Lie To MeFingertips lace around my ribs
And pull at my skin
As my breath catches
At the coolness of your touch.
Calm these trembling hands
And hold them tight in yours.
I'll move my lips on yours
Just so you don't have to.
Hearts beat faster and
My breath shudders with insecurity.
Press my body close to yours
So I don't shatter into fragments.
Lie to me one more time.
Tangle your legs in mine,
Brush your lips along my neck.
Make me feel alive.
Recycle BinOh Recycle Bin,Recycle Bin2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How you taunt me so.
Plump from my ideas,
With none for me to show.
Your mouth always open,
Waiting to be fed
The words that roll about
So messy in my head.
Each scrap a banquet,
Each page a tasty treat.
You grin at my failure
And swell from my defeat...
amygdala.n.amygdala.2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
center for convergence
of sensory data;
major organizer of
I find that this word
is nearly always
on my lips-
nearly as often as your smile is.
I would like to know
just how it works, and why
it seems so relevant to me,
and exactly what you are
doing to me
that makes it go
h a y w i r e .
My Own Self-DestructionThere are things about meMy Own Self-Destruction3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I just can't control
The shame makes me want
To crawl in a hole
I rely on you more
Than you'll ever know
It'd be better for you
If I were to go
I know I'm a burden
Don't bother denying
But I can't seem to shake this
No matter how hard I'm trying
The guilt causes pain
And so does the fear
The voices inside
Are all I can hear
All of these things
Make it so hard to function
I am the cause
Of my own self-destruction.
Are You Alright?Are you alright?Are You Alright?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You've asked me this so many times,
And the answer is always 'yes'.
Quite frankly, why do you care?
What if the answer is no?
Do you care then?
Am I alright?
I've never really thought about it.
It's easier to be happy than to
Think about all the reasons I'm not,
Easier than thinking of you.
I still remember when you grabbed my hand.
An unusually casual gesture for
Someone you don't know,
But that is when I fell for you.
That's when I was happy
Before I started crying.
The crying came later.
The crying came the day after
You told me I was the only one for you,
That you couldn't be without me.
And I believed you.
The crying came the day you ripped
My heart out of my chest and carried
It with you as you walked away.
And you have still never returned it.
Am I alright?
No, I don't think so.
I'm not sure if I ever was.
I told you how I loved you before
You left, but you didn't care.
And you don't now.
Tomorrow Is Another DayHow can I dreamTomorrow Is Another Day2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I'm hurt?
How can I smile
When I'm dirt?
How can I hope
When I'm forgotten?
How can I be
When I'm nothing?
I don't know how
But there are some things
That you just have to do
If not for yourself
Then for someone close
I don't know if these words
Will impact you, or set an impression
But take this advice
From an old cutter
It gets better, even if your life has melted like butter
You're not forgotten
You're always in someone's mind
You're not dirt
Cause to someone you shine
There is still hope for you
Even if your dream is broken
I noticed that
When the girl I loved, came even closer
Don't hurt yourself today
Cause you never know
I Miss YouI miss youI Miss You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With every breath, I miss you
And I'll always remember
What you never will
And though I may never laugh with you
Or even see you again
I miss you
Suicide Nightmare.I will soon draw youSuicide Nightmare.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So close to my home,
And the skin will be ripped
As soon as you know.
That you have been found
And you're not alone,
I'll chain you up
And I'll cut to the bone.
These black and dirty fingernails
Dig deep under your skin,
Like the chalk board screeches
I make a filthy grin.
I make your blood come out
As I pleasure the knives,
With all your thoughts flowing
Only one comes to mind.
You'll never escape,
Oh you'll never wake.
A Gods DebtSutured together by artists,A Gods Debt2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
hallowed out, & spit back up,
( you are afraid. )
Hooks longing for her ribcage embrace;
god-hands that can't seem to keep to themselves
grapple the gargoyle exterior of her deflowered frame.
( spread your legs. )
Red-inked and trembling,
prosetry masked as screams
knots into her anatomy.
The Music BoxThe music box is broken, mom.The Music Box1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I need that song to sleep.
It soothes my soul-
It calms my fears.
As the darkness crawls-
The music box is broken, mom
so please sing me a song.
I turn to you-
My ears are drawn,
but you're not here-
The music box is broken, mom.
The monsters want to eat me;
In fear, I shake
My music box needs fixing, mom
or I need someone to sing,
but the silence is 'consuming'-
I cannot hear a thing.
I try but can't find sleep, mom;
I just lie there all alone.
I clutch my broken music box.
