hey boy, I'm bleeding without youI guess you could say I've been infatuated with death,hey boy, I'm bleeding without you3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but I'm even more consumed by you
in the deadliest way possible.
Ghost StoryWhat is thisGhost Story3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
on the next horizon
holding strong against the wind,
it is a figment,
it is an oil stain,
it is something
less than a blur
and more than a photograph.
frozen/headlightsI am nervousfrozen/headlights3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
impressed to the point of
perhaps I am playing the part of
a girlchild, reincarnated from something striped
hands-shaking, violin bones (high-
perhaps it is/has been/will be
is it cliché to make comparisons to
an envelope delivered with a
white settling of
your smile tangles with the
half-poetry you breathe out instinctively, sharp and
you are surprising like
frostbite. the soft teeth of morning
freeze; and I, dull, wordless,
naive and lightning-struck
I am nervous
CatalystAnd we drawCatalyst3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In a thousand shades
Of red ink
But you, my dear,
Are color blind.
short-term memory.and you'll never forget:short-term memory.3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
When you realized that everybody dies alone.
When you didn't take your eyeliner off one night, so in the morning
your eyes would look as hollow as you felt.
When you spent a year blacking out the sad endings in your books.
(When you wished that life could also work like that.)
When you learnt that "We need a break" means "I am going to break your heart."
When you fell in love with the stars, and the way he says "us."
When he told you, "More than just a long time."
The first time you hung up to the sound of your father laughing.
When you walked home from a party in January, and couldn't remember
if you were still breathing.
When you begged him to let you be sad, and he smiled and said, "No."
When you saw the irony of drawing trees on paper – and how alive you've felt
after being sure you were dead.
Shake It OffSelective collectiveShake It Off3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
- coagulating -
regret accumulating against you.
Re - living it was the easy part.
No way. There was no light.
the glow of a ghost.
- heart murmurs -
I paused to savor the expansion of blood in my arteries.
A declaration of demons
- monstrosity -
But honestly, I was just like them. I just wanted my pound of flesh.
upsmokewhen thinking of youupsmoke3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i like a smoke or six
drive a poisonstick
deep into my lungs
rot might reach my brain
erase our wheezing laughs
nights of nicotine haze
smog mixing with sweat
you're fumes of a cig
wispy, wonderful whirls
absorbed into corners
never to be seen again
smelling of burnt skin
i'm pulled from nostalgia
and light another match
SnowLet's lose our faces tonightSnow3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Chemical anxiety and paper highs
Thrown to the curb by something stronger, small and white
While stars burn out their insides; Prometheus in the sky.
I always thought you were a lie:
Stinking pop culture curling bright around my eye
But now I wonder if your treasure is something I could find
Leaping from the bass lines into my frenzied, eager mind.
helium balloon lungsi. You write me notes scribbled on sandpaperhelium balloon lungs3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and I run them across my face,
scraping away layers of saccharine skin,
ii. Your eyes, made of cookie crumbs,
I'd like to dip them in milk
and watch them melt,
smoking like dry ice,
iii. You churn my childish heart
in circles and in circles
till I slip into cardiac arrest,
iv. I just remembered that time you
wrapped your arms around me like vines
and held me until you couldn't,
v. Oh what I'd give for a pair of
fortune cookie lungs,
exhaling self-fulfilling prophecy,
vi. I've been fishing for horoscopes,
pasting them onto my bedroom walls
and on the backside of my skin,
hoping that they tell me that
today is the day you will be mine,
vii. But your soul is made up of sins
and I do believe in forgiveness,
but forgive me, for I cannot forget.
