I'm sorry, I couldn't take it no moreShe's just lying there,
Wishing she was dead,
The cold whispers,
In her head,
You know no one loves you,
That no one cares,
That you'd be better off,
Not even there,
Take out the knife,
Aim at your wrist,
A deep line,
You get the gist,
As the blood flows in a red stream,
This isn't a nightmare it's just a dream,
Write your letter,
While you can,
"Lots of love From Anne",
Crumpled body lay on the floor,
I'm sorry I couldn't take it no more.
Stereotype MeYou try to make me fit into your stupid thoughtsStereotype Me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
as one thing
I am only a thing to you
something you can fit into a category
I am a cheerleader
that must mean I'm stupid or popular
Just because I wear black clothes
and eyeliner I am goth
And every day I read books
Which makes me automatically a nerd
I don't have tons of friends to hang out with
so now I am a loner
To you I am an object
that you can place
where you see fit
I am much more than that
in every way
I am a cheerleader
and so much more than that
I am me
so just try
to stereotype me
Standing on the EdgeI'm standing on the edge looking down,Standing on the Edge2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hate myself for doing this,
But I cannot fight no more,
I just wish to find my bliss.
I think that I will endure this,
Standing on the edge looking back at my past,
I wonder who would miss me,
And how long I would last.
I think my friends hate me,
They no longer call or text,
I wish they know how much I'll miss them,
It shouldn't be all vexed.
This is too sudden,
And I'm the one to blame,
Perhaps I should rethink this,
This is no longer a game.
Why were they so mean,
Couldn't we all just get along?
It would just be a lot easier,
If people would just admit their wrong.
But now that I'm up here,
It doesn't seem too bad,
I wonder who wouldn't miss me,
And I wonder who would be sad.
I lean forward and begin to fall,
With my life before my eyes,
I now know I'll be at peace,
And no longer have to hear their lies.
My Own Self-DestructionThere are things about meMy Own Self-Destruction3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I just can't control
The shame makes me want
To crawl in a hole
I rely on you more
Than you'll ever know
It'd be better for you
If I were to go
I know I'm a burden
Don't bother denying
But I can't seem to shake this
No matter how hard I'm trying
The guilt causes pain
And so does the fear
The voices inside
Are all I can hear
All of these things
Make it so hard to function
I am the cause
Of my own self-destruction.
DepressionDepression2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I was younger I was always happy,
And very rarely sad,
But about a year ago,
Everything went from good to bad.
I now grow distant each day,
Every evening I lie in my bed,
Tear streaked cheeks,
Wishing I was dead.
It's no different at school,
I have become a freak,
I am bullied everyday,
Everything has turned bleak.
I asked for help,
And I recieved the same phrase,
It's cause your a teenager,
You'll get over it one of these days.
It got worse a few months later,
I took a breath and cut my arm,
Watched the blood drip,
Yes, I self harm.
I cry every night,
Till I eventually fall asleep,
But then morning comes,
And again I weep.
FearToo scared to moveFear3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
From the seat that I'm in
Too scared to speak,
I'm practically frozen.
Too scared to sleep
'Cause I know I'll soon wake
Too scared to stay up
I might make a mistake
Too scared to cry
Because people might see
And then they will wonder
What's the matter with me?
They'll ask me what's wrong
Prepared to give aid
But I cannot tell them
'Cause I'm too afraid.
Thank You, My Dear FriendI don't think you realizeThank You, My Dear Friend4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Or are able to even see
Just how grateful I am for you
And how much you mean to me.
I would like to take this time
To thank you for being there
Whenever I was feeling down
And needed someone who cared.
You've given me much more
Than I deserve from you
And I would like to thank you
For everything you do.
I still don't understand
Why you care so much for me
When all I do is burden you
With my depression and anxiety.
All I really know,
Is that God must have sent you
To be my friend and love me
Since I feel my friends are few.
So please don't ever leave me,
Like others have done in the past,
I really want our friendship,
To be one that will last.
You are the most amazing person
I have ever met
And I just want you to know
That I'm forever in your debt.
And if you ever need someone
To help or comfort you,
Just be sure to remember
That I'm here for you, too.
Opposite Her SmileShe's lost.Opposite Her Smile2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
An ocean of fantasy raging with waves of twisted dreams before her eyes.
As the charcoal moon darkens the day,
The girl continues to walk through the glass shards.
Where is the line between this torment and the light?
To her left, nothing is right, and to her right, nothing is left.
What lays on the horizon that she chases after?
With a heart that's fragmented,
Her tears force it to beat with the rhythm of a clock.
Perhaps the melancholy of it all will subdue her?
Falling off a shoulder is a tattered ball gown,
Decorated in withered rose petals.
Echoes from her past make her twitch with insanity.
