Great, huh?So, because of the wonderful adventures I've had this week, (Sarcasm. Fuck this week.) I have been checked into therapy. Forced. And they diagnosed me with a couple other things BESIDES THE MANY MENTAL DISORDERS I HAVE ALREADY. So, the ones I was diagnosed with today were- Anxiety. That one wasn't too much of a shocker. I constantly show signs of anxiety in public, I just never realized I did.
Bi-Polar disorder. I guess I should have seen that one coming. I do have mood swings. My hyper-ness gets me in trouble, yet I'm very depressed. It actually makes sense.
Something called BDD, or Body Dysmorphic Disorder. I knew it. I knew I had something like this. It's one thing to hate yourself, like so many people do, but I knew I hated myself so much more than most people. BDD is very, very rare. Only 1% of people in the entire world have it. One of the reasons I'm so depressed. BDD is when someone hates themselves to the point where they'd rather kill themselves then let anyone in
If My Life Were a StoryI wonder how long it would be.... I wonder how many people would read it. And how many people would like the character of Caitlin Christian? And how many people could relate. And I wonder when it would end. And who would take the time to read the story? I wonder if my life would be worth reading. I might just make a story about a girl. Her name won't be my name, but she'll be based on me. Just a completely normal girl, going through things that she desperately wishes she wasn't. I'll dedicate the story out there to anyone who's been unloved, sexually abused, verbally/emotionally abused, suicidal. I'd be dedicating it to many, many people out there.If My Life Were a Story1 year ago in Personal More Like This
I think I will write a story like that. It'll be my story. And then people will know that when I cry, I'm crying for a reason. Not just because of hormones. But those play a part too.
I'm going to get working on that. It won't be a long story, but it will be full of events.