And in that very moment, I knew it was already too late
My vision has adjusted
The memories of my former life all just slipped away
My light has faded
The last of the fallen sparks fluttered in the distance
My hope has been obliterated
The shadows rose to claim their long awaited radiance
My destiny was always fated
In my heart, I lost it all
To this very second, it's still my fault
In my body, I have been tainted
From all of the damage I sustained
In my mind, I felt everything snap
I smiled as all of the colors turned black
In my soul, I had to let it all go
Cradled by the darkness is all I will ever know
In my eyes, I
The Unseen LifeThe Unseen Life1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Unseen Life
I thought pain was created to fade
But it seems like my life was crafted to break
So I apologize to the mirror and say "I'm sorry, it's too late."
I can't even look at my own face, as I can never accept my mistakes
I realize that I am brokenly made
My mind bleeds away the memories I've wasted
Remorse begins to slowly fill in the gaps that are left
This stained razor blade leaves every dark moment perfectly divided
I try not to indulge in act of prayer, because I refuse to ever confess
Even in death I will never rest
All visible colors descend into the ground
And time drifts off to sleep
Every sharp outline ascends into the clouds
As this reality begins to dream
This world has truly abandoned me
I keep on doing what I've done
So I can't deny that I've forsaken hope
I couldn't stop the emptiness once it had begun
But I had no other choice, because I was left alone
All I have ever had was myself to disown
Dawning self-hatred with no e
Era Of SilenceEra Of Silence1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Era Of Silence
Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp
Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know
So I no longer speak for myself
No, not anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My pure torture
I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody does
Guilt is truly consuming / If you succumb to it
Sympathy is harshly damaging / The infliction is endless
I always put myself last
But first to feel the carnage
I let peace slip through my hands
I hate being so goddamn selfless
I hold my head up high toward the sky
So the tears will eventually dr
Only In Ink...With eyes like goldOnly In Ink...1 year ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
That lure and glow
Full of secrets
I'll never know
With a voice so melodic
That drags me in
And an embrace so warming
My head starts to spin
With unfaltering grace
And a flawless stroll
And oh, those eyes
That bore into my soul
They pull me in
And I'm unable to think
How can I love someone
Who exists only in ink
Purest CrimeI have a diamond in a boxPurest Crime2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
It sits in a safe that's tightly locked
In darkness its beauty is forever sealed
Its gleaming features never revealed
Crooks and thieves that crave its wealth
Have tried to steal it with their stealth
Failure follows them every time
Death is the penalty for this crime
Often times, to make them feel shame
I have them participate in a little game
They bet their souls like poker chips
Completely aware of what's at risk
If they win, I will hold up my side of the deal
And give them what they came to steal
But if their game results in loss
Their souls are placed inside my box
The diamond inside is not of carbon
But of the souls so carelessly bargained
Tightly packed into a mass
They glow and shimmer like pure glass
So I welcome all thieves, crooks and liars
In the hopes of adding their souls to the pile
And if you try to pick my lock
Remember, eternity is a long time to spend in a box
I'm So Far Away From HopeI'm So Far Away From Hope1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm So Far Away From Hope
Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different
Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing
I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew everyone's morals are blinded
Maybe it is meant
To be like this from beginning to end
To endure without crying
To practice the art of suffering
I wanted to find change
But I'm not strong enough for this pain
The hollowed promises won't be found
Because I was taught to despise myself
I was told that there was nothing here for me
I failed right
No More TherapyNo More Therapy1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
No More Therapy
Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here
Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done
Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision
Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind
Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy
I am wrong
What am I living for?
All I know is this constant fear
What is the cure for a pain when life is the source?
You cannot break and repair what you didn't handle with care
I'm anything but loved / Let the mistakes be undone
I know what's right / This is my plight
No turning back / Hope won't last
Do or die / Choice was mine
Frozen WhirlpoolFrozen Whirlpool1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Somewhere...in the ocean
There is a whirlpool...that is...frozen
I no longer had anything keeping me bound to this world
You were my love, you were my chain, and my heart was a link
And I couldn't bear the thought of never seeing your face anymore
So my knees gave, as I let my thoughts break, and I forced myself to sink
Somewhere...in the darkness
There is a soul...which became faithless
All those memories down the drain
I feel the bitterness of hope
While my tears rain
I cannot cope
Somewhere...in the depths
There is a spark...cradled by emptiness
My pain will always remain in time
As I never wanted to let you go
But I still got left behind
Only to dwell in remorse
Somewhere...along the path
Came a point...where I couldn't stand
I knew there would be no moving on
And there would be no going back
Because I can't stand the thought
Of potentially losing any of that
Somewhere...in my mind
There is a time...when I loved my
Rain Of DarknessRain Of Darkness1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rain Of Darkness
Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked and everything faded to black
When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable
The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew wasted
As the remorse relapsed
I was consumed by hatred
Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction
My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction
You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation
Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted
Reverse and amplify the blame
The faith in others becomes my bane
Ridding myself of everything but despair
You forced me to let in what I've always feared
Something inside me crumbled
As the center of my heart stung
I made even the shadows tremble
When they saw what I have become
Believe me, I tried, I really did
But this is what happens what all trust is lost
Turn On The DarkTurn On The Dark1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
When fragile hopes and fears collide
It waits for you on the other side
I can feel the tremors in my soul
I've grown afraid of the masquerade.