Trying to fix her mistakes with more,
Her inconsistent smile becomes plastic.
A self destructing happiness.
The mirror that whispers lies to her,
She is disintegrating into an onyx colored dust,
Her voice will not return any longer.
Social AnxietyI'm phobic of people,Social Anxiety2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The world's scary to me;
I never know what's going on,
So just please leave me be.
I can't meet your eyes,
I'm far too meek.
It's only a whisper
When I try to speak.
I don't want to seem rude,
I'm really polite,
But I'm too afraid
And my throat's now too tight.
I wish I could do better
And socialize with you.
But how to do it?
I don't have a clue.
ParanoiaWait…Paranoia2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Did they just look at me?
What did they see?
They’re talking now,
But I can’t hear what.
I’m getting that bad feeling
Deep in my gut…
They’re judging me,
I know I’m right!
I must be aware,
Keep everyone in my sight.
Who’s talking about me?
I know someone is,
But who can it be?
I can’t do anything,
For I know they’d scrutinize;
I can’t shop or eat,
So I’ll hide from their eyes.
I'm uglyI'm ugly7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I look in the mirror,
hate what I see.
I'm not beautiful,
I'm ugly as can be.
I hate the way my stomach looks,
I hate my face,
I hate my thighs,
I am a disgrace.
I want to cut,
My stomach until its flat.
I want to starve,
so I'm not fat.
I hate my hands,
I hate my hair,
I hate my legs,
I hate how I don't care.
Starve to death.
I will be beautiful,
even if its on my last breath.
I'm ugly, I'm ugly,
I'm worthless, I'm shit.
I look in the mirror,
I'm so ugly, I hate it.
I'm fat, I'm gross!
I'm useless, I want to die.
I stare into the mirror,
Until I want to cry.
Dig my fingers into my face,
cut my skin to the bone,
I'm so pathetic,
I should die alone.
KarmaIts now or never.Karma2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
There's no going back.
I have to do this now.
But do I even have the guts?
No, I should think not.
It may be too late anyhow.
But even so...
Is there any hope?
Will I be forgiven or will I be sent away?
I will always be an outcast.
I can't help who I am.
I can't help what I look like.
So what can I help?
It's gotten to the point where I don't know what to do with myself anymore.
It's like nobody understands what I'm going through.
(This is what I think every day.)
Its as if I'm trapped in a timewarp.
A timewarp where everything passes by forever.
There is no end.
Only a middle.
Where did my sanity go?
Did I have any to start with?
Will I ever be sane again?
Or will I forever be forced to strain my body and emotions to keep afloat in the midist?
It's not like I want to be here.
Yet I told myself that I would rather be anywhere than back there.
I got what I deserved.
Ain't karma a bitch?
So What Do I Do?If only I could read your mindSo What Do I Do?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If only I could interpret you emotions
Understand what you're going through
See through your eyes
Hear through your ears
Feel through your heart
If only I knew how to help you
But I can't
And I don't
And it's killing me
So what do I do?
This isn't a familyThis isn't a family7 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I'm sick of all the yelling
well you all stop the fight!?
Does it mean anything at all to you
that I cry myself to sleep at night?
The yelling hurts my ears,
the fists make me bruise too.
All of this fighting is killing me!
Does that mean anything to you!?
You all make me feel weak,
and you always give me the blame.
I'm so sick of being hurt like this,
being full of shame.
I'm honestly scared,
scared that the past has repeated.
All this yelling and screaming,
makes me feel defeated.
With all these tears pouring down my cheeks,
I wonder why I'm even here.
All of the screaming and picking sides
of the people I call dear.
Will you all just shut up!?
THIS IS KILLING ME!
This is house holds a mess!
Not a family...
For What It's Worth...Her name is nothing incredible,For What It's Worth...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's only ever been a long letter
So she strives to be the best, sometimes better.
Her pain is something kept silent,
And even though no one cares to make it loud
She hides it
Only bending to the pressure of the crowd.
She lives in a world of solitude,
Only evaded by the necessary company
Which is always
Then it's something that's expressed as phony.
She's trapped in some kind of space,
where nothing's really worth her time
And everyday it's
Her presence is what they consider a crime.
No one seems to notice her strife,
Always DefeatedI just run; faster than the wind. I can't stay. I won't.Always Defeated2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
All of this hurts
To remain standing, when all I am, is torn down.
Can you hear my screams?
Or just the silence
As I take a step into the unknown, will you hold my hand? Will you ever believe in me?
I keep trying but, all those words spoken, make me want to cry; to give up and to let go of all I know.
And you know the pain never stops. It's like a never ending empty void, which is sucking me in and I wonder when this will be done.
Will I be the one who won?
Or will I be the loser everyone knows me to be?
