Morbid HeartThese painful tears still fall down
For the suffering I never give in
Angel wings of mine covered in crimson
Had forgotten how to fly long time ago
This little piece of ice I hold in my hands
For it shows the coldness deep inside
These eyes now empty and merciless
No tears, no more tears I shed
In this forest of darkness I walk
As a deadly shadow of the night
I roam forevermore these paths
There is still lost beauty within
These morbid thoughts better hide
They have darkened innocent hearts
Once so warm, pure and loyal
Turned into the worst suffering
His vicious life
Ends as the dawn rises
This shattered heart of mine I give
... For freezing winter
For fallen leaves
For forsaken lands...
Not enoughIt's not the wrong wordsNot enough3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Or the mistake you've made
It's the lies you tell to me
When you try to hide the truth
How could I ever trust you
When the one I love the most
Smiles, tells everything is fine
While whole world is falling apart
And the look on your face
When I wasn't what you excepted
I shattered your beautiful dream
Turned it into cold reality
As I couldn't fullfill your wish
Oh how I hate myself
I'm never enough for you
I cannot change inner me
Nor the emotions I have
I'm beautiful no more
Your love has withered
Was it only for my looks
Did you care after all
You won't admit it to me
From your eyes I see the truth
I was near perfect to you
But never perfect enough
Statue In The RainI'm not dead because I'm still breathing,Statue In The Rain3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not dead because I'm finally living.
I'm still here because you always need me,
I won't leave you if you don't leave me.
I'm still here, right where you left me,
The statue in the rain, ready to give you glee.
When you feel sad, you know where to go,
I'm not dead, I'm here for you and I hope you know.
That I'm still here, and always will be for you,
That I'll remain as long as I know you want me to.
That the statue in the rain will always be waiting for you,
Because Jennifer, I love you.
That NightYou took away my passionThat Night4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You kicked me to the ground
Like I had just gone out of fashion
You didn't want me around
I watched you while you were sleeping
And gave you all you desired
The greed just took you over
And the gesture got so tired
I fed you when you were hungry
I gave you a family and a home
But your patience just grew weary
So I spent my nights alone
You pushed me to the limit
When you had affairs so much
I should have really seen it
That I would shiver at your touch
The useless fool you made me
Messing with my life
I couldn't take the last affair
It drove me to the knife
I was going to make you pay
And the girls you had seduced
Pick you off one by one
This anger you produced
I crept into your bedroom
And stole your secret book
I had to find the number
I had to have a look
I found the girl you had last
The one from down the street
I crept in through her window
Now her makers she will meet
Sleeping like a princess
With a teddy on her bed
I pulled out a plastic bin bag
Is this what we can feel?Sometimes you just wishIs this what we can feel?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The pain could be locked away
Hidden in a black chest
Where you can't reach it
Suffering is what gets us down
Yet you cry and cannot shed tears
Otherwise you would drown in them
Once you saw an Angel
His wings yet so strong
He could protect thee
Silently watching over
Once this Angel fell
No protection, you are alone
Wings black and broken
Who would save the Angel?
Have you ever felt the rage
Fill your heart, lead thoughts
Revenge you want, nothing more
For the wounds you have got
Yet they will deny your anger
Yet they tell you to calm down
So you turn back, swallow your hate
Where it burns your lungs, your heart
Once you were crying outloud
As people rejected and ignored
Of course you were so hurt
Crying was the only solution
Yet you are told not to cry
It makes you look such a whiner
Emos and sad people aren't needed
That's what they say
You were jealous at times
When someone got a better grades
Or told how nice and easy life is
At least to the
Music in my soulIt's the music I now understandMusic in my soul3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Ignore it's message I now can't
I hear the music of the song
My mind hearing it along
The song begins, sounds play
The words in my mind still stay
Listen closely, listen good
The words finally understood
They come around, grab my soul
The words have reached their goal
My mind is depressed, I feel down
Upon my face an eternal frown
The sounds play with my heart
My moods always far apart
Sad now, happy a moment later
Both of each other the greater
Enjoy the music for the sound
It will make you jump around
Enjoy the music for the words
It's you soul it girds.
LongingLonging for the days with so much worthLonging4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
when the days and nights grew long
feelings and emotions were easily expressed
like the lyrics in a song
I was yours and you were mine
and nothing could keep us apart
now your gone and I'm alone
and someone else has your heart
I accept the fact that you're not mine
and I'm happy that you found love
found someone to treat you with respect
and always put you above
But I cant help but feel this rage
this jealousy and hatred toward you
that you could move on so easily
and I have nothing to hold on to
But I'm fine, believe me
I'll be just fine alone
I don't need somebody to make me happy
I can do it on my own
But that's a damn lie that I tell myself
I tell myself everyday
my existance is becoming worthless
as I slowly fade away
Love, love is what I long for
with that I'll finally be free
but as for now my days are numbered
needing help just to breathe
For I'm longing for the days with so much worth
when the days and nights grew long
feelings and emoti
Filling in a Blank PageFilling in a Blank PageFilling in a Blank Page4 years ago in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
Sometimes I just don't know what to write.
