Lie To MeFingertips lace around my ribs
And pull at my skin
As my breath catches
At the coolness of your touch.
Calm these trembling hands
And hold them tight in yours.
I'll move my lips on yours
Just so you don't have to.
Hearts beat faster and
My breath shudders with insecurity.
Press my body close to yours
So I don't shatter into fragments.
Lie to me one more time.
Tangle your legs in mine,
Brush your lips along my neck.
Make me feel alive.
amygdala.n.amygdala.2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
center for convergence
of sensory data;
major organizer of
I find that this word
is nearly always
on my lips-
nearly as often as your smile is.
I would like to know
just how it works, and why
it seems so relevant to me,
and exactly what you are
doing to me
that makes it go
h a y w i r e .
We Will Never BeI met you on August 18th of 2008.We Will Never Be3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I remember how hot it was in the classroom
That day and how your eyes widened with confusion
As I sat down next to you.
I will never forget those eyes.
You loved Mondays and dreaded Fridays.
I thought you were crazy and you told
Me that the only reason was so you
Could see me in school.
I still thought you were crazy.
We would do our math assignments on the
Playground and talk about our lives.
We were so different, but you always
Insisted that we were absolutely perfect.
I wish I would have known how right you were.
I miss you so much that I can't sleep.
But I have to keep moving because you
Promised me that we would be again, remember?
You held my hand for a second too long and
Told me that you would see me tomorrow.
And I believed you because your eyes had that same
Warm look in them that you always got when
You would tell me something important.
I've seen you three times since then, and we
Have walked away from each other
Tomorrow Is Another DayHow can I dreamTomorrow Is Another Day2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I'm hurt?
How can I smile
When I'm dirt?
How can I hope
When I'm forgotten?
How can I be
When I'm nothing?
I don't know how
But there are some things
That you just have to do
If not for yourself
Then for someone close
I don't know if these words
Will impact you, or set an impression
But take this advice
From an old cutter
It gets better, even if your life has melted like butter
You're not forgotten
You're always in someone's mind
You're not dirt
Cause to someone you shine
There is still hope for you
Even if your dream is broken
I noticed that
When the girl I loved, came even closer
Don't hurt yourself today
Cause you never know
Life Is An Intravenous DripLife is an intravenous dripLife Is An Intravenous Drip2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With no transfusion of blood
Instead it slowly relieves me
Of a mind that once was good
Directly from the drip chamber
Suffocating me with terror
When there is no imminent danger
Life is an intravenous drip
I am fascinated by my veins
And curious as to which one
Carries the blood to my brain
Which causes the unwanted impulse
For me to question every answer
Tourniquet that varicose vessel
Curiosity is my cancer
Life is an intravenous drip
Of that I am A positive
My blood remains optimistic
So why am I so negative
I see no saline solution
Just diminishing vital signs
As my sanity transfuses from me
One deplorable drop at a time
RepossessionYour words tore into my abdomen like vultures feeding onRepossession2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the raw emotion their filthy wings stirred up from the dust.
My ribs cracked from the blow.
But, I think sometimes
of how these were the ribs
that should have chased you away from me,
quietly wondering how you managed to
slither past this cage of bone and flesh
to engrave your fingerprints into my marrow.
You were sweat & spice & scars-
a thunderstorm of black and blue sex
jarring and devouring my insides,
shaped a faithless religion
through the cracks & broken shards
of my hollowed out womb.
(I want my insides back.)
I Miss YouI miss youI Miss You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With every breath, I miss you
And I'll always remember
What you never will
And though I may never laugh with you
Or even see you again
I miss you
Suicide Nightmare.I will soon draw youSuicide Nightmare.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So close to my home,
And the skin will be ripped
As soon as you know.
That you have been found
And you're not alone,
I'll chain you up
And I'll cut to the bone.
These black and dirty fingernails
Dig deep under your skin,
Like the chalk board screeches
I make a filthy grin.
I make your blood come out
As I pleasure the knives,
With all your thoughts flowing
Only one comes to mind.
You'll never escape,
Oh you'll never wake.
The Music BoxThe music box is broken, mom.The Music Box1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I need that song to sleep.
It soothes my soul-
It calms my fears.
As the darkness crawls-
The music box is broken, mom
so please sing me a song.
I turn to you-
My ears are drawn,
but you're not here-
The music box is broken, mom.
The monsters want to eat me;
In fear, I shake
My music box needs fixing, mom
or I need someone to sing,
but the silence is 'consuming'-
I cannot hear a thing.
I try but can't find sleep, mom;
I just lie there all alone.
I clutch my broken music box.
In misery, I moan.
My music box is broken, mom.
I need its serenade,
but no one's here to help me.
I feel afraid-
Return to me and sing, mom,
gift me your 'melodies'..
Hum me out a tune, mom
and put my restless soul at ease.
I would've been.I would've been a masterpiece if it wasn't for the tear,I would've been.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't know why I tell you this, it's not like you care.
I would've been a legend if it wasn't for the time,
Age of heroes has come and gone, all I can do now is rhyme.
