I'm sorry, I couldn't take it no moreShe's just lying there,
Wishing she was dead,
The cold whispers,
In her head,
You know no one loves you,
That no one cares,
That you'd be better off,
Not even there,
Take out the knife,
Aim at your wrist,
A deep line,
You get the gist,
As the blood flows in a red stream,
This isn't a nightmare it's just a dream,
Write your letter,
While you can,
"Lots of love From Anne",
Crumpled body lay on the floor,
I'm sorry I couldn't take it no more.
Stereotype MeYou try to make me fit into your stupid thoughtsStereotype Me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
as one thing
I am only a thing to you
something you can fit into a category
I am a cheerleader
that must mean I'm stupid or popular
Just because I wear black clothes
and eyeliner I am goth
And every day I read books
Which makes me automatically a nerd
I don't have tons of friends to hang out with
so now I am a loner
To you I am an object
that you can place
where you see fit
I am much more than that
in every way
I am a cheerleader
and so much more than that
I am me
so just try
to stereotype me
DepressionDepression2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I was younger I was always happy,
And very rarely sad,
But about a year ago,
Everything went from good to bad.
I now grow distant each day,
Every evening I lie in my bed,
Tear streaked cheeks,
Wishing I was dead.
It's no different at school,
I have become a freak,
I am bullied everyday,
Everything has turned bleak.
I asked for help,
And I recieved the same phrase,
It's cause your a teenager,
You'll get over it one of these days.
It got worse a few months later,
I took a breath and cut my arm,
Watched the blood drip,
Yes, I self harm.
I cry every night,
Till I eventually fall asleep,
But then morning comes,
And again I weep.
Standing on the EdgeI'm standing on the edge looking down,Standing on the Edge2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hate myself for doing this,
But I cannot fight no more,
I just wish to find my bliss.
I think that I will endure this,
Standing on the edge looking back at my past,
I wonder who would miss me,
And how long I would last.
I think my friends hate me,
They no longer call or text,
I wish they know how much I'll miss them,
It shouldn't be all vexed.
This is too sudden,
And I'm the one to blame,
Perhaps I should rethink this,
This is no longer a game.
Why were they so mean,
Couldn't we all just get along?
It would just be a lot easier,
If people would just admit their wrong.
But now that I'm up here,
It doesn't seem too bad,
I wonder who wouldn't miss me,
And I wonder who would be sad.
I lean forward and begin to fall,
With my life before my eyes,
I now know I'll be at peace,
And no longer have to hear their lies.
Social AnxietyI'm phobic of people,Social Anxiety2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The world's scary to me;
I never know what's going on,
So just please leave me be.
I can't meet your eyes,
I'm far too meek.
It's only a whisper
When I try to speak.
I don't want to seem rude,
I'm really polite,
But I'm too afraid
And my throat's now too tight.
I wish I could do better
And socialize with you.
But how to do it?
I don't have a clue.
FearToo scared to moveFear3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
From the seat that I'm in
Too scared to speak,
I'm practically frozen.
Too scared to sleep
'Cause I know I'll soon wake
Too scared to stay up
I might make a mistake
Too scared to cry
Because people might see
And then they will wonder
What's the matter with me?
They'll ask me what's wrong
Prepared to give aid
But I cannot tell them
'Cause I'm too afraid.
My Own Self-DestructionThere are things about meMy Own Self-Destruction3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I just can't control
The shame makes me want
To crawl in a hole
I rely on you more
Than you'll ever know
It'd be better for you
If I were to go
I know I'm a burden
Don't bother denying
But I can't seem to shake this
No matter how hard I'm trying
The guilt causes pain
And so does the fear
The voices inside
Are all I can hear
All of these things
Make it so hard to function
I am the cause
Of my own self-destruction.
ParanoiaWait…Paranoia2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Did they just look at me?
What did they see?
They’re talking now,
But I can’t hear what.
I’m getting that bad feeling
Deep in my gut…
They’re judging me,
I know I’m right!
I must be aware,
Keep everyone in my sight.
Who’s talking about me?
I know someone is,
But who can it be?
I can’t do anything,
For I know they’d scrutinize;
I can’t shop or eat,
So I’ll hide from their eyes.
Opposite Her SmileShe's lost.Opposite Her Smile2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
An ocean of fantasy raging with waves of twisted dreams before her eyes.
As the charcoal moon darkens the day,
The girl continues to walk through the glass shards.
Where is the line between this torment and the light?