I just sit there, staring at a blank document.
I cant just write the first thing that comes to my head.
And I cant not write it in case I forget what I said.
Naturally my mind reverts to some sort of rhyme.
Unintentionally I end up using this technique nearly all the time.
I am weary of how people view my work.
As sad as it seems I just want to be liked.
This started off as an untold, personal activity.
That exposed my feelings and displayed my fragility.
Now I'm letting strangers read the scriptures woven in to my heart.
Allowing you to understand who and what I really am.
I guess I'm trying to make something of myself.
And although I would like it, its not for a self righteous and satisfying wealth.
I just don't want to be another name on a grave stone.
But I don't think my work is worthy enough for anyone to purchase and take home.
This may seem informal and unprofessional.
But this is actually completely
Forbidden SongsFor my death I singForbidden Songs4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This hate inside
My mind darkened
Desires for more
Shall flow forever
Wallow in this pain
Feel the coldness
Your wounds still bleed
With ripped heart you scream
Those pleads unheard
In this forsaken world
These wings used to cary us
...Now we are falling deeper down
When the despair
On your knees
With trembling hands
You still try to reach
My withering self
Silence is left.
ContradictionsThese things seem to rule my life,Contradictions3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Some people hate me and cause me strife,
Others think me a hero, ready to sacrifice myself.
Many think me noble, but you can decide that yourself.
Contradictions, they rule my life, "Why did she break up with you?"
A complete and utter list of contradictions, all of which I tell you,
"Does she love you?" I answer she says so, and I love her too.
A contradiction follows, "But then why did she break-up with you?"
That's the mystery, the greatest contradiction of all, to all of you,
But no, I leave out one thing, the thing that kills me inside too.
"I'm just... I'm not happy." What she said, word for word,
And I cry now, because what she said did not go unheard.
Light MeadowsGoodbye, irate inhibitions.Light Meadows3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Adieu, reckless recognitions.
Sayonara, rude restrictions.
Adios, pointless prohibitions.
It has become time to adamantly elude
the trepidation of negative attitude;
to parlay into beautiful spontaneity
and depart from monotonous animosity.
This chaotic thing called life
tends to bring habitual strife.
Through the endeavor of survival
often times come need of renewal.
Good day, prude premonitions.
Cheerio, tiresome traditions.
So long, absurd acquisitions.
Toodle-oo, dreary dispositions.
There is no need for this weight
that only mentally becomes innate,
All along in this present actuality
none of this crap will be reality.
I choose to tread my own path,
regardless of possible wrath.
Chasing away the dark shadows
in order to find light meadows.
SlenderBetter keep moving,Slender3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Evade his deadly grasp.
His long, tendril arms
Inching ever closer.
Nothing will stop him.
Darkness hides him,
Obscured by the vast
Unknown. But he's always...
The Intelligent Are So SadA cascade of words parade around,The Intelligent Are So Sad3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with thoughts of atoms and connotation.
She is brilliant, they say,
but she knows she is lost.
Numbers are her companion,
she understands their mean, average.
Words can twist her brain,
she loves the wonder they bring.
She is intelligent, they say,
she doesn't feel clever enough.
Sometimes she feels clever too much.
Excusez-moi, in perfect French,
but nothing is gained by perfect word tense.
She is clever, they say.
But she is not clever the way they know.
She sees things as they are,
and she prefers her thoughts to the world.
She knows she loves them more than they in return,
and her friends will be there until they wont.
Friends reassure her, you'll be okay,
she puts a smile on her face.
She loves them as much as any,
even though there aren't many.
They bring out the best in her,
the happy girl,
not swamped by words.
The one who isn't drowning in formula.
Test scores and numbers don't mark you smart,
she knows this now,
engraved in her
Save MeI am lost deep withinSave Me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Cannot find my way out
Silently crying in despair
I can hear only echoes
Of my unheard pleads
My voice is slowly fading
This sore throat failing me
Eyes cannot see through
Where did the light go
I feel my blood pouring
Running down my body
As I tremble weakly
Pain is holding me awake
They left me all alone
Trapped me down here
In the bitter cold
Freezing ice under me
Making me numb
Save me with your love
Sorry.So yes I am sorrySorry.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But know that I care,
I know that you worry
I know you despair-
I wish that you wouldn't
But I guess you can't stop,
I know that you didn't
Feel like you could help.
I know that feeling
And I know that it kills,
To be truly helpless
When your lover hurts.
I know that I shouldn't
But yes I still cut,
And I wish that you wouldn't
But how can you not?
So yes I am sorry.
And I promise I'll stop
Because I know that you worry,
For the one that you love.
My Masquerade.When I die, Masquerade will live on.My Masquerade.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
He will save me and find out what went wrong.
He has done it before, and he will do it again.
Yes, I've died before, and I can and may die again.
The Siberian white tiger, I have nine lives.
