divulgefor the last time idivulge4 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
am saying, get me the hell
away from myself
You Were RightI'm sleeping on your street now.You Were Right4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Head on canvas.
This is life in a cardboard box
When it starts to rain
And the walls collapse.
HerShe doesn't know where the true beautyHer4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Beneath the ocean, or under the skies
It's all hidden with buried treasure
It goes on for miles never to be
If her spirit's a free one and her soul
cant be crushed
May she find herself to be true and
stay free of the lust
if she's falling catch and embrace her
suffer the words that will never break
the world won't destroy how much she
along the depths of any ocean breeze
nothing will hold her from reaching her
for no boy, no man, can rip her heart
at it's seams
she's seen daylight and night fall and
over come the worst
maybe this time someone new will put
Snowy NightSnowflakes crossed the pitch black skySnowy Night4 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Milky streetlight poured down the block
Footsteps muffled in howling cry
Of the bell announcing twelve o'clock
Blurred view was frozen, white
As the breath before our eyes
For a moment the time had stopped
The clock flashed midnight twice
My frosty fingers reached by yours
The world grew silent within us
Suddenly my eyes met yours
And the seconds failed to pass
Warmth I felt from out of nowhere
From my hands to heart it streamed
As you lent slightly lower
Pried into my eyes and grinned
Howling bell sobbed louder
In that gloomy, wintry scene
For the midnight never longer
Yet too brief, or so it seemed
Kissing YouIt seems no matter how many girls I kissKissing You4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The only lips I can taste are yours
Only your hands touch my skin
Only your scent lingers
So I hope you don't mind
If I keep you with me
Just a little while longer
At least until that scent fades.
The Ugly Duckling Just Call Me the Ugly Duckling Because I'm Nothing Like YouThe Ugly Duckling4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Irrationally you place your words
Your crooked lines are softly blurred
And as I hear your views fall apart,
Your logic, a piece of abstract art,
I know it's a waste to release a sound
An open ear could never be found
By any thought that leaves my lips
They'll sail as well as mast-less ships
For if I said the world were round
You'd disagree like a bloodthirsty hound
And if I said to open your mind,
You'd claim that you don't have the patience or time
It's not that I ever expect you to improve
But ignorance is all you push and approve
Everything and NothingI'm titling a poem before it's writtenEverything and Nothing3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Everything and Nothing, I'll call it.
It'll be everything
And touch everything
And see everything
And taste everything
And know nothing.
It will sigh and laugh and smile
And feel nothing.
It will wish and hope and dream
And get nothing.
It will be everything I am
And everything I think
And everything I know
And it will be nothing.
This poem will ramble and meander and traipse
And come to nothing.
When I write everything
It sounds like nothing.
So instead I've decided to take a chance
And just write
The Girl In The Other RoomThat girl. That girl in the other room. She looks familiar. Like a dream you can't quite remember as you chase it down the garden path, catching but the last wisps of its silken gown in your clumsy fingers.The Girl In The Other Room4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I used to love growing roses.
"Mrs Winton?" A voice called to me as it washed my shriveled limbs.
Have I shown you my roses?
"Yes, they are beautiful Mrs Winton," The voice of an angel, this one. Much better than the last old sod.
"Come now, out of the tub we go," And I was lifted up, up out of the swirling ocean.
My father always said it was a waste of my youth, you know. I should have been helping our soldiers - "It is the war you know." The guns needed assembling and the crops needed harvesting - but my roses needed fertilizer.
What's a garden without roses? I asked the girl in the other room.
What is a garden without roses?
Why, it's not a garden, of course.
I stroked my hair. The girl in the other room did the same. She is always copying me, this girl. Her mouth moves to mimic
Killing MeMy silenceKilling Me4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's killing me.
My mouth has been sealed with silver-lined string,
To remain silent it what is asked of me.
So I obey her plea...
It's killing me.
My body is being held captive by arms of security's bliss,
In their grasp I must stay safe in it's sound-ness.
So I obey her wish...
It's killing me.
My eyes are strapped open by paper-thin needles,
I cannot miss a second of these details.
So I obey her tales.
It's killing me.
My heart is being pulled by one person's two fists,
Grabbing a hold of me and tightening without dismiss.
So I obey her list.
Myself and I
I'm killing me.
My body is aching and crying and I cannot help it,
For I am helplessly in love-
(My mouth has been silenced)
-and there is no way out.
TodayToday I decided I was going to fly,Today4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Only to find that it was impossible to try.
Today I decided I was going to soar,
Only to find that you cant soar anymore.
Today I decided I was going to speak my mind,
Only to find that it wasnt for which i signed.
Today I decided I was going out to sea,
Only to find that it's not what I thought it would be.
Today I decided I was going to be brave,
Only to find that I was a coward in her cave.
Today I decided I was going to cry,
Only to find that my eyes were bone dry.
Today I decided I was going to ignore my callin',
Only to find that my lips were frozen solid.
Tonight I decided I was going to stop,
And soon I will find that that's not good enough.
Tomorrow I will decide to leave well enough alone,
Only to find that what I wanted was far-blown.
Tweet Thistweet this,Tweet This4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
sweet thing -
i caught you
with your hair down low
like a songbird
and your skirt up,
lifted heaven scent,
calling us home.
didn't i warn you
and funny cigarettes
how your days and legs
would just disappear
and the couch
would swallow us whole?
just be sure
to marry a good boy,
one handsome as a cliff
with a cleft chin
who will come home
on the bus
with dinner in a bag
and fill you up with babies -
little pink testaments
to you and me.
Blank BeautyHidden deep beneath your shieldBlank Beauty4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your beauty hides,
Waiting to yield.
But you hide, beneath the shield.
