Always DefeatedI just run; faster than the wind. I can't stay. I won't.
All of this hurts
To remain standing, when all I am, is torn down.
Can you hear my screams?
Or just the silence
As I take a step into the unknown, will you hold my hand? Will you ever believe in me?
I keep trying but, all those words spoken, make me want to cry; to give up and to let go of all I know.
And you know the pain never stops. It's like a never ending empty void, which is sucking me in and I wonder when this will be done.
Will I be the one who won?
Or will I be the loser everyone knows me to be?
Contract 'Peace. I just want peace.' With the last sentence written, she placed the note on her empty pillow. She pulled on her black converse and turned towards the open window. 'They won't notice I'm gone until it's too late.' she thought a little mournfully before slipping into the cool summer night. The dark house loomed in front of her, each window black and empty. 'I wonder how long they'll assume I'm sleeping in?' Memories from that very morning came rushing to the front of her mind. She could almost hear her mother's angry voice yelling from outside her door. "Is she still asleep?" Her silver blue eyes began to blur with unshed tears. With a shake of her head she banished the thoughts to the back of her mind. 'No time for tears now.' And with that she started down the wooded trail that led to her end.Contract2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
She had already decided to put as much distance between herself and that house as her feet would allow before she committe
Sometimes... It Just HurtsI'm stuck in rut in my life. I can't hear the sounds around me, the happiness seizes. I wish I could do everything right but, I always fall as I catch my breath.Sometimes... It Just Hurts2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It all hurts; I'm never good enough for myself. I can't even impress myself. I'm in so deep that no-one can save me. Not even the ones who love me.
I want to runaway and never look back but, that won't get me anywhere.
Screaming in my head is those cries I want to yell because no-one truly knows my pain. I am broken I have been for so long.
There is always someone one step a head of me and as much as I try I am always behind, even behind the ones who don't try or don't care.
It's like as I entered this, I was left alone and left to dry from this pouring rain. I'M NOT OKAY! I'm in so much pain, everyday I wake worse then other. Everyday it's like I lose myself even more.
I want to breathe again. I want someone to be hear while I'm trying to stop myself crying. I need a shoulder to lean on
It all hurts.
A Letter to No OneThe clock ticked against silence,A Letter to No One2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Upon the cemetery of a room.
Deep sighs weave through the air,
Meager warmth in compressed despair.
Moths fall prey to a musty lampshade,
An opened window to Night’s gloom.
Thoughts dance like ripples on water,
And clouds on the hiding moon.
A lullaby plays from the gentle sound,
Made by scratching pen on paper.
One story told too many times,
Is voiced from words created.
Though this time revived from lies,
A phoenix forms the ugly truth.
The pen rolls from the wooden desk,
Having served its final use.
Old dusty dolls and teddy bears,
Watched helplessly through glassy eyes.
No star showed to twinkle hope,
Not one ray from the busy moon.
On the clock’s tick, a rope was hanging.
On the clock’s tock, a form was thrashing.
A tired, hoarse throat gasps for life,
Cut abruptly by the Reaper’s scythe.
Poems on the shelf with an unknown author.
Paintings on the wall left unsigned.
Just another heart trapped in horror,
An unfinished l
The Sentinel: A Poem The Sentinel: A PoemThe Sentinel: A Poem2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
All the night shall be your keep.
All those sleepers in their sleep
Will look to you and heed your call.
A moment where silence rules and dreams come true.
And then you shall see the nighttime's worth.
Transcend the dying and the birth.
See for yourself the beauty there.
The perfect frailness that is life.
Observe those lovely maidens of virtue!
Oh, behold the lads of brave stature that are true!
See the empires fall with broken spires.
And Father Time reclaim his own.
So watch the humans as they slumber.
And for once they might seem humble.
Listen to the silent plea of hope as the night wanes on
And see the love that enters here among the human race.
You Want Me To Go AwayMy heart is racingYou Want Me To Go Away2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Too many things I'm facing
And you can't listen
Because your not there
You won't try
To even understand
How am I supposed be your friend?