Tenderi amTender3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
a taxidermy fawn,
existing yet comatose,
my soul flickers within a lantern,
releasing a smoke with the scent of
pheromones and vanilla verbena,
but your necromantic whispers
linger in my ears,
so sweet and succulent as peaches,
give me breath,
filling my lungs upon a full moon,
oh i'd so like to take a bite of you,
you and your jungle bred lips,
tropical to taste,
organic to kiss,
jaguar, leopard spots
cover your skin
in patterns painted by the forest,
then a low, throaty growl
slips from your jaw,
haunting me like a past mistake,
but you are wild bamboo
and the sound of my heart beating,
palpitating against soft winters,
pulsing with the rhythm of summer,
for some reason you suit me
in all seasons,
and like gravity
you hold me
so no, i cannot escape you,
for no one can bypass
an autumnal equinox
or an eclipse of the sun,
you only continue to
kindle the flames
you used my wooden ribs to make
and i truly love
that searing sensation in my gut,
Things That You Should KnowI tried to tell you:Things That You Should Know4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You are air and you are glitter
You are smiles
But you shook away the magic
You are cells and I am cells and nothing lasts forever
Maybe I am cells but you are stardust, you are music, you are midnight
Because I know
You have to be made of
Than the diagrams in my textbook
One Kiss From HimIt seems one kiss from him was all it took,One Kiss From Him4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
the glass facade has splintered, leaving
spiders webs distorting her appearance,
like some worn out, battered cover of a book.
So now she finds it hard to catch his eye.
Perhaps it's for the best; their feelings
never had the lift to leave the surface,
of a freezing ground that sapped their will to fly.
One ThingIn my dream I can embrace youOne Thing5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Pull you so close
That somewhere between the tangled fabric
Breaths breathing breaths
We become one thing
We are one pulse
In a body that smells faintly of smoked cigarettes and cedar dust
In this dream
We never let go of each other
Never nervously put our hands in our pockets
And walk our separate ways
We stay there
Secure in knowing that we are part of each other
When I wake up
I am left with fragments
A broken glass
Even when all the pieces are collected
It is not whole
And for a time
Little fragments show up embedded in the strangest places
The memory of a blue recliner
Your leather jacket
My blond hair
And only a faint sense of understanding
Which I can not grasp
Thin lineWorry fills my heartThin line4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And tears at my sanity
Making sure to keep me in line
making sure I don't forget my last mistakes
Everyday my sanity loosens
Every day I live in fear
that I will soon fall
Off the thin line I now walk
Every little thing must be perfect
Every word thought through
Every choice made correctly
Otherwise I could lose the balance
Just one mistake
No matter how small
Could send me reeling
And falling so far
I can't fall again
I can't lose again
I couldn't take the pain of another fall
Couldn't take another loss
For now I still walk the thin line
The line between love and hate
For now I keep my balance
But how long till I make my last mistake?
The Eraser.It rubs against the page,The Eraser.6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sweeping away the words,
Slowly, the paper wears thin,
And the words no longer fade,
As the eraser disappears,
The blackened words remain,
Unable to be removed.
Hell's AngelAll I need is an angel from hell,Hell's Angel3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She's the only beauty who can control my desire,
When she breaks the ice and kisses me with fire.
I've been asleep for so long when I return to life,
The cherubim of heaven will hear my soul yell.
All I need is an angel from hell,
She'll be my fair lady who will purge my regret,
When she calms the thunder with tears she wept.
I've been lost for all time but now I have no strife,
The seraphim of heaven will ring out an immortal bell.
All I need is an angel from hell,
She can do no wrong when all I see is her honesty,
When she slays the wind in those skies of piety.
I've been alone for an eternity now she's my wife,
The children of heaven will curse us: We of minds so fell.
Epiphany"For those who don't know me very well, I have self esteem issues. My depression might play a role in that, but I know that I've felt this way for way too long. I've felt like shit because I always place myself on an imaginary scale, compare myself to others, and only to find out I fall short of the standard. I use to do it to keep myself from getting big headed. Growing to a point where instead of keeping me in check, it has now tore my self esteem to shreds.Epiphany4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I feel horrible about myself. I've spent years weaving up tales and excuses to show people how worthless I am. Maybe it was a way to show them that I'm not that great. (I guess I have a fear of pedestals.)
Either way, I realized how stupid of me it was to do that.