I would've made something of myself, if I'd had the motivation,
But now, I just lie in wait, awaiting even more degradation.
I could've been someone, or something, I know I could,
But right now, it's all talk, all "Could, should, would."
Then there's that "if" or that "but" getting in the way,
I could've been a masterpiece, but here I am, rotting away.
No one even gives me a second glance,
I'm not a famous one like Rembrandt's.
I could've been a masterpiece if it wasn't for the tear,
If only the people looking after me had taken more care,
I could've been perfect, and remembered forever,
But now I am just a portrait, of the Forgotten Reaper.
The Man Who BurnsI am too sterile and staticThe Man Who Burns3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can feel you walking away
Into the arms of the man who burns
But then again why would you stay
He is so young and beautiful
He lives life while I rehearse
Acting upon his desires
While I write about mine in verse
Our love was Russian roulette
Without bullets in the chamber
Passing the gun back and forth
Without any sense of danger
The fire in your heart has gone now
This cliché is not lost on me
Metaphorically I'm the water
That dampened our destiny
You said you would never leave me
But this contract was never binding
I want you to find your freedom
If there's a freedom worth finding
Beyond the love that we have
The excitement you used to feel
Believing that I was special
I was your sword, not your shield
In that I'd not only defend you
But I would fight for your love
But repetition led to tedium
I can see you have had enough
Your bruises have faded quicker
Than the cuts that sliced your skin
But beware that burns scar deeper
If you let that malign ma
A Gods DebtSutured together by artists,A Gods Debt2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
hallowed out, & spit back up,
( you are afraid. )
Hooks longing for her ribcage embrace;
god-hands that can't seem to keep to themselves
grapple the gargoyle exterior of her deflowered frame.
( spread your legs. )
Red-inked and trembling,
prosetry masked as screams
knots into her anatomy.
Are You Alright?Are you alright?Are You Alright?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You've asked me this so many times,
And the answer is always 'yes'.
Quite frankly, why do you care?
What if the answer is no?
Do you care then?
Am I alright?
I've never really thought about it.
It's easier to be happy than to
Think about all the reasons I'm not,
Easier than thinking of you.
I still remember when you grabbed my hand.
An unusually casual gesture for
Someone you don't know,
But that is when I fell for you.
That's when I was happy
Before I started crying.
The crying came later.
The crying came the day after
You told me I was the only one for you,
That you couldn't be without me.
And I believed you.
The crying came the day you ripped
My heart out of my chest and carried
It with you as you walked away.
And you have still never returned it.
Am I alright?
No, I don't think so.
I'm not sure if I ever was.
I told you how I loved you before
You left, but you didn't care.
And you don't now.
vices.there's hell in your eyes, painting them black cesspits that could eat away the stars.vices.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you tell me you need out of your head. the moon pulls higher in the sky, quietly marking the hour. our feet hang over empty air, the tracks below an open casket. you inhale nicotine and exhale burning buildings. smoke curls like fingers into the body of the night.
we're breaking like an ocean. eggshells on pavement.
i can't hold you together,
so you down handfuls of little white pills like peppermint candies.
like if you just keep swallowing, they'll whitewash the walls of your ribcage and purge your dirty heart.
you drink like you're always thirsty,
like you've found the antidote to forgetting.
instead, i hold matches to the dry tinder of my parchment skin to see if it catches fire
to burn down the gosttown of all the things i can't forget.
i dig trenches in my skin to leak out poison pulsing in my veins and the dirty swingset in my bones.
we both have memories we can't kill.
the black in our
InvincibleThey say that I can't last much longer,Invincible3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Grinning as I scream in pain
And laughing as I gasp for air.
But they won't reach their goal.
"Daddy, you'll be back, won't you?"
Her words still echo in my head,
A piece of happiness I keep within.
"Of course, my angel. Sooner than you'd think."
Darkness embraces my consciousness,
And every breath becomes a struggle,
But still I hear her worried voice.
"Promise?" she asks. "Promise." I answer.
And as I lie here on the floor,
Beaten, bloody, and alone,
I feel my heart beating in my chest,
Fighting to fulfill my promise.
"But how can you know?" she calls
As I'm halfway out the door.
I smile as I bend down to hug her.
"for you I'll be invincible."
And though my world is made of pain,
And my blood seems caught on fire,
I draw one breath after another,
And know that I'll return alive.
AliveThey pointed and laughed at her,Alive2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because she smiled between each second,
Because she laughed between each page,
Because she danced between each step.
They laughed, and they stared,
Because they didn’t understand
The jokes she heard in the birds’ songs,
She happiness she found in every note.
They didn’t hear the lullaby
That the wind sang with each breeze,
Or the stories the trees told
With every rustling leave.
The relief at having survived
Yet another night, another day.
The joy at being outside
Of the hospital’s gloomy walls.
They didn’t know the fear
And the sorrow she had suffered,
When her parents had prayed for her,
Prayed for what seemed impossible.
How could they understand?
The spoilt eye turns blind towards
The beauty of the daylight,
And the stillness of each night.