When you can't let me in
And you turn it all around
When you leave me out
I'm not the lies scattered in the sky
I'm not lying, it hurts to cry
About the things you let me go through
The pain you cause at times and not knowing why
The ache inside my chest grows and shrinks
Is it because I love you
Or just cos I hurt
I need you
I don't know if you want me too
With the way you turn away
When I see your face
Smiling my way
I grin back and have a good laugh
But, the laughter never seems to fade
Yet why does it seem you want me to go away
I sit here in regret
Did you want to forget how we met?
We talked some but, then went our ways
You say it wasn't much to you
But, it meant so much to me
Can't you see what is happening now?
Do you see the blurriness in my eyes as they cry tears?
Will you want to even go away?
I'm not the lies scattered
Mind.Darkness surrounds me,Mind.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Shadows surround you.
The present threatens me,
as the past did to you.
Your memories, you keep at bay,
but your thoughts just seem to fade away.
Your murdurous thirst is always there
and you seem to be grabbing at your hair.
My thoughts aren't right
my head's too tight,
I have to fight
just not take flight.
I want it to end
I want it to end
Please will somebody help me then?
It's not to late
Never to late
say it'll be alright
but we know it's not alright.
Because of your past,
you will certainly fade last.
You will not find a friend in this world.
We are not one
but one and the same.
Our minds have turned against us.
So What Do I Do?If only I could read your mindSo What Do I Do?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If only I could interpret you emotions
Understand what you're going through
See through your eyes
Hear through your ears
Feel through your heart
If only I knew how to help you
But I can't
And I don't
And it's killing me
So what do I do?
King, let me take her handKing, let me take the princess handKing, let me take her hand2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I’m just a jester, but I’m sure you’ll understand
That we’re in love, and I truly make her laugh
I’m no prince, but you have to give me a chance
I’m not wearing shiny armor; because I’m not weak
And I have no servants; I’ll finish my own deeds
I might not be rich; but she’s always happy
And I might not be perfect; but we are both who we need
So please King, open your eyes so you could see
That the princess and I are truly meant to be
I’m just a jester, but I only plead
For you to let us live joyous and safely
Love Never Has An EndBoy, You Get Outta Bed,Love Never Has An End2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Knock Yourself Upside The Head,
You Lost All You Hold Dear,
And You Can't Tell Her,
'Cause She's Not Here.
Go, Run Out To Your Car,
Complete The Search For Your Star,
She Said She's Leaving Tonight,
Show Her That She's Everything,
Including Your Light.
Sharply Cutting The Turns,
Bumping Over The Curbs,
You're Ignoring The Cops,
You Gotta Get There,
Before Your Heart Pops.
And Now The Airport's In Sight,
Standing Out In The Night,
She Carries Tears In Her Eyes,
Suitcase By Her Side.
By The Time You Get There,
She's Sitting Down In Her Chair,
You Can't Help But Feel Alone,
But Lucky For You,
She's Searching Through Her Phone.
Yours Then Begins To Ring,
And Your Heart Starts To Sing,
You Cry And Apologize,
For All That You Said,
All Those Dirty Lies.
You Prove You Want Her Back,
Can't Handle A Heart Attack,
She Starts To Understand,
So She Grabs Her Suitcase,
And Tries To Depart To Land.
But It's Already Too Late,
The Plane Takes Off With A Shake,
They Sadly Whispe
Growing up is hardThere use to be a time when I would watch an anime or read a manga… and I would be younger than everyone because loads of are based off high school life because they are targeting that age range.Growing up is hard2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Then there came a time where I am going to high school. At this time, I would acknowledge the fact that I am around the age of all the anime characters that I know. However, I was still younger than the average age (16) so kind of wasted my time.
For a few year in high school, I was wasting my life too. I noticed that I've been getting older and all the new animes coming out include characters that are younger than me by an age or two…
And now comes a time where I'm almost done high school and I realized how scary it is. All those mangas I've read. All those high school related stories (old ones & new ones coming out)… I realize I would no longer be living a similar life or be living in the same environment as those heroes and heroines… it feels as though a
Loved, Avenged, and ReunitedI'm not the same when I'm hereLoved, Avenged, and Reunited2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You have changed my thoughts
You have change my voice
I cannot go back
My want rebels against my need
My desire outweighs my reason
There is no reason behind this
Nothing makes sense about it
But I will not leave it
I find that I want to stay here with you
May it be against my will or with it I cannot tell
Do you deliberately torture me?
