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Close My Eyes, Yet There It IsThere's something there that nudges my heart ,Close My Eyes, Yet There It Is9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
It pulls my lips into a smile that I can't control.
There's something there that draws the laughter from my chest,
And centers my attention in a way I haven't felt in a while….
I pull away and shake my head.
Press it against the chilled stone wall.
Close my eyes and remember.
Close my eyes and remember…
The pain from before,
The scars left behind,
The reason for the need to escape….
I can't do this…not again….
It would probably be best if I locked up my heart,
Muzzled it and tied it up,
Restrained and hidden from the breaking star-light.
Close my eyes and
The Shower's TherapyLetting the skins drape to the floor,The Shower's Therapy9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I reveal my body to the chilled sliding glass,
Stepping away from a mottled brown door,
The sudden sound of rain across tile soothes my ears.
Each step across the icy floor, over into the light blue haven,
A breath, a gasp, the warmth of each droplet slicing my skin, my blood spreading,
My hair loops down across my shoulders,
Like silken chords of brunette hues shining,
I watch as the water slides down the ropes, and dances off into the air before thinning below,
Slowly, I'm shaking,
My breath too shallow, backing up, clearing my eyes,
I lay against the stones and let the rain envelop me.
I f
Tempt Me With WordsWords are luscious and flow off the tongue,Tempt Me With Words10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tempt me, suitor,
With words of honey and lilac.
With faded parchment and onyx ink,
Slowly seduce me, kind sir,
With words of velvet and flame.
Words are precious and form the souls' essence,
Court me, gentle man,
With literature and good graces.
Words are indefinite and lucid,
Speak my language, hot-blooded spirit,
By softly whispering stanzas in my hair.
Words are eloquent and unique,
Trace sonnets on my skin,
Capture my heart with words.
Stain my blood with poetry,
Heat my heart with haikus,
Make my skin shiver with lyrics,
Capture my attention, soulful man,
By reciting and wr
Did He Just Say....The words drifted in the air,Did He Just Say....8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like silver sugar lacing my smile,
I feel the skin around my eyes and neck warm and tint with red,
I cast down my eyes and smile,
There they are,
His fingers in my hair again,
Tapping and playing,
But all I can hear are those words…
Dancing through my head like perfect hallucinations,
But he said them….he did…
……."We could be"…..
Your Feline Shadow...Go ahead and tell me,Your Feline Shadow...8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your darkest deepest fear,
Whisper it, type it slow,
And never let them hear…
Because you know how much I care,
You know what I really mean,
And because I care so deeply,
You're secret's safe with me.
Go ahead and tell me,
Who you really love,
Whisper it, and type it slow,
And never let them know…
Because you know that I still care,
So I'll never tell you no,
I'll support your whims on hand,
And never to let go.
So go ahead and tie the string,
Draw the face of my true soul,
Tickle, laugh, and trick me, boy,
But you have to know,
That these games make it difficult,
They make it oh so hard&#
The Game of DareAfter that hour of crazed laughter,The Game of Dare7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Flirty jokes,
Dirty taunts,
….and kisses…
After those minutes of being so close to you,
Whispered desires,
Glittering eyes,
….and biting…
After those seconds of rushed happiness,
Hyped realizations,
Things wanted for so long…
I'm Unsure...I pound my hands against my knees,I'm Unsure...9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Curled up on my sinking bed,
Pillows crammed behind my back,
And the crystal screen glaring before me…
A mirror within a mirror,
Onyx lettering returned and sent,
How can I explain how I am,
If even I'm not sure?
I've gone so long feeling dependent on words,
On promises,
Memories and hopeless, countless dreams,
And now?
The pain is nearly healed,
And I don't know how I feel…
Am I stunned because someone cares,
Shocked that I found a "cure"?
Speechless because I can't believe,
I'm freed from myself, it's over?
Even my lustful heart's not sure…
And even now as I bitterly star
Wrong, Mother.How can I put it?Wrong, Mother.10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
You're controlling and sickening,
Twisted and biased,
Harsh and unwilling for change.
Suspicious and cruel,
Biding by rules,
And consider all people strange.
You laugh at your behavior, and say you are right,
Wrong, Mother.
How can I put it,
You're wrong.
People are more than meets the eye,
and not all are greedy pigs.
Some need help to survive,
And some get it easy.
But that is life Mother,
Don't you know this?
I can see the hunger in your heart,
The hatred in your blood,
The hardness of your past suffering.
But life is not meant for suffering,
It is not meant for remembering the bitter past,
It is m
The Bitter Nightmare/Too Heavy A BurdenRusted daggers flung from their tongues,The Bitter Nightmare/Too Heavy A Burden9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Deep, infected scars reopened,
Tear away the skin above my breast,
And witness my heart's weak thrum.