Sure, I have PLENTY of flaws to go around. I know I'm not perfect. All I know is that I'm the perfect kind of human being because I realize all my flaws and screw ups. I know not to expect too much of myself, but I shouldn't look at myself in a degrading way . It
You Love Me?You tell me that you love me,You Love Me?3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Do you know what that means,
I'm worried you don't understand
The feelings that this brings,
How do I know if you mean
The same thing that I do,
When I tell you that I love you,
It doesn't just mean I'll be true,
It means that I'll be by your side,
Though storms will come and go,
And that there is a place for you,
My heart will always know,
It means that we're connected,
Both in my heart and soul,
And that I am committed,
Wherever you go I'll follow,
This is a place where few may tread,
The way you've been invited,
The only way to end my love,
Is you wish we were departed,
I do not wish to frighten you,
I hope you understand,
I need to make sure you know the truth,
And that this is who I am,
I accept you for all you are,
Even those things I do not know,
It's not your past I'm in love with,
And I hope this love can grow,
If you don't feel the same way,
I can truly understand,
If you need time I've got that,
And I'll give you all I have,
I just want to be cl
By UnknownHer hair was up in a ponytailBy Unknown4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Her favorite dress tied with a bow
Today was Daddy's Day at school
And she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her,
That she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
If she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid;
She knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
Of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried,
For her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
She tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school,
Eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees,
A dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back,
For everyone to meet
Children squirming impatently,
Anxious in their seats.
One by one the teacher called,
Each student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
As seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name,
Every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
For a man who wasn't there.
"Where's her daddy at?"
She heard a boy
Trapped in a RhymeMy little box of empty dreams is filling up too fastTrapped in a Rhyme4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The more I put away for later
The less this feeling lasts
My story is but naught at all
From the world so swift
I collapse into the fall
Searching for that upper-lift
I wish I knew the color-scheme for a tale of gold
You think the answer wouldn't be
quite so very bold
My eye will twitch as I swallow down
the pills that stifle me
I don't make a sound
but I've yet to be let free
Look"Look at me."Look4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The mirror says with my back turned.
"Look at me."
And see what? A fat, disgusting, ugly girl?
"Look at me."
I haven't looked at myself in months.
"Look at me."
Ashamed of who stares back.
"Look at me."
That was long ago..
"Look at me."
"What do you see?"
So AloneTis the season of the gray,So Alone4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
More boreal than wintertide,
While fireplaces can warm my palms,
Can their embers thaw my soul?
Can they bring back a blithe memory?
Or a recollection of a long lost heyday,
Solicitously saved, oh so cautiously cached,
So I may call upon it on at a pluvial time,
And as I concede to this immedicable disease,
It is curious, to be cheered by one's own enemies,
The jarring repercussion of this heinous malady,
Make my rivals too afflicted to make me bleed,
Make me a shadow, a phantasm, a sprite,
Oh make me an onyx blot in the umbral night,
Let me be torn from the binding pages of history,
And forgotten by the wrinkled brow of time,
For a life without companions, consorts and crones,
Is but death, deprived of its placidity,
It is a laggard descent, I am going insane,
When I long for love just as I long for pain,
But I endure the lack of desire and despair,
And continue with my poverty of amour and zeal,
Whilst my frenzied heart beats,
But I, try as I may, cannot f
Silent DreamsIn the deepest slumber, in the dark of nightSilent Dreams4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Through my window, gleaming moonlight
While I sleep it's you I see
In silent dreams, you come to me
Kiss my lips, so soft and sweet
Feel my heart begin to beat
Been cold and empty for so long
Now pumping with love so pure and strong
You speak to me in alluring tones
Sends shivers deep down into my bones
Tender words from your lips do part
Singing the melody of my heart
You heal every single wound
Soothe my soul with your heartfelt tune
My angel from the heavens above
Despite our differences, it's you I love
So take my hand and hold it tight
Hold me close all through the night
I have nothing left to fear
As long as I'm with you, my dear