You never delve into your heart
And put your life,
In the starring part.
Because you hid, your heart kept safe.
But if only you could see
Just how beautiful,
You can be.
And still you hide, hidden from my sight.
Your life would change and your shell would break
And all the world,
Would begin to shake.
And so hide, inside your safe shell.
Like a butterfly emerging strong
Your beauty will surely,
Do you no wrong.
And yet, you still hide, in your perfectly blank state.
DarknessSomeone once told me:Darkness4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"turn on a light"
Chase away the darkness with the bright
But here's a question for you
What do you do when the darkness is the only thing that feels right.
Why Bother?Why bother caring?Why Bother?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When no one cares for you...
Why bother fighting?
When I'm going to lose...
Why bother trying?
When I'm just going to fail...
Why bother living?
Just to tell a tale...
Why bother telling the truth?
When people are just going to lie...
Why bother surviving?
When I'm just going to die...
Why bother loving someone?
When they don't love you back...
Why bother believing?
I'm going to have to face the facts...
Why bother dreaming?
When I'm going to wake up...
Why bother following my path?
When it's full of bad luck...
Why bother to do right?
When it turns out to be wrong...
Why bother singing?
When no one likes the song...
Why bother laughing?
When I'm just going to cry...
Why bother smiling?
When I'm just going to ask myself why...
All I will get is lies.
Everthing's darker then it seems.
I will never have a chance.
If I know- I'm only going to die.
BeholderBeauty is in the eye of the beholder.Beholder4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But who is beholding this beauty?
It could be anyone,
Anyone can behold beauty.
But what if the beholder,
Doesn't want to behold your beauty?
Then, who will behold your beauty?
Then who beholds the beholders beauty?
I never really under stood that statement.
Is there really a beholder that will behold your beauty?
Or is it all a myth?
What if you don't find the beholders beauty beautiful?
You end up with a broken heart and another beholder
Beholding someone else's beauty.
As for me.
Who beholds my beauty?
Who do I behold?
There might be a long chain of beholders...
But I am not one of them.
I behold my own beauty.
I don't care what others think.
I could be beautiful, ugly,
Pretty, or a monster,
A demon or an angle,
Sweet, or stone-cold sour,
Adorable, or morbidly hideous.
It doesn't matter to me.
Because you don't behold my beauty.
No one does,
Die SliceDie3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe this pain
Will set me free.
Perhaps this love
Wasn't meant to be.
I know it's my fault
Who other than me?
Keep going harder
Its just what I need.
I know this pain,
Will set me free.
You hate yourself,
So why not me?
Friends and Family,
No more can I see.
Damn this stings,
With every dripping bead.
Not much longer,
This knife shall do it's deed.
Like ThisI cant go on like this.Like This4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Life is to short
For me to be bothered by this.
If I got something in return,
Maybe I wouldn't be so hit and miss.
But I seriously just cant go on like this.
Unconditional LoveSince the dawn of time began, God has hated me.Unconditional Love3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So the Bible says.
As a child I was told, that Jesus loves me.
Now I hear that God hates fags.
Must hate the queers too.
The lesbians, the bi's?
"AIDS", people call it God's cure.
For people like us.
Perhaps Hitler was God's cure, too.
For killing countless Jews.
At least I know,
masks the pain-
makes the pain
Come to me, my sweet damnation
Send me to Hell, where I belong.
And my obvious, eternal oblivion.
Save me, Oh Lord,
The one who loves me so?
From those who seek my soul.
What's on your mind?What's on your mind?What's on your mind?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What's on my mind?
That's the question I am asked.
Everytime I log in-
It asks me to remove what I've masked.
My feelings I keep in,
The thoughts I block out.
Everything that pops to mind,
When those words pop about.
If I wanted to tell the world,
What was really and honestly always on my mind-
I would set a status on my own.
I dont need you here, Facebook, to help me search and find.
So what's on my mind?
A fucking LOT.
And then I grew upI was born a fat, healthy, happy baby.And then I grew up4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And then I grew up.
And then I wasn't fat anymore.
And I wasn't healthy anymore.
And I wasn't happy anymore.
But after all, what's health and happiness when you're thin?
I was born a fat, healthy, happy baby.
It didn't last long enough.
BelieveSo is it you or is it me?Believe4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I know I said things that I didn't mean
But you should've known me by now
You should've known me
If you believed, when I said
I'd be better off without you
Then you never really knew me at all
If you believed, when I said
That I wouldn't be thinking about you
You thought you knew the truth- but
You're all that I need
Just tell me that you still believe...
Love is hard, love is rough
I know that this silence isn't what we need
But you should have known that by now....
If you believed, when I said
I'll be okay to wait around here forever
I'm sorry to tell you, your wrong.
You're all that I have
Please tell me that you,
My Not-So-Secret LieHave you been seeing the signs?My Not-So-Secret Lie3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Noticed things I've been trying to hide?
Will this be unexpected?
Or have you already suspected?
Will you be upset?
And then give me a threat
Or will you understand
And reassure me this is God's plan?
Please don't be scared
Understand that my heart still cares
Know that I'm not strange
And that this isn't just a phase
I'm trying to tell you my secret
You have no idea how hard it's been to keep it
I don't want to be rejected
Nor do I want to be neglected
Will you say you have unconditional Love?
Tell me every things ok and give me a hug?
Or will you just scream?
And disapprove of me?
Will you think that this was a choice?
Or will you open your ears and hear my heart's voice?
Will you be a helping hand?
And realize this who I am?
Now that you know
Will your love change?
Will it grow?
Or go down the drain?
Please know that I'm sorry
I didn't mean to lie
It's not the easiest task
Telling someone, you're Bi.