What I FeelHave you ever burned an incense cone or wand,
It's so light and only a fragile form of ash?
The slightest touch disintegrates it,
Sending it to fall down,
And becoming too much to clean
I feel like that.
Have you ever broken a glass jar,
Just enough to see the shatter-lines,
But it still retains its shape?
The slightest touch will destroy it,
Causing it to release glimmering daggers,
Waiting to be stepped on for their revenge
I feel like that.
Have you ever touched a frozen layer of water,
Tried to lift it from the bowl,
Tried to keep it from breaking it's original crystal form?
The slightest touch will erase your reflection,
And you will be left with two shards of melting depression,
That will freeze your blood, and scar your mentality
I feel like that.
I'm just so tired of being fragile,
Of being close enough to the edge
To look but never go down
I'm just so tired of holding myself together
All I want is for someone else to hold me&
I Am Your Clockwork DollLay me out on the table and open my eyes,I Am Your Clockwork Doll1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Peel back the skin and reveal my porcelain heart,
Like a clockwork doll, made in secret from the mountains,
A lock is encased in its center,
And the key was lost long ago
Given to a man of a name I've never known
You play music of the sweetest notes,
Stories of love and devoted trust
Love I don't deserve
Love I can only give away
What a truthful night it has been for this doll,
Every heart spoke its truth,
And she nearly cried from her shock
So much love and care,
From those she's never met never known
Her crystal blood flows freely now,
Warming up her ceramic skin,
Her glass lips shining,
Her bright eyes sparking,
You all have awoken me, once more.
I'm just the clockwork doll brought down from the mountains .
Basking in the unimaginable, unexpected love of your words.
Your Feline Shadow...Go ahead and tell me,Your Feline Shadow...1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your darkest deepest fear,
Whisper it, type it slow,
And never let them hear
Because you know how much I care,
You know what I really mean,
And because I care so deeply,
You're secret's safe with me.
Go ahead and tell me,
Who you really love,
Whisper it, and type it slow,
And never let them know
Because you know that I still care,
So I'll never tell you no,
I'll support your whims on hand,
And never to let go.
So go ahead and tie the string,
Draw the face of my true soul,
Tickle, laugh, and trick me, boy,
But you have to know,
That these games make it difficult,
They make it oh so hard
I care for you,
And yet you're not sure..... who you care for
And I can't let go
I'll be here,
Waiting, smiling, laughing, and playing as always seen.
I'll be here,
Hoping, trusting, caring, and saying what I mean
And you'll be there,
Swaying to and fro,
Never knowing who to love
I'm your feline shadow, boy,
It's What I'm Here ForLast night, I dreamt that a friend of mine was crying.It's What I'm Here For1 year ago in Emotional More Like This
The tears of his confusion so beautiful against his cheek...
His eyes so hurt, so lost....
I needed to help him....to be there for him...
I spent the whole night dreaming that we sat somewhere as we were lost in the darkness of our feelings,
holding him together,
keeping him from falling apart....
I didn't want to do anything else,
he needed me...
There wasn't any talk of confused kisses,
Or quick jokes to cheer up his wonderful smile,
We just sat there together....
My pale hand across his face,
drying the tears of yet another lost heart....
That's what I'm here for I guess....To love all, with all my heart.....and fall apart myself, as I hold everyone else together....
She CommanderTwinkling lights in the skyShe Commander1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Darkness fallen in the night
Bloody howling going up high
Soldiers ready for a fight
A figure cloaked in black
Claws gleaming like silver
Her growl keeps legions in tact
The noise making them shiver
Who cares who the enemy is
They go where she sends them
You know when the wind shifts
Who is really going to win
There was no competition
Though she may have some scars
The daughter of winners blood
Knows how to play her cards
Here is your warning now
Turn tail and run for the hills
Take the knee and bow
Before your blood is spilled
My Christmas WishAll I want for Christmas is to know that you're alive and happy.My Christmas Wish1 year ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
That you can walk the streets with a smile.
All I want for Christmas is to know you're alive.
Wherever you are, as long as you smile.
The thought brings tears in my eyes.
The love of my life.
I hear the song playing in my mind..
All my hopes and my fears.
in this moment are clear.
you are the one.
my moon, my stars, my sun
The tears in my eyes will never dry.
It won't disappear.
All I want is for you to be alive smiling.
As long as I know I will be happy.
Things Won't Change Will They?Can't anyone understand?Things Won't Change Will They?1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Don't they see what I have to go through?
Pfft, yeah right, she never cared.
It was only my father; he had always been there with me.
Even after what had happen.
That women makes me sick, and she has the nerve to tell me she is my mother?
What good has she ever done for me?
