Never The Gold.I want my silver back,Never The Gold.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I need to melt it down and forge a new connection
With someone else.
I want all the precious bits of myself
that I so willingly quarried for you.
I want my silver back.
I Loved A GirlI loved a girl – she smelled like August melancholy,I Loved A Girl2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
she carried the scent of festival emotions,
tempered by the midnight flames
and fireflies' glow.
I loved a girl – her hair, the gentle hue of embers,
reflected dancing candlelight,
while in her eyes, as brown as mahogany,
I discovered tiny galaxies,
but most importantly – I saw my smile.
I loved a girl – I sensed her heartbeat,
playing to the rhythm of my breath.
Her every word,
imprinted tender cherry blossoms,
onto my soul.
I loved a girl – her lips tasted like morning air
cool against my heavy forehead,
her skin, softer than satin threads,
played games with the waning moonbeams -
its gravity, I could not resist, like the Sun,
cannot escape the zenith, on Summer solstice.
I loved a girl – she made me happy,
and sadly - I love her still.
CarvedYou are an oak carved tableCarved3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that has been hewn and hacked
from its original pure form
into something someone found useful.
I was screwed tight together
with fixtures, fights and fittings
by so-called master craftsmen,
who wanted me to be firm,
who wanted my artificial endurance.
Men who wanted my knots undone
and for me to hold them up,
but I am a chair, and you are a table.
You have told me of the days
when seventy percent of you
was forcefully ripped out
leaving a splintered hollow behind.
I know how abrasive people
rubbed you up the wrong way
with sand paper to keep you quiet,
and with words to keep you down.
Plain men with plained minds
that have been stroked to the quick
and left only with the core
of their brutal carver instincts.
I know how you were made, table.
I am five pieces nailed together
With sticky tape for good measure.
You are one whole still, somehow
and when I need you, you are stable
and your legs are thicker than mine,
run faster and bear more pressure
on your leve
On FateHope lies in chances that a thing might be changed,On Fate3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
But it's three A.M.and I've fallen apart.
Thinking that life is prearranged
I've decided that fate is hope's enemy at heart.
One is unchanging and cannot fall.
The other is needed to exist at all.
DripDrip, drip, drip.Drip3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rain pours on me,
Over my face.
Wash away my tears.
Wash away my sadness.
Wash away my emotions.
Wash away me.
I am the rain.
In that moment.
I am reborn.
It's seven in the morningIt's seven in the morningIt's seven in the morning2 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
I wonder if you can feel it too
There's a weight on my chest
Like the anchor I dropped west
No doubt that you're up by now
Making busy in your world somehow
Once you said you would get me coffee to wake up to
But I'd rather wake up to you
The thirty-three is in a stand still
You bring the light of day
No buts or wait until's;
I will always swing your way
The thirty-four is mocking me now
The stand still was just one minute
And one minute it was
To tell you good morning
And another to say I love you;
This could never get boring
See, the anchor is still set
Deep in my sand
It's seven forty-one
And I know you'd bet
The rain's coming through my window this early
Good thing I'm already up
My room could be pouring
I wonder if it's cloudy
Where I'm mooring
You have the sun
But I brought the rain
And some other things
(replace with a p)
Now the forty-nine feels like a waste of time
I'm going back to sleep
.I think its beautiful,.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the spaces in between the words,
the letters that filled the spaces,
the lines that create the letters,
the absence that it had to fill.
Her GripBreathing is ragged.Her Grip3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Head is spinning.
You run faster and faster,
but you know she's winning.
As she closes the distance
her voice becomes clear,
whispering your secrets,
and your darkest of fears.
Your energy is waning,
and she's only getting faster,
and you know without a question,
this will end in disaster,
Suddenly there's a grip on your arm,
It's stubborn and strong.
It's all over now.
It's all going wrong.
TiredTrying to get myself up.Tired3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Surrounded by dirty cups.
Really need some motivation.
Tired of this bored sensation.
Want to get up and clean.
Or go out and be seen.
Want to go out for a walk.
Or call a friend and talk.
Turn up the music and sing.
Just want to do something.
Hope that I don't get fired.
So tired of just being tired.
BuriedUnder the paprika house,Buried3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
are the bones of my father
and nestled between rib
and reason, is our love.
Empty MindIn your otherwise empty skullEmpty Mind3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Are empty words that mean nothing,
And empty thoughts, both dumb and dull
Rule your mind like a broken king.
I can't tell whether you know me,
You're busy knowing your ideal.
But I know what you are: empty.
Now you'll understand what I feel.
Mortal CoilIt has been quite long, yet not so lastingMortal Coil3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
When I could still ravage Earth with my youth.
I need not look further, death is staring
And I have to face the plain mortal truth.
Where have they gone, my early days of yore?
Where have you gone my candied madeleine?
Time’s been so avid, I can live no more.