In misery, I moan.
My music box is broken, mom.
I need its serenade,
but no one's here to help me.
I feel afraid-
Return to me and sing, mom,
gift me your 'melodies'..
Hum me out a tune, mom
and put my restless soul at ease.
The Man Who BurnsI am too sterile and staticThe Man Who Burns2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can feel you walking away
Into the arms of the man who burns
But then again why would you stay
He is so young and beautiful
He lives life while I rehearse
Acting upon his desires
While I write about mine in verse
Our love was Russian roulette
Without bullets in the chamber
Passing the gun back and forth
Without any sense of danger
The fire in your heart has gone now
This cliché is not lost on me
Metaphorically I'm the water
That dampened our destiny
You said you would never leave me
But this contract was never binding
I want you to find your freedom
If there's a freedom worth finding
Beyond the love that we have
The excitement you used to feel
Believing that I was special
I was your sword, not your shield
In that I'd not only defend you
But I would fight for your love
But repetition led to tedium
I can see you have had enough
Your bruises have faded quicker
Than the cuts that sliced your skin
But beware that burns scar deeper
If you let that malign ma
I would've been.I would've been a masterpiece if it wasn't for the tear,I would've been.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't know why I tell you this, it's not like you care.
I would've been a legend if it wasn't for the time,
Age of heroes has come and gone, all I can do now is rhyme.
I would've made something of myself, if I'd had the motivation,
But now, I just lie in wait, awaiting even more degradation.
I could've been someone, or something, I know I could,
But right now, it's all talk, all "Could, should, would."
Then there's that "if" or that "but" getting in the way,
I could've been a masterpiece, but here I am, rotting away.
No one even gives me a second glance,
I'm not a famous one like Rembrandt's.
I could've been a masterpiece if it wasn't for the tear,
If only the people looking after me had taken more care,
I could've been perfect, and remembered forever,
But now I am just a portrait, of the Forgotten Reaper.
vices.there's hell in your eyes, painting them black cesspits that could eat away the stars.vices.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you tell me you need out of your head. the moon pulls higher in the sky, quietly marking the hour. our feet hang over empty air, the tracks below an open casket. you inhale nicotine and exhale burning buildings. smoke curls like fingers into the body of the night.
we're breaking like an ocean. eggshells on pavement.
i can't hold you together,
so you down handfuls of little white pills like peppermint candies.
like if you just keep swallowing, they'll whitewash the walls of your ribcage and purge your dirty heart.
you drink like you're always thirsty,
like you've found the antidote to forgetting.
instead, i hold matches to the dry tinder of my parchment skin to see if it catches fire
to burn down the gosttown of all the things i can't forget.
i dig trenches in my skin to leak out poison pulsing in my veins and the dirty swingset in my bones.
we both have memories we can't kill.
the black in our
InvincibleThey say that I can't last much longer,Invincible2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Grinning as I scream in pain
And laughing as I gasp for air.
But they won't reach their goal.
"Daddy, you'll be back, won't you?"
Her words still echo in my head,
A piece of happiness I keep within.
"Of course, my angel. Sooner than you'd think."
Darkness embraces my consciousness,
And every breath becomes a struggle,
But still I hear her worried voice.
"Promise?" she asks. "Promise." I answer.
And as I lie here on the floor,
Beaten, bloody, and alone,
I feel my heart beating in my chest,
Fighting to fulfill my promise.
"But how can you know?" she calls
As I'm halfway out the door.
I smile as I bend down to hug her.
"for you I'll be invincible."
And though my world is made of pain,
And my blood seems caught on fire,
I draw one breath after another,
And know that I'll return alive.
Little GirlYou saw me,Little Girl2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Broken under the tree.
I sat alone,
Trying to be my own person.
Trying to live without a crutch.
But I guess you looked through me,
And saw the broken little girl I am.
I wish you hadn't scooped me up.
I wish you hadn't started caring for me.
I wish I hadn't cared for you.
You saw me cry.
You didn't know how much baggage I carried.
What I had,
You could never deal with.
The baggage I carry,
Needs someone to be around all the time.
I've been neglected.
Ive been lied to.
Ive been left out on the street to fend for myself.
Ive been left to fight other peoples battles.
I just want to be my own person.
I want to not hurt anymore.
If you see me sitting under that tree,
Don't come up,
And try to save me.
You would be trying to win a losing battle.
