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Promises Of TodayPromises Of Today8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Promises Of Today
The sands of time can be unpredictable
But to mold them is impossible
And being let down is typical
I, for one, know what it's like
Having that unrelenting doubt dwell inside
And withstanding all of those tears that aren't dried
With that said
I want to help you, my dear friend
For the hope of happiness is within the reach of your hands
-
I need to apologize for not always being there
It's because I have my own slate
But now I'm finally here
I'm sorry I'm late
I've been where you are
I've seen what you've seen
And I was able to break through the dark
But I'll go back for you, just to help you believe
That
A Dying RainbowA Dying Rainbow9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Dying Rainbow
I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened
My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break
I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S
Era Of SilenceEra Of Silence8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Era Of Silence
Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp
Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know
So I no longer speak for myself
No, not anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My pure torture
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I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do
A Voice In The WindA Voice In The Wind9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Voice In The Wind
I can only think of how much I miss you
The pieces of me fall
The time without you stalls
On the inside I know it's wrong
But you're still with me as I carry on
As I try and search for where my heart belongs
I can only remember of how much I loved you
I don't know what I did wrong
I'm so sorry for whatever I've done
Not knowing if I remain unforgiven
I still whisper apologies to try and make a difference
Because I can't take anymore of this lovesick conscience
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I will always be lost in this storm
As it forever rages on inside of me
Because all I can do now is mourn
While this story becomes a tragedy
Winc
Aura: The RadianceAura: The Radiance10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Aura: The Radiance
I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering
I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall
I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone
I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death
To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope
Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me hig
The Road Of YesterdayThe Road Of Yesterday1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Road Of Yesterday
These closed eyes have wept
Over all of the pain I've kept
Knowing I will always be far from perfect
I don't know why I was abandoned or where my hope went
I'm tired, I'm just too tired
A moment of peace is what I now desire
Too long have I searched, too long have I suffered
I'm so ready to collapse
These feel
Ashes Of TomorrowAshes Of Tomorrow8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Ashes Of Tomorrow
I can destroy what I create
If I really, and truly wanted to
I can light these feelings ablaze
If I didn't want anymore support from you
I barely stop myself time and time again
I realize there's a sense of cruelty in all of us
It's just that feeling, everything might be in vain
When tempted at breaking down those barriers of trust
To jeopardize all of the triumphs
I want to be the one who is blamed
The fire will reach the sky, and become my guidance
I want to be swallowed by my own inner, selfish flames
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I sit behind the scenes of my friendships
Alone, with a fake smile on my face
That old feeling of lonel
No More TherapyNo More Therapy9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
No More Therapy
Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here
Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done
Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision
Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
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I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything
Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind
Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy
Sobriety's RiseSobriety's Rise6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sobriety's Rise
I exiled you from my veins
You will never affect me again
Take with you the very worst of me
I will no longer be a part of thee!
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Too long have my eyes been closed
So many years have passed in vain
I couldn't let the road ahead get any worse
I'm no longer a victim of your taint
I dwell no more- in those old woes
Though I regret the pain I allowed myself to sustain
Mirrors don't snare / Family doesn't glare
This hope I bear / I've made it here
Cleansed my spirit away / Allowed scars to fade
Embraced the change / Unlocked the cage
My dreams no longer weep
The nightmares refuse to reimmerse
I can move forward if I really
In The SnowfallIn The Snowfall4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
In The Snowfall
I remember it
As if it was just last night
Our surroundings were lit
Illuminated by the surfaces covered in white
The way you smiled
It gave me comfort inside
And my heart seemed to be veiled
Knowing you have become a part of my life
-
Step by step
I stopped blinking
As we tread
I ceased breathing
Chills were sent
Our hands touching
Our lips met
Gazing at you is a must
You curiously peered up
As snowflakes danced down towards us
And it dawned on me that I was madly in love
Mesmerizing my soul
Spreading a calming warmth
Into my core
I held you in my arms
I felt whole
Connected our hearts
Alone
Our Numb TearsOur Numb Tears8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Our Numb Tears
Something deep within me / Is longing for relief
A haunting aura around me / Reminding me of the grief
Scratching at the core of my soul / Hope is swallowed by a black hole
Locked in the center of my heart / All that is left is the traumatized part
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Laugh, smile, blink, and focus. You just need to act as normal as possible.