To her left, nothing is right, and to her right, nothing is left.
What lays on the horizon that she chases after?
With a heart that's fragmented,
Her tears force it to beat with the rhythm of a clock.
Perhaps the melancholy of it all will subdue her?
Falling off a shoulder is a tattered ball gown,
Decorated in withered rose petals.
Echoes from her past make her twitch with insanity.
Trying to fix her mistakes with more,
Her inconsistent smile becomes plastic.
A self destructing happiness.
The mirror that whispers lies to her,
She is disintegrating into an onyx colored dust,
Her voice will not return any longer.
So What Do I Do?If only I could read your mindSo What Do I Do?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If only I could interpret you emotions
Understand what you're going through
See through your eyes
Hear through your ears
Feel through your heart
If only I knew how to help you
But I can't
And I don't
And it's killing me
So what do I do?
KarmaIts now or never.Karma2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
There's no going back.
I have to do this now.
But do I even have the guts?
No, I should think not.
It may be too late anyhow.
But even so...
Is there any hope?
Will I be forgiven or will I be sent away?
I will always be an outcast.
I can't help who I am.
I can't help what I look like.
So what can I help?
It's gotten to the point where I don't know what to do with myself anymore.
It's like nobody understands what I'm going through.
(This is what I think every day.)
Its as if I'm trapped in a timewarp.
A timewarp where everything passes by forever.
There is no end.
Only a middle.
Where did my sanity go?
Did I have any to start with?
Will I ever be sane again?
Or will I forever be forced to strain my body and emotions to keep afloat in the midist?
It's not like I want to be here.
Yet I told myself that I would rather be anywhere than back there.
I got what I deserved.
Ain't karma a bitch?
For What It's Worth...Her name is nothing incredible,For What It's Worth...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's only ever been a long letter
So she strives to be the best, sometimes better.
Her pain is something kept silent,
And even though no one cares to make it loud
She hides it
Only bending to the pressure of the crowd.
She lives in a world of solitude,
Only evaded by the necessary company
Which is always
Then it's something that's expressed as phony.
She's trapped in some kind of space,
where nothing's really worth her time
And everyday it's
Her presence is what they consider a crime.
No one seems to notice her strife,
Always DefeatedI just run; faster than the wind. I can't stay. I won't.Always Defeated2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
All of this hurts
To remain standing, when all I am, is torn down.
Can you hear my screams?
Or just the silence
As I take a step into the unknown, will you hold my hand? Will you ever believe in me?
I keep trying but, all those words spoken, make me want to cry; to give up and to let go of all I know.
And you know the pain never stops. It's like a never ending empty void, which is sucking me in and I wonder when this will be done.
Will I be the one who won?
Or will I be the loser everyone knows me to be?
ReleasedI was chained tightly upReleased2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In my own bitter thoughts
Of endless pain and misery
Dreams filled with death
You released me
In your arms I fall
And forget myself again
Bitter thoughts disappear
When you gently hold me
My heart will be
Yours to carry for
As it'll wither away
By the day you are gone
I never felt this real
You made me whole forevermore
TogetherTogetherTogether2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So many memories of us swirl in the depths of my mind
I cannot pick just one that is my favorite
But I do believe the best thing about you and me is the start of our forever
Paths crossed and I almost passed you by
But something held me back and made me think before I acted
A little nagging feeling in the back in my mind made me pause and look around
My heart whispered and for once I listened
For once I took a chance
A running leap that I would normally never take
I risked it all and then I fall head first into the chasm
Of love that was unavoidable
It was dark and unfamiliar at first and I wasn't so sure I wanted to continue being in the dark
But your light kept me going even when I wanted to turn back
As we grew closer I was certain
You were the one I was waiting for all my life
Our love was tested and the distance was hard
But I knew soon enough you would be back in my arms
Now time has made us grow stronger and I know the challenges that lie ahead
But with you I know I can
Love Me.She falls asleep most every nightLove Me.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
To the sound of her parents pointless fight
And clinging tightly to her tear soaked pillow
She goes to school most every day
Wishing she could run away
From all those who torture her
For not being ‘cool’
Her mother, she just plain ignores her
Her father’s never even there
Who would notice if she were gone?
Who would even care?
She just wants to make it quick
To take this razor as her friend
And feel its tender loving kiss
Pressed against her paper skin
She just wants to make it stop
The feeling lonely, sad and hated
She holds the blade up to eye level
I don’t know how long she waited
She presses hard against her skin
And lines of ink bleed from the pen
The blade, it rests there on her knee
On her arm she wrote
It Is (Depression)It is a shroud of black velvet.It Is (Depression)2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It is the violent ocean in the dead of night.