NoNo, I am not okayNo2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No, I will not be okay
Nothing you can say
Will make this pain go away
No, I am not fine
No, I will not be fine
Maybe this is all just a sign
That for him I should not pine
No, I am not all right
No, I will not be all right
I cannot sleep at night
For my regrets are in my mind's sight
Yes, this will take time
Yes, lots of time
All I want is one last stime
To convince myself he's not slime
Tremble AlonePills, that I take everyday,Tremble Alone2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you take away the unbearable
But you are at fault, when
in need of more you cause me
intense pain from within
In need of some comfort,
you are my medicine
Our lives have intertwined,
you and I are one in the same
Who is me, and which is you?
You shadow my sorrows, and
relax my many aches; but
mishief follows in your place
Put your hand in mine,
you keep me here (for now)
We reach across the table
of what was Then and Now
If tears left scarsSalt flavored tears fallIf tears left scars3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
staining a delicate face.
She weeps and she doesn't know why
it's just what she needs to do.
Her tears do more than stain
her delicate face though.
They mar her skin
leaving its permanent mark.
You can cry all you want
and the next second,
just brush them away
as if nothing happened
Tears leave more
than just stains on skin
they leave scars.
leaving its dark crack
on your heart.
If tears left scars
would your face be?
is your heart?
NeverHow can my heart be filled with love for you,Never2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yet your heart is filled with love for another?
I watch her take the place I never filled,
The touch I never felt,
The whisper I never heard.
Why is it that in my eyes you are everything,
But in yours, I am nothing.
Burnt PopcornI cremated a bag of popcorn in my microwave...Burnt Popcorn2 years ago in Emotional More Like This
and it's honestly not that bad...
but each individual piece tastes like a memory forgotten,
smokey and warm, like campfires in autumn...
if I close my eyes while the soft skin of the piece melts on my tongue,
I can imagine the crinkle of fire and the sparks of fallen ashes...
the miraculous image of twirling smoke against Orion's Belt...
And the harsh, reawakening sounds of pulling the individual black pieces of wood back into the center, raking the powdery ashes into a circle, and realigning every smokey brick...
And even though we never shared a campfire before, I really would like to...
to be able feel it burn my lips when we sit too close, and to have your arm around my waist as you lean into my hair....To hear you sigh as the night lingers on, in the beauty of firey autumn winds....
All this, from a cremated bag of popcorn smoking up my kitchen...
SurviveWhispers in my earSurvive3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Compel me to surrender.
But I will not hear;
I defy my contender.
Defeat is not an option;
There is no other way:
Survive against all odds
To die another day.
'Tis the oldest battlecry;
The only ultimatum.
Fight until you die
Rather plain verbatim.
To be classified as "alive,"
Survive, survive, survive.
Alone, Hurt, Sharp, Sins, Edges, CutAloneAlone, Hurt, Sharp, Sins, Edges, Cut2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In the dark room
Made of my doubt
I pick up a piece
Of my broken heart
I touch it
With my shaky finger tip
I feel it against me
I sigh and start think
That's the word
It explains the feelings
That I hide
That I have done
To god, mankind
They call to me
I know that I can't resist
I need this
I really do
I use the piece
Of my broken heart
And I cut my wrist
Hoping to never wake up
GaspThere was noGasp2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
she pressed her
lips to his
The angel cries once moreMy wings were white onceThe angel cries once more3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I flew through the sky untainted by reality
In a world I did not know at all
I glided by oblivious to the horror of life
And could not predict this accursed future
This is the life I now live
Now as I soar through the clear blue skies
I am marked by the black and ugly
The things that lived inside me leak out and stain me
Around me are the pure hearted and naive
They do not and could not know this torment
And avert their eyes even to me
I am the one that continues on through society
A foreigner even to those who claimed to love
And bear the mark of their hatred
I am not what they believe me to be
Unnatural creature that I am
I was not made to be this way
When I see myself so drab and dull
I am an unrecognizable even to a mirror
This is not was I used to be before the days of sorrow
My feathers fell and grew back so dark
It happened so very fast
I did not see what they did to me
Now I live and yet do not
Fallen through from good graces
I bear every sneer and snid
RepossessionYour words tore into my abdomen like vultures feeding onRepossession2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the raw emotion their filthy wings stirred up from the dust.
My ribs cracked from the blow.
But, I think sometimes
of how these were the ribs
that should have chased you away from me,
quietly wondering how you managed to
slither past this cage of bone and flesh
to engrave your fingerprints into my marrow.
You were sweat & spice & scars-
a thunderstorm of black and blue sex
jarring and devouring my insides,
shaped a faithless religion
through the cracks & broken shards
of my hollowed out womb.
(I want my insides back.)