Or are you as conflicted as I?
This desire is great, but I cannot name it
I cannot put a reason to it
I cannot get away from it
It will always be here
When I am with you I am no longer lost
You changed me into someone I am proud of
If this was love then how was it taken so easily?
Your life was snuffed out so quickly by those who deserve to drag themselves across the filth and grime of all things awful.
You may say I judge, but the agony they put you through can never be justified
I want to see you again so badly
I want to laugh with you again so desperately
I want to hear your voice with all my being
And I will
Too Break A Hearti like too see how i will go on .Too Break A Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
yes im sad but i must continue.
i can not give up and show him im weak.
he may have taken my heart and teared it to peaces .
but i will not show him he won the battle.
i try to hide my feelings.
i tryed to move on.
its just ot working yet
but i must live on
im trying stay away but your behind every corner .
you say we can be friends .
but when my birthday came you gave me the sholder.
i try to be nice .
but what you did to me was crule.
a heart break over text message .
what kinda monster are you.
you told me you loved me .
that you cared for me too.
but it was all a lie .
but thats just you
i am moving on now .
ive walked away.
ive replaced you now.
he's nicer and better.
he treats me better than you did .
and this may be just a poem of my feelings .
but it makes me feel much better
Imaginary FriendI once had a friend.Imaginary Friend2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
That was made of pretend,
Who's only friend was me.
We played all alone,
Just all on our own.
Down on the hills,
And the trees.
We ran through the woods,
Jumped in the hills,
And played in the dark,
Because we lived for the thrills.
We went on our journeys,
And time would stand still.
The world would change,
Because it bowed to our will.
Then came the days
My friend started to fade.
We no longer spoke,
We just sat in the shade.
And as we sat silent
We looked at the sky .
My friend left for the last time,
Without a goodbye.
I guess the fact is.
They were no longer shy.
I once had a friend,
I thought was made of pretend.
Who supposedly no one could see.
So I sit and I wait,
Pretending their late.
Alone with no guarantee.
Hoping and saying ,
Autumnal InsomniaIt's an Autumn night. The cold comes cuttingAutumnal Insomnia2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Across the seas and the Isle is in winter's for-pang.
I am still at my desk in sweats and fevers, pacing
Over long due essays and the morning's march.
The space on the wall is screaming at me
From where the picture hanged upon the arch
Above the study door. My phone has not rang
In days. In no way could you call me free.
Is it late or early or both? I cannot see
Past the window's blank abyss and I delve
Into another long since read book and look to find
The clock is already far past twelve.
The creaking grows with roaring zephyrs
Of night-breath, the gate creaks in torment
And the dark and twisted line of the tree
Seems horrifying to me.
I close the curtain and shut the door
And pick my book up from off of the floor.
I look and see the clock is now past three
And it matter not in the least to me
And I pray to the Man of Galilee.
Lead-lined eyes and a slurring soul
And the hours awake take their toll
And I fall asleep.
ViolinistGraceful, deliberate strokes of a violinists bowViolinist3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Acting as vestigial extremity, key to the creation
Of waves and brilliant sounds echoing throughout the halls
of an empty domicile
Like tides in their natural way,
An ever constant rising and falling of immensity abroad
Virtually endless sanded beaches and rocky shorelines
By Day By NightI was an angel,By Day By Night2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I was a hawk,
I wasn't gonna fail,
I could walk the walk,
I was a hero,
I was a knight,
Nobody could see though,
I was losing a fight,
I was a bright day,
I was a full moon at night,
Whatever I'd say,
Would come out right,
I was a breath of air,
I was a ray of the sun,
A battle balanced unfair,
Yeah I still won,
The days of the fighter,
The nights of the brave,
Feel oh so lighter,
Not more I can save,
The days of the winner,
Those nights so cold,
Have lost their shine,
It's grown so old.