You cannot let this pain get the best of you. Don't do anything irresponsible.
The damage you do to yourself also effects everyone else, so don't let it become irreversible.
You'r
A Moment Of LoveA Moment Of Love10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Moment Of Love
This is a perfect chance of weakness to finally tell you that this isn't just a crush
It's not all about lust; I've always wanted to confess to you that I care about you so much
I apologize for being hesitant all of the time; it's just very hard to say you're my one true love
I yearned to say it out loud, but the words couldn't escape my mouth, that's what my fear does
I tried to say it to you in every lucid dream, that's how strong these feelings are
And I found myself waking up to tears of joy, because a true sense of hope is in my heart
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I want to win you over
And I will never give up
Because you make the dark b
The Unseen LifeThe Unseen Life8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Unseen Life
I thought pain was created to fade
But it seems like my life was crafted to break
So I apologize to the mirror and say "I'm sorry, it's too late."
I can't even look at my own face, as I can never accept my mistakes
I realize that I am brokenly made
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My mind bleeds away the memories I've wasted
Remorse begins to slowly fill in the gaps that are left
This stained razor blade leaves every dark moment perfectly divided
I try not to indulge in act of prayer, because I refuse to ever confess
Even in death I will never rest
-
All visible colors descend into the ground
And time drifts off to sleep
Every sharp outline a
I'm So Far Away From HopeI'm So Far Away From Hope8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm So Far Away From Hope
Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different
Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing
I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
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I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew
In The DistanceIn The Distance9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
In The Distance
I've realized that nothing never really ends
Because it's just the beginning of the emptiness
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I want to take back my actions / I want to give you reasons
I said all of the words I've needed
To you
And to the mirror
I wish those were silent confessions / I wish none of this had happened
I finally let out all of those feelings I hid
For you
Beneath my surface
They're just emotions from a fallen / Because without you I'm nothing
I meant every single tear I cried
With you
My one true purpose
I'm feeling so forsaken and faithless / To my world you're everything
I couldn't hold on as I slowly let go of my grip
Of
Shadow SunShadow Sun8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Shadow Sun
And in that very moment, I knew it was already too late
My vision has adjusted
The memories of my former life all just slipped away
My light has faded
The last of the fallen sparks fluttered in the distance
My hope has been obliterated
The shadows rose to claim their long awaited radiance
My destiny was always fated
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In my heart, I lost it all
To this very second, it's still my fa
I'm Almost ThereI'm Almost There7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm Almost There
Strung out
But sober
Drunk with rage
Broken down
The oppressor
Altered by pain
They say...
They say...
They say the prison is here to save us!
To cage...
To cage...
To cage up the thoughts that are dangerous!
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Weeping for the hollowed
Can't live through tomorrow
My pride I swallowed
And I put on cold smile
My choice is my own
An addiction to being hurt
I want help, but I don't
I wanna change, but I won't
I have too many dark secrets
Flowing in my veins of concrete
This is what they've done to me
The product I like to call "a perfect tragedy."
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Blank stare
Too peaceful
Syncing with blame
A mirror
So pitiful
Soon to
Flawed SalvationFlawed Salvation7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Flawed Salvation
/Liquid fire\
Sorrow melts and reforms
As heat seeps through my skin
/Frozen water\
Reflections of my childhood are torn
As frost settles on me once again
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Restless echoes ramble on
Retelling me the stories of yesterday
I remember when my courage was withdrawn
"And you left yourself vulnerable to those crimes of hate."