You, you have made it so,
You poisoned it with your truthful tonic,
Your tampered quotes and encrypted sneers,
Do not twine the needle deeper,
Fling your hair through the seeping blood,
Paint the canvas of my years,
Falling from the chasm's edge,
Releasing my mind from the bitter nightmare,
I watch the sun comb its way through the trees,
And struggle to stand against the bars of home,
My hands and feet chained, a dusty cloth between my teeth,
I wait for the warden's glance,
That moment
I'm Not Pretty, I'm MeSometimes when I walk by a crowd,I'm Not Pretty, I'm Me10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A random person,
I get this vibe….
And when I look out of the corner of my eye,
I see them looking at me.
The guys give me this look,
And I don't understand.
Is there something wrong with my outfit?
My hair?
Is there bird crap on my jacket,
Or a stain on my jeans?
Why are you looking at me?
It startles me every time…
I'm nothing special to look at,
So please don't give me that look….
My sister says, "You're pretty…" when I brush my hair in the mirror…
But, really, I always think they're criticizing me...
Judging my ever move...
I look at my reflection and what do I s
Harsh Conversations With Myself"You're doing it again…"Harsh Conversations With Myself9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The annoying voice whispers,
Dry and rough like burnt tree bark…
I'm not, not this time. I know, right?
"You're doing it again…"
It tickles my ear as I laugh another tear,
Hovering like an invisible wasp intent to sting…
I'm not, not ready to. I know, right?
"You're doing it again…"
It trickles down my neck, making me shiver,
Excited but frightened, cautious by right…
I'm not, not going to. I know, right?
"Don't do it again wary loved girl,
Don't lose yourself to that thrum.
Don't th
Memories Between the BooksOpen the doors,Memories Between the Books9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The soft click of the metal lever,
The once soothing silence of the room is now suffocating.
Each step towards the shelves,
I hear only my quickened heartbeat,
And my shallow breath.
Dragging my fingers along the worn wooden shelving,
Letting my skin dance with every glimpse of his face,
I can't see what's in front of me,
I'm looking into the past…
When we sat there, and there, and in-between here with our favorite words…
And so much more…
I never thought it would be this hard,
Each and every step,
The slow, prolonged placement of my shoes on carpeted memories,
Like a movie scene,
Flashing b
Love like Saphire LightningHidden trails and wooden pedestals,Love like Saphire Lightning5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Whispered secrets and shivering promises,
A finger brushing her hair from her face,
A voice deep and wonderful to the core.
Like the sun grinning through the mossy trees,
The crackling leaves surprising her senses,
The scent of lust heavy in their breath,
And the taste of true romance on their lips.
His hand on her waist,
He pulled her close...
Chuckling as she turned, arching her neck for her request,
Trailing kisses on her ivory tone,
Every pause evoking shivers in her desire,
His eyes like the warmest promise,
The color brightened and heightened,
His voice a waterfall of ebony crystal,
Hi
The Awkward Potion/ I'm SorryI believe that at some point in my life,The Awkward Potion/ I'm Sorry7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I was given a potion.
A tampered bottle labeled "Awkward".
It seems I can't escape the side effects,
And I always do something…well..awkward.
Maybe, I never should have gotten online after realizing…
Maybe I should have left and stopped writing…
Maybe, when I thought of him, and stopped hurting over you…
I should have let go.
Logged off.
Stopped writing and vanished into reality.
But I couldn't…I live through my words…my arts…
I couldn't let go and forget everything…
And you almost never log on because of your new life…
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry
The Curse of The Flame PrincessDo you ever hear stories about that one girl with a curse?The Curse of The Flame Princess7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
How she loved with all her heart,
Gave a piece away every day,
And received so little in return?
Her curse was her heart.
Because once she finds someone she loves,
Her blood begins to burn like a dragon's tongue,
Her breath short and tight,
Her skin shivering and writhing like a snake's impatient skin.
Her heart was her curse.
Because whenever her love would hold her close,
A hug was comforting and warm,
A small kiss was hot and sweet,
And she could feel the fire rising her in her soul,
The lava that was her blood building up and threatening.
She feared nothing more,
My Label/ Hi, My Name Is...Sometimes I think I need to wear a label,My Label/ Hi, My Name Is...9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A sticker,
A collar,
A tag…
That will tell you what is wrong with me…
"Hi, My Name Is:
Easily loving, falls to quickly, doesn't know when to stop, tries her best but can't succeed, and only wants to hold someone's hand… to feel that hand on her shoulder when she cries…"
The ink would be smudged across as if written in haste, a couple letters bolded in spots as if trying to fix a mistake…So many mistakes…
The edges would be peeling as if to forget I ever existed all together…
Sometimes, I think I need to wear a warning…
So you will know ahead of time th
Here, In My HandsH e r eHere, In My Hands9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
In my hands…
Barely holding on to my flushed fingertips,
Is a dream.
