A Maker's ThoughtsA Maker's Thoughts2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How do you tell those you love the most
That you truly want to die?
That you've lost the will the live
Lost the will to even try
I was uncertain of these thoughts at first
When they slowly began to rise
Was I merely going through elder crisis?
Were they merely wicked lies?
Or did I truly yearn for a permanent slumber?
To finally rest my ancient head
Was my desire to greet the burning dawn
Truly what I craved, for the light to be my bed?
When I think on it I have decided
All I have I care not for
Save for the safety of the one I cannot release
This lethal beauty for whom my heart is tore
Not wanting to lose my first turned child
I should have let him go so very long ago
Should have granted him the gift of freedom
But a father's pride refused to let him go
And now the love I have from him
Had nearly taken him from me
Placed in danger, not once but twice
All by my doing, too blind was I too see
Now it's all too late, I've made serious mistakes
I swore I would make amends
At this late in t