Barely holding on, I'm losing control
Wide awake, I confide in the shade.
Sinking so slowly down the drain
Much like the purple pill I swallow.
A voice unheard is a voice in vane
Black rain falls and teardrop's follow.
Shadows loom throughout the room
They cover my eyes like a veil.
Just flip the switch, it'll be over soon
Just pull the curtain over the pale.
The transition rattles my psyche at first
Yet it's a feeling I've always invited.
For when my body becomes submersed
I discover my worlds benighted.
I wonder how much time has passed
Fading deeper into the stark domain.
A place like this, shows no contrast
But it's a place I must ascertain.
I call this smoke-filled cell a prison
That harbors questions of fruition.
But like a zombie, I have risen
To greet the face of my mortician.
I'm taken with its abysmal skies
Now I reap the chilling s
Martyr:It's Never Too LateMartyr:It's Never Too Late1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Martyr:It's Never Too Late
You don't have to believe me, but I know
All the different kinds of pain, and processes of sorrow
What it feels like not wanting to wake up to see another tomorrow
I had every attempt planned out
I slammed the tear-stained pen down
I screamed in my head it's either never or now
And I slowly walked out onto the road
Trying to not turn back, because there's no more hope
I left it behind mixed on the paper, the last goodbye letter that I wrote
Give me your hate / Hand me your pain
Toss me your blame / Force out your bane
I've broken all of my blood oaths
Stacked on top of all the unread notes
The words written down always dragged me into the undertow
I secretly despised my own existence, I'm nothing but a coward
Every second I spent alone I always backed myself into another corner
I want to leave nothing to be remembered by, I don't want my death to matter
All I can say is don't make the same mistakes I have, don't die on the i
She CommanderTwinkling lights in the skyShe Commander1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Darkness fallen in the night
Bloody howling going up high
Soldiers ready for a fight
A figure cloaked in black
Claws gleaming like silver
Her growl keeps legions in tact
The noise making them shiver
Who cares who the enemy is
They go where she sends them
You know when the wind shifts
Who is really going to win
There was no competition
Though she may have some scars
The daughter of winners blood
Knows how to play her cards
Here is your warning now
Turn tail and run for the hills
Take the knee and bow
Before your blood is spilled
Silence...Roses are redSilence...1 year ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Silence is blue
If it makes you cry
Ill come at you
SleepShe would just like to curl up in a ball and sleep,Sleep1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The days away. Sometimes, she thinks it would be easier.
She wants the dreams to come so she won't have to weep.
When her eyes are closed, the memories dissolve.
The emotions slowly fades away.
But that's not all these dreams involve.
Suddenly, she's no longer someone that causes regrets.
She can be anything like a princess or a dragon rider.
She can dance on the moon or smoke some cigerettes.
There aren't any horrible consequences. She feels no more pain.
But that can only last for so long. She has to wake up.
Though she doesn't want to leave her true domain.
But once the sleeping beast wakes, reality sinks in deep.
It's a bitter awakening but gives her slight hope,
For the next time. So she can go back to her sleep.
Her feelings.A smile of a faker spreads across her face.Her feelings.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
She lets no one see her break.
Meds in her purse, just in case.
Pop a pill here. Ignore the pain.
Wave to people who don't understand.
Hope no one asks her to explain.
Stumbles here, catches herself there.
Fake the feeling of being alive.
About to break and needs to repair.
Another pills slips on to her tongue.
Maybe a few extra as long as no one sees.
Cough a little as they get hung.
Tears are shed but not for long.
Caring takes to much time.
She's know that's wrong.
But after time, feelings fade enough.
That she can go on,
To pretending to be tough.
Living DeadI awake with worms crawling inside, dying from infectionLiving Dead1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
My gut dug into, fractured ribs, missing some intestines
My jaw is broken, hanging open, I'm blind in both my eyes
Limbs locked by rigor mortis, a pitchfork sticks out my thigh
The only pain I feel is a constant aching hollow
Impulse to fill the void has me in search of ones to swallow
I hunger for the living... I've lost my grip on sanity
Cravings control this corpse to turn on crying family
I'm all regret and rot, they're blood and snot and tear bubbles
I wish I could resist... but the empty sickness doubles
I bite into the necks of the ones I once protected
Chew away their flesh and leave their pleas neglected
I can't escape the filth ingrained in skin; it stains my mind
I'm covered head to toe in wounds, bloody brains and grime
Cursed to feed again, no end until I've lost my head
The night is haunted by the marching genocidal dead
All I Have Left To GiveWhen I've nothing left to say,All I Have Left To Give1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
when my well of words is dry
A kiss is all I have to give,
so I have to at least try.
