nobody loves mei wana scream to the rooftops,
tear at my head.
rip out my heart,
i wana be dead.
i cant trust anybody.
no promises are kept.
disapointment engulfs me,
and all i feel is depth,
in the hollowness inside me.
my core is all alone.
i draw away from people.
yet i dont want to be home.
no one will read this.
no one cares anyway.
cause noboddy loves me.
and i feel the love leaving me faster everyday.
sitting in classsitting in class,sitting in class3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
bored as hell.
girls all bitching
i think a kid just fell.
teacher talking at noone.
he better relize fast.
cheerleaders fixing their makeup.
football players getting ass.
and i just watch them.
sitting in class.
obsessioni crave your attention.obsession3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i yearn for your light.
i wish to be with you,
in the day, in the night.
i wish to touch you,
your skin, your hair.
one second i see you,
the next, no ones there.
the dark corners you hide in.
in the reassesses of my mind.
and though i try to find you.
i know you wont be mine.
for you are my obsession.
my passion and my craze.
you cause all my problems,
but if i find you will they go away?
Will you spend Christmas with me?For every snowflake upon the ground.Will you spend Christmas with me?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Another tear is cried over love.
for every silence in a conversation,
another heart sits lonely in a dusty alcove.
For every toy in a letter to Santa,
there is a wish for the one we want.
For every person who thinks they are nothing.
There is another person who thinks they are brilliant.
If you don't Think you can take it any longer.
And you love someone but they don't know.
Then send them this poem, and maybe just maybe,
you two wont be spending this Christmas alone.
Vandalizing for love .APH. PURCAN.He had been mulling the idea over and over in his head for days, weeks even. Now he was sure he had just the right idea. Now the only thing left was to find the balls to do it. Yeah about that. He'd never admit how scared he was of what the answer would be.Vandalizing for love .APH. PURCAN.3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Who am I kidding, I'm the awesome Gilbert! He will say yes!" Gilbert announced to no one at all, but it was what he need to say to himself to gain back his egotistical confidence. And with new found certainty he set to his task. He swept the spray paint bottle in his hand in a extravagant arch, grinning as he violated school property. The glittering red paint was stark against the white of the school cafeteria walls, and he felt a thrill of pleasure at his genius.
"He cant turn me down, not after this." he said it with such certainty, if someone had been in the room with him they would have believed it themselves. As if knowing his thoughts, a beautiful girl waltzed through the front doors of the closed and, or at least Gil had tho
I don't love himI don't know how to tell him i don't love him,I don't love him2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i don't know how to rebuke him gently,
i look in his eyes and i see devotion,
to a promise i never made.
he speaks of me as if i am a goddess,
i cant help but feel pity stir in my heart,
he looks so hopeful when my eyes rest on him,
i still make no promises,
but i send him a simple yes.
He dances with me and i can see his joy,
and i am happy he's happy but i don't want to hurt this boy.
so i keep myself remote,
i hope he reads the signs,
he tries to give me his heart,
but i keep a close hold on mine.
and he spins me in circles,
and i am having so much fun,
and his hands rest on my waist,
and i feel my heart jump,
but i know its not attraction,
its my body's response to a touch,
and i gently spin away from him,
i want to keep us both safe.
and he keeps holding my hand,
i occupy them so he cant,
and he calls me beautiful,
i am silent,
i don't want him to take a chance
and he says its the best night of his life,
as we part at my door,
Blood is flowing.run the blade along your wrists.Blood is flowing.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
tense it up,
you feel the bliss.
blood is flowing
and you know,
at this moment,
your in control.
no ones yelling,
telling you your wrong.
when blood is flowing,
you control it all.
your always a follower,
but not right now.
you control your life,
no game, no fowl.
to stop the bleeding,
or to let it flow.
and if i die,
will they care to know?
CuttingIn class I sit with my notebook openCutting5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I can't help but hear the kids next to me
They're so sad their clothes are crying
I frown as I remember a time when I was-
When I had so much self pity.
The kids next to me moan as they complain,
"No one gets me-noone cares-life is meaningless"
It's a circle that they go in
And I don't have to ask why they feel this way.
Their mom ignores them
Or maybe their Dad left them.
They were the one's the other kids picked on
And all they ever wanted was to feel needed.
I know all of this because that was me.
That was me and that will always be me.
The kids pull up their sleeves and compare battle wounds
"Dude, you did that last night? Wow, it's deep."
I want to scream at them. I want to yell
How can someone cut themselves for attention?!
How could they show it off like it was some sort of fashion statement?
Did they know how much I hate the scars
The scars that riddle my thighs,
The scar that will never leave my forearm?
They didn't know.
I roll my eyes