Throwing me out on the streets when I was two?
Thanks mom I really appreciate it.
Would things have been different if I didn't have dog ears and tail?
Or would things have stayed the same?
Dad may have not died then.
I wouldn't have been thrown out of the only home I've ever known.
Now what am I suppose to do?
Sit around and do nothing?
I won't give you that satisfaction, but I guess you won right?
Do you hear me now mother?! Your son is about to die alone on the streets!
You would love to see that wouldn't you?
I may be enhanced, but I'm still human somewhat thanks to your father.
Things are different now; I was saved, by someone who is more of a mother than you wil
ClingingThe countdown's started, and I'm paralyzedClinging1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The timer's ticking, and I'm petrified
Held in Limbo, desensitized
I said I wasn't scared; I lied
The days pass in a blur
My thoughts reduce to a slur
Pushing through that extra mile
Waiting to stand trial
Holding on to this thread
Connecting me to reality
On the edge of insanity
I lie in wait
Hanging on to the edge
Fingers trembling with emotion
Categorizing my destruction
I lie in wait
And here I wait, unchanging as stone
Here I wait, wanting to atone
I'll hold on to this crag till my last breath
Silent in life, silent in death
OccasionallyOccasionallyOccasionally1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am the song
Heard a million times
Sung only once in a while
I am the bird,
Caged, yet willing
I am the leaf
That falls off a tree
From the Wandering Forest
That never was.
I am the one who digs through
Of clothing to
Find my keys.
I am the thinker
Who believes that
Nothing should be
Nothing but the TruthA friend I made.Nothing but the Truth1 year ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
A liar I became.
What I gained was nothing but derail.
I had my chance.
I gave everything yet nothing at the time.
Who am I to blame, I did a mistake.
My words, my fault.
It's me not you.
My mind, my heart - It's nothing but the truth.
My mouth tell lies, my heart collapse.
A friend I made.
An enemy I became.
I had my chance.
I apologize, my friend.
What Is The AnswerI have a question,What Is The Answer1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want you to answer,
And I want you to answer it now,
If you loved me,
Why didn't you Show it,
If you cared,
You could have proved it
You have moved on,
And you never told me why,
So now you have a chance,
So what will it be?
Will you just answer me?
We are oneI'll take you awayWe are one1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Under my arms
Wrap you up tight
Never to let go
I'll never leave you alone
The darkness that has caught you
I'll help you save you from yourself
The you from that time long ago
I decided to protect
I watched you grow up
We were one
You were my light
Now, I'll be yours
I'll cleanse your tainted soul
Unlock your hidden emotions
Make you believe again
We'll be one once more
Stay with meI'll always be by your sideStay with me1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The you that is never here
Let me hear your voice
Trust my words
I know you've been crying
Alone in the dark
Hiding from anyone
Trying to speak their hearts thoughts
Listen to my voice
I'll always be true
Follow me on this path
Let's stay on this earth
Make our dreams come true
Love will shineThe sadness in your voiceLove will shine1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tells a story of loneliness
Missing a dear one
Always longing, forever loving
I need you by my side
Missing you is the hardest I do
My feelings are exploding
I want to believe
Betting on an emotion
Trying to keep faith
That one day
Love will shine
Pre-Selected- Another Nightly worry.I'm infected.Pre-Selected- Another Nightly worry.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Past the defences,
Even after I wrecked it?
First to lay the blame on,
When everything goes wrong,
I'm still singing the same song.
Like someone chasing after you through winter nights,
Hoping, aching for the things you try,
To prove your innocence against.
As purity is shattered on the snow.
The whipping tails of ice caress your retreat.
And stick you in the ground to face the things behind you.
Before you can move forward.
Even still they poke and prod,
Blame you for burning down paradise.
Incinerate your home.
And freeze in apathy.
But you were already chosen.
The hearth of love can only wait so long before it hungers.
So feed the others to the flame.
Feed the pre-selected.
Kindling so that you may go and grow,
And you were always the choice.
I was always the choice.
I had this,
Lady Of The Water's Mind~Lady Of The Water's Mind~Lady Of The Water's Mind1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
(~Water's Best Kept Secret~)
The blood boils over and I can't hold back
They should've known my fuse would burn out
Their patiance is the one thing I lack
Why didn't they stop while I was calm?