TogetherTogetherTogether2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So many memories of us swirl in the depths of my mind
I cannot pick just one that is my favorite
But I do believe the best thing about you and me is the start of our forever
Paths crossed and I almost passed you by
But something held me back and made me think before I acted
A little nagging feeling in the back in my mind made me pause and look around
My heart whispered and for once I listened
For once I took a chance
A running leap that I would normally never take
I risked it all and then I fall head first into the chasm
Of love that was unavoidable
It was dark and unfamiliar at first and I wasn't so sure I wanted to continue being in the dark
But your light kept me going even when I wanted to turn back
As we grew closer I was certain
You were the one I was waiting for all my life
Our love was tested and the distance was hard
But I knew soon enough you would be back in my arms
Now time has made us grow stronger and I know the challenges that lie ahead
But with you I know I can
HelloYou don't know who I amHello2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'd like to
In the middle of the street,
Watching cars go by
Hearing them honk their
Noisy horns at us,
So that I'll have at least
And been loved
Once before I
AloneSilence... The breath from which her emotions flow...Alone2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Adorned with depression that appears to her so fluently...
A voice... Slow and soothing, whispers hateful abuse...
Smooth strokes... Ornament her limbs with gore from all of these things...
Silence... She feels so alone, a misfit child in a world of her own...
A voice... Her piers who mock unknown of her pain they cause aloft of every other word they say...
A love... Of which she doesn't understand...
She believes he feels nothing when he holds her hand...
No one hears her cry... But if you listen so closely you may come upon... A silent voice whispering to herself of her hate, her love, and her depression...
This is her obsession. For she knows not anything else.
You Want Me To Go AwayMy heart is racingYou Want Me To Go Away2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Too many things I'm facing
And you can't listen
Because your not there
You won't try
To even understand
How am I supposed be your friend?
When you can't let me in
And you turn it all around
When you leave me out
I'm not the lies scattered in the sky
I'm not lying, it hurts to cry
About the things you let me go through
The pain you cause at times and not knowing why
The ache inside my chest grows and shrinks
Is it because I love you
Or just cos I hurt
I need you
I don't know if you want me too
With the way you turn away
When I see your face
Smiling my way
I grin back and have a good laugh
But, the laughter never seems to fade
Yet why does it seem you want me to go away
I sit here in regret
Did you want to forget how we met?
We talked some but, then went our ways
You say it wasn't much to you
But, it meant so much to me
Can't you see what is happening now?
Do you see the blurriness in my eyes as they cry tears?
Will you want to even go away?
I'm not the lies scattered
Internal StruglesHelp me. Someone.Internal Strugles2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No, go away
Run away, fast as you can
No, please stay
You are all I have left
Don't leave me now
You've been with me so long
I don't know how
I love you
Can I say that?
No! I'm sorry!
Please come back.
Don't abandon me
Like everyone else
Don't leave me alone
All by myself
I can't stand her
That girl over there
Like someone could care
That girl isn't me
But sadly she is
I stare at her
And my lips release a hiss
She is so lucky!
But she doesn't see
Instead she just complains
About the hell that is me
I see her in the mirror
As I start to cry
But she will never
So I sit here
And fight with myself
It is so sad
She really needs help
ReleasedI was chained tightly upReleased2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In my own bitter thoughts
Of endless pain and misery
Dreams filled with death
You released me
In your arms I fall
And forget myself again
Bitter thoughts disappear
When you gently hold me
My heart will be
Yours to carry for
As it'll wither away
By the day you are gone
I never felt this real
You made me whole forevermore
wake up, let goi used to conjure up promises from the ringing in my ears,wake up, let go2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
exchange your empty words for a sonnet.
it was less painful that way.
(your voice is only beautiful at 7am, all rusty
and torn up like a broken washing machine.
the honesty fades the minute you have coffee.)
we are only true to ourselves when we sleepwalk through wednesday mornings
with half-remembered dreams clogging our thoughts.
you dreamed of me standing on a barren field,
saying this is us, stripped bare
of the textbook truths, the pauses between
lies and heartbreak. this is us,
as we are becoming, only dead grass and
Hell's AngelAll I need is an angel from hell,Hell's Angel2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She's the only beauty who can control my desire,
When she breaks the ice and kisses me with fire.
I've been asleep for so long when I return to life,
The cherubim of heaven will hear my soul yell.
All I need is an angel from hell,
She'll be my fair lady who will purge my regret,
When she calms the thunder with tears she wept.
I've been lost for all time but now I have no strife,
The seraphim of heaven will ring out an immortal bell.
All I need is an angel from hell,
She can do no wrong when all I see is her honesty,
When she slays the wind in those skies of piety.
I've been alone for an eternity now she's my wife,
The children of heaven will curse us: We of minds so fell.