I'm a particle of dust,
I'm apparent and frayed,
I'm filled high with lust,
My hopes, oh they fade,
I'm a shadow to the sun,
Stopping it's tracks,
I'm as hollow as one,
There's no turning back,
I'm a trip wire for progress,
I'm a fallen tree,
Dangerous when hopeless,
yeah that sounds like me,
Familiarity is changing,
In my search for my past,
What did I do wrong,
Why couldn't it last.
For What It's Worth...Her name is nothing incredible,For What It's Worth...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's only ever been a long letter
So she strives to be the best, sometimes better.
Her pain is something kept silent,
And even though no one cares to make it loud
She hides it
Only bending to the pressure of the crowd.
She lives in a world of solitude,
Only evaded by the necessary company
Which is always
Then it's something that's expressed as phony.
She's trapped in some kind of space,
where nothing's really worth her time
And everyday it's
Her presence is what they consider a crime.
No one seems to notice her strife,
CosmologyShe left galaxies on his pillowcaseCosmology2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
where she slept the night before
of make up colors,
smudged and smeared,
blurred by silent tears
the stars leaked out with the saline
along with the residue of dreams
that she never meant to have.
Chips of polish decorate his bed sheets,
from her chewed and broken nails,
after scratching at the too-low ceiling
and his too-close back
while she slept fitfully,
searching desperately for space.
EmptinessFeeling empty...Emptiness2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Feeling cut off from everything else...
There's those times when
You just have to stand up,
Walk away, and be alone...
The little feeling
That something's missing.
The tug of loneliness
Pulling on the chain
Of the collar I'm wearing.
The shackles of dread
And despair keeping me
From running away...
The handcuffs of fear
Stopping me from fighting back.
There's nothing left to do
But to stand off
In the distance...
Staring blankly ahead
At the moving faces.
This empty shell doesn't
It doesn't feel happiness...
But I know one thing...
This soul does.
I wish for someone
Who had the key.
My pass for freedom.
My escape from the everyday.
A spirit whom I can love and cherish.
Because I'm sick and tired
Of being sick and tired...
I'm too numb of this pain.
This empty feeling
Of something missing...
And no means of fighting back...
Is an inhumane torture
That no one should face.
PromisesDon't let my love for you be mistaken for weaknessPromises3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Don't confuse my musing for neglect
Truth from you is what I yearn
Which seems to be too much to ask
Please don't hide behind a mask
I know the person you are now
Is different from the one you were before
I can't force you to feel
Yet what I feel for you is real
I cry in sorrow deep in night
I try to push the insecure thoughts away
Into the dark abyss
They show back up in dead of night
You've made promises that I pray you keep
Hoping and dreaming that they are real
Not some kind of smoke and mirrors
Am I in need of pulling the curtain
Hiding the man behind the machine
Can I be certain that this isn't all a dream
This is a scheme thought up by an ill mind
I am getting sick from biding my time
Whenever you decide to be with me on a whim
Getting tired of all the games being played
Don't want any more time to be wasted
Tired of tears being shed
All the grief being built up in my heart
This is all but tearing me apart
Sick of being afraid o
Ridddle Me This...What's heart beatsRidddle Me This...2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but still is dead?
what thinks alone
with voices in its head?
What hurts itself,
so it can heal
what cuts itself
so it can feel
What cries with blood
to hide its shame
what writes on walls
to remember its name
What has clear eyes
but still wont see?
what is this thing?
it is me.
The Old WellMy destiny calls from the depths of the well,The Old Well2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The sound of the water my own death knell.
Spirits pass upwards and through the stone,
Leaving behind pennies people have thrown.
The well is filled with the souls of others,
All of whom strayed from the same path.
Every fate as damned as another's,
Consumed by this ancient curse's wrath.
Mysteries surround this age-old dwelling,
I, a servant of this ancient foretelling.
My heart lies at its base,
My life removed without a trace.
DoveAll the things I did todayDove2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
make no sense in any way,
all the things I tore apart
were yet broken at the start,
all the worst dreams, scaring me,
have now turned to reality
'cause all the things I did so wrong
have never made me any strong.
Yet a part of me is struggling,
still longing for life and love
as I climb to the roof
to follow the dove.