Just an ordinary day dream,
One held precious and known only to me…
But within this fantasy, is a hidden promise…
A promise and a question,
H e r e
I cup my hands and let the starlight ruffle it's feathers,
Like a bird of thread, with eyes of gold…
Do you understand how fragile it is?
If you unravel it enough, you will find what's left of my heart,
Since I broke it in two for you.
H e r e
Underneath this twilight canvas,
I hold my hands up to you and watch your eyes change,
Don't you understand…
Please....Remind Me...Falling through their split-laced curtain,Please....Remind Me...7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Their venom-gilded web,
I extend my hand towards their bitter cackling,
Trying to hold on to my existence….
My mentality…
They are my blood,
They are my family,
But every glance is two-faceted,
And every remark is double its original worth.
They will never accept me,
They will never understand,
And the metallic sharpness,
Creates acid from their lips,
And the stinging denial,
Gives birth to underlying hatred.
I dance between both worlds known to me,
But I'd prefer to be in only one.
I lie through my teeth daily,
I put on a show and pretend,
And I constantly rem
Thoughts of FlameWhen your lips touch mine,Thoughts of Flame7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A fire builds inside,
Forcing me, reminding me,
How much I need your touch.
You ignite my blood,
And scar my neck with tempting burns,
I fear if too much is revealed,
Your love will disintegrate my soul.
Please try to understand,
that you are what burns my thoughts at night,
You are mine, and everyday, I become so much closer to losing my name,
Sweet, tempting, smirking man, I crave your special touch.
Hold me closer, still,
With every thrum of your heart,
My flame grows brighter until,
I become fire itself.
No PDANo PDA,No PDA7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
NO PDA...
If only they knew what it is like to love someone forbidden...
We cannot love at home...
We cannot love at school...
Where are we to hide our affections?
The shadows I suppose,
will keep our secrets faster than that of spiteful teachers' lips...
No PDA,
NO PDA...
If only they knew what it's like to need someone you cannot possess...
To have an unpredictable foundation of life,
Knowing, that if caught, everything would fall...
Existence, extinguished...
No PDA,
At least where they can see,
I am fighting for something of worth,
to love both worlds known to me...
No PDA,
At least where they can see.
Uncertainty and DoubtDoes anyone else stand at the edge of the stair and look down,Uncertainty and Doubt9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
wondering what it would feel like to never know how far the next step is?
As if you could walk blindly, and fall, sink, down into an un-foretold reality,
Lose yourself in chaos, the bitter chilled unknown…
I stand here now on the edge of porcelain stairs,
Peeking downward through my ebony lashes,
I feel a grip in my spirit,
A sickening wave of dizziness rolls over me,
Knocking me back, nudging doubt deeper into my skin like a poisonous shard.
"Do I step forward? Or do I wait in this haunting pain…"
Biting my lip, wringing my hands, my blood dancing loudly,
A Wild AnimalSlowly the angel stood,A Wild Animal5 months ago in Settings More Like This
Watching his wild lover shake,
Her mind tormented by two separate souls,
One wild, one tame,
Both to fight for their own name.
Chained to bedpost,
Clawed hands bound behind,
Her hair fell across her weary face,
Her eyes burning with fire found in cats alone.
Crouching near her panting form,
He brushed her hair from her face,
A small smile twists his lip,
And his eyes trace her shivering skin.
"What do you want from me?!" She whispers hatefully,
"What are you going to do? Destroy me like the others of my blood?
"I never knew you hunted my kind!" She spat at his feet,
Her teeth glaring in the bedroom li
Drifting MemoriesPulling covers over chilled shoulders,Drifting Memories7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Closing my eyes to the setting sun,
I feel my lips pinch in a small smile,
As I remember everything about you that makes my days special.
Every moment spent, every text sent,
I smile, knowing that you are mine,
And I sleep into dreams of holding your hand,
And kisses in courtyards,
Darkened rooms and bleachers,
Special memories take my hand,
And guide my heart to the reasons why I need you.
As long as I can dance the dance of both worlds,
Tread that fine line and remember my lies,
You'll be mine, and I'll be yours.
To Kiss A GhostSlowly the drug pulls down my veins,To Kiss A Ghost9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Pulling my hand in purpled waters,
Dragging me down into a misty realm,
Of lavender smoke…
Landing in a chilled crystal lake,
The ripples lapping against my legs,
I lift my eyes and see someone…
A shadow of... someone…
He reaches out a hand to me and touches my neck,
With the other, pulls me closer…
It was like kissing a ghost,
He was there, and then... he wasn't…
I never met his true self,
But I knew him then, and only then…
My hair ruffled through his fingers,
Rough and red,
His skin was cool and fading,
Blissful blue…
I never knew what it was&#
Sta.sh
