pain of separation
The great divide between me and them
It felt as though my heart were made of wood
And termites were slowly eating away,
But they would never finish
There was always more to consume.
I just wanted to die,
To escape torment
But for some cruel reason,
I was never given that option.
Now I just lie on the floor
The carapace of a person
Existing, but not really alive
All days blur together
I'm not even sure, exactly
How long I've been here
Scrunched up in a ball
With all my hope lost.
I just feel nothing,
I've become anesthetized.
And now all I do is wonder,
Does the world outside,
Even know I am here?
I'll Be HereIt only takes a thought of youI'll Be Here3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To lift me up
When I have fallen
Even as I write, you are what I desire
I wish to look you in the eyes
To tell you once again
How much you mean to me
And now, more than ever
I just want to hold you
Tell you not to be discouraged
Everything will work out
The ArsonistIt's burning, slowly and painfullyThe Arsonist3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Her soul that is
Set ablaze by him,
Her manipulative boyfriend
He knows just what to say
To lure her right back
Into his arms
Where he can crush her
But for now
He bides his time
While getting a sick pleasure
From watching her burn
In the inferno he ignited
Stolen My HeartYou've stolen my heart and it's not fair.Stolen My Heart3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You know if I could, I'd be there,
But the distance only brings me pain.
I almost feel like I'm going insane.
I don't know what I should do.
I feel like I'd be better without you.
To love someone that I could hold.
This computer screen's a little cold.
I love you more than I thought I could,
But the question is whether I should.
So many guys that want my heart,
But you had it from the very start.
And now that I know that we might be.
I could never give up that possibility.
I pretend it's not so obviously true.
I'd do anything to be with you.
I'd wait a year. I'd wait forever.
I just want us to be together.
I'm Still HereI am screaming again andI'm Still Here3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Throwing my fists into my mattress.
I am laying here trying so hard
To be something more than this.
My sheets are crumpled from
Being horribly wide awake
And restlessly unconscious,
But they still smell like you.
And it is achingly cruel.
I don't believe I will die,
But I do believe in reckless behavior
Because as hard as I try I
Will never be good enough for you.
My hands don't fit in yours
But I keep trying to force them to.
And I know you will let me
Because I am weak and I
Will undress when you ask me to,
But I really hope you don't.
I am screaming again and
It shakes my bones.
I scream until my voice breaks
And there is nothing left.
I am hollow.
I am empty.
I am too far gone.
Earth and MoonEbbing and floodingEarth and Moon3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Are the tides of my emotion
Readjusting to a perfect balance
Thanks to your power
How lucky I am you are mine
Majestic in the midnight sky
Over the very waters you prevail
Our bond is no reverie
Never shall we be truly apart
once againI have forgotten my nameonce again4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have forgotten my past
This beautiful woman was married to me?
I do not know
I have all forgotten
my job, my family, my wife
the shock has destroyed my recollections
she is crying
she is sad
I did not want
she remains with me
Despite this dramatic situation
this woman loves me
and me, I want to love her
It's OverI like to see you happy,It's Over3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Only want to see you smile..
Just take a break from this never-ending
Search for love for awhile..
And all the answers that you are seeking
Will be troublesome for you to find
It might mean that everything is blurred in your eyes.
So if it's over, then let it end
Don't search for me,
For another begin,
Lets not be hurt again
When it's over, let it go
Because I'm not worth it,
Gotta let me go.
There is no other way to put this
No other words for me to say
You'll just keep losing your mind,
You'll just keep losing all your faith.
Maybe now you won't believe it
But there's not much time to spare
I know the things that you're feeling, I see
That you are just scared
So if it's over, then itis really over
The past is gone you have to understand
I'm not worth your time, your blood, your tears,
Why do you still care?
When it's over, let it go
Because I'm not worth it,
Gotta let me go.
Just sit down
Just One MoreIt's always just a little bit,Just One More3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Just a little bit more
But deep down you know the score
Because there'll always be
Just one more.
Tell yourself whatever you want
Whatever you wanna hear
But deep down you'll always fear
That dangerous idea of
Just one more.
Lie to everyone 'til they see
'Til they see you for you
But deep down they'll never see through
'Cause there's that precious
Just one more.
Discarded.You cry for your sorrows and you bleed for your dreams,Discarded.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just always remember, this world is not what it seems.
You can be the best of friends and then disappear,
They'll just discard you, I know it's hard to hear.
But this has happened enough to me,
It's all everyone's been doing recently.