Cause I don't care what happens to them of late
Damn, it's always been this way
You should never tempt your fate
With the Lady of the Water Mind
They though they ruled over the sea
But the ocean belongs and is me
I will never be tamed by men
Create a storm in any river, lake, ocean
A storm where it's impossible to survive
There shall be no-one left alive
The last thing they did was make me mad
I'm the Lady of the Waters Mind
Even at my very last breath
I will protect this homeland I treasure
Even when they're singing of my death
I cannot let them have their pleasure
They will not get me without a fight
It'll be hard, nay, impossible to find
Mens weapons are nothing compared to my might
Death to the Lady of the Waters Mind
But all good things must end
I have protected m
HuskThe wind is sharp it's early dusk,Husk1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
my skin it itches and fights my husk.
The moon it shines her kiss divine,
my skin it shifts soon she will be mine.
Howling hollow tunes at dusk,
my soul it roars and rips my husk.
The pines stand like shadowry towers tall,
you will die if I catch you when my husk it falls.
Ripping trough my skin at dusk,
nose to the wind im free of my husk.
Running trough the forest black,
my heart beats fast compassion I lack.
Hunting hallow girls at dusk,
as my teeth sink in im free of my husk.
Howling hunting prowling at dusk..
Your scent says fear..
Im free of my husk..
I'm freeI'm freeI'm free1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I think I passed hell hours ago
I reach up
But no one takes hold
They scorn me
For I am lower than they
Reaching new depths
Losing sight of the sun
But at least I can say
I will never reach
That lowly place
You have stooped to
And because of that
DedicatedLet me sleep until December end.Dedicated2 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I don't want to see those happy faces.
I don't want to act.
I don't want to smile.
I miss you.
I really do.
One hour old.
You didn't even know.
I'll visit you soon.
I wish I could tell how sorry I am.
No one knows.
I'm tearing apart.
You didn't even know.
You only became one hour old.
I wish I told.
Living DeadI awake with worms crawling inside, dying from infectionLiving Dead1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
My gut dug into, fractured ribs, missing some intestines
My jaw is broken, hanging open, I'm blind in both my eyes
Limbs locked by rigor mortis, a pitchfork sticks out my thigh
The only pain I feel is a constant aching hollow
Impulse to fill the void has me in search of ones to swallow
I hunger for the living... I've lost my grip on sanity
Cravings control this corpse to turn on crying family
I'm all regret and rot, they're blood and snot and tear bubbles
I wish I could resist... but the empty sickness doubles
I bite into the necks of the ones I once protected
Chew away their flesh and leave their pleas neglected
I can't escape the filth ingrained in skin; it stains my mind
I'm covered head to toe in wounds, bloody brains and grime
Cursed to feed again, no end until I've lost my head
The night is haunted by the marching genocidal dead
AlwaysDo you see the water?Always1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
That used to be me
Flowing, oh so carefree
Leaving Mother Earth
Once in a while
(It was a heated disagreement)
But I come back
I always come back.
Do you see the skeleton?
That used to be me
Cold bones, white, bleached
In the sun
(It was only an accident)
So I stay
I always stay.
Do you see the lightning?
That used to be me
Oh, too late.
(It was a flash you know)
There's not enough time
There's always not enough time.
Do you see the blue marble?
That's where I am
You could block me out with your thumb.
Abundant yet lonely
I am always lonely.
Those peopleThose people who thinkThose people1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
They are better than others
Just because they are rich,
Your friends, sisters or brothers
They just think they can
Move people away from their home.
Because they have more money or status
They have no sins to atone
Those people drive me mad
They forget others are people too
They thrive on making others sad
That is all they do
But some are kind
And haven't forgot
And those who try to help
Are the ones who mean a lot.
All I Have Left To GiveWhen I've nothing left to say,All I Have Left To Give1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
when my well of words is dry
A kiss is all I have to give,
so I have to at least try.
You could could never choose to be
with someone cold like me,
but when I think of you with someone else,
I don't mind wallowing,
alone here in the dark,
but just know, your mark's on me,
like a scar carved on my heart.
The RiverThe river is so coldThe River1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It drags me down
Yes the cold river
Far away from any town
The river is so deep
When will I cease to sink?
Yes the deep river
Is darker than ink
The frightening river
It forbids me to take my breath
Yes the deadly river
It sealed my death
The Teacup of LifeThe Teacup of LifeThe Teacup of Life1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
White or herbal, green or black
People are like leaves of tea
Small cups, big cups, plain cups, dainty little china cups
They're as varied as variety can be
Bitter or Sweet, Warm, or Iced
Their flavor hides behind many colors
Sugar, milk, honey, or nothing
But some flavors please us more than others
Some people are bitter, but their presence makes us better
For they enrich our bodies and minds
Some people are sweet, brightly colored, and fruity
Bring a smile with delicate tastes so kind
Yet others are warm, homey, and enriching
Comforting like a holiday at a relative's home
Regardless of the flavors you put on your shelves
You'll have life in your cup and you won't be alone