You could could never choose to be
with someone cold like me,
but when I think of you with someone else,
I don't mind wallowing,
alone here in the dark,
but just know, your mark's on me,
like a scar carved on my heart.
Collaboration: I am the DreamerI am the dreamer,Collaboration: I am the Dreamer1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The one who asks 'What if?'
I have imagination,
A small child's gift.
Creativity moves my soul,
My mind often adrift.
I dare to see,
See what isn't there,
But what could be.
I am the dreamer...
Would you come,
Come and dream with me?
The starry sky's,
Reversed HellLook inside this reversed hellReversed Hell2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tell me what you see
Look inside this prison cell
And just set me free
Break these shackles and my bonds
Pick me up so I can walk
Did you hear my voice from beyond
I didn't know I could talk
My body is broken outside and in
My heart is rotten too
Didn't you know that I was a sin
And now I know what to do
I'll consume your heart
Eat it right out of your chest
Didn't think you could be torn apart
But now just look whats left
This was a fun experience
I had fun playing this game
But sadly I've forgotten since
And don't even know your name
I'm Falling DownI'm Falling Down1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm Falling Down
Pain just seemed to pass me by
Swift as tsunami waves touching the sky
Reality was nothing but a mirror
Melting away like frozen water on fading fire
I closed my sorrowful eyes
As if it was going to be the last time
And sparked images of my past that I don't want to remember
I was deceived every time I was told that it was going to get better
Flashes of agony
Infected my mind
And stinging anxiety
Shoots up my spine
While despair wraps around my heart
I want to let it all go
This life was just too hard
I don't want it anymore
There was no way out of this
I somehow cornered myself
It was meant to end in darkness
To plunge into my hell
I never could run away
There was no more hope for me
Abandonment always caught up
Being alone all the time was just too tough
I was too weak, and my problems were too heavy
There was no more strength for my burdened soul to be carried
So I will ma
A Spark In The DarkA Spark In The Dark1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Spark In The Dark
After I had met you
I found out that hope can be so wounding
Now I know what love can do
As the pieces of my heart are still falling
You made me fade in-and-out of heaven
Allowing me the taste of peace momentarily
And you're right back to testing my withdrawing patience
While I plunge back into the same old hell with this vulnerability
The feeling is too raw
A tug of war between different kinds of torment
I'm missing you so much
A never ending stalemate, the sorrow is infinite
Stay Stay Stay
Don't go, don't leave
Pray Pray Pray
Don't let go of me
But you left me for the last time
I realized that love can be so addicting
When you heartlessly took back your light
And now the memories of us are slowly darkening
You're forcing me to despise what I will never again have
As you knowingly handed me those memories of serenity
But you just had to go and leave my hopeful grasp
So now I fall away, descend
Ashes Of TomorrowAshes Of Tomorrow1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Ashes Of Tomorrow
I can destroy what I create
If I really, and truly wanted to
I can light these feelings ablaze
If I didn't want anymore support from you
I barely stop myself time and time again
I realize there's a sense of cruelty in all of us
It's just that feeling, everything might be in vain
When tempted at breaking down those barriers of trust
To jeopardize all of the triumphs
I want to be the one who is blamed
The fire will reach the sky, and become my guidance
I want to be swallowed by my own inner, selfish flames
I sit behind the scenes of my friendships
Alone, with a fake smile on my face
That old feeling of loneliness is tempting
Cold, but the embers will soon burn me away
Ashes paint the sky / I'm the phoenix at fault
My flames roar as I cry / As all hope finally falls
I need to get back at myself
Delivering a fiery vengeance
I know that I don't deserve anyone else
As all of the bridges simultaneously start burning
I wanted to erase what I made
And I tr
I'm freeI'm freeI'm free1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I think I passed hell hours ago
I reach up
But no one takes hold
They scorn me
For I am lower than they
Reaching new depths
Losing sight of the sun
But at least I can say
I will never reach
That lowly place
You have stooped to
And because of that
LegoLove is a beautiful soul steering thing;Lego1 year ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
when it happens
when it succeeds and the seed is sown.
But when wasted you can smell
The defeat as it ebbs away.
The dead quiet, complete void of uselessness.
The giving up,
the evaporation of passion,
the finality of something lost
and now leaden.
The ending of something that never was.
The HumThe city hums as toxic smokeThe Hum1 year ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Coils in the air like a snake,
Grasping at the sky pulsating
Grayish color in its wake.
Tall buildings suffocating
Uniformed workers in search for
The nearest subway train,
Emotion stuffed amidst bodies rushing.
Beady eyes scan surrounding terrain,
Sweat rolls down open pores,
Warm breath stains cool air
As bodies litter the sidewalk stains.
Sly glances shared reveal the wear
The metal tombs have exacted
On the soul of the unwilling,
How will they offer any care?
Metal compresses against metal,
Love and hate are merged in one,
Dark smoke coils in the air
Blotting out the unseen city.