It is the monster in the shadows; the Vashta Nerada.
It is the final crash of symbols in Carmina Burana.
It is impossible to lift.
it is impossible to breathe.
It is impossible to see.
It is the only thing that can be heard.
It is why the stars disappear at night.
It is why every light drifts by without stopping.
It is why the gnawing starts and never ceases.
It is why nothing else matters in the end.
It is my disease.
It is my disability.
It is my misfortune.
It is my death sentence.
HelloYou don't know who I amHello2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'd like to
In the middle of the street,
Watching cars go by
Hearing them honk their
Noisy horns at us,
So that I'll have at least
And been loved
Once before I
The Truth (And The Lie)I'm br(OK)en, really.The Truth (And The Lie)1 year ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
AloneSilence... The breath from which her emotions flow...Alone2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Adorned with depression that appears to her so fluently...
A voice... Slow and soothing, whispers hateful abuse...
Smooth strokes... Ornament her limbs with gore from all of these things...
Silence... She feels so alone, a misfit child in a world of her own...
A voice... Her piers who mock unknown of her pain they cause aloft of every other word they say...
A love... Of which she doesn't understand...
She believes he feels nothing when he holds her hand...
No one hears her cry... But if you listen so closely you may come upon... A silent voice whispering to herself of her hate, her love, and her depression...
This is her obsession. For she knows not anything else.
You Want Me To Go AwayMy heart is racingYou Want Me To Go Away2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Too many things I'm facing
And you can't listen
Because your not there
You won't try
To even understand
How am I supposed be your friend?
When you can't let me in
And you turn it all around
When you leave me out
I'm not the lies scattered in the sky
I'm not lying, it hurts to cry
About the things you let me go through
The pain you cause at times and not knowing why
The ache inside my chest grows and shrinks
Is it because I love you
Or just cos I hurt
I need you
I don't know if you want me too
With the way you turn away
When I see your face
Smiling my way
I grin back and have a good laugh
But, the laughter never seems to fade
Yet why does it seem you want me to go away
I sit here in regret
Did you want to forget how we met?
We talked some but, then went our ways
You say it wasn't much to you
But, it meant so much to me
Can't you see what is happening now?
Do you see the blurriness in my eyes as they cry tears?
Will you want to even go away?
I'm not the lies scattered
I'm sorry, I'm not like the othersI'm sorry I'm not like other girls,I'm sorry, I'm not like the others2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm sorry I don't do excersise,
I'm sorry I don't shine like pearls,
Just please leave me alone.
I know I'm stupid and weak,
What more do you want from me?
I'm suffering here, help is what i seek,
Is it so hard to get?
I like to shut myself in my room,
To escape my fears and be happy,
The outside world is full of doom,
Why can't you accept my choice?
Now I'm very ill,
It's called depression in case you care,
It makes me sick to the gill,
Knowing that my life is gone.
People say Im looking for attention,
I'm sorry if thats what you want,
If someone says that I happen to mention,
It's no attention seeking its stating the truth.
So now I end on this final note,
I'm sorry I'm not like the others,
A tear stained letter containing what I wrote,
And now I'm set to die.
wake up, let goi used to conjure up promises from the ringing in my ears,wake up, let go2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
exchange your empty words for a sonnet.
it was less painful that way.
(your voice is only beautiful at 7am, all rusty
and torn up like a broken washing machine.
the honesty fades the minute you have coffee.)
we are only true to ourselves when we sleepwalk through wednesday mornings
with half-remembered dreams clogging our thoughts.
you dreamed of me standing on a barren field,
saying this is us, stripped bare
of the textbook truths, the pauses between
lies and heartbreak. this is us,
as we are becoming, only dead grass and
It's that wonderful day.People are confessing, some already datingIt's that wonderful day.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hearing so much “I love you”, it’s driving someone crazy
So let’s exchange hatred with love and just get along
And celebrate the day by listening to a corny song
Singles shouldn’t cry or start weeping inside
Just wait for the one, even if it takes a long time
Couples show your love, but explicitly has always been grime
Nimble kisses and a hug, anything else will be when you reside
Just remember to show care to the one who’s fair
It’s Valentine’s Day after all, and I’m sure you’re aware
That the “special someone” is waiting for you prepared
To go outside so this wonderful holiday can be shared