And yet she wondered how they could miss
The warmth within each heartbeat,
The joy between each breath,
The bliss of being alive.
Little GirlYou saw me,Little Girl3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Broken under the tree.
I sat alone,
Trying to be my own person.
Trying to live without a crutch.
But I guess you looked through me,
And saw the broken little girl I am.
I wish you hadn't scooped me up.
I wish you hadn't started caring for me.
I wish I hadn't cared for you.
You saw me cry.
You didn't know how much baggage I carried.
What I had,
You could never deal with.
The baggage I carry,
Needs someone to be around all the time.
I've been neglected.
Ive been lied to.
Ive been left out on the street to fend for myself.
Ive been left to fight other peoples battles.
I just want to be my own person.
I want to not hurt anymore.
If you see me sitting under that tree,
Don't come up,
And try to save me.
You would be trying to win a losing battle.
NoNo, I am not okayNo2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No, I will not be okay
Nothing you can say
Will make this pain go away
No, I am not fine
No, I will not be fine
Maybe this is all just a sign
That for him I should not pine
No, I am not all right
No, I will not be all right
I cannot sleep at night
For my regrets are in my mind's sight
Yes, this will take time
Yes, lots of time
All I want is one last stime
To convince myself he's not slime
Sick Of It AllThere's nothing that can change how I feelSick Of It All2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm just sick of it all
But hold on, the end is near
They don't understand how sick I am
Of this hell
I can still taste the poison
Of every breath I wasted here
But hold on, the end is near
But we're just sick of it all
They don't understand how sick we are
The end is soon to come
Soon we'll be free
But until then, we're trapped
And we're screaming out that we're
Sick of it all
Sick of it all
No one understands how sick we are
How sick we are
Of living in this hell
Someday the light will break through
And we'll be free
Hold on, the end is soon to come
There's nothing that can change how I feel
I'm just sick of it all
But hold on, the end is near
My Own Self-DestructionThere are things about meMy Own Self-Destruction3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I just can't control
The shame makes me want
To crawl in a hole
I rely on you more
Than you'll ever know
It'd be better for you
If I were to go
I know I'm a burden
Don't bother denying
But I can't seem to shake this
No matter how hard I'm trying
The guilt causes pain
And so does the fear
The voices inside
Are all I can hear
All of these things
Make it so hard to function
I am the cause
Of my own self-destruction.
Screaming SomethingThere was something about your eyesScreaming Something2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That just screamed “Save me!”
If you could only just scream out to.
Everyone to save you from.
There are just so many to save you
From. How I wish I could help.
I tried to look in your eyes and say to you
“Trust me! I can’t stand watching you hate it!
I could never stand watching you hate me!”
But your eyes went blank; I could see how
You stopped to look, no longer searching,
And you glared at me, knowing that I couldn’t
Look at you.
Broken, you watch as my heart is broken,
With a blank face and screaming eyes.
Painful words slither out of your mouth’s
Barely open like the tears that wanted to
Stream down your face, while you scream
Out your hate for the world, instead you
Mutter your hate for me, and I scream instead.
Broken pleas are all I can hear.
Tremble AlonePills, that I take everyday,Tremble Alone3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you take away the unbearable
But you are at fault, when
in need of more you cause me
intense pain from within
In need of some comfort,
you are my medicine
Our lives have intertwined,
you and I are one in the same
Who is me, and which is you?
You shadow my sorrows, and
relax my many aches; but
mishief follows in your place
Put your hand in mine,
you keep me here (for now)
We reach across the table
of what was Then and Now
Goodbye's Not the Worst.Goodbye's not the hardest part,Goodbye's Not the Worst.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
it's the first step you take after.
It's the first attempt to stretch your
new found muscles,
the first time you swing the door
(sunshine all too bright)
from sitting in the dark.
It's the first
"I love you"
that seems to scar your
and dirty your virgin heart,
the first time your
under the weight of holding
It's the moment you realize
the terrible truth:
you can never really
give away your entire being
once you've let the first
witness the birth of your
Goodbye was always the hardest part
that was something I had learned
time after time
imprinted in my brain
until I had to scrape myself up
in a hurry
to get away
(I had to get away)
left too many
pieces of myself
still tossed underneath couch cushions
and beneath the pile of letters
where you swore
NeverHow can my heart be filled with love for you,Never2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yet your heart is filled with love for another?
I watch her take the place I never filled,
The touch I never felt,
The whisper I never heard.
Why is it that in my eyes you are everything,
But in yours, I am nothing.
SparkA gaze is all it takes.Spark3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And the one-sided spark flickers ablaze.
Thoughts crowd your mind, whispering ill fates.
Ignoring everyone, you stare, amazed.
Your heart beats faster with every step.
She seems familiar, though you've never met.
A gentle hand taps her on the arm.
She turns to you with a curious alarm.
An awkward moment passes, with silence flying by.
You gather up courage and simply say "Hi."
Another spark, it creates a whole flame.
Dancing like liquid, it burns all the same.