You, Just YouYou ..you make me think of,
Soothing lavender-colored cloth,
Twinkling indigo, midnight skies,
The first taste of autumn in a warmed coffee cup,
Hazel scented steam twisting everywhere
Fiery eyes of gold and dreams of silver hair,
A glinting smile, a smirk .
The softest touch,
And inked vines coiled across softer skin,
Sleeping lilies and koi fish across bronze tinted plates,
And the comforting hand, the reassuring gesture,
For fear of metallic insanity .
Peeking from behind silver scales,
Towering above like sharpened swords,
Smiling to myself,
I watch your careful eye,
The weight of your shoulder against mine,
That determined smirk, again,
And a new look of awe.
Have I brought that smile to your lips, my friend?
Am I the one that brought that beautiful treasure forth?
I follow, step around, and raise my eyes,
Looking away, I feel your steady hand on my back, once more .
Something tugs at my spirit,
And a shiver on my porcelain skin,
Please tell me I'm the on
Just Like The LastClosing my eyes,Just Like The Last3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The skinned cloth burns,
My lashes weighted with aged mascara
My shoulders ache from burdened stress
Stretching orange rays and lilac sighs .
Laying down my head,
Sunken into a thickened pillow,
Incense lazily traces my breath,
And I try to ease my gasps .
Holding myself together tonight.
Just like the last.
My heart is spread too thin,
Too much stress
Too much pain
Too much time
Why does chaos follow my wake,
Why does everything have to be so complicated
I go to sleep with wishes of kisses,
Dreams of lust and love,
Hopes of happiness and freedom,
And sympathy for those who happen to know me
Because here I am,
Holding myself together tonight,
Just like the last.
Burnt PopcornI cremated a bag of popcorn in my microwave...Burnt Popcorn3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
and it's honestly not that bad...
but each individual piece tastes like a memory forgotten,
smokey and warm, like campfires in autumn...
if I close my eyes while the soft skin of the piece melts on my tongue,
I can imagine the crinkle of fire and the sparks of fallen ashes...
the miraculous image of twirling smoke against Orion's Belt...
And the harsh, reawakening sounds of pulling the individual black pieces of wood back into the center, raking the powdery ashes into a circle, and realigning every smokey brick...
And even though we never shared a campfire before, I really would like to...
to be able feel it burn my lips when we sit too close, and to have your arm around my waist as you lean into my hair....To hear you sigh as the night lingers on, in the beauty of firey autumn winds....
All this, from a cremated bag of popcorn smoking up my kitchen...
Your Feline Shadow...Go ahead and tell me,Your Feline Shadow...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your darkest deepest fear,
Whisper it, type it slow,
And never let them hear
Because you know how much I care,
You know what I really mean,
And because I care so deeply,
You're secret's safe with me.
Go ahead and tell me,
Who you really love,
Whisper it, and type it slow,
And never let them know
Because you know that I still care,
So I'll never tell you no,
I'll support your whims on hand,
And never to let go.
So go ahead and tie the string,
Draw the face of my true soul,
Tickle, laugh, and trick me, boy,
But you have to know,
That these games make it difficult,
They make it oh so hard
I care for you,
And yet you're not sure..... who you care for
And I can't let go
I'll be here,
Waiting, smiling, laughing, and playing as always seen.
I'll be here,
Hoping, trusting, caring, and saying what I mean
And you'll be there,
Swaying to and fro,
Never knowing who to love
I'm your feline shadow, boy,
HelplessInked circles across my wrists,Helpless3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Feathered shivers chill my skin,
Every touch like static,
like a jellyfish sting.
I can't help it
Can't help but smile.
How Bad I've Got ItI never know how bad I've got it,How Bad I've Got It3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How much I'm diseased
Until I can't stand to look at my own face in the mirror.
I never know how bad I've got it,
How much I'm lost .
Until I prefer the shadows and hope that I'm invisible.
I never know,
Until I write.
I never know,
Until I go to sleep .and can't stop thinking about
How bad I've got it.