The liquidsparks flicker
And I wince at that one memory
Then my inner voice suddenly stutters
"I don't know h-how you survived such t-treachery."
Snowflakes descend gracefully
As a cold-burning tear rolls down
I will never know real serenity
"Because all I will ever have is my own."
-
/Br
Plead For ReleasePlead For Release9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Plead For Release
God, I hope I'm doing this right
I was never really one for praying
God, Please look at me in my eyes
I'm sorry, I'm just so sorry for everything
Even though I'm just another one of your creations
I wonder why I was born surrounded by destruction
I know nothing of your pity
But I still want to try and believe in thee
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I crumble down to my knees
And I beg of you, please
Destroy every nightmare that I have ever slept
Break and shatter every mirror in existence
So I don't have to dream of what I've become to be
So I don't have to see what has finally become of me
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God, I was never really one for confrontatio
Alcohol Fueled WordsAlcohol Fueled Words11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Alcohol Fueled Words
Blame can go a long ways
When the problems stay intact
Guilt always refuses to fade
After another hurtful attack
Regret has an unquenchable thirst
While voices are thrown every direction
Rage is tightly bottled up until the next outburst
Though the tears dry, the reasons for them won't be easily forgiven
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You bring out those secret, false words I don't even mean
You push me over the edge, and get rid of my sense of controllability
You expose hidden feelings that are supposed to be locked deep within me
You pull me into a downward spiral, to release my brutality
You choose innocent targets to go for, but y
Becoming UnjudgedBecoming Unjudged5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Becoming Unjudged
Hypocrisy
Devoured beliefs
And engulfed society
It's hard to believe
Some of us still have our humanity
But there are those who still cannot see
The damaged moralities
That was bestowed from corrupted creed
You don't know the heavy burden that each of us carries
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Growing up
As gray as gray can be
Told that the way I am is wrong
I was taught to fear the real me!
Learning to hate differentiality
Hearing whispers all around
I despised my own identity
Things need to change now!
Some of us don't even make it that far / It's not what you do- but who you are
None of us should ever live in the dark / There will
Fixing YouFixing You9 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A broken heart
made of glass and crystal
turned to stone
a perfect frame
yet so fragile
like porcelain
but perfection
doesn't matter
with no heart
but I will mend you
my little broken doll
so sweet yet so faint
I will hold your heart
in my hands
so delicately
I shall mend it
with a fine needle
and smooth thread
I have the technology
to cure you
to fix you
you little girl
with a porcelain face
I will fix you
But these cracks
so deep and long
have become so cold
so dead and still
after so long
of feeling lost and unloved
little lost cause
I want to see you
differently
but it has become so hard
so painful to try
My Unbroken HeroMy Unbroken Hero10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Unbroken Hero
I didn't want you to stoop so low
Though your gentle grip was amazingly tight
I thought you were eventually going to let me go
But I finally realized you were holding on to me for dear life
My gratitude does not out-weigh my guilt
For I don't know what it's like to remain strong
Every time I try and stand up I always need to be held
So I know a person cannot keep that tough-act up for long
I wish the tables can soon be turned / my hidden courage needs to be found
The hope you gave me will be returned / to stop your tears from hitting the ground
I know your smiles are forced sometimes / you always have to watch your
Behind Hollowed EyesBehind Hollowed Eyes6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Behind Hollowed Eyes
Day after day
I tried continuing on to live this way
With damaged veins made of concrete
I am the undone suicide that was kept a secret
But I can no longer exist
Inside of this pretentious skin
There is a past that I wish I didn't remember
There is a future that just looks too painful
There is nothing you can say or do that'll help
Because there is no turning back now
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I drag everything down with my endless lies
I smother the remnants of hope until it dies
I win the battles, I win the wars, and I win every fight
I am a maelstrom of deceit
I am a darkness that you cannot defeat
I am the awaiting fate of this pathet
Sta.sh