It has been decided, I’ll never win.
The apple has fallen and she’s not far
I can do nothing but wait at the bar.
The mortal coil is without limits
As Time keeps to itself all its chocolates.
ptsd (otherwise known as you)i. you.ptsd (otherwise known as you)3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
ii. the world bears down,
into my path and raining
ash like platitudes.
(none are as heavy as
this solid mass growing
beneath my gums
and setting my mouth alight:
an ulcer birthed in history.)
i begged Eirene
to no avail.
i still have faith:
the impurities that bind themselves
to my throat, and carve sorrow
into bones that were never hollow
cannot outlive love.
iv. today not even the Gods
can reduce the stain of you
i will breathe again.
EveShe wore a galaxy on her rib-cage,Eve3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
settled high upon her breast,
when I kissed her I could taste it;
the currency of her success.
Sweet rage and chaos.sweet rage and chaosSweet rage and chaos.3 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
anger blazes through my soul
i lust for revenge
The Box of the UnforgottenThe strip of photosThe Box of the Unforgotten3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sits in the steel box
Locked up and hidden
Where I will never open
Three photo strips
A bag of papers
A stack of drawings
And an old tape
That tape means the most
It was given to me
The day the thought entered
The thought that triggered EVERYTHING
ObessionYou said I'll be right back,Obession2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So I waited.
Those seconds dragged on and I couldn't take it,
the more I was alone,
the more I missed you.
Those 3 minutes felt like an infinity,
I think I'm addicted and I haven't had enough yet.
(creases in my ivory bones)you find(creases in my ivory bones)2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
my origami swanfolds
with eyes shut,
and i yours
When Day Came.When day came and day fell, that's when I found you.When Day Came.6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I found you dancing along the sky like a ballroom, and you took my breath.
My eyes were stained, salt running across my cheeks as I gazed.
Your movements effortless, your beauty painful.
I felt each step like a crashing wave, pulling my seams apart.
There is perfection in the unraveling; the destruction; the end.
When night came and night fell, that's when I lost you.
I lost you as you sank beneath the weight of the burning stars.
The strength to stand fluttering away like a strand of thread in a gale.
Your failure shameful, your defiance bright.
All your moments of life struggling beneath those flaming stars.
There is honor in the pride; the rebellion; the fight.
One torn apart, the other drowned.
In the light of this horror, there is hope.
Faith in the simmering horizon.
Grandeur in the promise of the rise, and the fall.
SilenceSometimes it was my greatest weaponSilence1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
They don't know I exist
Then I can hide away
Behind that thick mist
Sometimes it was my greatest mistake
They think I am disrespectful
Gives glares that pierces through
Makes me feel regretful
Sometimes it was my worst enemy
There's nothing to hear
The answers are not found
In the endless maze
I walk around and around
Sometimes it was my best friend
There's nothing to hear
All the stress disappear
The relaxation comes
No more things to worry
Now my mind feels clear
Sometimes it was my greatest courage
No sound to hear
Means no one complaining
I feel sure of myself
Then I can stay here remaining
Sometimes it was my greatest fear
No sound to hear
They had left me
Will believe I am abandoned
Cry as I fall to my knee
Sometimes it would betray me
Sometimes it is my buddy
What are you
Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,Her Side3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.
But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.
That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.
But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.
No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.
So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.
Drowning Dreamingwe turn over and the sunDrowning Dreaming2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
weeps its lovely lava
holes in eyelids
futile and temporary
bagged into these
we are time's vacuum
and i sleep
and i wake
a traveled soul
knives of light
slip between each rib
and i die more
each waking moment
as the morning light
Memories and TearsThere are few things in this lifeMemories and Tears3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
From which I want to hide
But some things are hard to take
Sometimes I have to break
If you see me start to fade away
Know I have had too much for today
Too many reminders of what we left behind
A string I can't unwind
I try to kill it all away
The feelings left of that day
My mind still replays it
The actors are faceless
They try to describe the impossible
A promise left unfulfilled
It was the right thing to do
But still it hurts anew
Who knew it would come to this
A choice so painful cannot exist
The best thing that could be done
Was letting go of the one you love
I wish them happiness
A never ending eternal bliss
I guess this is what true love is
Wishing for their happiness
Life... CutHow long is a piece of string?Life... Cut8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
What horrors lie beneath the skin?
We question all to comprehend
And measure life from end to end,
We wrap our hurts with warmth and light,
We seize the day to flee the night.
We quicken breath to fend off time,
I take whats yours, you take whats mine,
We never pause to rest our feet,
We count the seconds, every beat.
For every puzzle that we solved,
For every crime that was absolved,
Another ten come to the fore,
We take from life, it offers more.
Yet it is not an endless source
To abuse without recourse;
Well turn to dust and fade away,
The rope of life will one day fray.
How long is a piece of string?
For how long will this be my skin?