Don't patch me up, don't hold my hand
Because you're content you're happy you're
And no matter what I try,
I'm always deceived by my thoughts
Always thinking I mean something, when really I meant something else .
And no matter what I try to feel,
No matter what I try to tell myself
I never know,
Until I force myself to walk away so I can breathe
A Therian Curse or BlessingWhen I'm near you,A Therian Curse or Blessing3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And close my eyes,
I can feel my claws,
My phantom tail weighing on my spine,
The twitching ears perked,
The flattened ridge above a small nose,
I can imagine everything,
And it feels so weird and amazing and startling and perfect in the same second.
She may have called me a freak, but what I am is more than that.
I am not human, she cannot call me that much for my spirit.
I am feline trapped in a human masquerade,
My slitted irises burning under frosted glass,
And as I close my eyes,
And let you trace my jaw line,
Let you pull back my hair and chuckle,
I'm stuck between two worlds…
One is telling me it is better to shrug off this human skin and be my true self.
The other is telling me that I was meant to be yours in this way,
that I am stuck between two worlds to befriend you…to be here for you and you for me….
For if I was truly feline, I would not be able to speak to you.
I would not be able to laugh at your jokes,
Or play with you the way
I'm Lost Without YouI'm lost without you,I'm Lost Without You3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm falling behind.
Save me from this enduring pain.
It seems I will never be the same.
For you were my reason for existing.
How can I go on without you in my life?
You're the one thing that keeps me sane.
You don't understand I can't do this without you.
I need you in my life.
I'm lost without you.
I don't know where to go.
Please come and help me,
Before I fall to the ground.
I'm crashing, and burning,
I'm losing grip.
This time might be the last.
Because I'm lost without you.
CanvasThe staining ink of your darkest Sharpie,Canvas3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The bitter scent both relaxing and startling
The gentle tug of felted tips and pen on skin
Just rest my head down,
Let the shivers take me,
I wish you could experience something similar,
But I wouldn't know how to explain,
How wonderful it feels,
When I become your canvas.
Closing my eyes,
I listen to your steady breaths,
Your soft but precise movements on my skin,
My arm stretched across the cool wood,
My knuckles lightly touching your chest
I think, if I lay still enough,
I can feel your heartbeat through my skin
When you set that ink upon my skin,
I forget about everything bothering me,
Everything hurting me
And let the shivers consume me,
When I become your canvas.
ContradictionsThese things seem to rule my life,Contradictions3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Some people hate me and cause me strife,
Others think me a hero, ready to sacrifice myself.
Many think me noble, but you can decide that yourself.
Contradictions, they rule my life, "Why did she break up with you?"
A complete and utter list of contradictions, all of which I tell you,
"Does she love you?" I answer she says so, and I love her too.
A contradiction follows, "But then why did she break-up with you?"
That's the mystery, the greatest contradiction of all, to all of you,
But no, I leave out one thing, the thing that kills me inside too.
"I'm just... I'm not happy." What she said, word for word,
And I cry now, because what she said did not go unheard.
Clichei. true loveCliche3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
& you were that one famous line
of a love poem 1863 sonnet
scripted down your spine, verses
of sternum & shuddering heartbeat.
i remember the sheets twisted blue
as the eventide, your eyes like thelassia,
that species of ocean grass. we swayed
to the music of galaxies colliding.
our song was the day the tides
finally curled round the moon's face.
eventides, thelassia eyes, moon
great and heavy as that one lucky coin
that refused to land, to grant a wish
or let luck decide for us. there were
star crabs scuttling under your
oragami skin. & i never realized
all the ways that you folded
until the doctor came back &
you folded into yourself,
please don't tell me it was disease.
please don't mention the fact
that there was a constellation
blossoming underneath your skin
as if it excuses the metaphor
of your candle-eyes dimming.
i was there for the treatment.