Even though I should have seen through all these lies.
"I would've thought you'd learned by now, but since you haven't yet.
I am the venom in your skin, riding in the blood you bled."
"After the lights go out on you.
After your worthless life is through.
I will remember how you died.
And you shall be revived."
This is his promise to me.
And it is all he can be.
His own saviour, his own protector, one and the same.
But he gives one more promise. "I can never be tamed."
Chains of love broke my heartYet the love hurts usChains of love broke my heart4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Leading to misery
Creates the fear
How can it hurt this much?
Weeping with you. Arms around them
Keeping with you. Feeling their shiver
Flowing with you. Without your men
Drowning with you. Deep in this river
I could not control it
I needed someone
To hold me, take the pain away
I could not stop it
Stop myself destroying it all
Tired and lonely. Sitting and staring
Weak and filthy. No longer caring
Wasting to nothing. The rubble of you
Hoping for something. Poison where love grew
Never love me
My tears not worth it
Never desire me
I am your death
I watch over you
No sorrow. Please, no tears
Goodbye my lover
No-more I betray
I wish someone would stay
Wipe my tears away
Love me forever
Yet too hated
Dark and cold
Never worth it
Holy and fallen. Watch yourself die
Years, and still weeps. Never forgotten
Fade and wither. Long lost the fight
Tremble to sleep. Her man long gone
I long to set this world aflame.I once dreamt of ashes and dragons,I long to set this world aflame.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
as dark ravens loomed over my sleeping form,
planting cadaver kisses along my neck.
Stepping into a river of colors, I contemplated
smoke halos and the unlit cigarette between my teeth.
I asked myself if all of this was worth it-
gasoline rainbows painting landscapes along my thighs.
I'd never smoked a day in my life, but I liked to play with fire.
[Light a match and watch me burn. ]
RelapseIt's better not to count themRelapse3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's better not to think
If you count, they win
And you lose everything
Reopen old ones
Stop the healing process
Tell yourself you're done
But you know you must confess
You lie and self destruct
You feel everything and nothing
You're slowly going numb
And all you want is the sting
So turn off your brain
Close your tired eyes
Embrace all the pain
And say your last good bye
Her Musethese words are not poetryHer Muse3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
swimming liquid fire through ashes
of dead phoenix veins.
no, they are rough and callused
with over use, their own faithless artists
spewing black tar from their lungs
in the hopes to one day breathe again.
nothing moves her.
she would rather scribble her heart out
on physical manifestations of her own reality-
on skin and bones she worships like a temple.
"Write of me," he says, "right here."-
planting sun-stricken kisses
along the hollow of her burning throat.
"I want to be where your heart sleeps."
Mirror HeartsThe ground was a mirrorMirror Hearts3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And we watched each other fall
Neither of us could hear
But we knew the other called
We were both on a cliff
So close to the edge
Our hearts ripped
Neither wanted the other dead
We reached out our hands
Both covered in the others blood
We just couldn't stand
We still had so much left to love
The ground rushed up fast
But it was like the speed of light
We could see into the past
And watched each other fight
A crack started in the ground
And hell screamed for us to come home
That was the only sound
Accept for our hearts painful groan
No, we would survive
We smashed the mirror with our fists
We wanted to be alive
We grabbed each others wrists
I pulled you to safety
You pulled me onto solid ground
You saved me
And your smile was so loud
MonsterWhy can't I stop?Monster4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I know I don't want to
But it's so irresistible
It gnaws at my soul
Telling me to do it
But I gotta stay strong
Can't bow down to the beast
That lives inside me
I mustn't let go
To my will power
Images flash through my mind:
My cold, pale skin
The vibrant, maroon blood
It courses down my wrist
Like a river of sorrow
Releasing itself upon my arm
With it goes my anger
Gone with the swipe of a blade
I mustn't give in
I must stand tall
But I can't
My hand reaches
The cold metal
Feels good in my hand
I hesitate-but I can't
One quick swipe
The crimson liquid starts to pool
Soon my arm is in slices
Like my soul
Look like I'm
Not strong enough
The beast within
Fighting tears.Heartbreaking sadness, it grips you like a madness.Fighting tears.4 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Keep walking, nothing to see here,
Just the thing that made you sad, the thing oh so queer.
You're fighting tears with a straight face,
Keep walking, keep up the pace.
You're hiding out from your own pain,
Because for you and I weakness brings shame.
Just brush it off, it's what we do,
You need someone, I'm here for you.
Don't do anything stupid now,
You think I don't realise you know how?
You say you're on your last legs,
The broken glass in the superglue dregs.
I say they were your only pair,
If they break, I'll grab you a wheelchair.
You say you just don't care about anyone anymore.
I say he isn't worth it, don't drag your feet on the floor.
You say you can never care, never will,
I'm the optimistic one for once, I say you will.
Now stop fighting tears with a straight face,
And come to me for a happy place.
I'll take care of you and cheer you up,
I'll dust you off and pick you up.
And once I've done that, then you'll smile,