Just Another Lonely NightJust Another Lonely Night2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm torn apart
Your games been played
You've won again
Brutality at its finest
A black hole in place
Of what had me whole
Searing pain of death, alive
Tearing another hole
Your bullet hits home
FadingLosing hope in everything,Fading2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Don't care what the future brings.
We're all gonna die anyways,
Why not tomorrow, why not today?
Tell me the reason, my purpose in life,
Tell me, why not suicide?
Give me reasons why I should live,
If I took my life, could you forgive?
I'm sorry, I know you thought I was stronger,
But I told you I can't take it any longer.
You told me these things, I told you I'm not,
I tried, I fought, again I lost.
This battle with myself, I've had enough,
Endured so much, depression's tough.
Battling addiction of self-harm too,
You have no idea what I've gone through.
I wanted to tell you.. So many times I'd tried.
"How are you?" "I'm fine," I lied.
When I tried to speak, the right words wouldn't come out,
'Cause for so many years, I filled my mind with doubt.
I was constantly bringing myself down,
Never really felt like I was wanted around.
When the time is right, my life I'll take.
That'll be the last time I break.
What IfWhat if you had succeeded last yearWhat If2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Took enough to make your world go black
Those three words I would never hear
The friendship we wouldn't have got back
What if I hadn't asked to see you
Had already moved on
Did you want to see me too
Or were you already too far gone
What if you hadn't decided I was important again
I was only a vague memory
Where would we have needed to begin
For you to remember me
What if we hadn't got back together
Would we be better friends
Forget about you, I could never
I don't want this to be the end
Please, Don'tPlease, don'tPlease, Don't2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You don't realize
What will happen if you do
You speak to thousands
But you listen to no one else
Cut that wrist again
What pain you cause me
You scream for help
But you do not accept it
Don't make me
Build you your coffin
I don't want to paint you
With my misery tears
Don't do it
Life has so much more
To offer you
Just give it time
And times a bitch
But happiness will come
And trust me, it's worth the wait
For ThemKind words from friends pierce my heart,For Them1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
"Believe me" they said. Mind and soul torn apart.
"You're beautiful; you're amazing; you're so strong!"
But everything in me tells me they're wrong.
I know they wish that I believed,
Thoughts inside are deceiving me.
I wish I could just shut off my brain,
Slow the anger, slow the pain.
If I died, I know they'd be heartbroken..
Death is always left unspoken.
I'm really trying so hard,
To erase my body that's been scarred.
To recover for them, be made new,
Avoid the bad thoughts, and shine through.
NumbWhat is this feeling?Numb2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't understand.
I want to explain
But I don't think I can.
Is it really true?
Am I turning this numb?
It just can't be!
I must feel some!
Why is this happening?
Why can't I feel?
Is this all just a dream
Or is all of this real?
Someone please tell me.
Please help me feel.
I'm so tired of feeling numb.
I just wanna heal.
The pain, the sorrow,
The joy, the tears.
Yes! I want all of them!
Even all the fears!
I'm so wanting,
Longing to feel again.
This curse is so haunting,
It's like a dead end.
So, if I were you,
Be glad you can feel.
Be thankful you're not numb.
At least you are real.
Keep On ShiningThis truth it has stabbed my heartKeep On Shining1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like a thousand needles slowly making their way
This love has made me fall apart
I'm broken glass, I'm the broken glass of man
The stabs gets harder every day
The needles they come closer to my heart
As I grow it tears me to pieces
I'm tattered cloth, thrown in the litter
As I try to recover and stand straight
I realize how crocked my back has been all this time
I can't walk straight
Cause my guilt and my shame, brings me down
But even thought through all this
I have still small light that shines to me every day
Cause even in my darkest days
It can still make me smile, it always wants me to live
I talk like this is all over
I talk is as I'm soon to die
But the truth is
I'm here to stay, just to watch that small light, every single day
Child...A wash of pain.Child...1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
A silent cry.
You couldn't see the horror
In my eyes.
I sank to my knees,
And tried to breathe deep.
To hide those memories
Of that horrid scene.
Your smile so haunting,
Your innocence so taunting.
That shot of you
Was so alarming.
Child, my dear...
Thought I'd be able to keep you here.
You and i both decided to hide.
And you took the shot.
You were the chosen to die.