you weren't, rag-doll girl. you
hung limp as wet clot
You're My PhobiaDriving me into darknessYou're My Phobia3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Huddled in fetal position
I couldn't stop the frightened tears running down my face
That strange sense
That looming animosity I was clutched in
It has never disappeared
Even if it never truly existed
This tower over me, this shadow
The bane of everything I dream about
I can't speak, not face to face
Look in the eyes
Hear that piercing, blasting voice
I go numb
Alone and vulnerable
I feel so weak and defenseless
Just the mention of it
Curdles my blood
Treated like a friend but feeling like
I am the prey
Going cold in an instant, tense and dry
Wishing only to look at the floor
I wouldn't dare approach
Nor wish to be approached
It's like meeting a black hole
And feeling the blackness of the gravity on the hairs of your skin
I can't scream, I can't cry
I can't run and hide or fight
I just have to find a shield
And pray the fire doesn't come beating down
This is a phobia
It has no particular name
But I'm sure it's not n
My minds clouded, but my heart is notEmpty minded when you are hereMy minds clouded, but my heart is not3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Full of thoughts when from my sights you disappear
Words can't describe what I truly feel
You are the girl who my brain steers
Questions in my head which still remain
Answers which are all the same
I will never learn because of the emotions that got explained
Sadly thought, I keep pretending that I'm sane
It's unclear even thought my answers are here
I might be blind, because I can't see that she's mine
My fear took away my spine, because paranoia bestows in my mind
I'll have to remove my brain and use my heart that's far apart
The Game of DareAfter that hour of crazed laughter,The Game of Dare3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
After those minutes of being so close to you,
After those seconds of rushed happiness,
Things wanted for so long
and eager dares
You hold me closer than before,
And you whisper in my ear,
I can smell your clothing,
I can hear your heart,
I can feel your breath on my neck,
And your arms around me,
And you whisper in my ear,
Run AwayThere have been so many times,Run Away3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have just wanted life to stop.
For me to run away form this life.
You treat me like garbage,
And I don't know how to handle you anymore.
I want out.
If I died young,
Life for you would be the same.
If I died young,
You wouldn't mourn my passing.
If I died young,
You would keep living your life the way it is.
If I died young,
You wouldn't care.
I feel bad for you,
That you're like this.
One of the few people that care about you,
You push away,
And could care less.
So if I died young,
You wouldn't notice.
TrustDoes it have a meaning anymore?Trust3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Can anyone just be honest anymore?
I'm not saying I'm innocent.
I have committed the crime.
But I don't lie like you did.
Or like you.
It's incredible how people,
Can just lie through their teeth.
Oh I don't have time for you.
Not saying something,
That could be crucial to the future.
I would have rather you told me,
And saved me the pain.
I don't like hearing things from other people.
So now you've fucked up,
And I want nothing to do with you.
So have fun,
Fucking with every person you end up loving,
Or that ends up loving you.
Because most people wont put up,
With your bullshit.
Words UnspokenIn these lives of parodies,Words Unspoken4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
In these times of bitter dreams,
We speak in elegies
As the churchyard resonates with peace.
In the womb of the autumn breeze
There lie the things we never say,
Like once proud amber leaves
Which fly away, oh so far away.
Of thoughts too queer to speak
And words suppressed that ceased to be
And the love that made us bleed,
T'was but too frail to be freed.
In our cowardice and pride
Those pretences of our own device,
We hurt and made them cry
And found no need to apologize.
All the times that we stood still
As tyrants drew blood from every kill
And this world never made any sense
Oh but we stood in cloyed silence,
But someday a time will come
When the caskets of our lost words
Will shatter with feelings unspent
And haunt us to our graves,
So for all the lies and silent nights,
The days we've failed to bare our souls,
For all the hearts, bled and broken,
This one's for all the words unspoken.
Not a writerToday I took my pencilNot a writer4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And started to think
Now what should I write about?