So here I lie, discarded, fearing to stand up,
Because what waits just isn't worth getting up.
Thrown away and lying in a puddle of mud and blood,
All the other times I got up, and wiped off the mud.
But this time, as I lie here, broken and bloody,
I don't want to get up, I want to be a dead body.
I know getting up is inevitable, because I will never give in,
But I really just want to give up and say that "I'm done in."
One Last SongThey didn't see the signs.One Last Song3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
They should've read between the lines.
Her lifestyle they scorned,
and for this reason, they mourned...
She suffered in silence.
Her sorrow, a cadence.
With her life they had gambled,
but with her world in shambles,
they had gone all-in and lost.
They should've known the cost...
In front of the grave, a boy thought of the girl he'd forsaken.
He wished this was a nightmare from which he'd awaken.
He was her high-school sweetheart,
but they had drifted apart.
Once he had left her alone,
the suicidal thoughts found a home...
On her guitar, sad notes she played,
whilst overhead, a noose had swayed.
From quivering lips, she sang one last time.
Shutting out a million thoughts, she managed a rhyme...
"Mother, father, I have a confession...
This song shall never be completed,
for I battled with depression,
and depression succeeded..."
PerfectionPerfection.Perfection3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
She lodges her fingers down her throat.
Clasping onto the wall as she recklessly chokes.
She reinserts her fingers back in forcibly.
Deliriously trying to make her body thinner.
She swoons and slumps to the floor nauseously
As she attempts to regurgitate her dinner.
Her throat aches as she screeches out coarsely,
With her hand covering the image in the mirror.
Her head now rests on the on the rim of the toilet seat.
She wants to eat but she just has not got in her.
She desperately begins to scream out inaudibly.
Her mouth now tastes of something pulpy and bitter.
She examines the red color of the fluid cautiously.
Realizing that she has become too focused on her figure.
Her friend then knocks on the door thoughtfully.
She shouts out, "I'm okay I don't need a baby sitter."
Her friend continues to knock and waits outside awkwardly
Replying, "You promised me, you said that you are not a quitter"
The tap begins to run as she disguises her cough distortedly.
She knows her friend
ReleasedI was chained tightly upReleased3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In my own bitter thoughts
Of endless pain and misery
Dreams filled with death
You released me
In your arms I fall
And forget myself again
Bitter thoughts disappear
When you gently hold me
My heart will be
Yours to carry for
As it'll wither away
By the day you are gone
I never felt this real
You made me whole forevermore
Family TreeWhat's a family tree when your the only one sufferingFamily Tree4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
the empty cries of never being loved and growing roots
to be planted within a seed of love.
I've only grown weeds destroying the seed of my heart
down in a hole letting the sickness of the soil spoil my
thoughts wanting to pull and rip away the ugly of this tree.
A tumbled weed of depression a black rose of a hue
smearing ashes upon my family picking away at the
dead leaves of my soul.
Rain pours upon my bark seeping down my stem
soaking up all the sadness growing me into wildflowers
for my family to ignore.
UnknownI'd listen to radio signalsUnknown3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But all I'd hear is chlorine bleached static
That leaves a the bitter taste of Advil in my thoughts
Drugged up in an anaesthetic haze of morphine induced comatose
I'd clench my teeth to stop the florescent vowels
From escaping my insomniac lips
I've chewed them shut and pasted book spines on my ribcage
In an attempt to be something organic and interesting
Because the plain Jane exterior I've laced between my iris's
Is becoming a contradiction of what little sanity I possess
I'm left with hope.I know it happened once, but it left me scarredI'm left with hope.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I won't give up, but I'm still afraid
But I will be brave, I just hope it won't happen again
Because I'm not sure I'll be able to handle the pain
It feels like all I can do is hope, for the best days.
Lately...Lately I've been thinking, if the stepsLately...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That I've taken were meaningful at all
I'm not sure if my conscience helps me anymore
Maybe faith is guiding me through this storm
My heart feels like it's being torn
By the one who I've cared about the most
Release MeI've tried for so long nowRelease Me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To build myself back up
What is it all for though?
When I can’t seem to get over
The things I've done in the past…
Why can I not let this go?
Must I torture myself so?
Just let it end, that’s all I want
How long must I continue like this
Before I have made up for my past?
Just let today be the day
The day I let it all go
And accept with grace
All that has been given to me
All that I feel I don’t deserve
Let today be the day I embrace it….
Please………just let it happen….