I'm sick of it
Too boring to read
I'm done with it
I lie on the floor and start to sing
Something so sad and something so sweet
No need to write it down
But nothing about
Melody is quite simple
As it comes from the heart
You might think I'm tearful
But no, I am not
Too many reasons why I'm here
Too many questions unrelieved
So many people should just leave
Away, get vanished, disappear
I'm still holding pencil in my hand
Not writing, not trying to understand
But I'm singing to feel something new
Something weird, something so good
I'm not a writer and I don't know how to write
though all my life is one big poem, one big fight
But I'm still singing
This melody in me
And it sounds so perfectly
Forgive me please
Forgive me for this
But I'm not a writer
Just one big dreamer...
Lost GirlOh lost girl please come back,Lost Girl3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You're so out of place,
You have lost your way,
And need to come back.
You can get through this hurdle in life.
You can soar above and make it right.
Oh lost girl this isn't the end.
This life isn't a disaster.
Your life is worth so much more.
Find your passion, find your hope,
Find all the decency left in the world.
It's time to change your ways.
It's time to come back down to earth.
This world is a scary place,
But that doesn't mean you can't change it.
It means you can overcome great obstacles.
It means you can take this poisoned life,
And cure yourself of all this pain.
Rains of SorrowThe rain is pouringRains of Sorrow3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Pouring down sorrows
Pouring down visions
Of what will happen on the morrow
I know I cannot stop it
But at least I can try
Fling my arms wide open,
And beg mercy from the sky
O my lord Zeus!
Why must you plague me?
I played your games, stepped in your traps
I gambled dice with the tendrils of Destiny
What do I get,
For a half-broken wish?
Sorrow upon sorrow
Despair and anguish
Rain, rain, please go away
If you must, come back another day
Come when I am happy and bright,
Come when I have truly found sight
Go trouble the old man,
Sleeping on his porch
Don't harass me
Holder of Fate's torch
Lest it blow out,
Lest the flames die,
I can do nothing
But sit down and cry
Cry for the future, cry for the past
But however bad they are, the present is worse
The present's not a gift
The present is a curse
Graveyard of my dreams,
Dreams that never came true
Dreams of me walking
Slowly towards you
But then you pass by,
Without sparing a glance
This is destiny
Not the child of chan
Did He Just Say....The words drifted in the air,Did He Just Say....3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like silver sugar lacing my smile,
I feel the skin around my eyes and neck warm and tint with red,
I cast down my eyes and smile,
There they are,
His fingers in my hair again,
Tapping and playing,
But all I can hear are those words
Dancing through my head like perfect hallucinations,
But he said them .he did
."We could be" ..
My Label/ Hi, My Name Is...Sometimes I think I need to wear a label,My Label/ Hi, My Name Is...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That will tell you what is wrong with me
"Hi, My Name Is:
Easily loving, falls to quickly, doesn't know when to stop, tries her best but can't succeed, and only wants to hold someone's hand to feel that hand on her shoulder when she cries "
The ink would be smudged across as if written in haste, a couple letters bolded in spots as if trying to fix a mistake So many mistakes
The edges would be peeling as if to forget I ever existed all together
Sometimes, I think I need to wear a warning
So you will know ahead of time that I'm too broken to repair too lost to be found too hurt to heal and pretend to smile, often .
So that when you don't like what you read, I can just tear it away, and write another
But no matter what I try, my name is always the same .
Do You Have Any Idea?Do you have any ideaDo You Have Any Idea?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What it's like to sit on the floor and cry?
To have tears of pain run down your face.
To feel so bad that it's hard to move.
Just wanting to die,
And end this pain.
Every piece of your heart
Falling to the ground.
Nothing matters anymore,
As you lie on the floor.
Nothing will ever be right,
For your world has become destroyed.
Every tearful thought crosses your mind,
As you lay completely broken.
Your world is upside down,
It has fallen apart.
So let the tears fall,
To help you get better,
And make your world a better place.
Where I Belong (poem)In your arms is where I belongWhere I Belong (poem)3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My love for you is ever strong
Isis made me just for you
You're on my mind in everything I do
You're all that I have ever adored
I am yours to keep, safe and stored
You're my one and only reason for living
Your touches are gentle and forgiving
I'll love you for the rest of my days
And promise to show you in 8 million ways
In your arms is where I belong
Only you know the melody to our harmonizing song